Lara's Admirers

Episode 89

BOTH OF US

After lunch, we just split up. Even though we are in the same place, our goal is still different. Between the two of us, no one wanted to sit there any longer, telling each other how to live. Our world isn't what it used to be, I don't even know how my old friends are. Either still on foot in the same place as before, or maybe already venturing to explore the universe.

Amel and I just arrived at one of the supermarkets around the gangnam street. Even though everything in that place was expensive and luxurious, we couldn't choose anything else. Only the supermarket was the closest to where we lived, also the most complete. Although we had to pay more, but it was natural. Incidentally the street in the gangnam area was one of the roads leading to our dormitory.

Almost every day I see the luxury of wealthy conglomerates living in the area. Tracks of luxury cars worth millions are seen parked neatly along the road. Houses with a minimalist concept add to the impression of luxury. The place looked one level higher than the other areas in Seoul City. After getting what we wanted, Amel and I rushed back to the dormitory.

“That was who?” ask the girl suddenly.

“Which one?” ask me to go back to make sure.

“Cowok that was loh.” sentilnya smooth.

I scratched my head that wasn't itchy. Although I actually know what the answer is, but I don't know how to answer it at all. I have to convey this correctly so that there is no misunderstanding. But it seems I was too stupid to compose such a sentence.

“Later to meet me in my dormitory, ulasin.” elakku.

“OK.” reply is short.

There was no meaningful conversation between the two of us. Everything is just a pleasantries with each other. All that was left was a coldness that quietly burst forth in desolation. I put the jacket back together, while still watching the street in front of me. Meanwhile, Amel looks so busy with his mobile phone. I don't know what kind of new stuff is in there. He could no longer pay attention to his steps. I could only shake my head to see the girl's behavior.

I took a slow bite on my lower lip, trying to keep it warm. It looks like today the temperature is coming down again. This morning the temperature rose and it felt so warm. Let's go back to our original concept. Everyone knows there is nothing to be said. They can change whenever they want. Predictions that have been written long ago can be missed or even completely wrong. It all depends on how the universe acts. And in the meantime man can only stand still while watching the universe work. Thousands of people who stand on the face of the earth continue to predict and make millions of predictions every day, without knowing how it will someday be.

***

I lay myself down on the bed while hiding under the covers. We're waiting for an order of chicken goring from one of the restaurants near here. We can do what when we are lazy to attack like this. Relying on others is the only proper word to describe our current situation. All the creatures in this world need each other. That is why humans are called social beings, and that is also why what is the term symbiosis in the study of natural science.

“So you don't want to tell me about that?” suddenly asked Amel.

“Not want mel.” I replied.

“Certain why dong?” ask the girl again.

“Gue don't know if you have to start the same story from where you used to.” I explained with a long sigh.

“Ya everywhere people story for sure from the beginning lah.” he said.

“Well that's the problem.” I said.

“Gue doesn't know which beginning of this story. Everything looks like a climax tau no?” my continue.

“Only drag it yes sha?” ask Amel carefully.

“Much more complicated than what I ever imagined mel.” lamented.

“Yes already, later if you feel already found which is the beginning of this story, do not forget to make a story directly to me. Okay?” he said suddenly.

I just nodded my head, saying what he said just now.

“Appointment?” ask the girl again.

“Iya-iya bawel lo!” answer me with annoyance.

In the meantime, it was clear if Amel would laugh at me. All the little things that felt quite ridiculous, he would immediately call it a joke. I don't even know where that funny thing came from. I think it was his mind that made ordinary things feel so ridiculous. I don't know, only he and God know what that means.

‘Ting! Tong!’

Suddenly the sound of a bell rang, like someone from outside this room was deliberately pressing the button. I turned all my attention to that. Amel went to check outside, he said it was probably the chicken we ordered a few minutes ago had arrived.

I got out of bed, towards a small table in the corner of this room. Tidy up some dishes and other cutlery that we will use. A second later, the girl returned with a box of Korean-style fried chicken. It turns out that his guess was right.

“Gue has laper nih.” he said while jumping around small.

“Udah for game here!” my reply.

There was still silence between us. One word called silence has quite often filled every empty space created for no reason. It seemed that silence would not be willing if Amel and I had a little distance, so he came as a mediator between the two of us.

We ate this simple dinner so hikmad. Although the menu is not the same expensive with the children of the conglomerate, but it feels so delicious. Learning to be grateful for every little thing like this will make us feel more than enough. Believe me, if what we need now is more than enough, then you will not feel deprived every day.

Remind one old saying that might make you aware. Remember this sentence if you feel very small and meaningful at all. Always remember that every big thing we see, always comes from thousands of small things collected over a very long period of time. So without one little thing, maybe that big thing would be ruined as well. When it is destroyed, it will turn back into a small fragment again.

“Where is the chicken?” my many.

“Still as usual, yummy.” reply him with mouth stuffed full of rice.

“They are very consistent when it comes to taste and quality. But if about the price, it can be la occasionally a bit skewed.” he continued.

I laughed at the girl. Why should he say such a thing in front of me as he is today. Even though he could directly meet with the restaurant owner and think like that if he wanted to.

‘Kling!’

Suddenly, my phone shook slowly. If the ringtone is short, it means that it is not the incoming phone. Except a kind of sms or notifications from other applications. So I don't pay much attention to it. I can check it out after lunch. I don't want my precious time to be interrupted by something as insignificant as this.

“Why don't you lift?” asked Amel enthusiastically.

“Please, it's not a phone. So just calm down, jus’t enjoy your free time.” reply me with what it is.

The girl simply nodded as she resumed her activities. I'm still busy with this snack, just like Amel. It's just that I don't understand why again such a thing must come to mind. It was an inopportune moment. It made my appetite drop drastically, but I continued until the food ran out. Because people say it's not good if we waste food. Because it's hard to get it.

All of a sudden the curiosity came up, after a long time I didn't feel it. This time I felt it for a long time. Why such a sudden moment like this I asked in my heart. Even though I know for a fact that it's pointless to ask myself that question, because I don't know what the answer is.

“Where to stay Arka?”

What kind of stupid question is that. It's not important at all, but I still want to know. You stubborn! Why would he care about such a thing, he just doesn't care a bit about me. After seeing his attitude at the place of eating earlier, I felt that he had now turned into indifferent. Either he is indifferent to everything around him, or only to his past.

***

After I finish dinner, I still have to finish some college assignments for next week. The task is quite a lot and complicated, so it must be completed immediately in advance of the deadline. I haven't checked my phone since the notification came out at dinner last night. I don't even know what the notification message is. But I'm starting to ignore that again.

For over an hour I sat down to the table and struggled with the pile of books that now seemed scattered. Now that my neck is starting to ache, even my back feels the same. Today was really exhausting, even though I don't know what's going on with me today. Obviously, I feel really tired, even though I don't know why.

“Sha, why don't you pick up the phone from Yoo Mi Ra?!” amel yelled, who looked like he was back in the kitchen.

I immediately got up from my position then and started looking at the girl seriously. While he looks so relaxed while drinking a cup of homemade hot chocolate.

“Means lo?” many wonder.

“So he called me. He said Mi Ra has tried many times to call you, but you do not lift.” he explained.

I paused for a moment while recalling what had happened.

“Ohhhh...” I said with a fully rounded mouth.

“So my phone died, has not had time to charge.” continued me.

“Basic! The habits of emang lo. If there is something important how?” ocehniah.

“Kan I will not forever so.” replied me as is.

“Solar by aja.”

I lifted both my shoulders. I started to give up on our conversation just now. It always ends up like this. I also wonder why it's always this way, even if it's absolutely nothing to both of us. This is an ordinary thing that cannot be disputed with each other.