CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

Cunningly

"Well, let's split up!"

Bang Dewa is the type of husband who will behave more sweet and romantic when he cheated. The first time the affair happened, of course I was fooled. It felt like being cheated raw, like being flown high then my footing collapsed and turned into a ravine full of taper stones as my place fell.

It hurts like I want to kill myself, I'm dark-eyed and immature enough to face a betrayal of love. Stabbed with a warm attitude full of poison. Fortunately I was strong and over time many factors kept me afloat and forgiving.

I was wrong, letting him grow up with the wrong habits, letting his bad qualities develop without breaking, letting his path go wrong without really telling him. So this is how it became, Bang Dewa considers me easy to forgive, so he will return to make mistakes easily.

That's why I no longer melt at the sweet, romantic, and warm attitude that Bang God always gives. I was always afraid, parno, and wary of his every attitude. It is precisely when Bang Dewa behaves normally even cuek that is where I feel calm. Weird, right?

Since the pregnancy of Thunder Bang the Lord has been acting sweet to me, even though our household has been quiet for a long time. I was afraid, anxious, negative thoughts kept haunting, I became irritable and emotional. If I could just close my eyes to her every act, I would like peace at least until my baby is born, but a woman's heart is very sensitive.

Bang Dewa said as I expressed my suspicions, she reasoned her sweet and romantic attitude for being happy when she knew the baby I was carrying was a boy. I still don't calm down even though the reason makes sense. I tapped his laptop and cell phone, I asked for his secretary. Until his affair with a woman named Risa again revealed.

I wasn't destroyed at that point. That's exactly where my life turned. I have to be strong, sincere, and passionate. I have to go away, stay away, and live happily with the kids. No more fear of losing her, I'm more afraid of losing my sanity.

"Let's do as you please, May!" said Bang Dewa again loudly, I am happy even though I feel a little awkward, Bang Dewa is only stupid about the taste, but his ingenuity should still be wary.

"Let's both try to be good parents, let's just say we broke up, we're home together but different rooms, so, we live together for the sake of children but do not take care of each other's lives. How's it?" bang Dewa gave me an offer.

"What's? No! I don't want to, I also want to have a life of my own, if you still have to live together let alone at home when can I be free?" my protest disagrees with the crazy idea.

"So you want to be free?" ask Bang Dewa.

"Yes, be free from you! And ... you will be free to sleep with any woman you like!" ketus.

Bang Dewa looked angry with his wide eyes, I had expected him to turn mad for not accepting my angry way, no matter how big his mistake, was common.

But something strange this time, Bang Deity looks silent, maybe his mind is fighting because suddenly he lowered his head and when his head back upright his angry look is gone.

"I mean like this, May, assume we're dating that we're breaking up, break up again, we're a couple of lovers who are coming out, but on the other hand we're still parents," said Bang Dewa with a soft tone.

"I. .. will start all over again, I will make you fall in love again, and I will fix everything. So ... let's split first as lovers, take a step back to take a few steps forward. How, May? You'll be comfortable and the kids will have a whole family!" persuade the God Bang to me.

"No way, I can't pretend to be that rich, please .. We have to grow up!" reject me again.

"That's the best middle ground for all of us, May, all of our wishes come true. One, you can be yourself, there are caregivers and assistants who take care of children, your life and children are guaranteed. Two, the children remain happy with the parents intact and together. Third, I had the chance to prove that I would be faithful!" clearly Bang Dewa Long.

"I can choose the room farthest from your room, and I promise I won't bother you!" continued.

I doubt it, because the God Bang is not a person who can resist his male desires.

"So .. will we fool everyone?" ask her.

"Yes, think so!"

"I .. can't be nice to you" I told him.

"Please, be bad too papa, do not want to talk, diem, cold, please, as long as our agreement you agree!" said again.

"So I can cheat too?" manyu.

"***-eh .. uh, what? No!" rejecting.

"Waw? So I can't take advantage of your rich sins? I wonder what it feels like to cheat richly, because kok brother ravenously until addicted continues," I quipped him.

"Don't, May. Let's try to live up to my proposal."

"Well.it's free, I don't want to!" refusing me back to play him, he thought only he could play.

"Well, I'm not as dirty as you! But ... I'm in a hurry!" my challeng is trying to ignite the emotion of the God Bang.

Bang the God was closed and both his hands were clenched. Since when could the God Bang control his anger?

"OK .. well, you can also date, but there are conditions!" bang Dewa said to surprise me, of course my challenge to him is just a joke, my heart is still traumatized by men.

"When I failed to prove myself to be faithful, when I failed to take advantage of this last chance to improve myself, when I again betrayed you and cheated on you. Let alone dating another man, all the treasures and children I love for you!" bang Dewa is full of confidence.

Our eyes were intertwined, until his entire sentence shot out without me even having time to clear my heart, I trembled a little to see his earnestness.

Throw his story fake, he's really good at playing people. Instead of taking off he tied me back tightly. Hard to believe, a man who has cheated many times is desperately defending his wife.

Why should I cheat? The question that made me tired, I really wanted to know, what was the reason. Although Bang Dewa has admitted many things, but the answer still can not satisfy my astonishment towards those who claim love but betray.

"You're sneaky, Bang!" my macu.

"May .. This is best for everyone" he insisted.

"But not fair to me! Try to remember Bang everything you've done to me! I can be sincere and try to forgive is great, the process is not as easy as you think, Bang! It's hard!" emotional reveal.

One thing I can't understand. How trivial are my wounds and suffering in the eyes of Bang Dewa. As if it heals and returns fine, it should be a skill that you like.

The process to be sincere, then forgive, and let go of everything that has happened is not easy. I had to argue with myself, had to be broken, had to force myself to stand even though his legs and body were hollow, had to remain firm despite the ponda's overcrowded heart, he said, and the heavy thing is to pretend to be okay in front of the kids.

I wanted to cry and roar as much as I could, but I held back and suppressed my feelings until my unconscious sanity sometimes had to be eroded.

Together with Bang Dewa feels useless, because I feel alone in carrying out obligations towards children. While the God Bang who was supposed to protect us became the most destructive, cruelest wounded, and most selfish people wanted to win on their own.

I want to be alone, want to get away from the thorns of his love, want to be away from everything about him. I was traumatized, depressed, and devastated from within.

"I've been pondering, May, that's why I've dedicated my life and soul to you, to treat all the wounds I've made!" he said he didn't want to lose.

"That's no way, Bang!" reject me.

Offer life and soul, he said? Hmh!

I was tired of hearing her sweet promise. I regretted asking her to talk, just dead-end and in vain, no matter how hard I tried to explain my fragility. Bang the gods still do not understand. Should I run away with the kids?

"Well ... You said that if I needed time to separate, would you love me, right? Think of it this way," said Bang Dewa who began to be overwhelmed with anger.

Sly!

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