Lara's Admirers

Episode 102's

　

　

‘KRING!!!’

I suddenly woke up when the loud voice almost deafened my ears. I was surprised not to play when I heard the alarm. Who set this alarm? Isn't it still a holiday? I'll be back in college in two days. Why wake up in the morning if I still need a lot of rest. Shouldn't I have to recover myself soon. I have to be ready physically and emotionally before I go to college. I can't go back to that place in this mess. Everything I do will be messed up in the end. I don't want to make myself or anyone else disappointed in my efforts.

I then grabbed the round object that was located on a table, right beside my bed. Then I rubbed both my eyelids, trying to keep them open. It was like there was a glue with incredible strength until I couldn't open my own eyelids. I looked at the clock and he showed me at nine over twenty minutes. There really aren't so many things I'm going to do today. Like I said before, if I'm still on semester break. Not just me, all the students to be exact. But since I woke up, I couldn't continue sleeping.

In the end I decided to get up from there and drink a glass of water. This will help me to gain my consciousness in full. I can't keep going if it's still like this. Then I opened the window curtain that covered my room. Today it looks like the sun will shine all day.

Suddenly I remembered one thing. Where did the girl go so early in the morning? Why isn't Amel in the dorm? I went around every corner of the room looking for him. I thought he was taking a shower, apparently not at all. He did it right before I woke up. And now Amel has left this place, but he doesn't know where to go. I decided to call him and ask him where he was going so early.

The phone rings, which means the phone is active and my call is connected to his phone. I gave him time to answer, but he didn't even pick up the phone from me at all. Either he was busy and did not hear it, or he deliberately ignored it. It seems he was angry because last night I came home too late and left him here alone. I know if he's scared enough to live alone in this kind of place. But that's not the worst part. I had forgotten my promise to have dinner with him. I've reneged on a promise I made myself and I must have let her down.

I leaned my body against the wall of this room, while looking at the scene outside the window. I feel guilty for all this. I have to apologize to Amel. I have to get an apology from him, no matter what. If not, maybe our relationship will never improve.

I decided to go out and look for him. But before that, I will go to Ahn Yoo Ra's room to ask for her help. Today I will solve two problems at once. First I apologized to Amel for this misunderstanding we had, and secondly I had to get that bad thing out of my life. I'll do what I want today, everyone. Nothing can stand in my way again this time, I made a promise to myself for that.

I immediately took a shower and prepared to catch up with him. Although actually until now I do not know exactly where the girl is. But at least he must have left a trace, or at least someone had seen him pass. The hostel attendant must know where Amel went. But before that, I immediately went downstairs to see Ahn Yoo Ra's condition. He must not have slept all night. I hope this morning it is okay. At least I hope he wakes up now.

I pressed the bell button, right in front of the door of her dorm room. Shortly after, someone was heard replying to me from inside. He told me to wait a little while, until he came out and opened the door for me. And I just follow his words. Our dormitory has pretty thin walls, so that's why we shouldn't be noisy. It can disturb your room neighbors. That's the rule that goes on in this place.

‘CEKLEK!’

No need to wait for long, someone who lived in it had come while opening the latch. But it turns out that person is Nam Jin Yang, Ahn Yoo Ra's roommate. Every room in this place is always occupied in pairs. If anyone lives alone, it must be because he does not get a roommate.

“Where is Ahn Yoo Ra?” ask me to use Korean.

Nam Jin Yang is a native of Korean descent. Born and raised in this place, he was raised by a Korean family. The girl has lived here for many years since she was born. Korean is her mother tongue. That's why I can't speak Indonesian like I did with Ahn Yoo Ra. Because he would not understand a single bit of what I said.

“He just left with Amel.” he replied.

“Really?!” my balsaku spoke in a tone like a surprised person.

“Do you know where they go?” ask me one more time.

“No. I do not know where they will go today.” reply clearly.

“But I had heard that they were going to the flower shop at the end of this street.”.

“I don't know exactly where they'll go after that. But you can try to go there to see it. Who knows they are indeed there.” he explained to me.

“Alright, I will catch up with them there.” reply me while nodding my head.

“Go before they go further.” Nam Jin Yang said.

“Alright, then I go first.” reply.

“Thanks a lot!” I continued as I passed away from that place.

“Happy can help you. Hope you can find them.” reply.

I immediately got off the floor using the elevator. There is no problem with using the stairs. But it felt like for now it would be much more time saving if I used the elevator. After arriving at the ground floor, I immediately ran out to head to the flower shop that Nam Jin Yang had intended. I still don't know what they both went to that place this morning blind. And even more amazing, they left without asking me, or even just telling me about this.

I walked in haste, hoping that I could get there in time. They can't do all this on their own. I don't know since when the two of them didn't think of me as I do now. Is it because I rarely spend time with them? I think Amel and Ahn Yoo Ra will understand. Especially Ahn Yoo Ra, I think he understands very well everything I've felt.

When I arrived at the flower shop, there was no one there except the shopkeeper. I was stunned when I found all my efforts ended in vain like this. I tried to stay calm and asked the shopkeeper who was there.

"Can I help you?" he lent it to me in Korean.

"Ah, no. I'm sorry.." I replied as I bent my body at a forty-five degree angle.

"But have you ever seen two girls who have just visited this store?" my many.

Without a second thought, the shopkeeper immediately answered my question. He didn't seem to hesitate at all, because I'm sure that his memory of the incident is still fresh. He had just experienced all that not less than five minutes ago.

"Ah sure!" reply while nodding slowly.

"They were our first customers today" he explained.

"So do you know where they went after they got out of this place?" ask me with curiosity.

"I don't know where they're going" he said.

"Which I see, they're going in that direction" he continued.

"Then do you know what flowers they are buying?" ask me one more time.

"Lily flowers." she answered briefly.

I pecked for a moment. I don't know why I'm always like this every time I try to think hard. Lilies aren't flowers a sign of death? The flower is always present at every funeral ceremony of Koreans. Ahn Yoo Ra and Amel also went towards the right of this store. If I'm not mistaken, a few blocks from here is a public funeral. It is very clear if the two of them will make a pilgrimage to the tomb with the lilies. The evidence is strong enough for me to conclude like that. But to the tomb who they are going on pilgrimage.

I have to catch up with them this time. I won't let my steps fall far behind them again this time. I'll make sure of that. I need to know about everything they do. I don't know why lately it seems like everyone is acting strangely. Not just me, Amel or Ahn Yoo Ra. But everyone around me. Arka and even Hwang Jeongin also acted very strange yesterday. Actually what they do.

"Well thank you very much for the information" I said, then passed away from the place.

I don't know why or why until everyone does that. Everyone is like not in themselves. They're all so weird, that I don't understand anymore. The world is showing a different side than usual. People do that too. They showed the other side that he had never shown before. Makes them all like humans who don't know each other.

I thought I'd be a lot faster getting there before the two of them if I took the bus from this place. Yes although the distance is quite close, but for now time is his consideration. Maybe they both also took the bus with the same majors, or even walked casually to the place. Luckily I didn't have to wait long at the bus stop, because the bus came shortly after I got there. It seems like good luck is on my side today. Goddess Fortuna is overshadowing me right now. The proof alone, I don't know how much luck I managed to get today. Hints after clues kept coming at me, without even asking for them at all.

It seems like from today I have to believe that after those bad days, there will come a day full of kindness. Kartini's mother once wrote in a letter “Hunter dark publish luminous.” I think this time it would not be wrong to believe in the ancient saying that everyone has always said until now. Trouble first, have fun later. I hope I'm really lucky today. Today is quite the opposite of yesterday. The sun was also seen shining very brightly, as if it was ready to put an end to this cold musin. Hopefully the weather does not get worse and stays like this until today.

After taking the bus, I went down the street near the tomb. Like a cemetery in general, taka da different from this one place. All that is seen are the ranks of the tomb and a tomb guard who is seen pacing in it. This place looks so calm and scary at the same time. I don't know how the guardian of the tomb could look so calm in there. It seemed like he had experienced all these years every day as well as every second of his life. I don't know how he lived among the dead.

I wish I could be like him. Can live in the desired calm. He survives in a fear that threatens him every ticking clock. If only I could be as calm as him. Maybe he looks ordinary, because he's used to all this. Perhaps he had married most of the invisible residents who inhabited this place blatantly. And I also have to learn to get used to all the bad things I've been through. If indeed I could not get out of this deadly trap, at least by getting used to it I would definitely feel much calmer. Getting used to it takes time too. And I will always wait until he arrives.

After getting off the bus, I walked a little closer to the cemetery. Every now and then I try to steal a glance in there, even though I know that there is nothing interesting there that I can see. And actually I don't have to do that either. But I don't know, my head just keeps sending the reflex message to be done by my body. I chose to wait at the funeral gate. After looking inside a few times, it seemed like no one was on a pilgrimage at the moment. Maybe Ahn Yoo Ra and Amel are walking to this place, because they think the place is not too far away. I better stay here and keep finding out what's really going on here.

I play pebbles around me. Sometimes kicking some of them away from me. Why is it so natural for the girls. Are they walking while gossiping? It might be like that. Because it's impossible if they get on the bus before me. The bus that came to the stop before I boarded, should have left half an hour ago. It's impossible if they get on that bus. Up to here my intuition was already strong enough and this time I was sure if I could rely on it.

“What are you doing here son?” ask someone who suddenly came and held my shoulder.

I turned my body and found the tomb guard standing right behind me. I held onto my chest which felt so strange. My heart felt like it was going to fall out right then and there. My heart rate is no longer regular rhythm at this time. It beats with the tempo and rules that it wants. He works with his heart. This old man almost gave me a heart attack in a place like this. If I'm doing anything, then maybe this is the end of my life. There's absolutely no sight of anyone milling around here. I could have died suddenly because I didn't get first aid.

“You surprised me sir.” replied to me in Korean, while still holding my chest.

It felt like until this second, my heart rate had not improved at all.

“I'm sorry son, I don't intend to disturb you like this.”.

“Tak what sir...” reply.

“But what are you doing here alone?” ask the man again.

“What made you come here and just stand in front of the gate?” continued.

Ah, this old man really pisses me off! He didn't even give me a chance to answer the question he had asked before. This guy is really trying to test the limits of my patience.It's good that he's older than me, otherwise I would have scolded him, just like I scolded Arka yesterday. His age makes me have respect for him right now. Because of that, I managed to hold myself back from this explosive emotion.

“Oh, the…. Me and my friend, we have made an appointment at this place. He told me to wait here, because we will make a pilgrimage to someone's grave.” I said as an excuse.

“Then has he not come?” ask the man again.

“Arghh! Didn't you see that I was alone here? Why are you still asking?! If they're dead, I certainly wouldn't be alone out here and trying to fight my fear desperately like this.” I grumbled inwardly.

“Not at all sir.” reply me with a soft tone of speech.

“You can wait somewhere else, why be alone like this here?” his reply.

“You can wait in a slightly more crowded place. It's not good to linger in a place like this. Do not harm yourself.” he explained at length.

“I can't. What if my friend was looking for me because he didn't find me at our previous appointment?” reply me with you that sounds so panic.

“You have not been here much longer than I?” my continue.

“Many things you don't understand at this age.” reply.