Lara's Admirers

Episode 9

  Today is a holiday, a red day on the weekend. I picked some in my apartment. It's too early to go out. After I finished, I sat in a lounge chair on the balcony drinking a box of milk and checking my phone. I saw the top chat I pinned. Only two cheque marks are not blue. I sent him a message yesterday. In fact, there's something serious I want to talk about.

　

　

  Then I saw the WhatsApp status update of my contacts. Sendy's sister uploaded a video. Video of someone who looks angry and ruffled things around him. My little heart asked. Is he not okay? Yesterday, he deleted his profile picture and changed it to "Lost".

　

　

  I'm sure his mood was a mess from yesterday, to the point that he had no intention of reading my message. I switched to my Instagram page. There was a status update from his sister. I think it has something to do with Sendy's sister, maybe.

　

　

  A photo showing a couple apparently. But the husband looked younger. Is that his son? And that mother, yes I know. That's Sendy's sister's mom. And the man seemed to be wearing a hat that was no stranger to me. The hat is often worn by Sendy during training.

　

　

  It's not like I'm being pretentious about their family. But I'm sure something's wrong. If I remember, I've seen a photo on her sister's Instagram status. Photos of men who are not young anymore, gray hair has also appeared popping. And there's a sentence that shows the feeling of mourning for the man's departure there. But, is that their father? I never asked that of Brother Sendy. I don't think it's appropriate for me to ask him that kind of thing.

　

　

  This year, the man should be 17 years old. Suddenly it came to my mind. But, he seemed ordinary, unlike most people in general who would celebrate it with great fanfare. Yesterday I had time to wish him a happy birthday and sing a song. Hopefully it can be the most beautiful gift on his 17th birthday yesterday.

　

　

  I became more and more angry and hesitant to continue my message yesterday. Actually yesterday, I wanted to tell him about the novel. Yes, I wrote a novel for her. Actually, I've been wanting to tell you for a long time. But again, the fear of winning. I'm afraid he doesn't like this, or maybe he's feeling uncomfortable. He may even hate me forever. And when I decided to tell her, the situation wasn't right. Totally beyond my expectations.

　

　

  I took a long breath. Where does that man live? Japan is really big. Where can I meet him?

　

　

"Ting keg."

　

　

  Bell's voice was clear. Who's on the table? Unusually. Or maybe the janitor will pick up the trash as usual? I hurriedly opened the door.

　

　

"Sister Sendy?" I don't believe it.

　

　

"Hi, how are you. I haven't seen you in a long time." His words are just pleasantries.

　

　

"good. Uh, yeah, just go in." Take me.

　

　

  I took out a small table and placed it on the balcony. Then serve two cups of coffee our favorite latte both. And setoples chocolate biscuits.

　

　

"Btw sorry if the snack there are no Japanese elements. My tongue is not very familiar with Japanese food." I clearly.

　

　

"It's okay. I'm the same." The reply was to gulp down the drink I was serving.

　

　

"Why don't you know I live here?"

　

　

"Yes know it. This is an apartment specifically designed for foreign students. It's kind of a dormitory."

　

　

"Keep brother knows where I'm from in Japan?"

　

　

"Rini told me everything."

　

　

"Pillotent. Lah, where do you keep brother here?"

　

　

"Yes in this apartment, too."

　

　

"Seriously?"

　

　

"Yes, two rius."

　

　

"Kok I've never met brother?"

　

　

"I don't know about that either. Hehe."

　

　

"Eh, lo's nose." Keep the guy.

　

　

  I immediately felt my nose. Oh, my God, I got a nosebleed all of a sudden. The man immediately told me to look up at my head so that there was no more blood. Meanwhile, he was busy looking for tissue. My body went limp for a moment. I gripped firmly with the iron barrier of the balcony. Hope help comes soon.

　

　

  After finding the tissue, the man immediately approached me. He grabbed my body which was trying to stay upright even without energy. He put my head on his lap. Told me to lie down so my condition wouldn't get worse. There wasn't much energy left, but at least it was still enough to just open my eyes.

　

　

  He wiped the rest of the blood on my face with a tissue. His face looked confused as well as worried. It was undeniable that he was anxious at that moment. He seemed to do everything sincerely, without coercion.

　

　

"Sha, don't make the cave worry." He said while wiping the blood.

　

　

　

　

"After this, you'll have to go to the cave." Her speech.

　

　

***

　

　

  I slowly rose from the darkness that had enveloped me. I found my body lying limp on an apartment bed. My left hand has been attached to an infusion needle that I don't know since when that thing was there. I stared at the ceiling, hoping I could do something. What the hell is going on with me?

　

　

"Sha, are you awake?"

　

　

  Suddenly a voice came from behind the door. I just nodded weakly.

　

　

"I want to go home to Indo Kak." My word.

　

　

"Why?"

　

　

"It's okay to just go back to Indonesia."

　

　

"How important is your student exchange program?"

　

　

"Bakal I'm off, I haven't been in intensive study yet. "

　

　

"But it's a shame that you wasted this opportunity. It's hard to get here."

　

　

"I never wanted to come here."

　

　

"While lo deh sha. Why are you suddenly having a nosebleed?"

　

　

"Capacity maybe. Just got here too."

　

　

"Well, the time will also be directly back to Indonesia."

　

　

"It's okay, brother."

　

　

  We were silent for a moment. Brother Sendy might be tired of facing my stubbornness, so he chose silence. I stared at his face briefly. I could clearly read his face. He's not okay, there's something he's covering up.

　

　

"Sister." My solute.

　

　

"Yes, why?"

　

　

"Big brother why?"

　

　

"Emm? Not really."

　

　

"Related?"

　

　

  He's back in silence. His face became more cloudy. He could not see this cruel world to him. Until the tears seemed to flow. This time I saw him cry. Someone who I thought was the coldest and most glutinous person, turned out to be this fragile as well. He drowned his face on my shoulder. I hesitantly rubbed the top of his head. He's been tightening up his body so far there's really no distance between us. His crying became more. I was silent, not daring to say. Not yet, let him release all complaints and burdens hidden during this time. I'm embracing his shoulder. Trying to convince him that he's not alone here.

　

　

  While his one hand took my hand. Grasping it so tightly. I can feel the difference in emotions.

　

　

"Sha, you don't ever live in a cave. Thank you so much already present in the cave life, already giving a million colors in the cave life that is too gray. Thank you for giving me the pure warmth for a cave that is too cold."

　

　

  I swallowed the saliva with great difficulty. Believe it or not, with his confession.

　

　

"I should have told my sister. Brother is soon finished. I won't be able to see my sister again. Soon the distance will stretch between us and that certainly does not guarantee happiness. I will miss everything that has happened in the past two years. Two years of tears sometimes full of laughter. I will miss squirming brother playin Tom brother when marching band practice. I will also miss the moment how my heart feels to be dislodged when around brother. I'm gonna miss my sister's sneak peek. I'm gonna miss everything about brother."

　

　

  We are both at our lowest point. Where we can do nothing. I bit my lower lip to avoid sobbing. We were completely destroyed at the time. Fragile, broken to pieces. The only thing we thought about at that time, how about we change each other's destiny?