CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

What does the word introspection mean

[Video of the abuser's raid by his legal wife by bringing a baby who is still red]

I was inflamed, seeing yesterday's events just spread across the medsos. There was a clear look on Maira's face which was very tough and elegant to take me home without anger and violence. While I was bowing in the video, it was certain that the culprit was one of the mothers yesterday. The next scene is Risa who runs out into angry citizens.

I watched Maira who was busy with Luna and Latitude downstairs. Once I feel safe, I'll call Sila.

[Hello, Wa? Why call early in the morning? ] Ask Please at the connection.

"No need to pretend, where did the video come from?" I whispered a little.

[Antai ..] Not the answer even the sound of laughter Sila heard.

"Oh, Sil, help delete those videos, how does Maira feel about it?" pissed me.

[God ... God, aren't you wrong?] ledek.

Of course not, I was already immune to the sloping news about me, was common and had no effect whatsoever on me. But not with Maira. When I really change, why does it have to be this much?

"Help me, Sil! Kasian Maira, please!"

[Until when do you want to keep hurting Maira? Kasian's wifeilu, Wa.]

"Help me first, take care of this one," I said forcefully.

Sila was my office friend, and was Maira's college friend. He knows all my cards. I end the call, hoping that Sila reprimands one of the female employees from her division who uploaded the video.

I also have to make sure that Maira hasn't seen the video. I searched carefully for Maira's cell phone for fear of waking up Thunder. Luckily, I found Maira's phone on the nightstand dead from power.

After I finished preparing for breakfast, I forgot when I last ate the breakfast made by Maira. But this morning I missed him a lot.

I approached Luna and Lintang who were eating breakfast at the dinner table. Maira sat staring at them with a cup of coffee in her hand. I opened my eyes to the surface of the table. No plates for me, not even a cup of coffee.

"Well, where's papah's breakfast?" my question is touching both of Maira's shoulders.

Maira gasped with my touch until the coffee in her hand shook and spilled onto the table.

"Sorry, Mah, sorry ... Mama's surprised, huh?" I said I saw the mess.

"What's the fuck, anyway? So spilled coffee mamah," said Luna saw a puddle of coffee up to the end of her plate, while Lintang actually laughed to see it.

"Sorry dear, papah unintentionally," I said as I rubbed my eldest daughter's hair.

Maira hurriedly left, carrying her remaining coffee and came back again carrying a washcloth to clean the table. Maira remained silent, as if I was just an astral being invisible in her eyes.

Maira's gaze offended me, it was very clear in her eyes how much she jiji*s with me. Am I that dirty in his eyes? Exorbitant already.

I went with emotion. Maira once said that I was a shitty man, when I was wrong and Maira was angry, I would turn mad at Maira.

I don't mean to be annoying, it's just that when I've apologized, why Maira is still angry and insists on shutting herself down. He acted haughty as if he had no need. He always wanted to keep me down by begging for forgiveness from him.

Although in the end I regretted and realized, that I should not be angry because I was wrong. But it's hard to hold back any emotion when Maira is bringing up all my mistakes. The anger exploded as I held back, causing headaches and burning of my chest.

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The meeting with the client took place, but my mind could not focus. Fortunately, my partner can handle it. I'm still thinking about Maira.

"God! It's too bad, if you have a problem don't take it to the office!" please rebuke me.

"When the client runs away how?" he added.

Please looking annoyed with me, he dragged his chair roughly and was about to step away.

"Sil, wait!" my prevent.

"Otherwise?" he replied, I think he was angry, I almost messed up a big project.

"You confide? The video has been deleted" he guessed right through my mind.

"Thank you, Sil. Sorry I'm so fucked!" my lament.

"What about Emang Maira? Request divorce? It's good to let you know the taste!" he said he sat back in his chair and opened his laptop again, ready to listen to me.

"Maira asked for divorce every time I was caught cheating gini, but I can't, Sil, there's no intention to go there!" my words justify Sila's allegations.

"So you, Wa!" he said, while his eyes were staring at the laptop.

"Maira was out of worry, many you crazy girl and postpartum stress, and you instead of helping her even cheating, Maira is not crazy just sukur, you know!" continue Please.

"Post-delivery stress?" my question, like any myth I've ever heard.

"Baby blues!" firmly Please.

Please focus on her laptop and I'm immersed in my own thoughts.

"Maira diem, Sil, so cry when fit again mergokin, it's been diem, cold, horror, and memeselin can not be talked to!" I complained to Sila.

"When usually Maira cry can be all day, angry, need an explanation. I thought it was a lot of nicotine, but it turns out that Maira diem fit like this is much more troublesome. I want to explain how rich not to be heard, I'm sorry even asked for divorce," continued me.

"And that made me turn back my emotions when Maira seemed disgusted with me!"

"That's so hot, Wa! If I was Maira, I've been checking my husband like you!" chirps Please.

"What do I need to do? I don't want a divorce!" I ruffled my own hair violently.

"Maybe Maira needs time, Wa. If the girl has been diem the sign is tired, tired probably, wong her husband cheated many times. You don't have a heart what the hell, Wa?" ask without looking at me.

"That's not it, Sil."

"Mending you introspect yourself first, find what is wrong with yourself, try to imagine, how if the cheating many times it is not you, but Maira!" Please stop the activity and look right into my eyes.

Introspect? I know that word, but I don't know the right way to do it.

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