CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

From the Heart, Not Just Tap the Hammer.

Maira. P.

Being a party clown? Alright. I'll test where my mental is. Even before becoming a party clown, uninvited guests had come to test my emotional intelligence.

I'm not the old Maira, who acted on emotions, bursting, crying, compassion, and humiliating herself. I'm better at controlling everything.

Met one of the Bang Dewa's mistresses, even seeing them hugging each other out of the car. Huh huh? Gasps! I'm tired!

But I have decided, without a king I can become a queen, it is inappropriate for a queen to defile herself and deal with a mistress.

I will no longer allow the pain to come without permission. I've thrown away the memory of the gaping wound of the affair Bang Dewa. I want to be sane.

Bang Deity held my hand along the passage of humans who greeted us. Their compliments and sweet greetings sound more like a form of mercy.

'The love of his wife, cheated on.' Although not spoken, but their eyes imply that sentence.

I will test my mentality and face every eye that thinks I deserve pity. I'll enjoy my role as a party clown.

Bang Dewa did not take off my arm until Koko Lian greeted us. One thing that amused me was Bang Dewa's jealousy when Koko Lian greeted me with respect. The customs of the country where Koko Lian lives may be like this, is Bang Dewa stupidly jealous without seeing the background of Koko Lian?

Bang Dewa held my arm even tighter after meeting Koko Lian.

"After this, I'm not going anywhere!" protested him. His treatment of me made people uncomfortable around him.

"Why? Do you like to be kissed by Julian? Want to kiss a lot of men again?" bang Dewa said angrily.

Getting angry? It's funny how he is.

I forcefully pulled my arm. There was a new wound that made my mind bleed.

"So your mouth when you say, I'm not cheap rich your mistresses!" I looked into his eyes full of anger. Straining my tone in such a way, due to the crowded conditions, it would be embarrassing if we were to fight here.

Bang God still looks angry, but he's wrong with putting me down like that.

"Do you know what your fault is?" many intimidating.

"It's not about infidelity! ," I continued, still looking into his eyes.

"Your fault is my excuse I'm sorry you, selfish!" my words are full of emphasis.

I felt the handrails of Bang Deity slacken a little after hearing my last sentence, I hope he knows the location of his stupidity. I took the opportunity to free myself and leave.

I stayed away from the frenetic party, and the God Bang still had to greet many people. I am thankful that he did not come after me.

"May?" call someone.

"Hay, Sil," I replied when I saw Sila.

"Why is it here?" ask Sila as she approaches.

"You cry, May?" tanya Please look at the rest of the tears in the corner of my eyes.

"Oh .. No, it was a flickering," I said lying, as if Sila could not believe, she looked at me with pity.

Returning to self-neutralization, re-regulating emotional management, and trying to be ordinary. I don't need anyone's mercy.

"I'm sorry, May, from the beginning I should have told you that God cheated on me" said Sila with guilt.

"I understand, Sil, besides Bang Dewa also temen you, your position is not good between us," I explained.

"Yes, anyways why don't you just sue for divorce, May, drop out, it's over!" sila said lustfully, he might also be anxious at the behavior of Bang Dewa all this time.

"Hem ... What do you think you're knocking on the court hammer?" say him.

"Finished your marriage, right?"

"Yes, only our marriage is over, but not with all the problems" I replied trying to explain to Sila.

"Easy Sil, for that matter. Actually the important thing is the heart, if my heart has released yes, released!" mylm.

"Tap the court hammer can not make the heart to escape, which can only be me and Bang God himself. Many you know out there who force to tap the hammer but their hearts are still tied to each other. Can be vengeful, can still be love, can be any feeling."

"Have you left, May?" ask Sila.

"Already, Sil. I'm out, so knocking the court hammer is not that important to me, I just want to be happy, and my focus now is on separating well for the sake of the kids."

"Since my heart decided to escape from Bang Dewa, my feelings began to improve, every behavior was no longer painful, I did not care. Just don't jerk me off!" I said while remembering the words of Bang Dewa that offended me earlier. The rest I don't care.

"Some of the rush, I am still traumatized, it is not possible to immediately find a partner again. I'm scared, Sil!" I obviously told Sila.

"I want to focus on the kids!" myrt.

"May too, the court is only on paper, the real separation is in your hearts" said Sila began to understand.

"Yes, the character of God does not want to lose. But ... Are you really sorry? Without revenge?" ask Sila to be curious.

"It's not that easy, I'm so devastated, I'm ashamed of all of you, gentlemen who know how our relationship used to be. Many people are jealous of my relationship with God Bang, are they still jealous if they know our marriage is finally like this?" I said while sending back old memories.

"I really hate the same God Bang, all that he has done is evil! But I'm a mother, the survival of the children is in my hands, to be brought toward hatred or happiness" I said.

"I hate Gentlemen, Sil!" my firmness.

"This injury is not treatable, so it must be amputated."

"I salute you, May!" please say it with a sweet smile.

"Thank you, I want you to be rich, independent, and shiny."

"Duh, I even want your rich sage, May. Did you meet Koko Lian? Koko Lian used to have a crush on you, you know, May, who knows if she could be a candidate to replace the Dewangga," please tease me.

"What guarantees Koko Lian won't do the same, Sil? Bang Dewa that I accompanied from below can only betray me, what else Koko Lian who has been born," said me serving Sila.

"I want to be independent, and be on par with those guys! I don't want to be behind the scenes anymore!" I said a little revealing a dream to Sila.

"Eh, no one knows, May!" please please again.

"Why don't you, Sil?" my God turned to Sila.

"No way, I want to be the same as an ordinary man, afraid that he will become rich in the Dewangga," replied Sila while laughing.

Right, laugh. I laughed quite. Things I haven't done in a long time. Please and I talk a lot of light things, discuss our past full of shortsightedness, so that makes me forget the problems I am facing.

"May?" call the God Bang who finally managed to find me in the corner of the party.

"You too, Sil? What's in here?" ask Bang Dewa.

"Let's go ahead, the core event starts immediately, it's not polite if you guys even poke here!" invite Bang Dewa to ruin my happy atmosphere with Sila.

We finally got back to the crowd. The hand of the God Bang held my arm tightly again. Free Bang, my heart is gone.

I let Bang Dewa treat me, focus on my role today as a party clown. Not too bad it turned out, because actually I was released.

Finally arrived when Bang Dewa had to go on stage and shake hands with Mr. Chandra, the father of Koko Lien. Bang Dewa invited me to accompany him in the handshake procession. Accidentally, Mr. Chandra also invited Koko Lien who he said would take over the company after this.

With sumringah Koko Lien also invited me to shake hands when Bang Dewa and Mr. Chan is shaking. The camera glows lead to us with alternating sounds. The god Bang had to smile. Cheers and applause echoed.

Party finished. Bang the god was much silent after coming down from the stage. It was time to go home because my body was no longer broken. My ASI is back full and makes me feel uncomfortable with this dress. Last time I pumped in the salon before putting on a dress.

Bang the God back to pull on my arm tightly. Instead of heading for the exit, Bang Dewa actually dragged me to a place.

"Where are you? Let's go!" my protest but not heard by him.

Being upset and feeling like my job as a clown was done, I pulled my hand and walked on my own to go home. Quickly the God Bang caught me again and dragged me along.

His face, and his hunting breath made me know which direction he was heading.

I rebelled and tried to run away. But the God Bang again caught me and even carried me on his shoulder. God, this is like a kidnapping.

Bang Dewa took me to a room still in the same hotel. As soon as the door opened, the God Bang locked it quickly.

My body was thrown on the bed. The pain in my chest colliding with the mattress made it even more uncomfortable and painful.

"Aw!" er pain.

Bang Deity did not care, his suit and tie had been thrown, his face was looking madly ready to pounce, anger and desire were mastering his consciousness. I have to run, I don't want to serve him anymore.

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