CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

Don't Humble Yourself

"Let's stop, let's split up!"

I was disappointed to hear Maira give up and ask to separate.

Crazy one!

After this much effort, Maira was still thinking of separating. I don't think and can't understand Maira's mind.

I try to understand, it's not just me who's having a hard time changing. Maira went through a similarly bizarre process.

I chose silence and thought of Maira's sentence just now as the wind. I tried to give up again, and understood the joy of Maira.

"Already, Mah! Maybe Mom's tired."

Maira didn't budge, I ordered food for Maira. I patiently greeted Maira. Seeing Maira's pale lips at this time made me dejavu. When Maira gets drunk because of Luna's pregnancy, Maira won't eat if I don't. It is fitting that Luna looks so much like me.

The warmth of the past infiltrated my heart and strengthened me to be more patient with Maira. However he suffered, because the wounds I made were not easy to heal.

I love you, May.

"Well, tomorrow come with papah yes, we will meet the papah minister," asked me.

"Where? Who?"

"He's a papah acquaintance, he will help Mamah overcome this difficult time," I replied as I tucked Maira's hair behind her ear.

"Psychologist you mean?" ask Maira.

"Yes, his name is Dr. Tiara, Mama must love to see him" I said.

I've been preparing all day to see Dr. Tiara so we can fix this marriage.

"Women again!" maira muttered cynically.

"May? Lala who nyariin, deliberately papah nyari that women let Mamah delicious consulnya," said me slowly.

Geez! Severe suspicion of Maira.

"Find the men!" Maira.

Of course I object, Maira will have an intimate conversation with a man?

Oh ... no!

"Women, Mah, according to a survey of women are better able to understand the feelings of other women," I explained.

"I wonder exactly the way men think, why the brain is just cheating!" Maira.

"So I want to talk to a male psychologist!" maira continued to insist.

"Why? You scared?" maira asked guessing the inconsistency on my face.

"Yes, Mah. However they are still men, still ordinary people, who can just slip and forget their professionalism," I explained.

"The Father does not want Mamah to confide in the opposite sex!" reject me at Maira's request.

"Are you talking to yourself?" asked Maira to corner me.

I was wrong immediately.

"Bych! Aye!" I admit with annoyance.

"And Papah doesn't want Mamah to fall prey to such a caliph crocodile!" my firmness.

"Curtain!" Maira sneered and insulted me with her expression.

"Quite low papah, Mamah do not need to humble themselves, if you mean Mamah want to give lessons and reciprocate the papah affair with cheating too, Mamah is wrong," I began to get carried away emotionally.

"Father will not let go of Mamah even Mamah bales heartache Mamah with cheating!" I'm strict with Maira.

"Father will accept whatever bad attitude Mamah to papah, but remember such things will not make papah give up."

"So, don't make yourself as humble as Papah! Not for Papah, but it's for your own good!" I end up very emotional.

I hope Maira understands, I don't want Maira to feel the regret I felt for hurting her. Enough I know, how bitter the guilt is.

"Hey! Conscious!" exclaiming Maira.

"Your mouth is everywhere!"

Maira spoke right in front of my face, her eyes staring sharply through the window of my heart The gaze that made my mouth shut. I tried to calm down and reset my brain. Right, my sentence has gone far, but how? That's my concern.

"It's just a psychologist, but your mind is that far?" maira asked continuously intervening me.

"It's not me who's low, you're the one who values me that way!" continued Maira.

"I'm not interested in cheating, even I can't trust any man anymore after you," concluded Maira no less upset with me.

"Sorry papah, Mah!"

Maira fell silent at my apology, already countless words came out of my mouth. Maira seemed to be calming down.

"Well, let's go home, Mah!" take me.

Maira got up and I followed her, when she was about to walk suddenly Maira's body was limp, fortunately I was quick to catch her. Then Maira tried to get back up straight.

"You have a fever?" I just felt Maira's body temperature start to rise.

I quickly carried Maira's body, although Maira refused but I still forced her.

"Deliver! Seen people!" maira whispered still trying to escape.

"Udah, just hold on, what do people think!"

Maira gave up because her physical condition was weak, she wrapped her hands around my neck. I can feel Maira's hot breath on my neck, making my body crumble after a long cold war with Maira. His body also felt light, the last weight of Maira was very heavy, at that time when Maira was about to give birth to Thunder.

I'll fight for your heart again, May!

I drove the car quickly, some flood and traffic jams had broken down and gradually disappeared. When we got home, it was night. The children, already asleep, and only the Tuti bik welcomed us.

Maira slept the whole trip, so I returned to the house.

"Yes, Bik."

"Bibik was worried, was Madam Leni who saw the fitting Mother left, he said went to rush up ojol, bibik again in the kitchen so do not know, sir," reported bik Tuti.

"It's not papa, Bik. Tomorrow if there's something strange about you please tell me, yes!" I said to bik Tuti.

"Ready, sir."

"Oh yes, please prepare the same compress for fever medicine, Bik!" my door.

"Yes, Sir!"

I easily carried Maira through the stairs, arriving in the room immediately I changed Maira's moist clothes carefully. I think Maira's fever is getting higher.

I compressed Maira and I put the medicine in her mouth. Hopefully Maira will improve. It was in my mind, how Maira had broken through the flood, rain, and traffic to see me. He wanted to prove his own fear, and in fact I no longer did evil to him.

"Go!" mumbling Maira.

The high heat made Maira start to delirious.

"Well, this is papah, sober, Mah!" I said while wiping the top of his head.

"Go!"

"Father is not going anywhere," I said to answer Maira's murmur for free, because maybe Maira could not listen to me.

"Can't you?" maira muttered again.

"What can you do, Mah?"

"You are love as much as I am," continued Maira.

"Can, no?"

"Can't do it, huh?"

"Less than just one?"

"Why?"

"Why?"

"Why, anyway?"

Maira kept delirious, even her subconscious still did not accept with all my explanations.

"Hust, relax, Mah! The storm has passed, now Mamah can be calm and happy with the children," I said myself.

***

Maira. P.

A hand was coiled around my waist, while a person's head was seen sleeping soundly beside me. My eyes blinked trying to collect lives, there I realized that Bang Deity was asleep on the chair and his head was on my bed, while the hand that hugged me was his.

A wet towel stuck to my forehead, and a basin of water was seen on the table with a splash of water around it. I had a fever apparently, and Bang God tried to compress me. Bang Dewa still can not compress properly apparently, it must always fall apart.

She's still wearing the same clothes here, she's sleeping without changing her clothes. I quickly realized that I was the one who had changed clothes, my memory was working hard to provide the memory of yesterday's events.

"Ih, you stupid idiot!" sorry to remember everything.

I should not care, refrain from turning a blind eye and allowing the God Bang to do whatever it wants. Actually, my sense of indifference has existed since my belief to separate is still unanimous.

But everything started to fade since the God Bang vociferously kept asking me back. Unconsciously my heart returned to hope, and again haunted by the fear of killing me from within.

It is more convenient for me to believe that we will part, than to hope that the God Bang will change. Sepesimis is my belief in him, but foolishly my heart still hopes for him.

I slowly rubbed the hair of Bang Dewa, Bang Dewa squirmed and woke up. I immediately took my hand and acted normally.

"Well, is your heat down?"

His eyes were not perfectly open yet, but his hands moved quickly to grip my forehead to the point that I was misbehaving.

"Udah" I answered quickly.

"Oh yes, rest again, Mah."

Bang the God got up walking with a stagger out of the room. His neck was moved to the right and to the left, while his hands were twitching the neck. Sleeping like that must have made Bang God's neck hurt.

As soon as my God Bang wakes up, I need to make sure the state of the children, especially Thunder. The shaking of my soul lately made Thunder fuss too.

When in front of the door of the children's room, vaguely seen Bang God was wiping the head of Thunder who was in the sling Leni, his nanny.

My heart was hot to see that scene. My jealousy is blind. The fear of various bad possibilities is getting worse.

But, isn't Bang God able to cheat with anyone?

I should what?

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