Love Missed

Hard choices

When the hug was so tight in the arms and the bottom of Lusi's heart, Lusi kissed his daughter's forehead which seemed to be asleep. He elus her forehead and hair. It was like seeing a little angel who was so beautiful and so adorable. It felt so soothing to see him.

But actually...

The feeling of pain was very much in the heart of Luci at that time, Luci felt pain in his mind to see his little daughter who is currently lying weak in a state of infused hands. Lusi regretted his heedful actions that night, he should have gone home immediately no matter what.

Even the dinner that he should be able to enjoy even a little bit does not eat Lusi one bit. Now her stomach is completely empty even Susi forgot that she had not eaten from work that afternoon.

Luci took a piece of bread that was on the table and he ate slowly. Susi took the water on the table and she pushed the bread with bottled mineral water to make it easier to eat it.

Lusi does not know why he is in a state of sick children and uncomfortable feelings, such as difficult to receive food.

Right now all he wants to do is get near his daughter without letting go of his eyes and away from his daughter.

Lusi also looked at his daughter who was even three months with a sad face.

The vivid shadow of a bitter life forces Lusi to remain steadfast with everything that seems to meander sharply and live it with rigor.

Hardness is a major thing..

If Lusi is not strong then what about the fate of his two children, who will take care of him who will raise him to greatness. Wh who?

No matter how destroyed Lusi, as long as Lusi is still breathing, Lusi is forbidden to give up for the sake of the child who has a long way to live even though everything feels difficult.

Lusi also slowly sighed again.

Susi again ate the bread with more than one amount, not because Lusi greedy just that Lusi had to fill himself with a lot of food because Lusi remembered Yasmin who was still drinking breast milk from him.

Finished eating with some fresh bread helped push with water, Lusi felt enough to fill the ammunition for Yasmin if at any time Yasmin would drink breast milk from Lusi.

Lusi also felt his chest began to look tight usually when Lusi felt it was directly pumping, but the pumping tool was left at his work desk.

Lucky ..

Yasmin is seen waking up and Lusi is holding her. Lusi carried her little daughter and she put it in her lap, sounding Yasmin's voice that looked crying but sounded hoarse different from usual.

Did he cry from all night, until the voice seemed to run out like this? Said Lusi speaking to himself.

Inner latus pain where when the baby's voice that he always heard sounds loud is now heavier and hoarse than usual.

Lusi was holding the child whose body was still a bit hot, Lusi quickly unbuttoned his shirt and gave breast milk to Baby Yasmin. Yasmin devoured what she was eating.

Lusi stroked her little hair and looked at Yasmin who was sucking*t it voraciously.

Lusi did not feel the tears fell, seeing the baby he was looking at earlier.

There is a tormented mind that feels pain so deeply. Lusi only held back tears to not cry stroking his chest which felt heavy to him.

That time...

Lusi did not have time to ask how the baby is doing at this time. But Lusi always hopes Yasmin is in good shape.

Suddenly a doctor seemed to come looking at a smile they saw Lusi who was breastfeeding her baby.

"Has the daughter was beautiful, her mother was also beautiful" said a doctor who suddenly came to greet Lusi suddenly.

Susi was shocked but she did not have to worry because Lusi had covered the chest with a small blanket belonging to Yasmin.

"What is my doctor sick?"

"When he was brought here he had a very high fever and his body had a seizure. Mother's son has measles"

"What?" Said Lusi worried.

"But the situation is better now"

"Is it dangerous"

"It is dangerous if not treated immediately, but grateful that the mother's daughter was immediately taken to the hospital. Moreover, as a child we must be more alert" said the doctor who looked at Lusi and Yasmin alternately.

"Thank you doctor"

"It seems difficult, to face this life on your own. Your mother told you that you could not come because of your own work and a single parent. Life is sometimes below and sometimes above but we have to be stronger in living"

"Thank you"

"But the arrival of such a mother makes your mother angry, what makes her angry"

Lucia was silent and did not answer him again.

"I'm a doctor of Revelation a pediatrician mother can call me if you need anything, excuse me" he said immediately left.

Lusi also stared at the departure of the doctor of Revelation who only saw his back.

"The doctor looks good you must have a good husband and handsome like the doctor. Oh but geez, what did you say just now.." Lusi again sighed he did not want to catapult his feelings that had just called the handsome man he had just known.

Lusi also began to refocus on his little baby who is now in a crib.

And...

From a distance, Hilman looks at Susi from a distance behind a window.

Hilam looked at Lusi carefully, Hilman felt from outside like a good person, where he might have a minus nature like what Lusi said.

Yet..

"How dare you steal my son" Susi's mother told Hilman and pulled Hilman's collar.

"What the hell is this mother" said Hilman.

"You look at her, you see how she fought on her own in her life to raise her child. You are so willing to do that" said Lusi's mother annoyed.

"So what do you want?" Hilman said defiantly.

"If you want me to take responsibility, I will take responsibility for what I did. If indeed the mother wants me to marry the mother's child" explained Hilman who was still staring at Lusi behind the window.

Mom was silent as if keeping something.

"Don't expect because you are rich to get my child" said Lusi's mother that time.

"At least if the mother's child is married to me she can focus more on her child and not have to work"

"You're old enough"

"Lusi is too young to be a widow"

"Don't dream!!!"

"I'm rich, there are many beautiful women out there who may be like Lusi or even more. So I don't have to beg for love from anyone, I just do what I have to do"

Mom finally saw Lusi was plagued with mixed feelings between heart and could not bear to say something surprising.

Mom went into the room and now looked at Susi sharply.

"Mother" said Lusi who saw her mother coming.

Then a shocking word was thrown from the mother's mouth.

"You should marry your boss Lusi!!!!"

Degs...

said the mother with a surprising voice coming suddenly.

"What?" Said Lusi shocked who saw his mother coming with an unexpected remark.

"What did you just say!!!" Said Lusi in disbelief.

Meanwhile..

Hilman only looked peeked in the window.

"You should marry your boss, rather than you playing back and hold mom don't like it!!!"

"But Ma'am?"

"Your name has been tarnished by your bad behavior, get married to keep yourself as a woman who has been fucked by that man"

"But can't Miss.. lusi can't?"

"Lusi what if he disseminates your photo. It's hard for you to be out of it" said the mother, full of emphasis.

"But Mom, I don't love her"

"The passage of time passes quickly, at this time you may not feel love. But someday maybe he's the one you love"

Lusi's chest felt tight as the pressure of his mother's voice rose.

"But mom she's already"

"Although he is old, but he will do anything for your life and at least your life is not lacking like this!!" said the mother who looks half screaming but at that time her mother looked sad and crying in front of Lusi. Actually, I don't have enough heart to say that to Lusi.

Mother also seemed to cry and drop her tears, Lusi did not seem to have the heart to see her mother who was disappointed in her.

"So what do you want?" Said Lusi who was crying watching her mother cry.

"You're married to the man who fucked you"

"All right, ma'am, all right. Lusi will marry any man who is the choice of mother from mother can be happy. Lusi is ready to marry her" said Luci who looked sore and downcast.

Mother also seemed to cry bitterly at the state of the princess who looked destroyed.

This is the risk in my life of suffering, being slandered for adultery and making the most painful thing, which is to make my mother angry and cry and disappointed in me.

My life has been shattered with bitter memories, there is no reason for me to avoid any destruction. Making peace with destruction may be the way to make me happy even in tears. Happy that I somehow loved but surely this is the best way among the worst, which is to accept something difficult. Marrying a man I don't know and love. But this is the way.

Lusi also saw from the hilman glass that stood in front of the window.

Lusi only looked sharply at Hilman, a brngsk man who had disturbed the peace of his life.

Hilman knew that Lusi would accept being married to him, and then Hilman left when Lusi looked at him.

But in his heart he was happy. Because it has reached the point that he wants to have Susi.

About the news he received from Lusi himself that Lusi was a psychopath, he also seemed to still think about it, he was still thinking about it,

and even though Lusi is a psychopath it seems that is not the reason for Hilman not to marry Lusi. Is it really a psychopath or not.....