CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

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[Mama, where?]

"Well in the office."

I say goodbye to Sila and immediately go to the room Bang Dewa. Before I go there, I stop by the toilet. And I overheard some female chatter in the toilet. They don't seem to recognize me very well.

"When there are 3 children, if Mr. Julian's not married yet."

They seem to be gossiping.

"Eh but look not at the party yesterday, his wife Pak Dewa is very beautiful, do not seem to have 3 children."

"What a wonder, the beauty of being rich is still cheated."

"The name is crocodile."

"You know, if I'm the wife of Mr. God, with such a beautiful appearance must have asked for divorce, rather than being cheated on constantly."

"Yes that is also, Mr. Dewa is rich, if I am his wife also diem-diem aja, want a husband cheating bodo very important money smoothly, want to shop just click, click, go for a walk, cus."

"Ah, your brain matre, mah!"

"What a woman would want to leave a rich man!"

My pride feels like it's being crushed. I survived because of the child, but all people see is because of the treasure. I laugh at myself.

"But yesterday Mr. Dewa really did not sosweet, anyway? His wife's hand was not taken off at all."

"Obviously, want as sweet as any husband's treatment if cheated on mah tetep aja sick."

Okay enough. I finally broke down the toilet door where I was hiding and eavesdropped.

Braagk!

"Geez!" call them together.

They were all surprised, there were 4 women who were dressing up. There was powder and lipstick falling on the floor, maybe they were surprised.

"You can shut up?" my spoken.

They don't seem to recognize me. My hands are shaking with anger. The outside world turned out to be scary, I was too comfortable to be a housewife and wife for too long. Closing the ears of people's judgment, while Bang Dewa freely beratraction with the soul of the culture.

"You still want to work here you must keep your mouth shut, if you do not hand over your resignation letter!" I scream at them all.

One of them seemed to be starting to realize who they were talking to. His face started to get nervous and looked down.

"Sorry, Mom. Sorry, we didn't mean that! Don't fire us, Mom!" said one of them, and the other three still looked confused. They were busy whispering asking for leaks from their friends about who I was.

"I'm sorry, Mom!"

"Sorry, Mom!"

"Don't fire us, Mom!"

I was in a bad mood, and they used me at the wrong time.

I pulled out their ID cards and rushed out.

"Again, Mom. Don't fire us!"

I don't care about their whining. Quickly my feet walked into the room of Bang Dewa. My emotions were high again, my self-esteem was stepped on by people I didn't know.

"Mom came!" greet Lala who stands behind her desk, but I don't care.

Glass door I violently broke through.

"May? Wait a long time, will you?"

Braagk!

I threw the fourth woman's Id Card to the Bang Dewa's table. My chest up and down held back emotions.

"I want them all fired!" I cried with breath. Something boiling within me could no longer be contained.

Bang the God was confused to see me who was stifled by emotion. He caught a glimpse of the four Id Cards I threw in front of him.

"What's up, Mah?"

Bang God got up from his chair and approached me.

"Stop!" seruku stopped the steps of Bang Dewa.

"Yes .. Papah must have fired them all, Mamah calm down!"

Fold both hands on the chest. The God Bang again tried to approach me, and led me to sit on the sofa.

Why am I so angry?

"La .. make it drink, spit!" bang Dewa exclaimed at Lala who was behind the door.

"Mom why?" ask the God Bang carefully.

"Your employees don't have manners, they may not have me!"

"I am a beautiful woman who is helpless when her husband cheats, because her husband is rich so his wife is silent and only accepts his fate" said the circus.

"You are proud and show off your affair! Without you realizing that the thing you are showing off is not an achievement but a lowly thing that only cheap men do!"

My emotions began to rub off on Bang Dewa, she walked back to her desk and observed the Id Card I was carrying.

Just at that moment Lala entered with a drink in her hand.

"Please drink it, Mom!" lala.

I whipped the glass and I finished it up the toilet.

"La .. Take this to HR, fire them all!"

Bang Dewa threw the Id Card at Lala, and Lala immediately carried out the order without asking much, though at first glance there was a sad look on her face after seeing the names listed.

"Sorry, Mah, it should be Papah who came home to pick up Mamah!" bang Dewa said regretfully.

"Udah I should know the outside world, not the house! All this time my life has been about you, the kids, Tuti's bik, your mom, my mom, sometimes please, it's time for me to get out of my comfort zone and learn to hear the world!" my answer.

"You don't worry, Mah. No one else will dare to talk about you!" bang Dewa.

"It's time I cared about the outside world, it's time I cared about other people's opinions about cheating husbands! I'm tired, it turns out that my mentality is not that strong to forgive you and come back with you!" seruku while pushing Bang Dewa away.

"May? Whatever people say, the important thing is that papah has changed, and Mamah is the one who knows best how hard papah is trying to change!" answer Bang Dewa.

"But everyone knows that you're a dick! Anything can happen including your nature that I don't know when I'll be crashing again" I argue.

"Well, don't be yanked!" bang Dewa said in despair.

"I don't think, before I had a hard time believing like now, I once believed very easily with you!" seruku again.

Bang Dewa seemed to be trying to calm down, he ruffled his own hair.

"Calm down, Mah. Relax yah!"

Bang Dewa guided me again patiently, although the look on his face looked angry, Bang Dewa tried to suppress his emotions. Honestly, Bang Dewa has tried hard to understand me.

Before this God Bang had never been this patient, he would avenge my anger with the same anger. If the attitude of Bang Dewa was still like yesterday, surely this marriage had ended easily. What made Bang Dewa change and try hard to keep up with my emotions?

Little things like that have become the trigger for my anger. I was so paranoid, my anxiety and fear levels were already so high, my emotions could explode just because of trivialities. Whatever it is, that could remind me of the god Bang affair.

My stance wavers easily, between staying and going. All the hard work of Bang Dewa obviously made me confident to survive, but sometimes a small thing can make me want to part ways and end.

I'm very unstable. It's a plan, I don't know what to hear, what to ignore. I was depressed, depressed, prejudiced always floating around imagining the most hurtful possibilities.

Helpme!

"Let's go Dr. Mario, Mah!" bring Bang Dewa.

"I want to separate, this process just makes you and me sicker, Bang!"

"No, Mah! We've all discussed before, don't repeat the Mah debate!" bang Dewa was a little disappointed.

"Don't repeat this relationship! From the beginning I had given up, other people who saw also confused, the same stance I plan!" I cried without caring about the persuasion Bang Dewa.

Bang the gods began to look out of patience facing me who was in a rage.

"Good! Let's split!" shouted the God Bang right on my face, my breath choked with his snapping.

"I'm a jerk, right?! I don't deserve you to be sorry!"

My mouth is locked and I cannot return a word. Instantly my emotions subsided, moving on to the God Bang that was probably at bay.

"I'm free to change!"

"Not useful, you .. You are never satisfied with all my efforts!"

"I'm crocodile! Cheap guy, lowly! And you're the woman without fault who's hurt!" Bang the God smiled wryly insinuating me.

"You know Maira? A parable that suits you right now? Hearts ask for hearts!"

"Please leave but don't expect to take the kids!"

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