CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

Let's split!

"Don't go, I beg you! Give this stupid man a chance to live properly in your eyes!"

Isak Bang Dewa I can feel, I was surprised by the side of Bang Dewa that looks so destroyed. What's he playing? My feelings? My destiny? The future of children?

"I'm mrsel, May, I'm mrsel!" he said again while on his knees hugging me.

"Mas ... loose, there is Please, do not make him uncomfortable," I said by shaking my legs trying to take it off.

"Yes, you made me a baper!" connect Please.

"Don't Sila, in front of the whole world too papah will kneel, ask forgiveness to Mamah, let the whole world know, I'm a stupid husband who has been in vain his wife, he said, now it's gone and swore to change!" exclaim Bang Dewa loudly with a sentence that I think is less solid.

I glanced at Sila with a little unkindness, while the God Bang locked my feet tightly. An embarrassing pose, maybe if this thing Bang Deity did all those years ago I would be moved. Be late.

"Ehm .. I'll be home, I'll call May." Please just pass by.

"Sila .. don't go, Cesilia ...!"

Please just wave his hand at me without intending to stop his steps.

"Wake up!" irked me.

"Sorry papah first, papah don't want to lose Mamah!" he said it sounded ridiculous.

"What you're trying to do now won't fix anything!" say him.

Bang God finally woke up, instead of away he just locked me back, Bang God hugged me.

"Mah .. sorry, papah is not aware of all the suffering of Mamah so far, papah can not forgive himself if until Mamah leaves, give papah a chance to make up for all the mistakes papah!" said it.

The hug that used to feel warm, the hug that used to be mine alone, the most comfortable place from all corners of this world. I was once happy and felt soaring here, where I entrusted my whole heart, soul and future.

Ever since her body became the mark of another woman, this hug felt like a knife, which stabbed me deeply and as I rebelled the knife went deeper. Like a poison that destroys all hope. Make it crumble to dust.

I once loved her very much, and slowly this love turned to hate for betrayal. I was once so afraid that I would have to live without it, that the terrible shock even made me comfortable if the God Bang was not around me.

I never once left his name in every prayer, until now I only pray to be kept away. I strongly believe that he and I will not part, God is jealous because my love is too great to be broken all.

Be ill. So hurt. The pain that the God Bang infused, the suffering in every night that made me cold, the speck of poison that made my heart slowly break was gnawed from within.

What is less than me? Cih ... I am no less, Bang Dewa is the greedy one.

"Deliver!" I said, Bang Dewa just hugged me tighter.

"Let's start all over again, Mah, we fix everything!" bring him.

"We?" my midget.

"If you need time to accept this farewell, I'll love you!" bargain him.

"You want to talk, don't you? Let's talk well, motherless, please, just the two of us!" take me to him.

I have to gather a lot of strength to talk to Bang Dewa, I am actually tired and the pain that I have to take away is not small. I understand very well, our talk will be in vain, sometimes it can make me feel more sick.

What hurt me? Being naked with another woman is killing me. Other times he would force me to serve him, a touch that should be loving just makes me feel disgusted and deeply hurt. But in contrast to Bang Dewa, making me hurt then forcing me to forgive him in bed as if becoming opium.

I am his wife, my body is his right, but I am not willing to be touched with a hand that has touched the body of another woman.

But Bang Dewa never considered my injuries as injuries, he considered everything to be good after our bed activities were over. Somehow I have to explain the demands of those events.

Bang God let go of his embrace to me, the body language he always used to force. I immediately retreated a few steps preventing the sudden safest from the God Bang.

Seeing him whine after committing a great sin made me so fed up. Arguing it would be a useless thing, just tired and tired. I wanted to run as far as I could, but I stopped thinking there were kids who needed me.

"Listen ... I will not be evil, I will cover this up anytime from your children, I'll make sure they don't know why their parents separated until they're old enough to understand" I said, trying to open a healthy discussion.

"Even if you split up, I promise you can meet the kids whenever you want" I continued.

"No, Mah, no!" rejecting raw.

"We again the discussion should be how Mamah sorryin papah, not split!" inexplicably.

Hearing Bang Dewa's reply made my senses break. I choose silence rather than having to talk to the wrong person but not accept the consequences. Bang Dewa should have realized, my desire to run away from him was the result of his actions.

I leaned my back against the chair, folded my hands, and snorted in annoyance. What is the mind of Bang Dewa? Why is he so selfish?

"I'm sure you're not a fool, so .. please understand while I'm still sane enough to think about the children's good and yours!" I said I hope common sense Bang Dewa opens.

"Mah .. papah admit all papah's faults!" said it.

"Stop confessing! I don't need it, and .. Let's forget the nickname, I'm not comfortable!" Bang the god seemed to be thinking hearing my words.

"Okey .. so, papah .. um, I have to how about Mam- um, let you excuse me?" tanya Bang Dewa tried to rearrange his sentence.

"I'm sorry about you, but I don't want to fall in the same hole .. I'm tired, I want to split up, period."

Bang God looked at me disappointedly, but he should know that my disappointment had been much greater than his. Whatever was raging in his heart, it was still nothing compared to the destruction that had happened to me. My mind, love, heart, life, trust, and all sides of my life are devastated by his repeated actions.

In the past .. I had wanted to avenge this pain, everything I did was intended to make God Bang regret having betrayed me. But revenge is not something that will benefit me, I have to be happy with letting go. Regretting or not the God Bang is none of my business. I just want to get off.

Looks like I will be quiet again until the Lord Bang finally gives up and divorces me, we'll see, until where the solemnity. I have plenty of time to play with him.

"May .. What makes you stubborn?" ask Bang Dewa.

I don't care, I choose not to respond, rather than anger.

"May?" exclaiming Bang Dewa again realized my reluctance to answer.

"Do you want to be remanded again?" he said in a very different tone to his sobbing earlier, really like two different figures. I don't understand his way of thinking.

"May .. answer, let's talk again, sorry .. Whatever makes you lazy to talk, I'm sorry," he said again in a tone that returned to low. Me or him who's not sane, actually?

"Don't ask a question whose answer is in yourself, and don't ask the same thing over and over again, tired, Bang!" saya.

"We have failed as a couple, let's try to be good parents for children, however only they are left of our story that has run aground!" I told him, I hope this time he can digest my simple words.

"Don't force me to make a decision that will add to your regret, I've offered you a very heartfelt middle ground!" my continue.

I think it is very clear what I say, it is outrageous that Bang Dewa still refuses to part. We were silent for a while, my heart started to fidget because it had taken too long to leave Thunder with the nanny.

"Well, let's split up!" bang Dewa.

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