Lara's Admirers

Episode 48's

"I came back, thanks for dinner." Said Arka from the top of his motorbike.

"Be careful on the road..." My reply.

After saying goodbye, he immediately left the complex with his motorcycle. After confirming that he had actually left, I went back inside the house.

"Grandmother when do you come home?" Ask the aunt who was doing the dishes.

"Possible if not tomorrow, the day after tomorrow bi." My reply.

I helped finish a little aunt's work. Now, for example, I'm cleaning the dinner table. After finishing my work, I hurried up to the room. I need some alone time to rest.

"Bi, I went upstairs first huh." My pamit.

"Yes, ma'am."

I knocked myself down on the desk chair, remembering whether or not there was a task. I remember everything I finished at school. Somehow since yesterday because I wanted to directly watch the game, I became more use of my free time at school.

I circulated the view of the entire room, looking for something I could do. Until the eyeball stopped on one object in the corner of the room. Real events in the past that were perpetuated.

The work I did at the time was not in vain. The medal is full of memories, it doesn't just give me one precious memory. There are millions of stories behind it.

Suddenly I remembered the letter that Arka had written. An expression of his heart written in the name of friendship. I took out my entire bag to find the book. Bingo! I finally found you!

I then took the cutter and ruler to separate the special sheet from the other pages. I tore off that part of the courtyard slowly and carefully.

Maybe I should frame it, it's a work of art. So I decided to put it on the right side of my medal which was still empty.

I went down for a while to find some nails. Luckily, I still have some empty photos. Actually, this is the leftover figura that my mother bought to display photos of family members. Because there are still some unused, so I also brought him here. Coincidentally the size does fit the size of my paper book.

I stuck the nail in the wall with the help of a hammer. This time I will be more careful that the events of that time do not happen again.

"Drrttt!!!"

My phone suddenly shook slowly. I checked it, it was Stefani. He doesn't usually call me nights like this. He should still be working, lately the girl always takes the night shift.

"Hello stef, what's wrong?" My word.

"Gue can stay at your house for a while." The answer is from across there.

"Loh why? Where are you going?"

"Gue was just kicked out of the boarding house because he had not paid the bill last month. Though my intention is to pay for it wait for payday." Obviously the girl.

"Judah deh, after all, my sister's grandmother is back in the village."

"She really?"

"Yes...."

"Thank you so much, I promise I won't be there long. After the payday later I immediately look for a new boarding."

"Yes, relax. I will also talk to Grandma. It must be permissible."

"Okay, I'm getting ready to go there first."

"But sorry stef, I can't help you. It's been night too, so there's no transportation to make an impression."

"Yes, I can't go there by myself. Lagian Lo already want to give a ride in your house that is more than enough. Yaudah yeah, I matiin first phone out it otw to there." Stefani.

"Tut...but....tut....."

Stefani cut off her phone immediately.

Besides, I don't get to heart if he has to be abandoned like that. Moreover, he is my best friend. Even if he wasn't my best friend like he is today, I would still help him while I still can.

I immediately cleaned up the mess in my bedroom. Of course I don't want that girl making fun of me because of my messy room situation.

I lay myself on the bed playing on my phone. I'm among the people who feel at home when playing this rectangular object. Sometimes even forget the time. I often play with my phone late at night.

"Tok..but.tok..."

Someone knocked on my door from outside. With heavy steps I tried to reach the door. This bed is too comfortable for me to leave.

"What's wrong?" My toot.

"There's a picture of him down below. He's carrying a suitcase, he says he wants to stay here really mbak?"

"Yes bi, he's been kicked out of the boarding house."

"Can't you?"

"Over the story bi, I'll go downstairs first ya pick him up."

Aunt just nodded her head in agreement with my words. Although his face still looked curious, because he had not gotten what he wanted.

I'm not going to tell anyone much about Stefani. However, he must have privacy that should not be in the umbar carelessly. Being close friends does not mean we can interfere in all their affairs. Sometimes every human being also needs time for himself, who does not even want to be pushed aside by the universe.

***

I took her up to my room, then arranged some of her suitcases in the corner of the room. Sometimes I don't think. How could he lift all these suitcases by himself.

There were three suitcases with big size that he brought. One contained all his clothes and blankets, then in the other suitcase specifically to place school books and the last contained small furniture items that he had packed with dus first before.

He had not even had time to rest himself for a while in his room. Stefani was immediately kicked out and told to pack all his things shortly after he reached the place. Uniforms and approns that he wears to work have not been replaced with sleepwear.

How does the girl feel now. He must have felt really bad. Sometimes I had time to think whether the owner of the boarding room did not have a sense of humanity or how. With a stand he abandoned a high school kid in the middle of the night like this.

Just because of the penny he could not get according to his expectations, he up to the heart did that. Matter has thoroughly washed away the common sense of man, also dispelling the fairy taste of humanity.

While Stefani was taking a shower and getting ready for bed, I took her dinner. I'm sure he hasn't had time to eat a mouthful since noon.

***

"Stef here's the dinner I put on the study table." My word.

"Yes, thank you." Stefani replies from the bathroom.

Before long the girl came out of the bathroom with her hair wrapped in a towel. Then he immediately went to my study table to eat his dinner.

"Gue promise me that over here will help auntie." Stefani said with a mouth full of food.

"Haha... It's up to stef." My reply.

"Sha..."

"Yes?"

"This is a letter from Arka?" Ask Stefani.

My eyes immediately widened after hearing the sentence just now. How could I forget that. I ran straight to Stefani. Without a second thought I immediately got rid of that thing from there. I hope he hasn't read it yet.

"On display, nothing." Stefani said calmly.

"It's okay to keep it." Repasku while hugging the figura.

"That's a very romantic arc, why try you guys to be happy."

Maybe Stefani could read this. Damnit damnit! I want to hide my face from this world. My body immediately turned limp.

"Have you read this?" My toot.

Stefani nodded her head excitedly.

I patted my jidat slowly. Stupidhead!

"On display here, it looks more aesthetic." Stefani.

I nodded quickly in response to her words just now.

"Why?" Ask Stefani wonder.

Then without prior warning, he immediately snatched the figura from my hand. The girl returned the thing to where it came from, the place where it was supposed to be.

"Until now you've never told anyone the reason you broke up." Stefani.

Ah, come! I don't want to talk about this now, maybe even forever.

"Over the story, Stef, you won't understand." Reply with a slightly slower sound volume.

"That's okay, story. I'm going to end it up."

I shook my head. I hope he can understand my situation now. I don't even know where to start. The story is too complicated, it's already very tangled. I'm not sure if he'll understand. He was afraid he would misunderstand me.

"Judah if you don't want to tell a story, I don't mean it either." Reply Stefani understood.

I'm relieved that this sometimes annoying girl can also be such a warm person.

"I turned the plate down first." Stefani.

I nodded at his words.

After making sure that Stefani had actually left, I got rid of the figura again. I put it in my study desk drawer.

"Remember sha.this is all in the name of friendship, nothing more!"

I reaffirmed that to myself. To my heart that has not been fully healed. Convince myself that I will rise again someday.

Actually, this is not what I want. But the fate line says something else. I'm not sure if our company can still be what it used to be. It's like the past I've spent with him.

I'm not sure if my friendship with Arka will go well until the time specified. If this feeling has not completely disappeared from each of us, it will be difficult to face our current status.

Because thinking about it, my eyeballs became heated up without me noticing I had a chance to cry. I immediately wiped the tears before I saw Stefani.

"I don't need these stupid tears!" My mind is in my heart.

Since the truth revealed the truth at that time I began to be fragile. I tried to calm myself.

***

21.32

We both are doing nothing right now. Staring at the ceiling of my room while lying on the bed. Really less work. There is nothing else we can do but that one. Even though I've twisted the brain, the results are still nil. It was a really boring night.

"Sha..."

Suddenly Stefani began to break the silence of the atmosphere that night.

"Yes?" My reply turned to her who was lying next to me at that moment.

"It's natural that people like me can fall in love?"

Again he expressed his heart that we had not finished in the school toilet because he hurried to leave me.

"Why don't all humans fall in love."

"Gue was too scared to fall into it."

I can just shut up and shut up. There's nothing I can say anymore.

"Sometimes I'm afraid to start all this. Too risky for someone like me."

"Who is that guy?"

"Gue's not sure if it's really him who made me fall in love."

"Sometimes there are times when we can't understand ourselves. Same feelings we're not clear, which sometimes makes us confused what to do."

Stefani chuckled after hearing my words just now. I don't know what's wrong with my words. Did I say something funny that made her laugh? But I don't think so. I knew very well that our situation was serious. So how could I joke like that.

"Why are you laughing?" Many confusion.

"Lo is also confused about your own feelings sha? Hahaha..."

"So, why the hell?"

"Lo confused how does Arka feel now?"

That sentence made me silenced and could not pucker up at all. I told you not to talk about Arka or anyone tonight. Please, just once.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it..." Said Stefani who suddenly felt guilty.

He seemed to notice a change in my emotions at the time. I hurriedly switched the conversation back to the topic we were discussing earlier.

"Udah, it's nothing." My reply.

"Gue promise I won't talk about it again. I know your heart has not fully recovered. Maybe Arka's the same."

"What about that guy you like?"

"Oh.he..."

"You know who he is."

"Satan..."

Both my eyeballs were perfectly rounded when I heard that name. Didn't I just misheard. The Titan he was referring to was his best friend Titan Arka right?

"But don't tell anyone." Stefani Pinta.

"We're the two of us?"

"For now I can only trust you. Please don't tell anyone else including Clara or Arka, let alone Titan."

"I'll take care of this as best I can."

"Thank you Eresha Caitlyn Ananda...."

Fuck up! This girl always mentioned my full name when she wanted to. Even now he doesn't let me move a bit. He tied me up in his arms, a defense of the embrace of friendship. Like the Teletubbies cartoon who likes to cuddle with his friends maybe.

I tried to get his hands off my body. But still the result was nil, its power was much greater than I had expected. Maybe because he just finished dinner, so his energy immediately increased like this.

After feeling satisfied, he finally allowed me to breathe freely again. I looked at him with sharp eyes that indicated that I did not like being treated like I had just. Stefani plainly even grinned as if innocent.

"Wait a minute, which Titan is this?" My toot.

I just wanted to make sure that my previous guess was right and not wrong.

"Yes Titan is one gang with Arka. Where else would Titan try?" Stefani replied while clucking.

"Only in Nusantara High School whose name is Titan is only one?"

"I don't know either, hehe..... But among all the Nusantara High School students I know, whose name is Titan only he doang."

"Goddess..basic!"

That night we didn't think we'd tell us much about Titan. I hope the guy's ears don't get hot in there. Forgive us for sassy rumors about you nights like this.

"By the way how can you like Titan? Since when? Is he handsome, huh? Do you try the reason?"

I immediately interrogated Stefani at that time at the scene of the CTF.

"One-on-one dong gave me the question. If gini wants to answer which one first try."

"Hehe... Yes sorry, my curiosity soul is already passionate. It's not under control anymore."

"Do you know doang or kepo?"

"Both of them, hehe..."

Inquisitive and kepo are two things that are the same but different. It is hard to describe in words. The simple form is more or less like twins who are similar but still have differences between each other. Although the difference is only a small difference.

All right, back to topic.

"So which one did you answer?" Ask Stefani.

"The first question."

"Well the question is, I forgot."

I hissed resentfully towards Stefani. How could he forget something I just said a few seconds ago. No wonder if he often suddenly forgets the equilibrium formulas of rigid objects during physics replicates.

I took a deep breath while increasing my patience level. Then I had to repeat exactly the same words I just said a few seconds ago.

"What made you love Titan?"

Stefani threw her gaze at the ceiling of the room for a moment, she seemed to be thinking hard. Trying to recall the incident some time ago that made him fall in love with the man.

"Gue doesn't have a reason, I myself am also confused why I like him."

"No wonder anyway."

"What do you mean?"

"In general, love does not need a reason to happen. It was a natural reaction that appeared suddenly. Even we ourselves don't know to whom the taste is growing and how it develops." I clearly.

"Well, yes, really. I didn't think I'd like him either."

"Love is simple, our lives are all that makes things complicated."

His face instantly changed the expression as we discussed about the man. He was so enthusiastic, I could feel his emotional burden slowly beginning to diminish. He now felt more relieved, it all emanated from the look of his eyes. Both of his eyes were glistening at that moment, full of meaning.

"I've been hiding this for a long time." Stefani.

He told me that voluntarily without asking. This is what happens when we begin to feel truly trusting in someone.

"Oh yeah, since when?" Ask enthusiastically.

"A long time ago, ever since I was in first grade High School. Still stinks of crotch." Said Stefani in a huffing tone.

Then it made me laugh a little at her words just now.

"When it was school orientation, he was the first person I knew at this school." Stefani.

I started to take all the stories seriously.

"We're always going everywhere together. Anyway, we used to be very familiar. Until the day of the test arrives, we are given a written test like it makes sure majors and classes are suitable for us. A week later the test results came out and I was the same Titan was forced to separate because he managed to get into the superior class. Since then, we have rarely seen each other at school. He's spending more time playing with Arka and Adit." Stefani clearly has difficulty.

I know very well how he feels right now. It must have been hard for him to get back to normal and get used to it without the man. Become strangers to each other.

All I can capture from the story, at that time Stefani only considered Titan as a friend. Or maybe he had started to love her, just that Stefani was still too selfish to admit it. And now the sense of it again greets his world that is too stiff. They had to meet every day and be in the same room for more than seven hours a day.

"And until this moment the feeling is still tucked in your heart? Even if it's just a little." My word.

Stefani nodded her head, agreeing with my words.