Lara's Admirers

Episode 98's

I walked away leaving the man right behind me. With a hasty step and almost like I was running, I looked for the nearest bus stop. I hope I haven't missed the last bus. If that happens, then I will blame Arka for everything. I don't want to sleep out there in this cold air.

Once I got there, I let you down on the departure schedule. I sat down for a while to relax my leg muscles. My breath was hunting, but at least this time I could feel more relieved knowing that there were still two more departures. Yes, at the end of the day tonight I can return to the dorms that I have always referred to as home.

Now I just have to wait for about fifteen more minutes, until the next bus comes. I finally got what I wanted all along.

'Tap 'em! Taps! Aap!'

Suddenly, there was the sound of footsteps so loud. His tempo sounded fast at the beginning, then slowed down at the end. This place is pretty quiet now. I'm the only passenger waiting here for the bus. I think it was someone else who wanted to take the bus. I don't care much about it at all. The man was sitting right next to me at a distance of less than a meter. And everyone knows very well that at a time like this, everyone must keep their distance from each other and must not make physical contact. It can make other people have the possibility to be infected with the virus.

I started to get upset when I found my shoes with their shoes next to each other. This guy really doesn't heed the rules right now. I don't know who he is, and I definitely can't see him for now. I'm still busy managing my breath which is still hunting from earlier. Even to lift my head up, it felt like I couldn't.

Why am I so exhausted like this? What have I done so far? Did I really try to run away from that guy? Did I really do it? Ah, you fool! How could I leave him there alone. What if he gets lost and can't go home. It did not rule out the possibility for him to disappear in the middle of such a crowd.

New Ark a few weeks here. He did not understand the ins and outs of this city. I was right to worry that something bad would happen to him. I'm really sloppy. I knew very well that I was the only person responsible for him. We rely on each other.

I don't know what to do now. My mind is really messed up right now. I took a one-sided decision spontaneously, without thinking about the consequences. People say that regrets always come at the end of the story. I'm really confused right now. In less than five minutes, the last bus is coming. I saw the wrong schedule. For today, it's just the last bus. For tomorrow there are still two more buses that will operate at this hour. If he goes from there, it will be difficult for me to find him. Actually I want to go and catch up with him, before he goes any further. But, I can't step my foot for now. If I leave, then that means I'll miss the last bus and can't go home. Do I really have to sacrifice myself for others? He never even did that to me.

It's really a very difficult decision for me. Between the interests of others or the interests of myself. I don't know what to do now. If only I had more time, I would have done both. Uh! Please do not confront me with such a difficult choice. I can't choose any of them. I want both things to happen the way I want them to.

I thought that guy was gonna come after me from behind. Or at least follow silently. But it turns out not at all. It seems he has given up on the situation. This time Arka is not selfish, he does not want to force. Because what should have gone would have gone in the end. No matter how and how hard you try to prevent it.

Meanwhile, from a distance I have seen the bus. Slowly he began to slow down to stop at this stop. I got more nervous as the bus approached. I really can't think or decide a single thing. This means that the time I have is a little longer. I had to make the most appropriate decision in less than a minute. I have to choose between myself or Arka.

Until the bus stopped right in front of me. Several passengers were seen coming out of there. While I haven't decided anything myself. Without thinking any longer, I immediately got up from my seat to easily go look for Arka. I think I can still go home in a taxi. The most important thing now is that I have to find Arka. If not, then I might feel guilty for the rest of my life for abandoning a child in the middle of the city.

But, again suddenly there was someone who tried to prevent me from going from there. He pulled my hand, then took me on the bus. He forced me up and we both sat on the back bench. I've tried to rebel and break away from him many times, but it seems to be a waste because I know that this person won't let me go. The grip felt so tight that my blood could no longer flow.

After we sat down, before long the bus started to step on the accelerator and went from there. I could only snort angrily while looking out the window. As the defense weakened, I tried to let go of my hand. And that's right'Getting this time.

"Yes!!!!" my snapping.

"Are you crazy?! Why are you so presumptuous of strangers you just met?" obviously I'm with explosive anger.

"This is what you're doing is so disrespectful!" I'm tough once again.

I kept cursing at him using Korean. But it seems like this human being does not feel guilty at all. He seemed so relaxed and still reluctant to look at me. His head was always bowed from earlier. He refused to say a word as a form of resistance. I really don't understand his way of thinking.

"I should have said that" he said suddenly.

"Next time don't do such a stupid thing." he said once again, throwing his gaze at me.

In the end, he spoke up and changed his position. It was truly shocking as he looked at me in such a manner. I was surprised not to play, and I couldn't believe what I had just experienced. Both my eyeballs were wide open when they found out that the man was Arka. How could all this happen. Did he plan this before?

I hit him mad at once and annoyed. I vent all my anger at him. This man really tested my patience today. This time I felt really angry when I saw his face. Why is he so annoying today. I was trying to control my emotions at the time. I don't want to be the center of attention in there.

I took a deep breath. I hope my brain doesn't lack oxygen. But no matter how angry I am at the moment, there is at least one thing that can be a breath of fresh air for me. At least now Arka is back with me and most importantly she is safe at this time. I don't have to worry about anything anymore. Let's take the bright side. It will make me feel a lot calmer.

We went through several stops to get home. Some people are seen going up and down periodically. Everything in here changes all the time. Only me and this shitty human are still here. That's because we're only going to get off at the last stop.

But so far we've still kept each other quiet. Like two strangers who have never met before. There's one thing that hasn't changed since. That is our feeling for Arka. I was angry and angry at him. I can't forgive him yet. It's really outrageous today. If I knew it would end like this, then I would not agree to her request to accompany her for a walk.

I was really tired and he was still testing my patience. If he knew that I had almost lost my sanity because of it. I really was like a confused lunatic in the middle of the city streets. He should have known that a long time ago. I should have told him first.

There are still a few more stops I have to pass to get to the dormitory. I think I still have time to rest myself for a moment in this place. I stopped at the last stop anyway, so no problem. That place is far from where we are now. If maybe I overslept, this bus driver would wake me up.

I have to figure out how to get into the dorm at this hour. I'll definitely get caught by the guards if I just walk in. And they'll sanction me. I don't want that to happen, I admit if I'm guilty right now. But, I also can't wait until the early morning to get in there. I don't want to wait outside alone.

I leaned against the bus seat, looking up at the ceiling. Meanwhile, I was trying to rack my brain to find the most appropriate way.

I thought I would stay there and fight the drowsiness that hit me at that time. But this time I felt like I had lost. The cold that quietly burst in made me bow down. It is undeniable that I am completely exhausted today. Although I did not do much physical activity, it seemed that my energy had been drained mentally. They don't even leave a little for me. At the very least, leave a little energy so that I can stay awake during the trip.

*POV* Archive*

It has been a while since this girl fell asleep so fast. Even the coldness of the night could no longer afford to disturb him this time. I passed through each of these streets alone, without a single sentence spoken between us. I seem to have made a very bad impression on him for today. I know and can understand if he doesn't want to remember all the events throughout the day. Eresha laughed and became a jolly girl for a while. But, after that his face back cloudy and I think I'm the cause. There was nothing else I could use as an excuse to avoid this time. I admit to all that, I admit that I am truly guilty of this day.

Our meeting at the diner was unexpected. I didn't expect that I would find him again in a place this wide. The last thing I know about him is that he has moved to Korea to continue his studies. But I don't know exactly which city he lives in. I can't possibly look for him among the billions of people who are here. But the miracle really exists. He appeared right in front of me at that time with eyes that looked confused. Let him not be, I just don't understand how all this could happen.

Suddenly the bus stepped on its brake lever and stopped right in front of a stop. I looked out the window to see where we were currently stopping. After looking at the buildings around it, it seems I feel like I'm not alone with this place anymore. We finally reached the last stop. But the problem is, at this time Eresha still did not wake up as well. I don't know what to do with him right now.

Without a second thought, I immediately took her down from the bus without waking her up. After that I will think about it later. I'm gonna find a way out of this. This time I don't want to disappoint him again. I hope this time I did the right thing.

After going down, we sat at the stop for a few moments. I'm trying to get the apes to brainwash. I know if I can count on it this time. He has never disappointed me so far. And hopefully that includes this one. I didn't expect much, but please give me a way out. I can't do this alone anymore.

This time I was completely baffled by this situation. Now it's really complicated. It's even more complicated than any math problem I've solved so far. If I take her back to the dorm, then how. I don't know where the room is, and how to get in there. It's a dormitory, not just anyone can get in there except the authorities. The guard at that place was really tight. If I bring her there blatantly, then it's the same as me dragging her into trouble.