Lara's Admirers

Episode 57's

That night we saw a full moon without a cluster of stars up there. Listen to the classic story about the moon and the sun that can not meet just for a moment.

I closed my eyes while enjoying the night air that brought the singing of nature. Although this is just an image, it feels so real. But I will let the universe know if this man is my most beautiful image.

"Sha..." Sahut Kak Sendy's.

I closed my eyes and looked at the man.

"I'm going first." Further.

"Where are you going?"

I immediately rose from my position and immediately sat my body down.

"Somewhere that no one can visit even if he wants to." Evidently.

"In the world of imagination, brother?"

"No, it's more than imagination."

"Continue where dong?"

"I can't explain everything right now. Someday you will know, let time work as it should. Just like the old days when you knew who that mysterious man really was." Clearly with eyes I can't understand.

I just fell silent while thinking about the meaning of his words earlier. But what this guy said was true as well. Just follow the flow of life time that will take us somewhere. Just like a water droplet that doesn't know where it's going to boil. But he continued to flow for the clarity of himself.

"Can we stay here any longer?" My toot.

"Not for now...." Answer with a heavy heart.

"Is your brother in a hurry?" Ask again.

"Sorry, but I have to go now I can't put it off." Hard-footed to me.

"Please promise me that you will come to this place again someday. I want when I get back here brother is also in this place." My love is half-wet.

"Everything is under your control sha...." Reply to the man.

"You can bring me here anytime." Further.

At least his last words had made me much calmer. Although I actually don't want him to leave the world that I created myself.

"Basically I'm not going to really go. I'll always be in that necklace, with you. So take care of that thing." He said while pointing at that glittering thing.

"How can you?" Ask wonder.

The man reached for one of my hands while smiling faintly. Take him to his face, then briefly kiss the back of my hand. A second later the figure simply disappeared from before me. Going somewhere, it was as if it turned into wisps of smoke that blended together with the atmosphere.

My grasp was now empty, everything disappeared in the blink of an eye. I don't even know which way he's going. But this is the world of my imagination, anything can happen here. Even things that seem unreasonable can happen, nothing is impossible here. In a different world, deep in my mind.

***

Suddenly, my eyes opened and found myself in my room. It was as if some enormous power had pulled my soul back. My body was sweating so much back then, that my clothes felt wet and sticky. My breath also feels hunting, I try to regulate my breath that is no longer. The tempo of my heart beat was also increasingly pounding.

I observed the crowded surroundings. There were some white robed people there, but I couldn't see them clearly. There was also the sound of a hysterical cry that was not so clearly caught by my eardrum.

"What actually happened to me?" My mind is in my heart trying to put my whole life back together.

Slowly, all the scenes began to be real and look solid. I can easily guess who they are now. The men in white robes were a doctor and some of his assistants who were in my room at the time. And the middle-aged woman who was always with me was seen crying sobbing at the end of the bed. I also realized that I was wearing a breathing apparatus.

"What happened...." I said with a loud voice.

I'm not sure if they can hear my voice. It feels like my energy is completely exhausted, even just to talk it feels like I can no longer.

Shortly after the doctor finished his work, the aunt approached me who was lying down and immediately hugged me so tightly. For some reason my tears suddenly flowed down my cheeks for no apparent reason.

A few minutes later, the doctor opened my breathing apparatus and immediately left this place. Every now and then aunt tries to get me to talk even though I can't respond to her for now. His voice sounded raucous and trembling.

"What's going on?" I ask once again.

I slowly started to recover.

"Alhamdulillah...." Said aunt thankfully.

"Auntie was worried about the same.... It was while sleeping mbak talking by himself like again ngigau. Aunty tried to wake up even mbakannya diem." Obviously the woman while occasionally wiping her tears.

"But what scared aunty earlier, I didn't breathe at all when aunt tried to wake up. That's why aunt called the doctor. And earlier said the heart doctor could stop for a moment, as well as the same breath mbak. To the extent that the doctor realises that there is no. It was almost aja mbak want to be taken to the morgue, fortunately mbak immediately wake up again." Said aunt with great difficulty.

"This is truly a miracle...." Further.

I'm surprised I didn't play to hear aunty's confession that was so creepy. I can't imagine if I was really dead. But thank God still gives me a chance to live.

I tried to calm myself down who was in complete shock at what had just happened to me. That means I almost really go out there.

I realized one more thing that surprised me. How could I be holding a bunch of chrysanthemum flowers while sleeping like this. The necklace had also suddenly been tied between my fingers back then.

"Why is this flower here?" I asked weakly.

"Auntie also does not know where this flower suddenly came from." Reply to aunt for what is.

My hands shook violently when I found the flower in front of me. I was so scared back then and wanted to throw this thing in every direction. Anyone please get this death flower away from me, I am not dead! Who could have done this to me.

"Please get rid of this flower....." I said while sobbing.

I'm really scared right now. I can't even control myself anymore.

The aunt who heard what I said just now, picked up the thing and put it on the table.

"Whose necklace is mbak?" Ask aunt.

I just shook my head slowly while still letting the micro-sized silver chain get wrapped up in my hand. I don't think this thing is so mentally threatening to me. I held it firmly while closing both my eyelids.

I can't figure out how all these things got here. The last time I was in the world of my imagination, on that hill. And I still remember clearly if this necklace was given by Brother Sendy when I was there. Where maybe something that exists in our subconscious can be carried to the real world. It's all just a delusion, then how can it happen. Now I am confused and unable to distinguish which one is imaginary and which one is spiritual.

"Did anyone else come here?" My toot.

"There was no mistress, auntie right from earlier had not slept. So auntie didn't see anyone come in here." Obviously the middle-aged woman.

I'm getting confused now. I am actually imagining, dreaming or actually going on a spiritual journey to another dimension.

"What time did I fall asleep?" I ask once again.

"Eating the porridge immediately went to sleep, time did not remember. About twelve o'clock past twenty that's all right."

I sipped my saliva with great difficulty. My whole body was stiff, pecking in place. If I fall asleep that fast, then why in my memory I'm still awake until one night.

I may not just be dreaming. At least I can feel a little relieved among all the weirdness that happened to me today. What is the meaning of a dream that is only as sleeping flowers. But I still can't figure out how the things I got in the dreamland can get carried away into the real world.

It sounds strange to anyone who listens to it. Looks like I'm going to keep this one, the guy told me to take care of it. He said his soul would live on in this jewel-eyed necklace. Although it feels impossible, it seems like a bedtime story for kids.

I don't usually dream weird like this. I am also one of the people who rarely experience dreams during sleep. And I don't usually dream of Sendy like this. I hope this dream means nothing to me.

I'm not a person who believes too much in such mystical things. Sometimes I just think of it like the wind. But since today's events, from seeing the spirits of the dead to this strange dream, it seems like from now on I will start to consider about it. Maybe this is one of the ways they've awakened me if our world always coexists.

I want to quickly get out of this place. I can't stand everything anymore. All the strange things that have happened lately seem to be terrorizing me. After all, this is not the hospital I used to go to, it is the first time I have set foot in this place.

"Yaudah, sleep again huh mbak." Said aunty while stroking the smooth top of my head.

I began to close my eyes for the umpteenth time, hoping that nothing would happen again. Let me rest for a while. I solemnly recited the prayer before going to sleep in my heart, with hope. After that I started trying to fall asleep again while still holding the silver necklace.

I don't know why I feel so much calmer with him. My soul really feels so peaceful and peaceful. I'm more and more convinced to keep this necklace with me, even though I don't know its origins clearly. But I don't know what the chrysanthemum flowers are, I don't know what to do with that one thing. Maybe I'll just let you wither away. That way I won't be thinking about the chrysanthemum flower.

***

"Cuitt..cuitt...hd...cittt....cit..."

The sound of a sparrow always perched on the roof squealed my ears at that time. The group of small birds fluttered about to welcome the dawn that had been rising since dawn. A symbol of joy that many cannot understand. Somehow his name must be taken from one of the names of places of worship of Christians. Maybe they used to prefer nesting and playing there, jumping up and down on the roof of the building that conical high.

I pulled out a few hairs that blocked my view at the time. I was leaning on the bed at that time while enjoying the morning sunlight coming through the window. I woke up earlier than I thought. I slept about four hours more than last night. But strangely I don't feel sleepy at all. It seems like my body has a natural alarm that wakes me up at certain hours.

I feel better today than I did yesterday. As for the terrible events that happened yesterday, forget them. Now a new day has begun, with millions of new stories waiting every second.

I checked the infusion bottle hanging up there. Make sure that yesterday they didn't add more fluid when I was dying yesterday. If they do that, maybe I'll stay here for two or three days.

Fortunately, they did not replace it with a new bottle of intravenous fluid. So there is still hope for me to be able to go home soon today. I don't want to be here much longer.

In retrospect it felt so creepy to imagine yesterday that I really almost died here. I'm not ready for any of that if yesterday really happened. I don't want to be part of this dark side of the place, adding to the mystical feel of this hospital. Just imagining it made me shudder in horror.

I don't know what to do right now, other than look out the window. Bibi was downstairs looking for her breakfast, as the hospital only provided food for her patients. That's why auntie has to buy food all the time. Looks like I need to talk to grandma about this, so she can replace the aunt's money that came out while taking care of me here. Poor woman, surely the contents of her wallet are getting thin. Though it's aunty's money personally, I shouldn't bother you like this.

While waiting for my aunt to come, I also waited for my breakfast this morning which is usually delivered by hospital staff. Porridge with soup sauce, do not forget also along with drugs and a glass of warm water is always delivered to each patient three times a day. I really hope that today will be the last day I set foot here.

Soon someone familiar to me entered the room, carrying some plastic crates and a tray that was usually carried by hospital staff. He approached me sitting there with a smile that he was always spreading at all times.

"Well, how's that aunt with her food?" Ask wonder.

"Yes, that was the person who used to nganterin papasan the same aunt fit in front. So all aunts bring me." Obviously the woman while thrusting the contents of the tray to me.

Aunt set up a folding table I used to wear. After that I started eating my breakfast, as well as the woman. We ate the food in front of each of us with solemnity. Although I actually feel bored with the menu of hospital cuisine that is always the same every day, but I have started to get used to all this.

"Oh yes mbak, this morning aunty received a call from Renata's mother. He said today they'd fly to Jakarta." Aunty.

"Oh yeah? Good then." My reply was short while ending my activities at that time.

"But I told you I had Stefani at home?" My next.

"You know what mbak...."

"Ntar at kira maling again, haha...."

A second later I immediately took some pills with various colors provided there. It always feels the same every time it goes into my tongue, everything is equally bitter. I smiled wryly after the foreign object passed through my throat.

"Later they will also come here after reaching Jakarta." Aunty.

"Yaudah, it's no problem."

"Mama and papa will also be here later."

I smiled a little with a little force.

I don't know why every time I hear that word, I'm not excited at all. It's not that I hate my own parents, it's just that there's still something stuck in the taste. If I don't know for sure what makes me feel uncomfortable like this.

"Same papa come back here too?" My toot.

"It's Mbak, Renata will soon be getting married." Reply aunty so innocently.

I nodded in understanding just saying yes. How could I forget about that. Soon Renata will soon be married to someone she loves. Of course they do not want to miss that precious moment. Which parent does not want to accompany his child on his happy day like that. Seeing her daughter's happy laughter just then was more than enough for them.

Suddenly I remembered something I had almost forgotten.

"Where's the necklace?" My heart is in my heart while looking for it.

As I recall yesterday I still left it in my hands until I fell asleep. It should still be here. It may be hidden between the folds of these tangled blankets.

"What's mbak looking for?" Ask the aunt who seemed to realize something.

"The necklace that I held yesterday is not bi?" Reply while still searching.

"Oh, that's auntie on the table. Fear if you bring sleep all night even damaged again because of stricken." Obviously the woman then immediately returned the necklace to me.

Without a second thought I immediately wrapped the thing I still did not know its origin in my neck. I don't want to lose this one thing.

"Who the hell are you, how important is that?" Ask aunt once again.

I'm not sure aunt would believe my confession if I told her the truth. Even I still can't believe it. My brain can't logically digest that.

"Some of the people who came here yesterday." Reply with a little lie.

Not a bit of a lie anymore, I was lying. But I have no evil intentions.

"Oh, that was yesterday's rame?"

"Yes bi...."

"From Arka's, huh?"

"Not bi! What the hell could be of him." My eagle.

How could this woman assume such a thing to me. Of course it's never gonna happen. We are friends now, nothing more.

"Who would it have been if it wasn't from the Arka?"

"From Clara...."

"The girls give so to mbak."

"Brinkles..."

I try to avoid as much as possible. I didn't expect this woman to be that much with my personal business. But I can understand that.

"Good morning...." Greet someone from the door.

It was the doctor who used to check my condition progress every day. But wait, why was the doctor with the nurse yesterday. Sister looks good like that bule, which sucks for me.

Most upset by yesterday's incident, I did not answer the doctor's greeting earlier. Though it was not his fault, why should I silence that one doctor. He has been taking very good care of me all along. I shouldn't have acted like this to that doctor just because the nun sucks.

"For doc....." I answered with a small smile.

The woman immediately checked all my conditions today. I stared straight ahead without turning my gaze even a little towards the nurse. I don't want him to dig up more about my privacy.

"Alright, his condition is good enough. The recovery was so quick, when yesterday you were close...." The doctor said while hanging his sentence.

"Died?" I took the initiative of continuing the last rich he wanted to say just now.

The doctor just nodded slowly while smiling stiffly at me. I know if he actually hesitated to tell me that.

"You should be grateful for that a lot, something magical was coming for you yesterday." His word.

"That must be...." My reply.

"Good news is you can go home soon today. Your condition's stable enough, you'll be fine." The doctor continued, patting my shoulder gently.