Lara's Admirers

Episode 36's

Suddenly, Sendy appeared from the same direction. He ran with a hunting breath. Then his body bent, he tried to calm himself.

"Which arc?" Ask Brother Sendy.

I could not say a word, I could only point my index finger in the direction of the IGD space. Both of his eyes followed my index finger. He found Arka lying there dying. While we can only see it from behind this thick glass while continuing to hope that he is fine.

"How did the doctor condition my child?"

Arka's mother immediately interrogated a doctor who had just walked out of the room.

The doctor asked, "What is the mother of the patient's family?"

"Yes, I'm doc's mom." Mama Arka immediately nodded quickly to the doctor's question.

"Mother's son is in a coma." Said the doctor who handled Arka with a heavy heart.

All of us who were there were immediately struck by that sentence. This is more painful than the sentence Arka said earlier. Their cries broke right then and there. My eyes pierced through the thick window glass.

"That you deserve to hate me, because I made you into this kind of accident." I murmured in my heart.

"But I will never have a single reason to hate you ka, if until you why-why I won't be able to forgive myself."

***

After coming home for a while to change clothes, I went back to the hospital to look after Arka. His mother could not be at his side every time, he had to work banging for the cost of Arka hospital. The heart of a mother who will not be hit see the condition of her child like this.

I sat next to Arka, accompanying her own body here. While his soul I don't know where to go. I was also in a coma after the bus accident. I could feel if my soul was fine, while my body condition was severely damaged to the point of being almost paralyzed.

I stroked the man's hair. If only I could have lasted longer, Arka probably wouldn't have panicked and ended up like this. I keep blaming myself, this is the worst mistake I've ever made.

***

Arka awakens from her coma, but not with her body. He was surprised not to play when he found his body lying weakly on the bed. While he himself was in the doorway. Arka thought about whether her soul was separated from her body.

Arka's gaze was fixed on someone who was beside her body at that moment. He approached the man who was sleeping beside Arka's body.

"Eresha?" Mumam Arka slowly.

It turns out that this girl still cares about him, even though Arka knows that he has hurt the girl with his words earlier.

Arka stroked Eresha's long black hair. But he couldn't touch the girl at all. His soul was currently as if it had fused into a vacuum, which left him unable to touch anything.

"When can I get back into my body?" Inner Ark in the heart.

"I don't want to make their days gray."

***

"Congratulations?" I woke up from my sleep.

I haven't really fallen asleep, just closed my eyes. But my consciousness is still with me.

I feel like something is gently stroking my head. While there's only me and Arka in this room. Arka's own condition is still unconscious, so it can't be Arka. I spread my eyes across the room. It could be just my feeling, it might be a fan in the corner of the room that is on. And I thought if it was Arka.

I looked at Arka with sad eyes. My hand cupped one of his cheeks, I tried to smile in front of him even if forced.

"Arka wake..." I said in a soft voice.

"You hate me, don't you? If you hate me, wake up. After that you can anger me, punish me, or if you want revenge on me for this presence can also." I said with a loud voice.

"Arka woke up, remind your mother? If you must be proud of your mother by realizing your dream to become an architect."

"Arka must wake up, you must be a better architect than Brother Sendy."

I said with a smile that was still expanding, but the tears were no longer able to hold.

I should be sleeping now, as the doctor said if I shouldn't cut down on my rest time because it could affect my health. But to be honest, I won't be able to fall asleep until I see good progress on Arka. My eyes were also still swollen from incessantly crying from earlier this afternoon. It doesn't matter how many tears I shed for her.

God, I'm only asking for one thing tonight. Restore it as it was, heal all the wounds it suffered. Whether it is a physical or an internal wound. He has the right to be happy with God, give him life. If he left, more and more wounds would be created. More and more will also be paralyzed and slumped, probably will not be able to rise again.

God, there are still many people who love Arka here. Don't let it continue like this. Tonight there are many hopeful hearts. Give him more time, you may take my time God. Just give it to this guy, he's more entitled to it. It's okay if I only have a little time, I'm too bored in this place.

"DRR"

Suddenly my phone shook slowly, there was a call coming in from Stefani.

"Hello stef."

"Hello sha, where aren't you at home?"

"You're going to my house?"

"Yes, grandma Lo said earlier you went with brother lo."

I just remembered that after driving me to the hospital, Renata immediately went to stay at his friend's room.

"Oh, I'm in the hospital."

"Lo's being treated there?"

"No, I'm fine."

"Keep who's sick."

"Arka." Answer with a heavy heart.

"OK-okay I'll go there. Tell me the address."

"Yes." Yeah."

I'll turn off my phone immediately. Maybe Stefani should know, because after all they are also friends even though not too familiar.

***

"Sha!" Someone behind the door.

I turned to the door and found Stefani there. But why is Clara coming here too. The two of them came to me immediately.

"Clara, how come you are too?" My toot.

"I was with Clara when I went to your house. We were just about to see your condition after the incident last afternoon." Stefani.

"How does Arka continue?" Ask Clara.

"Coma." Answer's short.

The girl immediately approached Arka who until now had not been conscious as well. He was just as worried about me.

"I'll stay first." My speech.

I ran straight out of the room. My steps stopped on the hospital balcony. This place is still quite crowded, there are still many hospital employees who are busy wara-wiri. Suddenly Stefani patted me gently on the back. It seems he was following me.

"Gue said to go home first." Stefani.

"Well, where's Clara?" I asked Stefani when she wasn't with him.

"He said he'd take care of Arka tonight." Stefani.

"Oh, you be careful." My word.

Then Stefani left me, and the clock is done today. If Clara's gonna take care of Arka tonight, that means I'm not needed there anymore. But I still want to stay here.

I look up at the gray night sky from here. There were no stars there, only the full moon. Just like in my dream back then, although I wasn't too sure if it was a dream.

I fixed my hoodie before the cold came in. I decided to go back to Arka's room. Clara still appears to be next to Arka at this time. Maybe what he needs right now is Clara and not me. I sat in the waiting chair in front of Arka's room.

My eyes were too heavy to keep open. Finally I slept there alone, accompanied by the sad night sky.

***

I opened my eyes slowly. The atmosphere was still dark, I glanced towards my watch. It shows at five in the morning. I took a long breath. My courage to go into Arka's room. Clara was still asleep beside him.

I approached Arka whose condition had not improved as well. I briefly dyed his forehead, then confirmed his slightly messy hair. But something strange, suddenly tears came out of the two blinds that were being closed. Is this a good sign or vice versa. I immediately wiped away the trace of her tears then bowed my body position.

"Don't be sad." I said softly in her ears.

"I'll go first, I'll be back here in the afternoon." I said with a small smile then rushed to leave the place.

***

I had to go back home to get ready for school, today I had to arrive early so as not to miss the bus. What Clara would be there all day and leave her school. I immediately packed the textbooks and other items I needed at school later.

I left early before the sun was too stinging for me. It can make me sweat quickly and will be in vain like my morning shower.

I reached into my pocket to pick up a cell phone. Renata says he's staying at his friend's house until tomorrow because there's a task he has to complete together.

I opened the chat first "Hello brother."

"Yes hello what's the deck?" Reply to the voice over there.

"Busy?"

"It's no coincidence. Why deck?"

"This morning until Eresha comes home from school, is there a class?"

"It just so happens that brother just entered the afternoon about five o'clock that."

"Can I ask for help to get you to the hospital? Take care of Arka, because I'm already on my way to school anyway."

"Oh, okay brother go there."

"Yes, thank you, brother."

"Sama-sama deck. Studying hard." Renata then hung up.

I sped up my steps a little more almost at the stop. Maybe because I left a little faster, there aren't too many people here. Lucky when I got on, the bus was still empty. So I don't have to stand up all the way.

***

"Where is the condition of the Arka?" Ask Stefani.

As usual, we always chatted whenever, wherever, and about anything. Including every morning when I just got to class. It's an important ritual we can't leave behind.

"It's still unconscious." My reply.

"So I saw Mama Arka early in the morning here to make a permit on behalf of Arka." Evidently.

"Yes, yes, yes, the next time people go into a coma at school. How to." My leg.

"Clara's still there?"

"So early this morning before I went back to the house she was still there."

"It should be sha. You're there, not Clara. He's just his ex-doang. While you're Arka's girlfriend."

"Maybe Clara has more right to be there. I'm also not too sure if until now we're still dating."

"Yes, obviously, you're still dating. Yesterday I asked you to break up, he immediately said no right? That means he still loves you."

"Dear Stefani, she's clearly saying she hates me."

"He lied about it."

That was exactly what Clara said to me yesterday.

"Sotoy base!"

"Ih, kok sotoy anyway. It really is sha. He's just laughing at the most emotions yesterday."

"It's so easy to say that."

"This means you two are still dating, right?"

"Hm." I said while nodding my head.

"Trust me the same if Arka does not want to take care of you no matter what happens. Once you're hers, it'll be like that forever."

Stefani tried to convince me with all her words about Arka. I didn't know Arka for as long as they did, but hopefully what Stefani said just now the universe will do.

***

I haven't seen Clara in school all day. Is he still in the hospital. To make sure I decided to ask her classmates. It turns out that Clara was willing not to go to school for the sake of the man. He still loves Arka very much, and. I'm sure Arka must be sorry she let go of a woman as sincere as Clara.

Today I happen to have a schedule to see a doctor. I have to take a prescription for my illness in the same hospital Arka's place is in. So after I finish redeeming the prescription medicine, I can go straight to Arka. But I'd better get some food for Clara. Poor he must not have had breakfast.

"Hi." My heart from behind the door

By reflex Clara turned her head towards me. I immediately approached the girl.

"Where is the condition of the Arka? Any progress?" My toot.

Clara shook her head with a resigned feeling. He no longer knows what to do. Arka's condition is still the same, even getting worse every day.

I patted Clara on the shoulder trying to give her some encouragement.

"It's eat first." I said while giving the packaged rice that I bought earlier on my way here.

"Thank you."

It feels like for now I can only hope for a miracle to come to Arka. I hope after the Olympics yesterday Arka was not so lucky, hopefully this time Goddess Fortuna sided with him.

"The arka's mom hasn't been here yet?" My toot.

"Not yet." He answered while eating his lunch.

Suddenly someone grasped my hand, my head made reflexes to look for the owner of the hand. Is this really? Sure enough, Arka just moved her hand and then grabbed my hand. I won't let go of my hand from there until he's fully conscious.

"Ra, look at his hand Arka motion." I still don't believe.

Clara immediately stopped her lunch, then immediately called the doctor who was standing guard in the picket room.

The doctor and some of the treatments that came along with him immediately checked Arka. My grasp tightened, hoping that this miracle would really come to Arka.

"His condition is improving, he has recovered from his coma. His brain has been able to respond to the events received by his sensory system so that it is returned to the motor system. That's what makes him move his hand." Obviously the Doctor.

"That means Arka responds to everything that's going on around her doc?" My toot.

"Yes right, he'll wake up soon." Speak to the doctor in a pretty convincing tone.

"Thank God." I muttered slowly.

Shortly after the doctor left, Arka's two eyelids slowly began to move. I immediately took my hand out of his grasp. I don't want him to hate me more when he wakes up and sees everything, even though he started it first. Finally the Arka consciousness returned completely. As soon as Arka opened her eyes, I got out of her sight.

"Hello Aunt. Aunty can go to the hospital now? Arka is conscious." I said on the phone.

"Seriously? Okay, aunt's right there."

Can not be denied again if this woman feels so excited when she finds out the condition of her only child has improved.

***

Arka just went through his coma time. Now that he is back to what he was, his soul is back to what he wanted.

"Eresha where?" Ask Arka with a raucous voice.

Clara was silent for a moment, even as she regained consciousness from Eresha's coma was the first thing Arka remembered. Is Arka as loving as that with Eresha, to the point that she no longer cares about how she is now. He's still really weak.

"Eresha where I saw her here." Said Arka once again.

"Oh, that's when you realized he was going out." Reply Clara.

"Does Eresha still feel hurt because of what I said a few days ago? But I know that behind his attitude, he's still so worried about me." Inner Ark in the heart.

Clara checked out of the room, but the results were nil. Eresha was no longer there. Maybe he really left.

"Jude, that's just it." Reply Arka who seems to be acting indifferent.

"Kok lo that anyway, you know not if he keeps you in a coma. He's the one who's always hoping for your condition to improve." Obviously Clara who can not stand the attitude of Arka.

This man behaved very differently, not knowing how to thank him at all. But an Ark he knew before was not like this.

"Continue?" Ask Arka while raising one of her eyebrows.

"Lo should be grateful to know nothing about him! When you hate her, Eresha instead acts the opposite lo!" Clara exclaimed while pointing at Arka's face.

"Gue doesn't hate him." Arka.

Now the man is a little softened, he is no longer a shitty Arka.

"Gue still doesn't understand the way you think."

Clara never thought of seeing Arka's behavior.

"Don't you ra, I don't know myself sometimes." Arka.

"Carca!" A voice sounded calling out the name of this man.

Her mother Arka immediately approached her son who finally returned to health. The woman immediately hugged Arka's body which was actually still too weak to be treated like that.

"Gue say good if that's it." Clara.

He felt bad lingering here, Clara was afraid to disturb the time of both mother and child.

"I'm saying yes Auntie."

"Yes, be careful. Thank you for waiting for Arka."

"Yes Auntie together."

After feeling that Clara had actually left the place, Arka started to open her voice.

"Mama didn't keep me in the hospital?" Ask Arka with a disappointed feeling.

He was sure that his mother was too busy working to forget about Arka who was in a coma.

"Sorry baby, you have to work for your hospital costs." Obviously Arka's mother.

Arka could understand that.

"But when you crash Eresha directly ngabarin mama loh. and he also keep you replace your friend earlier." Keep the woman.

"Si Clara?" Ask Arka back to make sure.

The woman sitting in front of him just nodded slowly.

"Call Eresha dong ma, get him here." Pinta Arka with its potency.

"Why? Kangen yes? Because during the coma can't meet his girlfriend?" Temptation Mom Arka.

Arka only laughed a little at the mama's teasing that seemed to corner her at this moment.

"No ma, Arka just wanted to say thank you all want to ask how the test results were yesterday." Arka Clear.

"Oh, yes, yesterday was the test you told me for the disease?"

Arka nods to agree with the words of the mother.

"Mama was also curious about the results of her tests. Later if you already know, you don't forget to tell mama."

"Yes ma..."

"Pity the boy."

"Udah ma'am."

Without further ado, Mama Arka immediately contacted Eresha who was out of nowhere at that time. At times Arka really needs it.

"Hello sha's. You where?"

"Still on the way home, Auntie. Why emang?"

"Can you come here tonight? Arka wants to say something."

"Oh, I can't do Auntie."

"Well, thank you sha."

"Tante together."

Arka's mother immediately disconnected the phone after getting what she wanted.

"Kok night anyway ma, Arka wants it now." Arch protest on his mother.

"Good pity Eresha again on the way home and told me to come back here again."

"Yes, why? Is something wrong?"

"Yes obviously wrong la Arka dear.... He hasn't even gotten home yet, he must be tired of having to go back and forth."

"Judah, what matters is that he wants." Said Arka resigned with the decision of his mother.

***

Tonight in accordance with the promise of his mother Arka I rushed to the hospital. Because it's late so there's no bus still operating I finally decided to take an online motorcycle taxi.

I knew to go inside, but in the end I had to do this because I promised and I didn't want to deny it.

I opened the door carefully, making sure this thing wouldn't make any noise. There was no Mama Arka there, only that man was watching television in his room. He reflexively looked at me at that moment.

"Have you arrived?" Ask me.

I nodded my head, then immediately approached Arka.

"Old kok?" Ask Arka again.

"Jakarta is usually jammed, the night will be many who come home from work." I clearly.

I came here much longer than promised. Wishing this guy had fallen asleep so I wouldn't have to talk to him like this. Honestly at times like now, I want to avoid it.

"Sha's." Sahut Arka's.

"Yes?"

"I'm sorry ya."

Both my eyes were perfectly rounded hearing the man's words.

"Oh, yes, I'm sorry." Reply with a stiff smile.

Because I was basically never angry with him.

"You're not angry at all? Why are you still holding on?" Ask Arka.

I lowered my face, thinking for a moment what to answer.

"You yourself why do you still survive when I say break up?" My reply.

Arka immediately silenced unable to say anything more. This time he really lost.

"Confidence." Teach us at the same time.

We looked at each other for a moment, how could that word come out at the same time from our mouths.

"So you want to forgive me?" Ask Arka again.

"Of course!"

"Yes, I know you're good at English. Don't show off either."

"Everything needs proof, not just words." My word.

Dating is a phase where you have to be ready to get tired at all times. For a while, keep getting better again. Marahan again, better again. Yes the cycle is short just like that and repeatedly happens.

"Sha's." Sahut Arka's.

"Yes?"

"Where were your test results yesterday?"

I paused for a moment, what should I answer. I can't tell you about everything while Arka's own condition is still weak, he could drop back.

I'm trying to find an excuse "It's okay the doctor said."

"But yesterday the doctor said you might have a serious illness."

"The evidence is not so good." I reassured Arka that I was okay.

"Oh, thank goodness."

I nodded my head repeatedly while smiling stiffly.

I asked Arka to go to bed immediately "Udah at eleven o'clock, sleep!"

"What time?" He said while glancing at my watch.

"Sleep!" I'm firm once again.

"OK, but there's a condition." Said Arka while smiling cunningly.

Just like the smile that characterizes the antagonist in the various films I have seen so far.

"The first...."

Arka hung her sentence.

"Wait a minute, if there is a first it means there is a second and so on dong." My protest.

Surely this one guy gives conditions like to do list that I have to work on. Fuck up!

"Not much." His word.

"Okay, what's first?"

"The first thing you have to do is keep looking after me. You know, my mom is busy." Evidently.

"Okay, but tomorrow morning before you wake up I'm home."

"Well, is that it?"

"Tomorrow what day does Arka try? We have to go to school."

"It's okay to do that."

Arka doesn't really mind my decision, after all, she can't argue about it anymore

"The second one?" Askaqua.

"Secondly, sing me a lullaby. Whatever song you want."

"So, like a little boy wear in singing. Not at the fairy tale?" I snorted as bad as hell.

What's hard try to stay blindfolded, wear this must be it again. I just found out if Arka can be this fussy if she's sick.

"Third?" My toot.

"Nothing, that's all."

"Yes, I sang it. But I have to go straight to sleep when I'm done singing."

Arka nodded her head quickly. He seemed so enthusiastic and excited.

"What song is it?" I muttered while trying to rack my brain.

Finally I found a suitable song, the tempo was relaxed and not too beat so it was suitable to make Arka fall asleep faster than I had expected.

I cleared my throat a few times to make sure my voice was not false later.

Dew in the morning blind

Spreading the smell of messages

Second by second I count

This is when I left

Oh, my God loves him

Give me life

I won't hurt him

Law if it happens

I am not easy to love

I can't easily confess my love

I don't say it's easy to be in love

My smile is just for love

My only for love

No lies, I swear to love until I close my eyes

My love until I close my eyes...

Acha Septriasai - Until closing eyes

I wiped away the trail of tears I didn't know when it was flowing. I was always so weak when I performed Ballad or sad songs. Because as you know I will live so much and in the end my tears break without me knowing before.

"Kok cry?" Ask Arka while gently stroking the top of my head.

"It's customary, too sedentary." My word.

"But the song is so sad, where are you going?"

"Haha, not going anywhere. It's just song lyrics."

"Well, it's just song lyrics, but it's like you're really telling me if you want to go." Arka Clear.

"No, just calm down."

"Don't go, sha, you promised me I'd make me here."

I nodded in agreement with Arka's words. Then he closed his eyes, and he kept his promise to me. Then what about me, I'm not sure I can keep my promise to him.

"I don't know where Arka is going, but I'm sure one day I'll go." My mind is in my heart.

Once again I cried, I drowned my face in the bed. I fell asleep next to the man who was either completely asleep or just pretending.

"Where are you going sha? Don't stay with me." The whisper of Arka was slow, but the sentence had reached my ear.

Apparently he had not slept, he was just pretending to be asleep. I didn't respond to her words at all. I haven't fully slept yet, just pretending to be just like him. We're just pretending, is all this feeling pretending too.

Suddenly I remembered my dream back then. Up there on the hill, he said all the answers depended on me. What if I didn't have the time to answer all the questions.