Love Missed

You must be strong

Lusi was upset at that time, with the behavior of Gery who claimed that the child he was carrying was the child of Gery.

Lusi knows she is a weak and helpless widow for now, but does not mean Gery can admit that the pregnant Lusi is her child. What would happen if Liana knew and considered right, Lusi was afraid that it would be a slander for her. Although Lusi knew there was evidence of cctv at that time, Lusi did not believe it just like that. It could be just an edit with events that seem true when it is just a mistake and engineering alone. Susi remained in the belief in herself that the child she was carrying was the true child of her husband.

Since the current pregnancy of the seventh month, Luci really does not care about the state of the baby he is carrying. Lusi feels himself a lot of trouble and let the baby live as it should without having to be spoiled with a little bit of taking him to the doctor. Even Susi does not care about the sex of her baby who will be born later.

Susi realized it was a mistake but Lusi felt not at home like this life. And always bodo time with the child he was carrying. Until then the mother also realized Lusi not to be selfish to herself and the baby. Susi should not treat the child she contains in a way that does not consider her.

"Lusty?"

"Yes"

"You should know and understand better for those of you who are pregnant at this time. Do not take this unborn baby you make an impingement and let him live in the misery you are feeling. He deserves what he's got"

"For example?"

"Mom knows you never once took yourself to the gynecologist, when it was clear that you were pregnant. I even know you never cared about yourself never saw you take vitamins for pregnant women. Why are you like that you are angry at yourself or the fate that you are currently pregnant with?"

"Huh, what for? For what to care, remember everything makes Lusi more tormented. Rian could Bu leave Susi alone when Lusi was pregnant, that means Lusi did not have to bother prioritizing the content of Lusi. Because Lusi himself can not get pregnant with a widow like this. Because this baby Lusi is blasphemed by others, because Lusi is pregnant people consider Lusi one eye and because Lusi is pregnant Lusi becomes weaker and can not work"

"Think sanely, think not with your brain. But with your heart, where is the Lusi I knew first. Where is the Lusi that I know well, it no longer exists. You know, you're sick like this because you're the one who never took vitamins and took care of your health. Until you get sick all because of you, if you are sick at this time your baby is much sicker in there. You can take good care of Fabio, even if you know that time you were left by Rian. Now you're treating your second pregnancy differently just because Rian is gone. Where is your conscience, where is your motherly soul. Remember, Lusi do not regret if it turns out you will lose it"

Lucia was silent. Susi was only aware of what she was doing, with the words of the mother who began to awaken Lusi a little.

"But this is different Mom, different. The taste that Lusi felt when pregnant with Fabio with this child feels different. I don't know why Lusi doesn't know"

"Change your thinking power, change your harsh nature. Learn to love your own child, live and love yourself and your child" said the mother.

At once Lusi was silent while looking down and holding his stomach slowly resuscitated himself with that selfish nature.

"Alright Lusi will try to do his best to love the child in the stomach of Lusi Bu" said Lusi bowed his head looking at the stomach that was starting to grow.

"Yes that's what you have to do. Lusi" the word of the mother who holds the hand of Luci forms love and care for Susi who is now in turmoil and endless problems.

"Mom knows you're in deep trouble, but you don't punish your unborn child in a way that doesn't care about him. Love your child like you love Fabio don't differentiate this child from your other children"

Lusi finally nodded to try to understand.

"May Lusi hug the mother" said Lusi who asked for a hug from the mother.

"Sure" answered the mother.

"Hiks. Lusi just wasn't strong ma'am with all this. Susi is not strong with all this, Susi is confused how to. Lusi does not know how to, Lusi is dizzy with his own life. Lusi's dizzy Mom, with all of them, Susi was confused about what to do" said Lusi who cried and said the word repeatedly and it was an overflow of emotions of the soul that was indeed as if he could not withstand his own pain.

"Even if this is hard to strengthen yourself, you must be sure and able that what you experience will all have wisdom and I am sure you will be able to. Remember son, don't give up and stay up. Pray to Him, I believe and trust you are the most powerful of all mother's children"

"You just need to be sure that you're capable, how can you be strong if you're not sure of yourself"

Lusi also nodded in understanding what was said by his mother to Lusi in order to survive any test of life. Because I'm sure Lusi must have found happiness in his life, which may not now come happiness. Maybe later, but the most important thing in life is 'patience' the word patience that may be simple but heavy is done but that will be the answer to every question that makes turmoil in life that is sometimes impartial.

Mother also hugged the princess to be more rigid and love herself more, especially love the child in the womb. I realize also that the soul of Lusi is currently shaken, sometimes able to accept his own life but sometimes like a person who loses direction and purpose in life.

Lusi finally began to look more calm at that time, he began to eat slowly but surely that was like a living person but died.

Lusi began to accept the reality of his life is bitter, sometimes the mother also saw Lusi who began to put a little smile on her lips while holding her stomach that felt there was movement after movement in her womb.

"How are you better?" Ask mother.

"Already Ma'am" replied Lusi.

"Eat a lot yes, for you and the baby in your womb" said the mother.

"Mom, can Lusi see this baby Mom. During her pregnancy, Lusi never once took her to a clinic or hospital to check on her"

"Of course, we'll ultrasound your womb yes" said the smiling mother.

Then after that Lusi was brought to a room to do USG.

Lusi also seemed ready to do ultrasound for the first time in a baby who is now in the womb.

Lusi was lying on a mattress to do USG, a doctor also gave a gel on the stomach of Lusi at that time and the doctor began to do ultrasound.

Lusi also immediately saw her on a glass screen that is now in front of her that shows the baby in her womb.

"How the doctors are doing" asked Luci to a doctor named Vera.

"The baby is healthy from his movements is also active his position is good not wrapped around the umbilical cord. And wow the gender already looks like a ma'am"

"What?" Said Lusi who suddenly asked.

"His daughter's maiden"

Susi also without feeling dropping her tears.

"God my son, my son he lives. She lives in my womb, I'm sorry mom ever ignored you son. I'm sorry, you turned out to be a girl like my dear mom. You have to be strong, son, you have to be strong, son" Lusi cried.

There is guilt there is also a sense of sadness all as if mixed into one.

Lusi is guilty of never considering it, and what makes Susi sad is because the most bitter reality is that the child she gave birth to later must be ready to be born without a father.