Love Missed

I miss you in my prayers

Injured in love, which is now being felt. Not pain due to bullying but more pain left behind.

If there is a meeting, there is an end to the word farewell.

Susi...

Just why is farewell so soon. Lusi has not yet felt the love and happiness of the household ark, God has separated with a farewell and blessed with a separating death.

Yes, only medicine misses that can pay for all the pain of the heart, but unfortunately the medicine does not exist. In addition to time that can pay for all the pain of the heart.

Rian... Where I'd been looking for you, if you had. Please just once I meet you. I want to tell you that I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant with our child. Inner Susi who thrashed where her heart screamed whenever she remembered her husband.

That night...

The dark night felt quiet. Lusi is seen sleeping in the room with her son.

That night Lusi dreamed of meeting her husband, meeting in a beautiful garden. Her husband is no longer disabled he is able to stand up straight able to walk and look healthy. Lusi immediately ran to meet her husband running and reached for Lusi was immediately hugging him so tightly did not feel his tears immediately fell. Lusi immediately cried in the arms of the husband who felt far away and returned in his arms. Her inner embrace that hurt from longing, was killed by longing. Pain and bitterness that are so painful. There is no word that can represent the husband other than the crying that Lusi overflow where the heart is not able to stem all the flavors in the heart.

Chest feels claustrophobic every word you want to say is just a repeated and unstoppable cry.

Rian also seemed to caress the hair of the wife who seemed to cry in her embrace, then wipe the tears of Lusi.

"Never leave me unable to live like this" said Luci.

"You have to be strong baby, you have to be strong to keep Fabio and the child in your womb. You are strong, baby, you must be strong. I have to go, I have to go, I have to go"

Rian also seemed to release Lusi's hand and went away.

"Rian don't leave me, Rian..." Lusi screamed in his sleep and when Luci realized that it was a dream.

Susi immediately cried and realized that it was just a dream but felt so tight in the chest.

"Aaaarrrgggghhhhhhh.." said Lusi who involuntarily shouted with a heart that felt tight.

Mother suddenly came and immediately hugged the crying princess.

"Son astaghfirullah"

"Istighfar nak istighfar, you can't be like this. You must be able to be strong. Here hug mom, hug" then this also seemed to give a warm hug.

Then suddenly the father came and gave water to his daughter.

"Drink, we finish this prayer yes. Let your mind be calmer"

Lusi also looked to nod.

In the prayer Lusi also vented all the sadness and gave his prayers to the husband who had died.

"Rian I apologize as my wife a lot of lack, a lot of imperfect not as expected I hope you calm down dear to his side, although at this time I really feel deep sadness. And I forgive all your mistakes, all of them Rian, none of them I don't forgive. Rian, I have no way to talk to you, other than through this prayer. Other than through this cry, I do not know how to convey my miss to you apart from every prayer I pray. May Allah convey my longing to you, may Allah convey all that Rian is feeling. Rian. I, mama, fabio, all love you. But God was more dear, even at the last moment of the night. The night with all of us was sweet but it was the last moment. Thank you for being in my life for a while. Always pray our children, our children become successful children and we are always happy dear" Lusi also seemed to send his love message at the prayer that night. Her chest feels tight saying everything.

Lusi went back to the room and looked like Mom who finally accompanied Lusi to sleep. In sleep Lusi was embraced by his mother.

"Mom?" Call Lusi.

"Yes" his mother said.

"Is it wrong for Lusi to miss Lusi Bu's husband" asked Lusi with flowing tears.

"Son, you're not wrong son" replied the mother.

"Lusi was sad, Mom, remembering all of it. Susi is strong through these lonely and heavy days of Lusi" said Susi still in the arms of her mother.

"Eh you must be strong, all has become a suratan destiny. Death, soul mate and child have become an almighty destiny. Including life tests" said the mother.

"But Lusi is a regular human being who is heavy sad and tired of going through it all" said Lusi.

"Lusi you must think that what God gave to Susi, this is the best that has become God's destiny. Lusi strongly I'm sure, it just takes time. It also needs a strong heart. There are people who have not been able to mate at the age of Lusi, there are those who do not have children, there are also those who are married but have to separate because of death or whatever it is. It's called the test of life, every human being is tested in his own way. If Susi is sad, pity Rian there. Susi must be strong, hug mom. Hugged my father, hugged Fabio, hugged everyone who could treat Lusi's sadness. Strengthen Luci's heart. Remember your father and mother are sad to see Susie is sad, so don't be sad. Poor Fabio pity the child in your womb if you continue to be sad. Strong yes dear, dear father and mother. You are a priceless treasure" said the mother who still hugged the princess.

Lusi also seemed to hug the mother while crying, until it did not feel back to sleep in the mother's arms that warmed the night.

Mother was sad to see the child who was sad left by her husband, but the mother always wished the best for the princess in living her life.