CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)
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But, isn't Bang God able to cheat with anyone?
I should what?
My feet are backwards, lately I've been overwhelmed by keeping my sanity. It's not easy for me to discern where the real fantasy is, all the prejudices happen so clearly in plain sight.
The suspicious I must have made the Lord Bang sultry and not at home, but I was afraid of being lied to for the umpteenth time.
Some people praised my decision to forgive God Bang, and not a few people would say I was stupid for receiving God Bang back. Their point of view must be different. The road can be the same, but people's shoes are different.
No one understands for sure what I am feeling right now.
"May?"
"Display there?"
The baritone sound of Bang Dewa surprised me. Bang God stood right in front of me and made me misbehave.
"Ehm, m-mau li-at Thunder," I replied slightly stuttering.
"That's the new thunder, papah bathe first yes, Mah," said Bang Dewa.
Bang Deity's hand grabbed my head and pulled it closer, then Bang Deity kissed my forehead before it passed. Strange indeed, men can be fine after a fight. No apologies, no solutions. Letting my heart hang in anger.
Leni, his age is still under 25 years, of course the favorite young leaves of established men such as Bang Dewa. Thunder wriggled in his arms, a puffed-up baby who was now almost 3 months old. I was forced to connect ASI with sufor because ASIKu reduced drastically when stres. And Leni's presence has helped me a lot.
"Here, Len," I said, taking Thunder from him.
"Mom, are you healthy?" leni asked, from her face she looks sincere.
"Udah, thank you take care of Thunder" I told him.
"My duty, ma'am, yes, I'll excuse you first" he said.
"Wait, why the rush?" my prevent.
"Maybe I want to suck out Thunder" said Leni.
"Yes, no papa, let's talk for a minute" I asked her.
Lina approached and sat down opposite me.
"You're not married yet, Len?" my many.
"No, ma'am," he answered briefly, Leni's face was ayu and plain, not Bang Dewa's taste.
"Why?"
"It still has to be a costin adek-adek school," he said.
"Oh, but your age is enough for marriage."
"Udah was once engaged, Mom. But disperse," said Leni.
"Lha, why?" I was wondering, the story was starting to get interesting.
"My engagement was cheating, Mom, so I broke up" she replied slightly offending me.
"Oh, don't you try sorry?" manya curious.
"Udah, Mom. Before it was found out, already apologized, had promised to leave the woman, eh even cheating again," Leni's story is more interesting, is her life similar to mine?
"Geez," I murmured to understand his suffering. Why is the story almost the same as mine?
"His next door is the same as his ex, Mom. Maybe they are still in love so want to be told to separate the rich if they come back again, return again," Leni's story with sadness.
"Oh .. so cheating many times but same one person?" manya curious.
"Yes, Mom. The enemy uses the heart so I feel worthless to be his legal partner," Leni replied sadly.
"Surprisingly, my ex-fiancee also did not want to leave me, so want to go here. Finally I left him and work, let me be busy and forget," he continued.
It turns out that Leni is not as innocent as I thought, a painful story must have made her more careful to face the world.
"May you get a better replacement, Len."
"Aamiin's."
"Yes, you can go."
No matter how I must be vigilant, everyone has the potential to become a teaser. I'm not accusing Leni, because I understand that the weak of faith is my own husband. Those women were just making use of the Gods Bang money.
Cheating with heart?
Bang God never cheated on me with the same person, 4 times he betrayed me with different women. And Bang the gods always come back to me. I have his heart, but not his soul which still thirsts for freedom.
I don't know I don't understand the contents of a man's brain.
***
"Bu .. What do you want to cook?" ask bik Tuti.
"What, Bik," I replied.
The middle-aged woman resumed her activities. Kuhampiri Luna and Lintang are being fed by Santi.
"Mamah's son mamah mamamnya," I always told them.
"Moment." Luna and Lintang rushed towards me.
"Same Moon latitude to be bribed mamah?" I asked both of them while taking over the plate from Santi's hand.
"No way," reject the latitude.
"Why?" many surprised.
"Kalo bribed Santi Mbak we can mamam while playing, as long as the mamam runs out, if the same mama we can not play, mamamnya also rush, Luna does not like," replied Luna, the eldest.
"Hehe, sorry, Mom. I was wrong, yes. Yesterday said you do not papa, from his son, always," replied Santi
"Well, no papa, just keep going."
"Do I forbid them, Mom?" ask Santi again.
"No, the important thing is that they are full, and they are full."
I left them gone. There is a good thing about all of these events, so I understand that everything that is perfect is not the standard of happiness. I think taking care of my own children by applying the best parenting, will make children smart and independent. I was wrong, the key is happiness. When the child is happy he will be easily directed.
I need someone else to help, especially when I'm immersed in immortality, the children will be spared from my unstable emotions.
Luna and Lintang look happy with their nanny, Thunder was well taken care of. And I have time to myself, to reflect and to introspect.
Sometimes when exhausted I become irritable, and make the atmosphere of the house annoying. Maybe that's the reason Bang God is looking for fun out there. Especially my suspicions and possessiveness that strangled Bang Dewa. I should have changed myself before wanting a change from the God Bang.
"So what do you want to cook, Bik?" I approached Bik Tuti who was busy in the kitchen.
"Mother's favorite fierce acid, let the mother eat a lot and can be excited again," replied Bik Tuti.
"Thank you, Bik."
Kuraih cup and intend to concoct coffee.
"Same mother is better?" ask bik Tuti.
"Sorry, Mom. Sassy aunt, huh?" he said he felt bad.
"No papa, Bik. Bibik, I'm a member of the family." My hands are busy with sugar and coffee.
"I'm confused, Bik. I insist on asking for a divorce, but Bang Dewa does not want to, keep fitting Bang Dewa already want, even I who waver, I do not know should split or not!" I said to bik Tuti, hoping to get a different view.
"why divorced, Mom? Bibik did not think the problem was that severe, because lately Mr. Dewa turned out to be good and very attentive to the same Non Luna, Non Latitude, and Den Thunder," said Bik Tuti surprised.
"Don't divorce, Mom. Kasian kids!" he added.
"But Bibik knows? What is the fault of Bang Dewa as I am?" manyu.
"Know a little" he answered.
"The gods cheated, and this was 4 times. What does Bibik think can still be forgiven?" my many.
"Ehm ... My aunt doesn't know, Mom."
"Bunches, right? Me too, Bik."
"But Mr. God doesn't seem like a cheating man, Mom. The Lord loves the same, Mother."
"Know where, Bik? Men are too much fashion."
"Every night Mr. God always sneak into Mother's room, Mr. God always nanya Mom has eaten what not, take vitamins what not, drink what milk is not, Mother does not say, meet anyone, meet anyone, Mr. Dewa always has details about Mother" said bik Tuti.
"Oh, huh?" Quite surprising.
"Yes, Mom."
"But rich is not proof of love times, Bik. If Bang God loves him he won't cheat!" I continued while sipping the finished coffee.
Bik Tuti just shut up and said my words.
"How about Santi, Bik?" ask again.
"What about you, Mom?"
"They're both God Bang's carrying, is there anything strange about them?"
"Nothing, Mom. They are rich women in general, they are not the naughty type, if you mean that," replied bik Tuti guessing the direction of my speech.
"And the one who chose them was his mother Pak Dewa," continued Bik Tuti.
It seems that I was wrong to be suspicious of a babysitter. But, what's wrong with being vigilant.
"Titip watch out for them, Bik."
Sip coffee, and think. What steps should I take, why is it that when Bang Dewa gave me the freedom to part I hesitated instead?
My phone rang and a name was written there. Beloved husband, with a screen with a happy portrait of me and the God Bang a few years ago. Do I still love him?
I touched the screen to raise the call Bang Dewa.
"Hello," I said.
[Hello, Mah, papah has found a male psychologist that Mamah wants, tomorrow we go there.]
Bang God has completely changed, he no longer imposes his will on me.
[Yes]
If he's still my soul mate, strengthen my heart, Lord!
If not, give me a pointer!
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