CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

My widow

[Who's behind you, May? Answer it! Julian?!]

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I did not reply again God bang message, my body felt tired, I immediately went home and lay down in the room. A large house that was very quiet, I hired a special cleaning assistant who only came in the morning and went home in the afternoon.

I miss the warmth, miss the crowds, miss the behavior of Luna and Lintang that often drains their patience, long for their cries and whining. I miss waking up in the middle of the night to shake the Thunder, carry it, and hold it.

I buried the multiples of the hands I made and cried. I'm so tired.

Should I give up and not care about God Bang and his karma?

Should I keep my ambition to be a modern and independent woman like Sila?

Should I live happily with children alone without caring about such things?

Don't I deserve to have a dream?

The sound of cell phones rattling my daydreams.

God Bang?

I wiped the tears and wiped the sobs to prepare to answer the call, however I must be kind so that Bang Dewa does not change his mind.

"Hello," I said.

[Maira ... So right, you're as conspiring as Julian?] lecar Bang Deity, his tone sounded angry.

"What do you mean, Bang?" lazy answer.

[You know? Julian started cheating, and if my guess is correct he deliberately tricked you, trying to fish in the murky water as well as making use of the atmosphere] Bang Deity replied, his words were only floating because I was lazy to digest.

"To the point Bang, I don't understand!" my words showed disinterestedness in this conversation.

[OK, I was just suspicious at first, but after I investigated everything was true, Julian was behind your arrogant attitude!]

Yes, your guess is correct, Bang, I did get a lot of strategy cheats from Koko Lian.

"Bang, I'm tired, mending Brother talk to my lawyer tomorrow," I refused.

[Think, May. If Julian were serious about nolongin you, you wouldn't be recommended to a small office like that. After you discussed the shares, all my suspicions were correct, Julian was intent on seizing the company through you, do you know May? Shares below 50% are the same as losing a company?] The God Bang continued to give explanations that I did not want to hear.

[Don't want Julian's tools, May!]

"I'm not being used, Bang!" reject me.

[Did Julian make you feel comfortable? He's acting like a hero in the middle of our problems? You should know that Julian's a lot more of a crocodile than me!] Bang the gods began to accuse again.

"The God .. listen! Only a person who has cheated can understand other cheating as well, and all this time Koko Lian has never understood your betrayal, Bang!" say defend.

"Koko Lian is not the same as you, Bang!" further break the argument Bang Dewa.

[Don't be stupid, May!]

"At the same time I don't need anyone, Koko Lian is just a sharing friend, our relationship is much different from your relationship with the girls, don't match me with you, Bang!"

[But you've entered Julian's game, May!]

"I'm alone, Bang. There was no one behind me, all the steps I took were purely out of determination and heartache."

"After all, what should I be afraid of until I need Koko Lian's support?"

"I, Maira Putri Maheswari, a wealthy young widow, cool right? I'm not afraid of anything!"

"Good night, see you tomorrow!"

[May-]

I turned off the phone and threw it.

***

The next day I was working as usual, while the trial was just attended by our lawyers. Bang Dewa kept his promise by not asking for custody of the child from me, just waiting for 2 more weeks, I and Bang Dewa will officially divorce.

The words Bang Dewa last night were quite disturbing, considering Koko Lian who said about Bang Dewa's karma, and Bang Dewa who said Koko Lian used me. Everything makes enough sense. Is it true that Koko Lian is slick?

I waited for Bang Dewa in a caffe, we agreed to meet to discuss our peace outside the court. It's hard to avoid people we hate, but at least our status doesn't burden me. We can still be friends.

"Sorry wait a long time, ehm .. jandaku," said Bang Dewa embarrassed me, people around suddenly looked at us.

"Bang!" I shouted while glaring at him, while he smiled teasing me.

"Lho is right, you are my servant, May, you can also call me, my double ..," he continued without lowering the volume of the sound, and making me even more embarrassed.

"Yes, but don't make fun of it either" I said annoyed.

"Okey, sorry," said Bang Dewa while drinking my drink, he drank from my old straw.

Oh, myGod ....

"Bang!" reprove again.

"Why?" Bang Dewa glanced at my drink glass which was in his hand.

"Oh this? I'm sorry, I can't, right?" he said pretending to be surprised, seeming to have deliberately taunted me.

"We are old Bang, don't be so rich, don't be so tacky" I complained.

"Two? I've always been gini," he said.

I held back from being annoyed at Bang Dewa's behavior, but .. his prank at teasing me, reminded me of his old attitude, when we were both young. Bang Dewa was so happy to harass me that I was upset.

"So .. when can I pick up the kids?" I started a serious conversation.

"When, Bang?" I was just impatient again.

"When did you quit your job?" ask Bang Dewa.

"Friday is last tomorrow" I replied.

"Okay, if that is so you can immediately pick up the children," said Bang Dewa gave me the green light.

"But remember, I can meet them whenever I want!" bang Dewa's.

"Yes" I replied, I can't wait for the weekend.

"Shame you still want to?" ask Bang Dewa.

Did he test me?

"If you want me to split two," continued Bang Dewa without waiting for my answer.

"Why do you answer all my requests, Bang?" I'm starting to feel weird.

"Hem ... intentionally, I want to know to what point you will be satisfied," replied the ambiguous God Bang.

"meaning?" I honestly started to take offense.

"You're very ambitious, May, I've been begging you, begging you forgiveness but you're not lethargic. I want to see to what point you will be satisfied with yourself" explained Bang Dewa.

I tried to digest his words. I'm ambitious?

Right, when am I satisfied?

"Now stocks, right? Okay ... we split two!" emphatically.

"But, were your words yesterday true, about the company's largest shareholder?" many surprised.

I think the share-sharing is a big thing, there's no way Bang God agrees.

"Yes, right," he answered lightly.

"You don't have to," I refused.

Actually I just follow Koko Lian's advice, I don't understand the stock at all.

"I don't care, you want to be alone, or told Julian, if the company should fall to Julian was not papa. What does it mean to be successful, my family is just destroyed" Bang Dewa insinuated me with utter insinuation.

"I said no," I refused, which started to feel bad for Bang Dewa.

"So it's Julian? Are you guys already? Like each other? Mutual dear?" his pedicab.

"I'll tell you because I care, May, Julian's a lot worse than me, foreign relations are very free, different from easterners. Even if I cheat I still have a heart to regret," said Bang Dewa.

"I have nothing to do with Koko Lian!" my firmness.

"Heh ...," bang God.

"I don't want shares, if you lose the company how the future of the children, you will still have to take responsibility for them," I said trying to improve.

"Related?" asked Bang God to test me, I just nodded.

My hand moved to grab my glass back, this conversation thirsted me. But then it was held back, considering that Bang Dewa had just drunk it.

"Why? Thirsty?" asked Bang Dewa aware of my gesture.

"Wouldn't you like my ex again?" continued.

Then Bang Dewa raised his hand at the waiter and ordered me a new drink.

"We have to adjust, Bang," I said.

"Oh .. okay."

I saw Bang Dewa sitting in front of me, his attitude back like Bang Dewangga long ago. He no longer looks annoying and makes me angry, does this mean I have forgiven him?

Tap the hammer just to count the days, the custody of the children is safe in my grasp, the matter of the Bang God's treasure divided fairly. Everything happened according to what I wanted.

I felt relieved, but a little hollow and I didn't feel happy. Wh why?

"Don't call God Bang again, May, call me Dehangga, or Lord Sister, because the call of God Bang only applies when you are my wife" he said.

"Yes." Yeah."

Why do I hear it so sad?

Maybe because Bang God gave up on me too much, and his actions actually made me feel greedy even though this was my right.

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