Love Missed

Bereft

After the death of her husband about 5 months ago, makes the heart of Susi sad, empty, empty and sore. The loss of a loved one for good, makes Lusi feel chest tightness for too long. It is true that this is the fate of the almighty for the departure of someone we love in life but still feels tight and the heart never feels the lie of sadness remains in the heart. Even the chest feels increasingly crowded and can not be covered if life can choose. Susi is eager to leave, and die from this life. Lusi is like a loss of direction in this life, left for eternity like wounds and suffering that have no cure. Even this child, a child who has not had time and fully felt the affection of the father. Must feel the bitterness left by the father forever. The heart of Lusi saw the son who had not even turned one year old was now an orphan.

That day, Lusi who was holding a picture of her husband in her hand, Lusi felt that nothing could replace her husband in her heart, never would. Even if there will never be the same taste, if the same can never be.

Father and Mother also feel what is now Lusi feel, seeing her daughter sad makes them sad too. Want to give spirit but in fact hurt and his inner pain Lusi, it's because of the endless longing. Missing the husband, who misses himself never is the cure.

Yes long before that, almost every day Lusi like a person who almost crazy. Every day also Lusi always talked to himself by looking at the photo of her husband, Lusi always spoke for himself expressing the sadness of his heart. Lusi felt really lost the figure of a husband in his life. Susi did not expect if the loss was heavier than anything. In sleep, Lusi always cries.

Susi who always looks attentive with her body and still cares for her now as if she does not care anymore, even the pregnancy he is currently undergoing has never been taken to a health clinic or midwife. Lusi seemed to no longer care about her pregnancy, or even she even told people that she was not pregnant. That she couldn't possibly be pregnant. The child in her stomach will never be born, this is just a false pregnancy that will go away on its own. Susi who should be thinking clearly is like the stupidest fool. Speak irregularly and like a person who forgets himself. Though Lusi who used to always try to be ready and hard to accept the harsh reality. But now it looks different, like a person who has lost his direction and purpose.

A pregnancy that is not her wish and the death of her husband is like a bitter destiny and becomes one. No one could treat his heart at this moment.

His parents also had time to match Susi with a man who might make him forget the dark story of his life, but still Lusi did not want to.

Lusi always said that love is not for added exchange, not to be replaced with new ones. Nor to be forgotten.

Loving the new does not reduce the pain, it will actually make the pain. Lusi has a life problem that others never know what the problem of Susi herself is, never betrothed Susi to anyone.