CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

Process

"Keep on to the psychologist if you need to go to a psychiatrist, let us know how severe your trauma is with the Insects, and you need to heal!" the Proposal of the Fiery.

"Okay, Sil! Thank you, yes you support me" I told him.

"Together, May."

"Sil, can I stay in your house?" ask me to vent.

"May, by the way. But why?" ask Sila.

"That's the house of God Bang, I don't feel entitled there!" answer honestly.

"Hey .. it's your home, your common treasure, of course there's your right there, besides it's your dream home, your own design from the outside to the inside out, you know, are you sure you want to get out of there?" ask Sila.

"Yes, but what does it mean that the house is deserted without children!" my exposition.

"You have to defend what is, not the God's mind that all work belongs to God, right?" say Sila.

"But Sil-"

"Don't get out of there, is it good to start everything from O? Udah .. do not stay in the house, the facilities that you use as needed," said Sila reassured me.

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The work that Koko Lian did for me from home, even though it took time to do because I had been vacuumed for quite a while, but I tried to do my best.

I began therapy to overcome my anxiety, fear, and trauma. Against my broken subconscious full of wounds. Just imagine, after being cheated suddenly separated with children. Anyway, I have to keep myself grounded to get custody of the kids. I should be able to.

I have nightmares almost every night. Seeing Thunder cry yet I could not carry him. While Luna and Lintang were running in the middle of the scorching, hot desert, they suddenly disappeared from my sight.

I woke up breathless, cold sweat pouring out, and a racing heart. I miss them half-dead, how the God Bang took my life. After that I could only cry myself hoping that after all the bitter events I went through, the universe would side with me.

I had to take sedatives and sleeping pills, otherwise I would have stayed up all night long missing my children. Slowly my ASI dried up, because I no longer pumped for Thunder. I threw away all the ASIP supplies I had, I was disappointed and very angry at the universe for this.

All access to communication was cut off by Bang Dewa, even the Tuti bik who has been with me for many years also cannot be contacted. Moreover, my mother-in-law and my brother-in-law, all seiya seata with the decree Bang Dewa.

As a mother I languished, very dead-end and desperate.

A month had passed, my emotions slowly began to stabilize. I was able to be sincere and make peace with the situation. Nothing bad happens, without HIS permission, right? Everything has happened, not my power and not the power of Bang Deity.

The trial has been going on 2 times, I did not fight back, only gave the evidence. Bang Dewa is very persistent in fighting for custody of children. According to his point of view I was the one who was guilty of not accepting his apology.

My refusal to come to the psychologist at that time was used as a weapon that I was the one who did not want to improve myself and maintain marriage. I don't know, it's very unfair to me, but that's how God Bang, all the way he'll do.

Today I have an appointment to meet with Koko Lian at a cafe, desaign that he asked to have completed.

"Hay May, sorry to wait so long" he said.

I stood up from my chair to greet him. Koko Lian put her sunglasses on the table, both shirts folded up to her arms, she did not wear a suit like the bosses in general, her oriental look was quite decent, I don't know why he's still alone until now.

"No papa, Ko. This is what Koko said, I'm sorry I took a long time," I said with a bad heart, Koko Lian has been so good with paying my honor in full in advance.

Koko Lian didn't even look at it and sat down casually while drinking the juice I've been advised to drink before.

"Thank you, May" he said.

"Sama-sama, uh Ko, do not look at it first, but only once there is a part that Koko does not like?" my many.

"Udah must be good, I believe," he replied with pede, and I became misbehaved by it.

"I have an acquaintance and he needs someone like you in his company, you want a formal job or a gini-rich freelance tetep, May?" koko Lian.

I can't believe hearing that, a great opportunity to become fully independent.

"You, Ko, I want to!" quickly answer.

Koko Lian handed me a business card.

"Come to this address at 7am, just tell me you're Julian's friend" said Koko Lian.

Rightly said Sila, starting all from zero is not easy, and I am lucky to have a relationship from Koko Lian. I smiled brightly, I think this is the way for me to be happy.

"Well, that's pretty," said Koko Lian while watching me, I didn't realize Koko Lian was watching me.

"Huh?" My face is red.

"You know why I'm still alone, May?" ask Koko Lian.

Koko Lian used to come near me, lest Koko Lian still like me?

What's the reason Koko Lian isn't married because she still loves me?

Is this a dream or not?

Oh my God, not now!

I'm still traumatized.

"You don't know, Ko!" my answer is wrong.

Huh!

Whahuh?

Ah, I'm too sick of it.

It's real life, there's no way my life is that short. You're stupid, May!

Kuraih glass of juice and immediately sip it, trying to hide myself who was too piqued.

"Your decision to part ways with the Dewangga is good, each of you deserves to be happy, even though the path must be different," continued Koko Lian wisely.

Indeed, today many modern people, choose to live by avoiding commitment. They are not married and choose to be single to live a life of minimal problems.

Koko Lian is like that. Unfortunately, I was wrong.

"I heard your trial was pretty fierce, May? Is it true, the Household forbids you to meet your children?" ask Koko Lian.

"Yes, Ko," I replied, nodding.

"People like Dewangga can not be fought hard, you should choose a soft way," said Koko Lian.

"What do you mean, Ko?" my question does not understand.

"Try to seize his heart, the harder you are, the harder the Dewangga is also, and you know the Dewangga is much stronger, you can be sure you will lose everything."

I was sad to hear Koko Lian say, sad because the truth is so.

"Then what do I do, Ko?" my many.

"Near him, talk from heart to heart, find a middle ground, give up, try to follow the game of Dewangga, then you will know the next step must be how," said Koko Lian.

"Sign of the God Bang?" many surprised.

"Maira ... the man must be pulled sometimes stretched, and you have stretched Dewangga too far," he said.

"I don't want to refer to Bang Dewa anymore, why do I play pull!" reject me.

"But right now you need the kindness of the Dewangga to be able to meet again with your children" said Koko Lian.

"Oh yeah, right," I murmured.

"If you are a cunning Deity, you should also be able to play tricks!" koko Lian.

However the God Bang carried half my soul, half my breath. Oh no! Bang God brought everything, my soul and breath, I was like an undead that pretended to breathe after separating from the children.

"I'm too focused on my therapy and treatment, and I'm negligent on something as important as this" I said.

"Thank you, Ko, it's been ngingetin," I said.

"Together." Koko Lian drinks her drink again.

"I did not expect, Koko Lian also knows about things like this, even though Koko Lian is not married," I told her, I admire her intelligence.

"I'm a strategist, May, not just in business. In almost every situation, strategy is important. You have to observe your opponent, approach him, then you can know his weakness."

I silently admired the other side of Koko Lian. Turns out he's amazing.

"Ah come on, you can ask me if something is difficult" he said again.

Did I look stupid when I admired him?

"Yes, thank you, Ko!"

"By the way, Koko is concerned about my divorce, why Ko?" my many.

Koko Lian who was drinking her drink suddenly choked.

"Thus .. uhuk .. uhuk!"

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