Me, What It Is
CHAPTER 27 ~ Back As It Used to be ~
After regaining her boarding room, Reana decides to inform Nico about her move. The girl was happy to be able to return to the room that had been so fused with her.
In addition to the mother who is very good at her boarding house, the atmosphere of a very strong family between fellow residents of the boarding house makes no other place as comfortable and warm as the boarding house.
After making sure Rebecca returned her room with a cheerful spirit and heart, Reana looked for Nico who might have finished her thesis guidance. The girl was stunned when she saw Nico who was already sitting quietly waiting for her.
The girl looked at Nico who was just sitting down on me. His eyes were empty, silent. Not knowing what she was thinking, Reana walked slowly closer.
"Sir, been here long?" tanya Reana was made cheerful trying to behave appropriately.
Nico only glanced for a moment then stood up to step into the parking lot. Reana followed from behind, there was a different feeling to Nico's behavior. But the girl just followed without daring to ask.
Why is Nico like this, is he angry ? does he know that I'm secretly leaving campus ? ask Reana in my heart.
Nico got into his car, without opening the door for Reana. Things he never did before. And it made Reana feel like something was going on. The girl opened the car door herself and sat down next to Nico.
The girl's eyes glanced at Nico who was still silent. The man immediately gasped before Reana even finished fitting his safety belt. Reana is determined to ask Nico when she gets to the apartment later.
Could Nico know that I'm going to move soon ? is that why he feels angry ? inner Reana wondered.
The girl only dared to glance at Nico without daring to make a sound. And the ride goes on in silence, while Nico only looks busy driving.
Arriving at the parking lot of the apartment back Nico left just like that, without opening the car door for Reana as he used to do.
Reana goes into the apartment whose door is left open. Reana looked at Nico who picked up a soft drink in her refrigerator. Sipping the drink at once was like a very thirsty person. Reana came over.
"Sister, today I will go back to my old boarding house, because. "Reana's speech was interrupted because Nico left just like that leaving her sitting on the living room sofa while turning on the LED TV.
"Sir" said Reana still want to continue the conversation.
But Nico throws the remote control and goes into the room. Reana follows, whether she likes or dislikes the girl should talk to Nico now.
"Sister, I'm sorry if I'm wrong but please, say something" Reana said confused by Nico's disregard.
"What do you want to hear ?
What do you want me to say?
Thank you for caring about me? Thank you for praying for me to be happy with Rebecca ?
Do I look so pathetic to you ? You think I'm the one who can't fight for my own happiness ?
So you have to decide who I'm going to be happy with ?" nico's questions rained down on Reana.
Reana was stunned, the girl just realized the cause of Nico's strange attitude from earlier, the man was offended to hear his conversation with Rebecca.
"I don't mean sister" said Reana softly, her eyes glazed over.
"Then what ?
You've insulted me with that thought of yours, do you know ?
If you don't like me around you, just say it frankly" shouted Nico looking straight into Reana's eyes.
Unwittingly the girl shed tears, the girl did not expect her words to Rebecca to make Nico's heart hurt.
"You were received again at your old boarding house ?
You want to leave immediately ?
GO !!!
No one bans you, don't be so big-headed as if I'm holding you here" shouted Nico grabbing back the remote control and pressing the buttons carelessly, his breath hunting out of emotion.
Reana looked at Nico who showed an annoyed face, the girl really did not expect Nico to hear her talk with Rebecca. Reana realizes Nico misunderstood the meaning of his words. But the girl didn't know how to explain it.
Reana stepped slowly collecting all her belongings. Put one by one into his travel bag.
Brother Nico was offended by my words, what should I do ? thought Reana while collecting her things.
Reana looked around the room that had graced her life in recent days. The girl's tears flowed, she did not expect her departure to leave the apartment, ending in this way.
It was just a moment after Reana stated that he wanted to defend Nico. Reana felt that God did not approve of her wishes.
Is it all going to end just like that ? after this, does Brother Nico still want to know me ? are we going to live life without knowing each other ? am I willing to ?
Reana's tears drip down the glass table, where Reana's lecture schedule is tucked away. The girl immediately wiped her tears.
Then took out the dress and shoes that Nico had given, as well as the man's mobile phone. Not to forget Reana took off the necklace that Nico had just gifted her.
The girl exited the room carrying a travel bag containing her clothes and books. Nico was still silently staring, the girl approached wanting to say goodbye. But Nico's straight-forward gaze seemed to give the impression Nico did not care about anything Reana did.
"I say thank you for everything" that's all that came out of Reana's mouth.
The girl left the apartment. The only person walking out of the luxury building is probably Reana.
Trained to walk with a backpack on the back and a ravel bag in the tent at a glance Reana stopped stepping and stared at the multi-storey building. Maybe this was the last time Reana stared at the building.
Slowly the girl walked out of the elite apartment area where she lived in recent days. His eyes stared at the blurry sidewalk he was passing by, intermittently the girl wiped away his tears.
What do I regret, parting in this way ? Wouldn't this be better, I would go back to my real life, without dreams and delusions that are too high ?
Reana stopped her steps, her chest felt tight not because of the weight of her innate burden but her chest that suddenly felt like being pressed, sore, like being squeezed by a very heavy load.
The girl let out her cries out loudly hoping that the burden that stifled her chest was free. Hoping for the pain to go away as her cries broke out on the silent streets. Despite shaking her head with all her might, the girl was unable to shake the shadow of Nico's anger.
Remembering all her kindness, her tenderness, her affection and the care she had been pouring out on Reana. And now, all of a sudden it has to be let go.
I have to forget it, I have to be able to forget it, Reana screamed.
While Nico who from earlier was just sculpting, suddenly ran towards the room and found the items he had given to Reana, neatly arranged on a glass table.
Shit, Nico screams while picking up Reana's phone and necklace.
Drive his sports car trying to chase Reana. Until finally the man saw the girl who walked slowly trained. The girl stopped to wipe her tears.
Nico stops his car, picks up Reana's cell phone and necklace, running in front of the girl. Grabbing Reana's hand and putting her phone and necklace on the girl's palm.
"You think I'd wear your old stuff. If you don't like to throw it away, don't leave anything in my apartment" Nico said about to get back to his car, but his steps stopped when he heard Reana speak.
"Sorry Brother Nico, I mean nothing to insult, for me brother Nico is the high sky, only visible but unachievable, he said, I always have to remind myself of that.
Nico's kindness and affection often make me forget. I must always remember my position, so that events like this are not too painful for me" said Reana lowered her head with tears continuing to flow.
Reana stared at the phone and the necklace in her hand. The girl's tears flowed unbearably. Nico's words pierced his heart and his feelings, sore. The girl looked at Nico who was walking back to her car.
Brother Nico doesn't want anything to remind him of me. Brother Nico wants to erase all our memories, Reana screams.
In an instant, it was reflected back when he first saw Reana's smile, which finally could not be evaded when Nico chose to kiss the girl as payment for his betting defeat.
The girl had to experience various kinds of bully from the people around her, until she eventually fell ill and received the threat of college leave.
All happened because of his actions that did not think, what he did brought changes to the life of poor girls who had long been accustomed to living alone.
Living a hard life, paying for his own life and college. And now, the girl had to leave with all her hurtful deeds and words.
Would Reana accept that cruel word ? after everything I did to her ? nico's heart screams.
Shit, shit, shit, Nico yelled while hitting the wheel.
Nico quickly got out of his car chasing Reana who was still walking alone. Nico stopped his steps right in front of the girl, staring at the face that was still drenched in tears.
Nico held Reana in his arms. Hugged the girl very tightly. Reana can only stand weak, resigned to whatever Nico did. Nico let the girl cry on his chest.
"I will not let you go, though you thrash I will not let you go, though I am far from your achievements, you need not fear, stay where you are, I am the one who will come to you" nico stroked the girl's hair.
Travel bag detached from Reana's hand. The girl wrapped her hands around Nico's waist, Reana buried her face in the man's chest.
The words spoken by Nico actually made Reana's crying more and more, between believing and not. But the girl wanted to believe him.
He doesn't know if this is the best thing for him. Hoping Nico would never change, never to look at it the way it did today
Nico continued to hold her tightly while stroking the girl's hair until Reana's tears subsided.
After the girl's feelings of relief, Nico escorts Reana to her boarding place. The man looked at the old Reana, who seemed to be feeling lonely when Nico returned to the apartment. The girl no longer lives with him.
"Come in, I'll leave after you enter" Nico said, not wanting to lose sight of Reana for longer.
"Sir Nico who goes first, I will go in after Nico's brother leaves" Reana replied following Nico's remarks.
Nico smiled a little.
"I will definitely be lonely alone there" continued Nico revealed his heart.
"Isn't it like that before ? Brother Nico does live alone there ?" ask Reana to remind.
"But now it feels different, it feels like something is missing" Nico said.
The girl just smiled blandly.
"Oh my God, right now, I miss you when you're in front of me" Nico said, smiling at Reana's eyes.
"We will get used to it again, brother, at this time we just return to the actual position" said Reana encouraged.
Nico nodded, the man grabbed Reana's hand.
"I'm sorry for my evil words, my words must have hurt your feelings a lot.
I really don't know, why can you be so willing to express such cruel words to you.
Reana, please don't hate me" Nico told Reana.
Reana shakes.
"Maybe I deserve all that, I.."
Nico immediately hugged Reana, stopping the girl's slurred speech. Nico's embrace made Reana stunned.
"No Reana you don't deserve to be hurt, I'm wrong.
I'm too concerned about my own feelings, I'm really sorry, I'm sorry Reana" said Nico still hugging Reana.
"I'm sorry" the man stretched his arms and looked at Reana.
Reana smiled, Nico kissed Reana's forehead, smiled back while breathing a sigh of relief, then stepped into his car.
Nico waves and Reana replies, Reana waits until the man and his car disappear behind the corner.
Reana re-occupied her room, the room did not change at all. Rebecca must have never set foot here.
Reana took out her clothes and reassembled them in the closet. Her eyes were fixed on the dress Nico had bought. Reana picked up the dress and sat in the corner of her bed.
Her hands gently caressed the beautiful dress that had become the most memorable outfit of her life.
It was a special day, a day where he appeared to be a different person.
Beautiful dresses and pretty shoes, Reana smiled reminiscing about those times. There was a knock on the door of his room. Reana opened the door, Yati's mother stood there.
"You're back" said Bu Yati as she hugged Reana.
"Thank you, mother has allowed me to return to this room" Reana replied as she hugged Bu Yati tightly, a clear thread falling from her eyes.
Bu Yati let go of her embrace, wiping away the water flowing from the corner of the girl's eyes.
"You're like my own children, you're all like my own daughters" replied Ms. Yati cupping Reana's face.
"Welcome back Reana" shouted the other hostel children, they opened the room door and shouted in unison startling Reana and Bu Yati.
Everybody laugh.
"Today we have dinner together to welcome the return of Reana to this house" said Ms. Yati eagerly.
"Ashiiiik.we cook together yes ma'am" replied a girl who is very hobby of cooking and of course also a hobby of eating.
Bu Yati nodded while pinching the girl's chubby cheeks.
"Now you rest, later tonight try to go home from work quickly, yes" continued Bu Yati while passing from Reana's room.
Reana smiled, Miss Yati did not forget that every day Reana had to work at a restaurant.
What about Brother Nico, today I have to go alone or wait for him ? reana thought of Nico.
And it turns out that Nico never forgot, proved the man was waiting beside his car ready to take Reana to work at the restaurant.
Reana was stunned to see the man's perseverance, like an obligation for him to take her wherever Reana went.
Who am I, then ? why is Brother Nico so responsible for me ? how can I repay the kindness of Nico ? reana's heart screams.
Nico who saw Reana's presence immediately smiled. Open the car door for Reana. They are having their days as usual. Reana prayed that no more problems would come to their lives.
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