Lara's Admirers

Episode 19's

"Two really sincerely same lo sha."

　

　

"Love doesn't have to be forced. Brother said it was sister's process to love me completely. That means you're trying to love me even though you don't really feel for me."

　

　

"Not so sha."

　

　

"The feeling that exists between us now, is the sense that is forced to exist."

　

　

  Love should not be because of coercion. But love is a natural reaction that arises unintentionally.

　

　

"We talked outside. It's not good if others listen."

　

　

  We immediately headed out of the room before more eyes were on us. To be honest, this is something that is hard for me to understand.

　

　

"Sister should return to Renata. I beg you."

　

　

"It's not that easy to reverse sha's feelings."

　

　

"I'm sure big brother can certainly as long as big brother is determined."

　

　

"Dengerin gua sha."

　

　

  The man breathed for a moment. Then suddenly both hands were on my cheeks.

　

　

"Not going to be spewed in the mind of the cave to leave you."

　

　

  He seemed to be trying his hardest to convince me. Although I actually don't want this man to leave me or vice versa. But, I have to do this. The sooner I leave, he'll get used to it when I'm really no longer by his side.

　

　

"Sister."

　

　

  I was trying to get rid of her hand that was still on my cheek since then.

　

　

"Sister, this is our last appearance. And after this we will never be together again. So I beg you. Whatever happens, you have to keep performing."

　

　

"Sha, actually..... Emm... Yes the cave will appear together lo. We're all going to be together. This is our last look, right?"

　

　

  I know that guy is hiding something. The sadness that emanated was so obvious as he said "Last look." I know he's trying to look tough in front of me. But actually he also knows, if what he did was free. Because he knew clearly that I was a pretty good face reader.

　

　

***

　

　

  Everyone was prepared with their own tools. With weight I put my feet up while holding my musical instrument. So is his. Honestly, I really hate the look this time. I hate all the songs we've trained together. I hate wearing this uniform.

　

　

  Maybe since we're no longer one in this song, I could've hated everything that holds a memory of him. I keep hoping this goodbye doesn't happen. I hate the time that has taken everything away from me.

　

　

***

　

　

  We came early to the pitch, from a time that should have been decided. We did a few rehearsal times. To make sure that our performance will be perfect.

　

　

"All right, let's rest until the opening ceremony starts." Said Mr. Chandra.

　

　

"Well Sir!" Reply to us simultaneously.

　

　

  Then we disperse all directions looking for a shady place to rest. I immediately took off the hat with a feather ornament on it. It was only seven in the morning, but the sun was already this bright. Sometimes I shake my hand, hoping for a little refreshing air. Suddenly, a hand grabbed my shoulder.

　

　

　

　

"Now dong. As long as there's a big brother, it's spirit."

　

　

"Caves too. And the cave also hopes to be longer in the Marching band."

　

　

"Don't go."

　

　

"The two did not want to leave either."

　

　

"We can still perform together like this, right?"

　

　

"Gua wants that too."

　

　

"Please don't go, our song is still not finished brother."

　

　

"Lo promises to be a Marching band player. Even without the cave."

　

　

"I'm not sure I can handle that."

　

　

"Hey, don't dong. Remember the first time you passed the Marching band selection? Your goal in Marching band is not because of the cave, right? Ko must be consistent with your goals."

　

　

"Yes that. How could my goal be to get into Marching band because of brother. We didn't know each other that day."

　

　

"That's why, we can meet in the Marching band because our world is the same. We like the same thing, tone."

　

　

"Want a drink?"

　

　

I switched the conversation, because I honestly didn't want to make myself sadder.

　

　

"Can."

　

　

"Well, I'll take it a minute."

　

　

I approached several boxes of mineral water that the committee had provided for us. I took two bottles, one for the man.

　

　

"It." I said while offering a bottle of mineral water.

　

　

I took a position in front of the man. Sitting on the ground covered with thin grass. I sighed heavily after the last gulp. My position was behind him, my gaze sweeping across every side of the field. I leaned against the man's feet, which were slightly higher than mine.

　

　

Sassy sunlight that afternoon pierced my net without any prior warning. My reflexes narrowed my eyes. Then an object that was not so big, but enough to dispel the sunlight was right above my head. I fumbled and tried to guess what was up there. But a hand tried to stop me while whispering...

　

　

"Don't come off, you'll overheat."

　

　

I know exactly who the owner of the voice is. You guys must know who he is, too. Who else if not Sendy. This time he put an ornate fur hat on top of my head. Of course it's the hat from this uniform that I haven't taken off my head in a while.

　

　

I just smiled amusedly at the man's ridiculous behavior. For some, it may be romantic. But to me it's really ridiculous. Even I couldn't hold back my tingling until I laughed and confused myself.

　

　

But, to be honest I still can't let go of him. Can I stop this time right now? The tone that I thought we were going to play together, now has been broken. The tempo we had been guarding all this time, was now a mess.

　

　

"We're one, but we can't be whole."