Love Missed

You must be strong, strengthen your mother too, son

In love once, in life once. Losing it is like a taste without any cure losing the most beloved husband is like a bit of bitterness every day.

Rian why are you so desperate to leave your two children, even when I was pregnant you did not know that you left me. This is your son, your two children. One is still in the womb and one is still one year and two months he is still very small even he can just walk. Why do you have so much heart to leave me alone, to whom I have poured out all my heart, to whom I have grasped my long steps which turned out to be difficult for me to live. The openness is so bitter without you, I have to fend for myself. Why do you have the heart to leave me alone, why do you have the heart.Lusi contends pain where the heart and the feeling of pain feel the pain of a loss. Lusi looked at the photo he put in his room. Lisa also accidentally saw her brother who was crying because of the loss of her husband.

"So no cry again, really Brother is crying" said Lisa who suddenly came.

"Sister does not cry just sad brother" said Lusi wiping his tears.

"Sadly same cry what a difference brother"

"Don't know you're not ready to be left alone, especially every time you see Fabio. Brother's feelings often see him feel devastated, if the departure away from the husband because of work brother sure someday he will go home, but if the departure due to death is only a dream that can bring us together. Even sister was not satisfied to hug her husband at that time, the inner pain of her sister Lisa felt very eager to hug him at this time" said Lusi very sad.

"Yes, you can think of your father as his father, if you really are just his grandfather but at least he did not lose his papa figure in his life" Lisa said.

"Yes"

lisa's words do have a point, there is still a real father Lusi who can be a figure for Fabio if he misses his father.

"Keep pregnancy sister, sister content. He's worse yet, never once seen the father in his life been left behind"

Luci immediately swallowed his saliva very deeply.

"This is also the heart of my brother at this time. So single mom and having two honest kids brother is not good at dad and mom right now. Like his brother's gonna find a job"

"Sister, sister is pregnant. Time yes brother work. No one wants to accept a woman who is pregnant like this"

"Sister does not know but you have not tried, who knows what could be called fortune. At least this is how you make your kids"

"Where is Rian's treasure?"

Lusi also looked shaken.

"Nobody, sister don't know. Before Rian died, the family's financial condition was not okay. There is even a debt that is indeed his own brother does not know how nominal but it will certainly someday be billed" said Lusi looked sad.

Lisa immediately stroked the sister's back gently. At that time Lusi only felt a sorrow and pain in his heart that was difficult to explain with words. Perhaps only tears could represent all of Lusi's feelings back then.

In the silence that night, Lisa accompanied her brother to sleep in his sister's room. Fabio seemed to have fallen asleep, Lisa accidentally slept together with her brother in the room in hopes of comforting and easing the grief that is currently being felt by the sister.

In sleep Lisa also hugged the sister who is currently pregnant, Lisa also knows the feelings of the sister who is currently far from okay. Lisa knew every night that her sister would cry every time she remembered all that was sad in her heart.

Who would not be saddened by what Lusi is currently experiencing. Died husband died in pregnancy and a young child. If living with a paralyzed husband makes the heart of Lusi broken, it turns out that the loss of a husband is even more broken.

Because all the tests that have been passed in fact the husband is able to make Lusi stand and able to face every tough test.

Now all memories remain, all sorrow abides. If the current pregnancy becomes like, it becomes the grief and sadness that Lusi is currently experiencing. It felt as if Lusi wanted to run as hard as he could to forget his current emotions.

Before going to bed Lisa also seemed to give money to her brother.

"It's money for my sister"

"Make what? You're not working"

"Who says I work again, I also have a small joint venture with friends. This is a little bit of it to buy milk at the same cost tomorrow look for work" Lisa said. "I have to come back tomorrow, brother, to Bali"

"Thank you very much Lisa"

Lisa hugged her sister. Without feeling even Lusi could only cry in the arms of his sister at that time.

"Cry over, overflow all the expressions of brother's sadness at this time"

Lusi also seemed to cry with a body that seemed to tremble at that time. If the breakup is painful but believe me left when still unfortunately it feels very painful. What is dear is gone forever.

The next day Lusi was already in the morning shower preparing himself to apply for a job, wherever it was. What is certain is a lawful job that is able to support himself and his son.

Lusi also seemed to take good clothes to apply for a job. She picked up a gray blouse and long black pants for pregnant women.

Lisa also looks at her brother who looks neat.

"Sister, the clothes are good but the makeup is less thick anymore. A little thick"

"For what?"

"Kok for what, the boss likes the same make up we are all out. At least for first impressions"

"What an ordinary one"

"Yes if there is something extraordinary for what is ordinary" said Lisa immediately take a makeup tool and dress Lusi. Lusi also looks resigned when the hand to flick the sister wearing make up on her brother.

"Tara.. cakeup right this way" said Lisa gave a mirror for the sister to see it.

"Suppose this gift because of my sister's makeup in me" Lisa said.

"Why don't you just make up yourself last night. This is quite wow" said Lusi who saw his face. Indeed Lisa felt that Lusi was beautiful to feel affectionate if not shown.

"Yes good, success is looking for work" said Lisa kissed the cheek of the sister to encourage.

Then in the morning at exactly 9.30 Lusi also left for a place that he got information from the internet. Yes armed with the information he was looking for on the internet Lusi get job info as an admin staff at a fairly large company in the city of Bandung. Lusi also tried to remain confident applying for work, even though he knew he was currently pregnant. He also does not care if there will be a talk that he does not like but Lusi should be able to. Yes, it should be possible, for the sake of the child he is carrying and Fabio who is currently at home.

Arriving there is indeed a job vacancy, but there are many pairs of eyes from other applicants who look surprised to see Lusi. There were two impressions seen on Lusi at that time, especially if not a beautiful impression. Lusi who does have peerless beauty even managed to make the eyes look stunned. But there is one more impression, which is bad. Especially if it is not the pregnancy that Lusi is currently living. Maybe Lusi is like a person who is thick in face, because he dared to apply for work with a state of 6 months pregnant. The logic alone for what apply for work in 6 months of pregnancy, if later the age of 9 months has taken maternity leave. But it's not Lusi's name if he doesn't fight for his life. Not working and shaking feet at home is not the nature of Luci. Lusi has to fight.

Currently job applicants number about 15 people and wait in a chair that has been provided. Lusi was ready to wait his turn to be called in a job interview at that time.

Susi who was supposed to follow the procedure of interviewing the senior manager was suddenly called by the senior manager to be interviewed directly by the director of the company.

Lusi also looked surprised, because he had a job interview for the staff. What is an interview with a director.

"Mba was called Mr. Gunawan, he owns the company"

"Why should I" said Lusi astonished.

"I don't know, try to go to the fourth floor. Later he was in his room" said security to Lusi.

"Should it?"

"Yes of course, because rarely he exists and who knows the direct fast track"

"Well I'll meet" said Luci.

"Mba do not forget to take the elevator, worry mba miscarriage if you go up the stairs" said the security.

"Ih the akang can, there is no way I can go up the stairs if there is an elevator" said Lusi.

Lusi immediately followed the instructions ordered to meet Mr. Gunawan in his room. Lusi also felt deg-degan came to Pak Gunawan's room. Hoping that everything would go according to plan and he was accepted by the company.

Lusi also saw a 50-year-old man sitting in a chair while waiting for Lusi who will come to it. With a sharp look while smiling to see Lusi coming.

"Excuse me sir" said Lusi.

"Yes, please sit down" Gunawan said at the time.

Lusi was sitting on a chair that had been provided with a sharp gaze, Lusi also felt excited to meet the man in front of him at that time.

"You know why I invited you here" Gunawan said.

"No sir" replied the 28-year-old woman.

"I'm from a distance looking at you, and I'm interested. So I asked for your CV and asked you to face me directly. I need a private secretary"

"Before you choose me, I told you first that I am currently pregnant" said Lusi was nervous.

Gunawan frowned while looking at Lusi. The gray man seemed to be thinking for a moment maybe like considering what Lusi said that he was pregnant. While looking at Lusi the gray man seemed to play his pen while standing up.

"I-yes sir" replied Lusi.

"May you stand" Gunawan pinta.

"Stand up?" Lusi asked astonished by Gunawan's orders to him.

"Yes, try"

"Alright" said Lusi standing up.

Gunawan also looked at Lusi from top to bottom. From the ends of his hair and feet. Gunawan noticed Lusi at the time.

"Try spinning" he asked again.

"Run?" Lusi.

"Just do it" he said again.

Lusi also seemed to revolve around following directions and orders from the company's director. During Lusi's turn Gunawan's eyes were rounded and noticed the curves of Lusi's body that looked good even though he was hamili.

"Try facing backwards" Gunawan's pinta.

Susi followed again what Gunawan ordered.

It was obvious that Gunawan saw the part of Lusi's buttocks that made him stiffen.

"It's enough, sit down" said Gunawan welcome for Lusi to sit back.

"After I saw you, I became sultry" said Gunawan taking a handkerchief and wiping it to his eel and cheek.

"You don't have to explain anything about yourself I've seen everything, including your abilities, your achievements everything I've known from this cover letter you brought. So I thought, I don't need to doubt you in terms of work. I'm sure you can follow every command in the job. And another one that I like about you, is that you are beautiful" said Gunawan who looked hot cold to see Lusi.

"Beautiful?" Lucia looked astonished.

"Yes why? Wrongly? If I say you are beautiful. I think all women like to be said to be beautiful, do you not like it when I call you beautiful"

"Oh not so, just this time I was called beautiful when I was first interviewed directly by the number one person in this company" said Lusi explained.

"This is your first paycheck" Gunawan said, giving him a brown envelope.

Lusi was surprised not to be a kepalang yet to work but he got his first salary.

"This must be a joke there is no way I have not worked but have earned a salary sir" said Lusi seemed to smile unpleasantly.

"Everything is impossible you check how much the total is" said Gunawan again.

Lusi also saw and the total of five million rupiah was not a small total for people whose wages were paid upfront.

"Other than that"

"Other than what, sir?"

"Let's see in the envelope there's a little letter you can read"

"Lusi immediately took a small letter and read it"

*I wait in hotel room 109, tonight in front of our office, at 19:00 pm don't be late*

At once Lusi's heart was upset with what was written a piece of paper in his hand.

"What the hell" said Lusi annoyed.

"Why surprise, you say you're a widow. You need a job, you get a special room from me"

"I came here purely to get a job like this!!!" Said Lusi seemed to not accept.

"What was your pregnancy? not proof, if you provide more services. You are a widow for what you are angry about"

"But I'm a good woman"

"Your pregnancy made me question your kindness. There's no way you're pregnant if you're a good woman. You need money, you need a caress"

"If not the father of the owner of the company I have made sure my slap landed but I still appreciate the father. I swear by anything, I don't want to work at my father's place"

"Well then I'm not going to ask you out tonight, you can propose somewhere else"

"Enough sir's offer is no longer interesting for me" said Lusi stood up and left.

"You can't leave, you've just been accepted into the company!!!!" snapped the old Bangka.

"Then I resign from this place. Excuse me!!!" Said Lusi annoyed round his eyes.

Lusi also went straight away from the room of Mr. Gunawan who according to him has been very rude to him.

Lusi knows himself even though he is a widow but does not mean he is nervous who would want to be invited to bed by another man.

Lusi also seemed annoyed by what he got that day. Lusi also did not think he immediately resigned to work without starting work.

So that brash guy gave me five million, he meant paying me for one night, you brash old man could have been in trouble. Because he thought he was who just because of the money he felt he could buy all, inner Lusi was upset while walking up to the office with a feeling of annoyance.

After her...

Lusi also came home with a face of annoyance.

At home, it looks like Lusi's mother who saw Susi bend her face in annoyance.

"Kok his face pouted so round and round" asked the mother to her daughter.

Lusi also seemed not to answer still with his upset look.

"What about the job interview?"

"Tau ah ma's. Don't discuss it first yes I'm upset" said Lusi directly into his room.

And when in the room Lusi was seen baby Fabio who was sitting in his room seemed he just woke up from his sleep.

"Eh Fabio is awake" said Lusi.

Before long it seemed Fabio who immediately called the word papa that made Lusi feel guilty.

"Father, papap papapa" said Fabio.

At once, Lusi's heart ached to hear the speech of the 1-year-old toddler calling the word papa who has died.

"Papa yes, but this is mama is not papa" said Lusi lirih.

"Papa, papa, papa" said Fabio biting his toy while saying the word papa.

"Where is papa, where is papa" asked Lusi.

Instantly Fabio pointed at a window that actually had no one.

"Fabio was kangen papa ya but papa no longer there son" said Lusi dropped his tears.

Then Lusi took a photo and gave it to Fabio.

"There's Papa's Poto, Fabio hugs ya baby, hug papa's photo if Fabio misses. You miss me, son. Mama also misses son" said Lusi hugging his son tightly.

"Even though papa is gone, but papa is always in our hearts, son, you must be strong, baby. Strengthen the mother also yes son" said Lusi peeked the cheek of the son with deep sadness.