CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

Maira Princess Maheswari

"Shame on you, Wa!" said weak mother.

"Mom feels like you've failed" she continued.

"Mom .. I never cheated, but now I'm not," I replied guiltily, I could only bow down lamenting guilt.

"But I'm sorry, Mom, it's changed, I really want penance, besides I'm just playing around, no one's using feelings," I'm not defending myself, obviously, but this is what really happened.

"Whatever it is, you're wrong! Mom and dad never taught you that!" said mom holding back anger.

Mother always disciplined me since childhood, I only obeyed when I was at home, when outside the house I was a bad boy. The pressure and the demands of being a good boy I have been getting since I was a child, and then the demands and the pressure continue to come from Maira. I have to be a good husband and father.

Me good? Sure oes. When at home. When outside I was again controlled by a childish soul who still wanted to be free. I'm selfish. But I didn't mean to be evil. My heart still loves Maira so much, it's just that I'm too tired of the standards of a good husband and father.

I was bored, needing an outlet from my soul who was still curious about the low-standard yet pleasant world.

But I'm determined to change, right?

Don't judge me!

It wasn't easy for me to change and get to this point, even though for mom and Maira I was still a shame.

"Punish me, Mom! I was wrong!" pissed me.

"God! I'm not finished!" exclaimed mother, but did not manage to make me stop stepping.

I left my mother and Thunder, closing my ears to the voices that tried to judge me. This is not what I should accept. I need a hug and support. So that I could completely abandon my mischief side and turn into a full-fledged adult.

Being late? I'm too late! Hhh .. never mind!

I busy myself with a lot of work that I put off. Drown myself and avoid those who always demand me to live up to their expectations, no matter what I feel, or what I want.

***

Braagk!

Please break the table and throw documents on the table.

"Wa! Lu professional dong! If our project fails just because of you how? This is not your project, but a lot of people! Our hard work these past few months could be ruined because of the eloquence!" maki Please tell me.

"Sory, Sil!"

"Sori .. sori ...! Wake up.. professional!" continued.

Why is everything so fucked up? Maira, mom, and my work are all in a mess! Am I wrong for changing?

"Gue doesn't seem to care about your problems, but your role in this project is also important, Wa. Selesein your problem with Maira sepetnya, if you are not able to escape, easy, Wa!" say Sila.

Please? A single man at a fairly mature age, giving me advice about marriage? Crazy one! But only Sila knows I'm inside out, because in others I have to keep my authority.

I tried to get my teeth out even though Sila's solution was sometimes dubious. As usual please listen even though he was angry and upset with me.

"The point is you're wrong just in your mouth, Wa, your heart hasn't completely relented and regret."

I disagree with Sila's sentence, she doesn't know how sad it is to see Maira become mute because of me. But I chose silence, because Sila was not happy if the sentence was paused.

"You still give justification not the truth, you still need Maira to understand your situation even though she herself is in a ruined condition" said Sila.

"Alas you think you're a forced adult? Maira is also oon!"

"Gue males ribet, anyway tomorrow you have to be professional, if we lose this project can minus the company, loss because you!"

"Here you go, Wa, you try mediation, ask someone to help you solve this problem, if you don't want to talk, maybe if someone else wants to!"

"Hem .. He's also you, Sil!"

"Yes yes! But don't ask me for help!" he said while stepping away.

"Thank you, Sil!"

***

After I returned from the office I said I meant to mother, mother also agreed even though she could not guarantee anything. After waiting for dinner to finish, until Luna, Lintang, and Thunder sleep.

I waited in the living room while mom was making her point to Maira. After a long wait, my mother came down from the top floor, and how happy it was when I saw Maira coming behind her.

My heart was pounding more than the first moment I was about to say love to Maira. Basically my love never died to Maira just a lot of spacing.

Mom sat in my middle and Maira. I was nervous and Maira looked so relaxed, it seemed like the existence of the mother who helped her all this time was quite helpful. Maira looks fresher.

"Mom didn't want to interfere with May, but ... God ask for help to mother so that mother can mediate you," said the mother began.

"Mom knows that mother's son has sinned, you may even find it hard to forgive, but God is truly sorry."

Maira was still relaxed, her eyes were down, she sat leaning back and her hands hugged the pillow.

"Mother don't apologize God May, but .. please look at your children" said the mother.

"I'm not angry, Mom!" said Maira.

Not Angry? I was surprised and confused by Maira's words.

"Don't be angry, just sad" Maira continued.

"How do you feel? Ngambang, not clear, bland, numb it so," said Maira.

"I don't know what I want, don't know what this heart feels like, it's not broken anymore anyway, like suddenly just, empty, don't know how, I don't mean?" ask Maira.

"Do you know?" maira asked me as well, I was afraid of Maira's gaze this time.

"I don't know, so I don't know what to do!" Maira smiled with a single corner of her lips, a wry smile and made me feel very guilty.

Mother looked at Maira with a beautiful look.

"I'm sorry Papah Mah" I asked him, braving against his empty yet frightening gaze.

"May?" reset Maira.

"I'd rather you call me Maira, not mamah or papah!"

"I'm Maira! Maira Princess Maheswari!" continued.

Mother looked at me with a gesture, like telling me to follow Maira's will without asking much.

"L-yes, I'm sorry, May, I'm sorry!" my ul.

I remember when Maira was daydreaming when the house was chaotic and Thunder was crying right in front of her eyes. As I shouted the 'mistake' call to her Maira remained silent as if immersed in her own thoughts. But Maira only realized after I shouted her name.

True Sila said, Maira was also forced to mature, circumstances that forced her to be tough. Did Maira lose her identity during the maturation process? Is that Maira?

I-i'm sorry!

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