CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

What's This Taste?

I can't stand Maira's silent attitude, should how to get her back to demanding my explanation?

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I made Maira's favorite coffee, somehow Maira always run on coffee every heart is not okay. I just hope he'll be happy, considering that from now on pizza and bouquet of flowers are not glimpsed by him at all.

Maira was busy washing dishes, I had no time to do it because it was very tired. My strange mairaku, his habit is to wash dishes with soap makeup, once when bik Tuti buy liquid soap Maira immediately protested because he did not like the aroma.

"Mah .. papah makes Mamah's favorite coffee, nih," I told him. Still quiet. Patience.

"This is so that the papah who rinse, Mamah rest aja, papah wanted nyuciin but forgot," said I took the initiative.

Only the sound of dishes and water answered my words. I took a deep breath and then took it slowly. Patience.

"The papah put it on the table yes, Mah, there is pizza too, papah peratiin Mamah has not eaten," said I give up and return with Luna and Lintang and keep Thunder sound in his bed.

I tried to find information from Luna, she had already begun to understand and remember the circumstances. I hope to gain enlightenment from the answer.

"Lun .. mama's tiredness, yeah?" ask slowly.

"Yes" replied Luna.

"Mamah is tired to cry, kasian deh, Pah, because of the Tuti bik holiday kayaknya," continued Luna, my son who began to be smart.

"Your cry?" ask again.

"Yes, Luna asked he was tired, so Luna helped me keep Lintang's dedek, Luna pinter did not bother mama," said Luna again.

"Hem .. pinter son of papah, already can take care of his grandpa. Ehm .. story dong same papah yesterday Luna same latitude nyusulin papah," I tried to pry again.

"Oh .. yesterday, Lintang accidentally swore milk on the carpet, continued to be angry until he hit Lintang, Latitude crying in pain, and so on, so mamah ngajak us take a walk up a car motorcycle taxi so Lintang not cry anymore," said Luna made me surprised, Maira most anti-violent use in educating children, and so on, just because of the milk that Maira spilled hit Lintang?

"Well, what was the rame there yesterday? Luna nanya mamah was not even answered," continued Luna.

The maira? He made up a lot of stories to bring the kids without knocking me down.

"Ehm .. oh it's a mamah theme show, Lun," I replied from the origin, Luna was back to watch her favorite tivi show.

The maira? There are so many changes happening to him. Is this because of me?

I was wrong for being selfish in this relationship, I was disappointed that Maira was no longer attentive to me, no longer serving me as well as she used to. I don't think that Maira actually didn't have time to pay attention to herself. I was wrong, and from this point on I'm going to start a change that I hope will melt Maira's heart.

I approached Maira about to take her out to eat, so Maira wouldn't have to cook dinner.

"Yuk, Mah, let papah ready Luna the same latitude, well," said I continue to try to take Maira's heart.

But Maira did not answer the sound of a bell at the front door. It turns out Maira has been cooking food online since. Even without a single sentence from her lips, Maira could make me feel utterly rejected.

I was disappointed, very disappointed, I picked up a cigarette and walked annoyedly towards the terrace. I had to get out of the way first in order to replenish my patience.

Maira's silence deadlocked me, her indifference made me feel useless. I coughed my hair rough though it didn't itch, I grumbled annoyedly, why didn't Maira just get angry?

But I can't give up, I can't lose Maira. Although this impasse irritated me but I realized one thing, that Maira was hurt very deeply. And the sorry price of it is not something cheap let alone easy.

Maira ate dinner without taking me, I deliberately entered the room and preoccupied myself with the work I brought home. Actually I wish Maira would call me to eat as usual. A day of living life like a stranger with Maira, has made me unable to bear it.

Maira went into the room to put Thunder to sleep, she did not avoid me and did not pay attention to me. Maira acted like I didn't exist. Makes my chest full of curiosity.

She sings little to Thunder while nursing him, caressing him affectionately. It's so different from Maira I met this afternoon. Scary and alarming to me, I can't leave the kids with Maira like this anymore. I patiently wait for the Thunder.

Maira was silent, were her ears troubled? Should I take her to an ENT doctor?

"May?" I said as I ventured to grab Maira's hand and hold her.

"Come divorce!" maira said, the same word as last night. He pulled his hand rough.

"Mah! Let's talk, the first explanation papah, papah has changed, papah relationship with the girl is finished, papah apologize, Mah! Don't ask for separation, papah please!" I pray with a sincere heart.

Maira was silent again, but her face was no longer flat. His face was flushed with anger.

Angry Maira!

Angry me!

"False wrong! Papah emang fools have mamah continues to hurt! But papah will confess whatever origin Mamah want to apologize papah." I again forced myself to grab Maira's hand, but Maira quickly dodged.

"Don't keep on diem, Mah! Let's talk about this problem, papah does not want Mama rich gini continue, let alone daydreaming earlier until Madam's nangis thunder is not horrified, Luna is just as Latitude is not straight."

"Hit hard papah if it makes Mamah relieved, don't get rich gini, Mah, please!" I kept persuading Maira.

"Use me!" said Maira. I stingy the word that came out of his mouth. I was upset and lost my mind.

"Anything that Mamah wants to come along, as long as it's not separate."

"Look, Mah! Thunder is still red is it appropriate Mamah still selfish and ask for a split?"

I tried to make Guntur an excuse for Maira to forgive me, but Maira looked very angry. His hand clutched tightly onto his own shirt, his lips quivering yet not even a single moment came out of it. The next second Maira turned her face the other way.

"Stop hurting each other, we're both unhappy, let's split up!" he said although a little long but the contents are still just as painful.

"Mah! Please don't be stubborn, think the kids!" myrag.

Slowly Maira looks at me, then our eyes meet, I'm sure Maira needs a lot of time this time.

Maira shook her head slowly, "Let's split up!"

My heart shrunk, the fear of losing Maira suddenly grew bigger and bigger until my brain almost exploded. My chest suddenly tightened, breathing was hard and almost forgot how to get air through my nose.

What is this taste? A strange feeling of torture? Unexplained pain at the end of the base.

Seeing the sentence from Maira's lips was accompanied by solemnity in her eyes. Nightmare, this is a nightmare that never even crossed my mind.

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