Lara's Admirers

#62

"I will never be able to forgive myself, if you'll do anything else because of me." Said Arka with a trembling voice.

"Everytime you're around me, we're always wretched. I always keep you stuck in a vortex of danger I made myself." Further.

It seemed like Arka's cry broke just like that. I could feel the man's tears slowly wetting my shoulders. His voice was also increasingly shaky and raucous. His grip continued to grow stronger with time.

He did not allow me to leave at that time. That's why this man hugged me so tightly. Now I'm trapped in his arms. Arka needs someone who can support her now. He is still so fragile, he can collapse at any time.

"We shouldn't have turned sha." Said Arka again with a voice that was more and more raucous.

While I was still silent, not knowing what to say. He constantly blames himself. Though Arka who I have known all this time never made a mistake that from earlier he kept throwing. Right now the man is showing the other side the universe has never known. The deep sadness that he had always been alone. It looks like I'll have to wait until Arka calms down a bit, and then I can start talking.

"Sha!" Renata from a distance.

The two people who followed me with the car earlier, finally came down and approached us. Lucky at that time Renata happened to be wearing flat shoes, just imagine if he ran with high heels at that time.

"What the hell are you?" Ask Kak Reksa who just arrived, followed by Renata.

"Arka why?" Ask Renata.

"Crying?" Connect Kak Reksa.

"But the cry time has no sound." Reply Renata.

Suddenly I thought the same as them. Arka was incessantly blaming herself. Now why did he suddenly become silent like this. Maybe he was embarrassed to cry in front of this older man, to say what he was.

I tried to slowly shake Arka's body, but there was no response from the man at all. I finally decided to check on her condition by slightly distancing myself from her. Suddenly Arka's body collapsed instantly, just after I took a few steps back. Luckily, I caught her body pretty heavy. At least I can hold his body for a while, so as not to touch the ground.

"Arka fainted!" I told them.

I could no longer support his increasingly heavy body, attracted by the force of gravity.

"Judah, we're going to the hospital." Reply Kak Reksa.

I nodded quickly to his words. Finally Arka was brought into the car, with the help of the man.

"How about Arka motorbike?" My toot.

"On that I'm the one who brought it, later let Renata drive the car." Answer Kak Reksa.

Soon we rushed to one of the nearby hospitals. Just try Arka was not reckless, surely now he will not be like this. It's been this night for trouble. Now see, who ever spied on me as a reckless girl, whether she did not realize that she was much more reckless than I was.

***

After Arka was brought into the IGD room, we could only wait in the corridor. Now that the situation has turned around, it's my turn to not be in control of myself. I was angry, upset, scared and worried about him.

"Alright, the child's condition is fine. His adrenaline only went up for a moment, which is what caused him to faint. There are no serious conditions. Now he can go home and go back to his house." It was clearly the doctor who had just walked out of his room.

"Thank God...." My mind is in my heart.

Kak Reksa immediately completed his admistration, while Renata helped Arka who was still physically weak to get out of the room. When everyone else is busy, I just sit there quietly. Even then I just kept quiet and didn't say a word.

"I'm sorry sha...." Say it again.

I glanced at her who was leaning on the chair right next to me.

"You know what scared me the most?" My toot.

"What if the accident happens again, and you're in a coma for the second time. Think of your mother's feelings you're your mother's only hope." I clearly pointed at his face.

While the figure being spoken to is only a thousand languages silent. He lowered his face deeply.

"You deserve my law sha..." Sluggishly.

"It's not me who deserves Arka, but yourself who knows it." My reply.

"Yuk's home!" Take Renata.

I immediately got out of that place, leaving Arka alone there. I'm honestly still so upset with him. But suddenly my steps stopped and I was forced to turn back my body. Hh, fuck! It's all because of Renata's request, but I don't want to do it at all.

"Bantuin Arka gih, look still limp in it." Renata orders while pointing towards the man.

With a heavy heart, I was forced to extend my hand to the man. And finally I helped her walk out of the hospital.

"Let's get in the car." Renata.

"No, Arka let me ride the bike. It's not good to keep taking it." The reply.

"Udah let's just ride in the car, let the bike brother who brought. You're still lemes gini, don't be too maxed out." Kak Reksa.

"Jude, please." Just hand over Arka.

I immediately helped her to sit in the back seat. Suddenly Arka stopped my steps by pulling one of my hands. He prevented me from sitting with Renata in front. He seems to know exactly if I'm upset with him, but this guy keeps trying to apologize at all costs. But sometimes there are some problems that will not be solved with just an apology.

Inevitably this time I have to obey Arka's request again. He kept pushing me like this, so I couldn't get a wrench.

"If you're still angry, you still want to come with me, right tomorrow?" Ask Arka in the middle of the journey.

"Not knowing either." My reply was indifferent.

"So what could make you not angry with me?" Ask who is getting impatient.

"Time." Short reply.

Suddenly Arka turned my face towards him, until our eyes met each other. I wanted to fight back then too. But what was my day that was just a weak girl like this. Voluntary surrender was the only thing I could do at that time.

"I won't stop until I get sorry from you." He said while leaning his body towards me.

"One sorry word won't change the past, will it?" My reply.

"At least I can fix it."

"Whatever!"

All the way home I just stared out the car glass, looking at the slowly winding streets of the capital. Jakarta is resting for the night.

Shortly thereafter, the four-wheeled vehicle was parked in front of my grandmother's house, which also became my current residence. I rushed down from the car, but unfortunately this man returned to action. He held my bag to keep me from leaving.

"No release!" I spoke with a slightly higher tone.

"No way, before you forgive me." Reply with a sly smile.

"Judah whatever!" I said as I died with him.

I got out of the car regardless of the bag. I still have a spare backpack in the closet. It doesn't matter if he holds my bag. What it was for him anyway.

"I put my Ark motorbike here." Said Kak Reksa.

"Title cocked?" I asked half to disagree.

"Kan Arkanya can not ride a motorcycle. So here used to be nothing, right?" Evidently.

"It's okay." Reply Renata lightly.

I can only crack. As the youngest member of the family here, I can't do anything about it if they've made a decision. Sometimes I really want to grow up like them, but it's basically very scary to imagine the process of becoming an adult.

Suddenly Arka got out of the car, carrying my bag which she held a moment ago. Then lean his body so elegantly in the body of the vehicle.

"Oh yeah, so you're officially back, right?" Ask Kak Reksa suddenly.

"I'll go in, see you." My reply while running towards the inside.

***

I entered the room with no spirit steps at all. Then I just dropped myself on the bed.

"Just come home lo sha?" Ask Stefani who is sitting at the study table.

"Hmmm...." Short reply.

I don't know what he's doing there. But clearly this was the first time he would touch that sacred place.

"Tok..but.tok..."

Huh! I just got to this place, there was a disturbance. Who's knocking on my door at nights like this. If they told me to have dinner, it should be time.

"Stef, open the gih! I'm mager...." My love.

"But! You guys mageran!"

"Oh yes, if for example I nyariin, say I've been sleeping yes."

Stefani immediately headed for the door with heavy steps. I immediately pretended to have slept very well.

"Eh, Arka?! You can get here." Stefani was half surprised.

"Congratulations?" My mind is in my heart.

"Where's esha? I just want to go back on this. I don't want him to be punished tomorrow because of me." Evidently.

"Eresha is sleeping." Reply Stefani.

"Yaudah, I'll take the casiin to him when I wake up."

"Okay, safe."

"I know kok sha, if you haven't slept. I also know that you can still hear everything. Again I'm sorry." Said from a distance.

"How can he know if I haven't slept? It might just be a coincidence." My mind is in my heart, while continuing my charade.

"Gue said goodbye first, send greetings to Eresha." Say it again.

After hearing the sound of the door closing, I immediately got up and pensive for a moment. I don't know how the guy got to my doorstep. Who let him in here.

"Lo marahan with Arka?" Stefani asked in confusion.

"No." Quick reply.

"Why else would you be like Arka?"

"Arka back up."

"BRUKK!!!"

Suddenly my bag just slipped out of Stefani's hand. I immediately took it, considering that there was a gift given by Arka.

"What?! You're turning it back to Arka?" Stefani asked half in surprise.

"Not yet, did I say we're back?" Chirp me.

"Has it been?"

"Why don't you guys do it?"

"Or ah! Take a shower, you're tired!"

I tossed my bag in all directions, then got out of bed. My ears felt so hot from this afternoon. I had to take a shower, after which I learned.

I feel so tired of their questions. I was just about to turn on the shower, Stefani already told me again from out there.

"Fuck stef!" Answer me while clucking.

"Arka's calling!" He screamed at the bathroom door.

I immediately took a shower and ignored such minor annoyances. Doesn't he know if I need a break. Besides, that guy must have called me because he wanted to apologize.

But if I keep acting like this, it's impossible. I have to make a decision between yes and no.

***

"What's wrong?" I said as I wrapped the towel around my head.

"Lo's plate, Arka called. It feels in terror I swear." The answer.

"Matiin's a phone, it's easy." My reply was clear.

I immediately dry my half-dry hair, with the help of a hair dryer. Every now and then I take a few pieces of coco cookies while waiting for my hair to completely dry.

"Sha, are you having dinner?"

"Udah, it was outside the same Renata."

"Keep you didn't bring me something?"

"And we ate Kak Reksa, yes, kali....."

"That's bad you're your own best friend."

"So you just finished eating when I arrived."

"Hehehe....."

I was just annoyed to see the behavior of that girl. Why should I meet him, my God.

***

Today Stefani and I deliberately went to school sooner, to avoid Arka. Surely later he will come here to pick up his motorcycle that was deposited last night. Stefani and I decided to take the bus, which would make us much faster to get to school.

Even we deliberately woke up faster before everyone woke up, including Renata. And we were just leaving when aunt woke up. The air this morning was completely clean compared to the previous one. It is still worth breathing in and quite refreshing. Today it seems that pollution is a little less.

We got to school much earlier than usual. There seems to be no one at all except the two of us. But I still hope there's someone here besides the school guard and the security guard.

"Is anyone here?" My toot.

"Usually the first time, when I came at this hour there was already someone. Yes, even if it's a little." Evidently.

"Ohhhh...." I said while nodding my head.

"Yuk, ah ride!" Take the girl and pull my hand.

We started down the stairs that connect between the first floor and the floor above it, the place where our class was. It seems that it was only us the most diligent disciples who came this early.

Because our class row is still in the lock, inevitably me and Stefani have to wait in the hallway. We just got to this place, which is possible if we have to go down again.

"No, what did I say. Still deserted gini, lo her aja that insistent." Ketus Stefani's.

"I'm sorry, but you know why." My word.

"But for free anyway, if you avoid from Ark now. Later on you will also meet him." Evidently.

"Here you go, justin." My reply was indifferent.

"Eh, you think I'm a hypocrite if I turn Arka back together?" My next.

"No." A voice from behind.

I turned my back to find the source of the sound. How shocked I was to find the man I was referring to was suddenly right behind me. Since when he was here, why couldn't I know about it.

"So how? You want to turn me back?" Further.

"Can't it be here anyway?" Many confusion.

"Magic.." -...." Reply with a sly smile.

I immediately turned my face away from her. Staring straight ahead, towards the gate that never crowded. But again this man is always looking for an opportunity at any time. Arka pulled over Stefani's body, which was standing next to me.

"Since when did you become a gini nyebelin ka!" I can't wait anymore.

"Since the feeling that I've been pendam, now reappears." The reply.

"But we can't continue that anymore, only you understand how things are going now."

"Is it all because of Brother Sendy?"

I could only shut up, the words he said just now were enough to make me so devastated. I'm basically the guilty one here. I shouldn't and this guy ever know each other, if in the end I'm going to go back to the past that greeted me again after all this time.

"Now I understand sha, that love must be fought for not let." His word.

"meaning?" I don't understand.

"I'll try to get you back, don't care what your past is." Evidently.

"Whatever you are, anyways I want to focus on the final exam later." My reply.

"I'll prove it to you."

Five minutes, ten minutes, fifteen minutes passed. I stood on the balcony listening to the wise words of Arka. Slowly this place has begun to be attacked by hundreds, even thousands of students with passionate enthusiasm.

As always, there is a small forum formed every morning. The group of people who always have new gossip every day. I am one of the people who rarely give arguments to the forum, more precisely just as a generous listener.

"Eh, you know not the Revienna that IPS kid." Stefani opened the conversation.

"Where is Revienna?" Connect Adit.

"That's what troublemakers like to do." Stefani Steady.

"Oh yeah, I know. Why is he the same?" Timpal Clara's.

"When he was dating a younger brother who would be the OSIS chairman's candidate." Stefani.

"Keep why dong?" My reply.

"Yes, when he wants to be like a delinquent girl like that." Connect Clara.

I chose to listen to music from my phone with the help of airpods. This is much better than listening to their talk which has absolutely no benefit. I put my head on the table with a blank look to the side. I don't know what I was daydreaming about at the time, the point is that my mind was completely empty and wandering around somewhere. My imagination is sometimes too wild and uncontrollable.

I suddenly thought of one thing that made me not wait any longer. My senior brother that one, he has no news since three days ago. It was as if it had disappeared just like being swallowed by the earth, vanishing just like that without leaving even the slightest trace.

***

"Cantin?" Ask Stefani.

"By me, yuk!" I reply with pleasure.

"I wasn't invited?" Connect Arka.

"Judah come together!" Answer me lightly.

"Gue's coming with dong!" Adit from a distance.

"Look, I am too!" Connect Titan.

"All the classmates come, let the canteen ride." Stefani.

"Clara didn't follow?" My toot.

"May deh." The reply.

At first it was just me and Stefani, why did they all come along. But that's okay, the more the better. There will be more stories later.

We chose a long table that was enough to accommodate the six of us. Not usually this place becomes a bit quiet. Usually it is very difficult to find one seat, so it is not uncommon for us to bring the food to class and eat it there.

"What do you want to eat?" Ask Adit.

"It's up to you, if I'm the same as you." My answer.

"How about meatballs?" Proposal Titan.

The rest nodded in agreement with the nice proposal from the man. Adit who was in a standing position, went straight to the storefront to order the menu.

Shortly after, our order arrived. Without further ado, we immediately ate the dish so solemnly. In the end, I finished earlier than all of them. Either because it's too lustful or how, which is obviously not usually I finish first like this.

"Fast right sha." Adit.

"Lo laper or what?" Further.

I did not comment on his words just now, and immediately sipped sweet iced tea that also complement this one snack.

"Guys, I want your opinion." Said the Arka suddenly.

I turned my eyes towards the man. All eyes were on him at that moment. Arka seemed to think for a moment.

"Not be..." He said as if he were innocent.

"Yes! You're a plan-lo!" Adit Protest.

"Yes, make us curious." Connect Titan.

It seemed that there was indeed something he wanted to say back then, only that he was still unsure. Arka was still hesitating about her decision, I could catch it clearly from the glint of her eyes.

"Why do I think I'm that?" Ask Arka to me.

"No." Quick reply.

Arka smiled broadly at me as she ruffled the top of my head in a fit of anxiety. This guy is hard to guess. His personality is fickle and unfixed, just like his emotions that sometimes make me confused myself.

I just returned with a thin smile. For now it feels like that's all I can do.

"This is your first time smiling today. Hopefully there will be more happiness created later." He said as he swallowed the meat balls.