Me, What It Is

CHAPTER 5 ~ Alone Again ~

"Enough college today. Papers that I assigned last week please collect through the class chairman" said the lecturer ended his lecture.

Hasbi was standing in front of the class, the student was in line to give up his duties and immediately left the class.

"This is Bi, thank you" said one student.

"Ok" replied Hasbi briefly.

"Thank's Bi" said another student.

"Yo" said Hasbi while tidying up the papers that began to accumulate.

Alika submitted her paper to Hasbi. Hasbi smiled accept and then put together with the papers piled up in his hands. The man looks troubled due to papers that are starting to pile up high. Alika takes some and helps her tidy up at the table.

"Thank you dear Hasbi" said a female student, Hasbi gave her thumbs up.

Alika just shook her head while smiling.

"Here, Bi, thank you" said Reana shaking softly.

Hasbi picked up Reana's paper without looking at it. Hasbi tidied up the papers with her face bent, pretending not to hear Reana's words. The girl flipped over and left with a gloomy face. Alika was astonished to see Hasbi's indifferent attitude.

"Bi, what's wrong with you?" ask Alika.

"What am I?" reply Hasbi.

"Reana's? you didn't reply to Reana" Alika asked again.

"Must first?" answer a brief Hasbi.

"He just learned to talk Bi" continued Alika while displaying a look of wonder.

Hasbi laughed cynically while looking at Alika.

"He's a kid, just learning to talk" Hasbi replied.

"You know what I mean, you have to appreciate the effort to say something. Otherwise, he will be silent again Bi" said Alika gave advice.

Hasbi was silent, imagined the events he saw accidentally yesterday. What he saw made his mood uncomfortable. Every time I saw Reana, Hasbi made a scene again yesterday.

Hasbi doesn't like what she sees because she prefers to shy away from Reana. Alika who did not know what happened, was surprised to see the change in Hasbi's attitude.

Because the lecture was canceled Alika soon home, she chose to accompany her mommy to the airport to pick up the new daddy coming home from Singapore. Until he did not know the shocking incident yesterday.

Hasbi and Alika shared a pile of papers, both of them stepping towards the Secretariat. Hasbi was deep in thought, what she saw yesterday made her feelings still not careless. Alika could only look in wonder at Hasbi's change of attitude without daring to ask.

"Pure"

Hearing someone say something, Reana turned to look for the origin of the voice. Some of the female students were gathered looking at her with a cynical look then turned their faces arrogantly after Reana turned towards them.

"Basic shameless"

"Stricks"

"Not knowing yourself"

Such words are often heard these days. Until Reana believes the remark was addressed to her. Reana's eyes warmed, her tears welled up but she held him back. He tried not to cry, trying to ignore whatever he heard.

Why did the class do that? from that moment on she was not seen again, to apologize or explain something, Reana's inner self.

Hasbi, Alika, I'll lose them soon. They will no longer be friends with me. But from the beginning I was alone. They came and I accepted, I was happy to be by their side. I am appreciated, I am considered to exist. But now that they're gone, I'm alone again, Reana screams.

Reana stopped on the sidewalk. She shed the tears she had been holding back since.

In a moment, they were with me for a moment. I'm not ready, not ready to lose them. Hasbi's attitude has changed, Alika will be like that, cried Reana.

The girl's tears melted while looking down with blank eyes. Waiting for the bus that will take him to the restaurant where he works. Daily routine, college and work.

Sitting at a stop waiting alone is something that college students don't do because they have a vehicle that takes them wherever they want, unlike Reana who has nothing.

"Reana, you have not eaten, eat later you will get sick" said Ms. Shinta worried.

Today Reana did not have lunch with the restaurant employees. Usually, when lunch is over, the restaurant will be quiet and restaurant employees have the opportunity to have lunch together.

But this time Reana didn't participate. He chose to keep himself busy with work. He did not want others to see his sadness. After what he went through on campus made the girl's mood bad, her face always looked moody and dreamy. Reana does not want restaurant employees to be surprised and worried about her attitude.

Busying yourself with work can be a little forget about the problem. He even does work that is not his job. Gunawan, the Restaurant Manager, could not stop him.

Two days passed after that. Reana hopes it will all be over, hoping everyone will forget it, not caring about it. Reana hoped people wouldn't see it. He will live as before, alone again.

But what's going on? the girl actually got insults, rude remarks, condescending eyes.

Reana felt that everyone was looking at her contemptibly, cheaply. With a sense of shame that never goes away, Reana goes through tough days that make her depressed.

"Reana" calls Alika when Reana's new to her class.

Alika scolds me, Alika still wants to talk to me, whispered Reana.

Reana is shocked to not understand what Alika means, the girl shows her phone to Reana. Everyone looked at him, Hasbi who was sitting did not care about him. He was busy reading books.

Reana was amazed to see some video posts on Alika's phone. The incident was spread on various social media and moreover the caption listed really made Reana stunned.

'BY VIRAL A STUDENT COMMITS INDECENT ACTS IN FRONT OF A CROWD'

'COSTING BEHAVIOR SMEARS THE UNIVERSITY'S GOOD NAME'

Many more video posts from various directions with captions that corner them. Reana could no longer stare, her tears clouding her eyes.

Reana ran out of class, but didn't know where she was going. Hasbi who was so sick of throwing her book after Reana. Hasbi regretted that she should not have ignored Reana however much she did not like the incident.

Reana went into the toilet, crying.

The hope is that today will return to normal as before, extinct just like that. Even the incident is getting more and more spread. Reana cried sobbing alone, she faced all this alone.

Hasbi got to the toilet door but she stopped, she couldn't break into the girls' room. Alika who followed immediately entered and persuaded Reana.

"Re, let's go out, let's talk Re"

Reana could not ease her crying. His heart was crumpled, his chest was like a stab. Reana even patted her chest many times to relieve the pain. Reana felt like she could not breathe.

"Re, we're here for you" Alika persuaded.

"Go Al, don't mind me" said Reana softly.

Finally the girl spoke on the sidelines of her crying. It seems Reana does not want to care about Alika, but Reana does not want to make Alika worry.

"We're not going to go Re. We will be here waiting for you" said Alika firmly.

Almost an hour Reana in the toilet, the girl tried to calm her heart, she also did not want to bother Alika and Hasbi. But her tears did not stop. They stood waiting for Reana to meet them.

Elsewhere, Ardi presses the bell of Nico's apartment many times. But Nico didn't open the door. Ardi started banging on the door and yelling.

"Nic, we know you're inside, open the door" Ardi shouted impatiently.

Nico covered his face with a pillow on the sofa. Ardi, Dito and Rommy are worried about the condition of their friends. Since that incident, it has been three days that Nico has not been seen to campus. Where else did Nico go? that's why they believe Nico is hiding in his apartment.

"Nic, open the door we want to talk" it was Dito's turn to open the sound.

Nico ignored the screams of his friends, he increasingly added pillows to cover his face.

"Reana in the bully" said Rommy briefly.

Nico was shocked, suddenly threw a pillow that covered his face and immediately sat down.

"Yes, Reana's kasian, all because.." Ardi could not finish his words Nico had appeared at the door.

Ardi, Dito and Rommy go straight into Nico's apartment. They were shocked to see the condition of the apartment like a broken ship. Boxes of food containers were lying everywhere, the room was as messy as an earthquake. They believe Nico must also have kicked out the aunt who used to be in charge of cleaning her apartment.

"What did loe say?" nico told his friends.

Ardi gives her phone and tells Nico to look at herself.

"You spread it?" accuse Nico in a high tone.

"Well Nic, who really is, are we such people?" ardi said not to be accepted at the accusation.

"We tried to call you, but never lifted, even now your phone is not active" said Dito annoyed.

"Reana was in the bully from that day on, she tried to hold on and relented. The girl just kept quiet every time she was bullied, but that didn't stop them from bothering her" Ardi told her at length.

"Who did this?" ask Nico riled.

"The position is near the canteen, there are many people there, anyone can record and spread it" Dito said.

"What a job they have, all this because of you" cried Nico.

"Well, why are we wronged? who told you that Loe nyium Reana?" yelled Dito no less loudly.

They seem to have lost their patience. Ardi hurriedly calmed Dito down. While Rommy pulls Nico to sit on the couch. Nico rubbed his face rough, he didn't expect it to be like this.

"Nic, loe it's not an ordinary guy, everybody's watching the loe acts. The people who spread the video must be the ones who are jealous because you kiss Reana." explained Rommy at length.

"I think it must have been Rebecca and her members" Ardi said.

"If it were Rebecca's loe nyium, it probably wouldn't have been like this " explained Rommy.

"Why did you suddenly change your mind? the idea was Rebecca?" said Ardi astonished.

Ardi said that so that Nico would also stop blaming them. Nico was silent, he himself could not answer. He could only rub his face many times.

Dito was curious because he did not get an answer, he wanted to ask again. But Rommy gave her friends a code to be quiet. He didn't want them to press Nico more.

...~ Connect ~...