Lara's Admirers

Episode 30's

"I can finally breathe a sigh!" Said Stefani while breathing the air around him deeply.

"Either." Short reply.

Three hours of maths lessons made us stay in the dumpster. All over our bodies were sweating coldly. Thank goodness these difficult times have passed.

I leaned my body on the chair, my head staring at the classroom ceiling.

"Sha, psttt... Sha!" Stefani grabbed my arm a few times.

I threw a glance at the girl who had been sitting next to me.

"That." Point it at the door.

My eyeballs follow the direction of his index finger.

"Congratulations?" My words are amazed.

Since when did that man stand in front of my class like one who was subjected to such punishment. I waved my hand hinting for him to come in here.

After all, it was just me and Stefani in class. All students in this class are always to their paradise at rest, yes what else if not the cafeteria. Actually, Stefani and I were also included in that group, but after passing hours of math lessons that were quite draining the brain earlier, but, it felt like we didn't have the slightest bit of energy left even to crawl into the cafeteria.

Arka who seemed to have been watching me for a long time, was immediately excited when I hinted to approach me here. Fast, almost running. He pulled the chair in front of me.

"Here, eat." Arka thrust his box.

"This what?" I asked while observing the object from far away.

"Brown cake, I know if you haven't had breakfast yet." Speak it quickly.

I opened the box containing a few pieces of chocolate cake. I'm sharing it with Stefani.

Arka leaned her body towards me, her face turning more serious this time.

"Where were you?" Ask in a serious tone.

"meaning?" I asked back, not understanding the meaning of his words just now.

"I went to your house this morning, you didn't exist. Keep your gate locked." Evidently.

"Cieee... Who has been dating seems to have a personal ojek. Every day at the shuttle." Stefani just cut it.

We didn't pay any heed to the girl, after all she didn't seem to mind. He was busy enjoying the chocolate cake from Arka earlier.

"The whole story." Answer's short.

"Yes for forgetting the alarm set." Stefani once again.

"I forgot what set of alarms does it mean?" This time Arka seemed to respond to Stefani's words.

"You're the obvious one." I give it to the girl.

"So gini, last night Eresha went home. So, he was very sleepy and just played sleep until he forgot to reset his alarm. As a result the alarm sounds still at four in the morning kayak karen. So Eresha woke up, and went to school less than usual. That's why it's fitting you samperin into her house, her Eresha doesn't exist. Because he left first." Stefani on Ark.

While Arka seemed to listen to Stefani's explanation.

"Thus that?" Ask Arka to me.

I nodded my head.

"Definitely sapped because over time in my house, huh?" Tanya Arka felt guilty.

"Arka's house? Why you?" Tanya Stefani is suspicious.

"Main music with his Mama." Obviously I'm short, don't want this girl to be misunderstood by me and Arka.

"Oh." Short reply.

He was too busy enjoying the chocolate cake in his hand.

"It's noon, right?" Ask Arka again.

"Huh? Later noon? Why?" I'm really in a bad condition to talk to.

I don't know why I haven't been so focused lately.

"Yes, playing at the same Cafe as Sendy's sister." He grunted softly trying to be more patient with me.

"Oh. Aye." Yeah."

"Why are you today?"

"No."

"Oh my God, I went back to class." Pamit Archa's.

I just nodded weakly while staring at his back which was getting away from me.

Stefani stopped her activities for a moment, she highlighted me clingy.

"You why? Stumped?" Negotiate.

I sighed heavily, not knowing what to answer.

"Are you angry that I went first and didn't tell him? After that I even nyuekin him that. Is he mad at me?" My mind is in my heart.

I don't even know what I've done wrong, to make him act like that to me.

"Wooy!" Stefani said in a high tone.

I clicked bitterly because he had made me flinch.

"What?" Answer me as coldly as possible.

"You guys fighting?" Stefani repeated the question.

"You think, maybe not if Arka was angry with me because I didn't go with him?"

"It's not possible." Stefani said plainly.

"He was a grown man who knew. So it's impossible that he was angry because of the trivial problem that doang." Obviously the girl.

I don't want to shake my head with that problem.

***

"Is it possible I should stay away from Eresha?" Inner Ark in the heart.

He leaned his body against the toilet wall. Arka was alone there. It seems he is having a problem that he does not want to tell anyone, including Eresha.

Yesterday after Arka drove Eresha home, she met Brother Sendy. He had heard everything from the man's mouth straight away.

Brother Sendy claimed to have gotten all his memories lost at that time. The figure of the woman who had always been in his shadow all this time was Eresha. In fact, before the accident happened, he and Eresha had a serious relationship. To further reassure Arka, the man shows several photos of himself with Eresha. And it was true that Eresha's face was there, along with the man who was a year older than her.

When Arka saw a picture of the two of them wearing full marching band uniforms, she remembered Eresha's words while at her home. When Arka belittles Eresha if this girl has no ability at all to play the piano. Eresha said he used to be a bell player in the Marching band. Inner Ark was devastated, he could not accept all the realities that were so bitter to him.

Eresha also once told Arka if his premonition said that he had met with Brother Sendy before. But the girl didn't really believe in her own intuition.

In reality they are two people who used to love each other, but due to the fatal accident they do not remember each other. On one side of little heart Arka felt pity for the fate that was so cruel to separate them in such a way. However, on the one hand Arka also did not want to lose the woman he loved so much.

"Do I have to stay away from Eresha, or even killusin her?" Ask Arka with a sad face.

"I'm not sure if Eresha can still get her memory back, I'm afraid if we just hurt this to her, she'll be devastated. And I'm sure it must be confusing for him to choose who among us." Obviously Brother Sendy.

Their conversation that night, honestly had made Arka's heart hurt. It was as if there was a glass back that slashed his heart slowly, tormenting him slowly to death. Arka is confused as to what about Eresha at the moment.

***

I waited for Arka to pass by on her bike in front of the school. The weather this time was really hot. I occasionally wipe my sweat that pours out.

Finally the man came, I have been overheated since earlier because of waiting for his presence here.

"Good." Said cold.

I feel like there's something weird about Arka today. He was not as usual, he seemed to have a lot of thoughts. He was not well today, his eyes staring blankly at the street in front of him.

"Come hunted!" Say it in a slightly high tone.

I just flinched, before this man had never spoken in a harsh tone towards me. I don't want to be emotional with him right now.

"Why you?" I asked carefully, Arka is being very sensitive today.

He didn't answer my question just now. I tried to be more patient with Arka.

Suddenly he pulled over on the side of the road. I was confused and amazed by this man. He pulled something out of his bag. Arka takes a pink goodie bag.

"It." He gave me the goodie bag.

I hesitantly accepted the thing. I checked the contents, it turned out that it was our photo yesterday. He prints this photo and then gives it a frame.

"Good." Praise me sincerely.

"Take good." Her request.

"Definitely. Later I will also display in the room, next to my medal. Let me look at it every day."

Arka's hand squeezes her pants hard. Did I say the wrong thing, and hurt her feelings.

"Sorry." Speak quickly.

"Make what?"

"Yes make all the mistakes I've made with you all these years."

Arka just nodded her head.

"Just be good, maybe someday we can't believe anymore."

"meaning?"

"Maybe we won't be together anymore." Answer in a sad tone.

"Why?"

"We will not be able to guess tomorrow our relationship will be how. But I want our relationship to be fine for a while."

"Why for a while? Why not forever?"

"Because I won't be by your side forever?"

"But I will always be by your side."

"I want it too. But we won't be able to both sha."

"Why? You want to break up with me."

"I didn't say that."

"So you mean, we're a couple of people who try to unite but can't afford it?"

"It should have been more suitable for you than Sendy sha, not me." The Arka in the heart.

Arka turned on her motorcycle again, then left the place.

***

Here you and I are

Get used to together

Live the affection

Happy with you

Have you ever been stalking

The most beautiful day?

I engrave the names of both of us

Here is our paradise

When we love others

Could this heart be strong?

As much as possible never will

My darling will disappear

If you love someone could we be this strong

I will fight to win our love will conquer all

Wouldn't reach my love

Even just one night

Our love will stay in my heart

My heart

Have you ever been stalking

The most beautiful day?

I engrave the names of both of us

Here is our paradise

When we love others

Could this heart be strong?

As much as possible never will

My darling will disappear

When we love others

Could this heart be strong?

As much as possible never will

My darling will disappear

If you love someone could we be this strong

I will fight to win our love will conquer all

Wouldn't reach my love

Even just one night

Our love will stay in my heart

My heart

My Heart - Acha Septriasa. Irwansyahs.

"The song is indeed very suitable to describe your condition now sha." Inner Ark in the heart.

Soon he must be ready to let go of Eresha, however now he feels guilty for taking the girl for granted. He felt that he deserved to be called a thief. With a stick Arka stole the happiness of the man who was singing the song together with his girlfriend. Although it was not entirely the fault of Arka. Arka may not know anything about this if yesterday Brother Sendy did not tell everything. But Arka really feels guilty right now.

***

The visitors gave a big round of applause after we finished the song. They seemed to enjoy our offerings. Although I honestly don't really like Ballad genre songs, but to help my friend this one is not a problem. We would like to thank all cafe users who have listened to our songs. I then got off the stage, approaching Arka who was sitting alone in the corner there.

"Hi." I try to be cheerful in front of him.

But again Arka was reluctant to spread her smile and jokes that were always able to make me laugh. He just smiled slanted. I was a little disappointed with Arka's response just now. Maybe now it should be reciprocal with Arka. All this time he kept making me laugh. Now it looks like I should be the one to cheer him up.

"Want a drink?" My bargain.

"No, I ordered it."

Once again I was disappointed, I failed to comfort him. But I'm not just gonna give up.

"Near here is a material store?" I asked the two men while sipping my drink.

"In front of me I'm there." Reply Ark.

"Oh yeah?" I extended my neck, looking out from behind the transparent wall of the cafe.

"That one?" I pointed at the old building across the street.

"Yes." Yeah." Short reply.

"Why what?" Ask Brother Sendy.

"You bought something."

"Oh, yaudah, I'll be antherin." Connect Brother Sendy.

"No, I'm the same as Arka." I refused Brother Sendy's invitation because I didn't want to make Arka worse.

"No way, you're the same as Sendy." Ketus reply.

I couldn't believe it, how could the man refuse it. Never mind to refuse, he always offered me a ride without me asking. Something's wrong with this guy.

"Maybe he's got a sudden affair huh." I try to stay positive.

"Yes nothing. You are busy, maybe. So I don't want to take nicotine." My answer.

"No." Quick reply.

I immediately finished my drink and then paid the bill at the cashier.

"This is my honor." Said the cashier.

"Oh, love to the mas who was singing earlier." I said while pointing towards the two men sitting down.

I immediately got out of the cafe, I suddenly felt annoyed with the behavior of the two of them today.

"Eresha! Where you going?" Shouted Brother Sendy from his stool.

Arka doesn't even care about me. I accelerated my pace almost running. When the two men caught up with me outside the cafe, I immediately hid in the small alley beside this place.

Carefully, I peeked at them from behind the wall. They turned on their motorcycles and agreed to split up. After feeling safe, I immediately went out with the place and went to the material shop that Arka meant earlier.

"What's mbak looking for?" Ask the shopkeeper who seems to have Chinese blood.

"There are no nails?" I asked while watching my surroundings.

"What size do you want?"

Damnit damnit! I don't know about that.

"The usual size for aja ci photo, is there?"

"Oh, there's a minute."

Cici the shopkeeper went inside, then came out with nail setoples.

"How much do you want to buy?"

"Ten thousand dapets isn't ci?"

"Dapet, want to buy ten thousand?"

"Yes ci. That's how it is."

"Jude a minute."

The Cici took a pinch of nails from inside the jar then wrapped it in newsprint.

"Here we go."

"Oh, here's the money ci. Thanks."

"Yes are the same."

I walked out of the store, and waited for the roadside.

***

Last afternoon I got a call from my aunt, she told me that my grandmother could go home today. I went upstairs to see Grandma. Suddenly, my aunt came out of my grandmother's room.

"Eh, are you home yet?" Ask aunt with a tray in her hand.

"Udah bi's. Grandma's inside?"

"Well, come in."

I nodded my head.

"Miss?" My heart while making the door.

Whose grandmother was with? He seemed to be accompanied by a girl who turned her back on me so that I could not see his face. Besides, there is also a suitcase that does not seem to belong to Grandma.

"Eh, Eresha. Are you home, son?" Reply grandma.

The woman turned her body around shortly after Grandma responded to my voice earlier. His face was no stranger to me.

"You?" I scrunched my forehead.

"Renata right?" I made sure my guess was right.

Her face was bright when I recognized her face that I hadn't seen in a long time.

"Eresha." He smiled and then approached me.

I took a few steps back, not if the woman approached.

"We why? Still mad?" Asked Renata who instantly lost his spirit.

After the incident back then, Renata left me so devastated. Even the mama, papa, and the man I can't remember his face, they all hate me. I didn't do anything, but they all concluded that I was the one who caused Renata any harm. Since then I have hated him so much.

"Gapain come here?" I asked in a dislike tone.

I don't like his presence here anyway.

"Renata wants to continue studying here." Connect grandma.

"Why should we be here? There are many campuses there. If you don't have a public campus, it's a private campus. Why go to Jakarta? Do you have to disturb my life?"

"But sha..."

"Why should I stay at my grandmother's house? Why not just do it?"

My mood just broke after seeing that woman's face. Although in reality he is my brother, but until now I still can not accept his presence in my life.

I slammed the door of my room, resulting in a loud thump. I manage my explosive emotions. I don't know why it's all different today.

Starting from the time that went so fast, Arka who was angry with me, Renata who kept following me.

Ah, I don't know. I feel really tired of living this drama.

I reached into my bag, took the goodie bag that Arka had given me earlier. Even though until now I have not understood what he meant when he gave me this photo.

I think yesterday we were okay. So, now why is everything just destroyed.

I nailed my room to my room and then displayed the photo, and the medal we got together yesterday. I don't know why I cry again. My tears just came down as I looked at our photo hanging with a portrait of a happy face, when there was such a deep sadness that we hid so nicely. Until we ourselves never know if there is a soul who is sad alone there. I feel very depressed today.

With indiscriminate emotion, I unknowingly pierced my own palm with the nail I was holding from earlier.

I was surprised not to play with what I just did. Have I gone crazy? I stared at my blood-soaked hand without knowing what to do.

I immediately ran towards the P3K box in the corner of my room. I immediately looked for gauze to bandage my wounds. I was really panicking at the time, even though I tried to be as calm as possible still couldn't. How can I calm down when I see my palms continuously come out blood that can not stop.

I've bandaged it tightly, hoping that the disgusting red liquid will stop immediately.

***

I heard the clear sound of footsteps in the hallway in front of my room

"Shaa! Let's eat first!" I don't know whose voice it is.

I put up my blanket it felt like my whole body was so cold, I was so shivering. I don't know who that woman is, I can't see her face. My eyes are not open. I can feel his presence right next to me. I held my jidat, then shouted loudly. I could not hear his words clearly even though he was already shouting that loud near me. Slowly my consciousness disappeared, the darkness I hated was now back in control of me.

***

Aunty came to Eresha's room in a hurry, as she heard Renata's clear cry all the way to the kitchen. They were surprised not to play when they found Eresha with her hands wrapped in bandages that were now all red because they were mixed with blood.

"Where's Eresha's cellphone?" Ask aunt.

Renata immediately reached into all the pockets in Eresha's uniform. Then handed the phone to aunt.

"Why do you want bi?" Asked Renata in surprise.

"You're asking for help from her boyfriend, Eresha."

"Daughter? Who?"

"Mas Arka."

"Congratulations?"

Renata's girlfriend Eresha is Sendy. Then who was Arka, he had never heard that name before.

"Hello, Arka. Can Arka come here now? Sister Eresha fainted, her body was hot, and her hands were also injured."

****

"Ma, Arka take the car." Arka says goodbye to her mother.

Arka seemed to be in a hurry, after getting word from the aunt if Eresha was injured. After this afternoon he left the cafe alone then disappeared no news, did not reply to WhatsApp messages from Arka, making the man who actually still loves him became worried, he said, now the girl is trying to hurt herself.

"Why son? How do you panic?" Ask Mama Arka who is worried about her own son.

"I should have been told by Eresha's domestic assistant. She's reckless with herself ma, and now that she's passed out, she's hot, too." Clearly Arka who is getting panicked is not careless.

"God... Yehudah, be careful on the road. Don't speed it." Commemorate Mama.

"Yes ma. Then Arka go first." 

Arka immediately took the keys to her mother's car and immediately gasp towards Eresha's house. Although his mother had warned him not to mention, but this time Arka did not obey the words of the Mama who he usually never denied in the slightest.

Arriving at Eresha's house, Arka immediately went in without saying hello. Arka ran to the top floor where Eresha's room was reportedly there.

"Eresha why bi?" Ask Arka worried.

The man immediately checked his body temperature, Eresha was experiencing a high fever. Arka observed Eresha's palm wrapped in gauze. He spread his gaze all over the room, looking for what was the cause until this girl's hand became injured like this.

He found a pile of nails located on the table of Eresha's study, because after being injured he had not had time to clean up the mess he had made. There was a lot of blood there, was this girl really crazy to act like this. However, at that moment also his eyes were fixed on the photo that Arka gave him last afternoon. This girl really put it up there.

Without a second thought, Arka immediately carried Eresha's limp body. He was strong enough to lift up this little girl's body. Arka took him downstairs to be taken into his car and then rushed to the nearest Hospital. While aunt and Renata follow Arka's steps right behind her.

"You Arka?" Renata asked on the way to the hospital.

"Yes, why?"

"You're Eresha's boyfriend?"

Arka hesitated a little to answer this question. Enough questions to trap his feelings.

"It wasn't Eresha's boyfriend...."

Renata had not yet finished his sentence, but this man had already cut it off.

"Yes, I know. I'll be sure at the hospital that Eresha's in hand."

"okay."

Bibi accidentally did not go to the hospital with Renata and Arka, because the middle-aged woman had to take care of the grandmother whose condition was still unstable.

Eresha immediately received treatment from the guard doctor at that time, Arka immediately completed his administration alone.

"So what was your story?" Renata asked after Arka finished taking care of the administration.

"Okay, so the story goes after the accident that Eresha moved to Jakarta."

"Yes, continues?"

"We were together and we didn't date long after that."

"But Eresha is Sendy's girlfriend."

"They both lost their memories of the accident."

"Seriously?"

"Yes, but Brother Sendy already remembered all that. And before Kak Sendy's memory returned, the three of us had a chance to be in office. Until I finally knew the truth about what happened to Brother Sendy."

"Keep Eresha, remember that too? Or not?"

"It doesn't look like it."

"So how's your relationship with Eresha?"

"We're still dating, but I've been trying to get away from her. Me and Sis Sendy again waiting for the right time to screamain everything is the same Eresha, or wait for the time to talk by itself."

"meaning?"

"With the return of Eresha's memory of the incident. About his past life."

"If he doesn't remember what?"

"This is why we don't tell Eresha anything about this before."

Renata nodded slowly.

"Are you ready, Eresha?"

"Oh, I'm her brother."

"his brother? How do I never know? I've never seen you in that house either."

"Eresha never told you that she has a sister?"

"No, no."

"It's natural actually. He hates me too."

"Why?"

"Our relationship was strained because yes... Family problems." anyway."

Arka did not want to ask further about what made Eresha so hate her brother now. He certainly respects the privacy of his family.

"Mas, ma'am, his friend is conscious. It's okay to look at it, please." Please send the nurse.

"Oh, good sus." Renata went inside first.

"My friend why sus?" Ask Arka worried.

"The wound on his ladder seems to have an infection because it was not cleaned before treatment. But, the doctor's already taken care of it." Obviously this treatment.

"Oh, okay. Thanks to you, sir."

"Yes, come on."

Arka follows Renata into the room where Eresha is being treated.

***

"Sha's."

I looked towards the source of the voice. Arka came here? Is he worried about me?

"Sha, are you okay?"

I can clearly capture the anxiety that is so clearly depicted on Arka's face. Why does he still worry about me, while I don't care about myself at all.

"Sha!" The law again.

"You ain't nothing, are you?"

I shook my head.

"What's your hand?"

I shook my head again, not opening my voice.

"Are you angry with me?"

"Why do you care about me when I hate and don't care about myself at all! Why ka?" I snapped at Arka while sobbing.

Arka stroked my head.

"I'm sorry."

"You're not wrong."

"Keep your hands why?"

"Not important."

"You pricked your own hands with nails, didn't you?"

My mouth was silenced, how could Arka know that.

"So it was right in your cafe nanyain material store just to buy nails, continue to hurt yourself like this?"

"No. you..." Reply lirih.

"Certainly? Make what?"

"Make a memory recorder of the life you love me."

Arka's heart was filled with words that had just been thrown innocently from the lips of the girl. He did not expect that the photo would mean so much to him.

"Why do we prick your hands on those nails?"

Arka tried not to show her sadness.

"I lost control of myself. I hate myself too much."

***

Renata is only a spectator of their more complicated romance drama than he ever imagined.

Arka hugged the body of a girl sitting in front of her. Who else if not Eresha. Arka felt that always make Eresha wretched, this girl will not be safe with him. It is fitting that he returns with someone who has always been his protector.