CAUGHT CHEATING (I'M SORRY!)

One Word From Maira

Maira slept throughout the journey, her hands firmly hugging the already full-fledged Thunder suckling. The distance that should not be up to half an hour, become a long mole due to traffic jams and drizzles. Luna and Lintang were asleep in the back seat. I'm the only one awake, patiently pushing a car tire a meter by a meter.

I stared at my face Maira in between driving me. The pleasant Maira turns into the pressing Maira. But I admit, she had been patient with me all this time, and as bad as my behavior was not the slightest intention to leave Maira.

I was also patiently waiting for my Maira to return, Maira who used to make me fall in love. It's just a matter of time and circumstance. His life changed because of the children, only to have to wait for the big boys then Mairaku will come back.

And I'm not impatient, just impatient. Maira no longer gives me inner satisfaction of her love. Not just about the bed but about the pounding feeling that makes my day work. I don't get any of that from Maira anymore, she's busy with the kids.

I still love you, Ra. It's just that I need a distraction to keep loving you.

Arriving at the house Maira woke up. Without saying, he entered the house. Alternating Kugedong Luna and Lintang to the room. While Maira was busy changing our baby clothes and diapers.

We have a housekeeper who only comes in the morning and goes home in the afternoon. I once proposed to find a nanny who could help Maira look after the children but Maira refused on the grounds of wanting to take care of her own child.

Maira kept me quiet, she was deliberately busy with Thunder when I wanted to invite her to talk. I shower and clean myself. In my brain I kept spinning the question why should everything be discovered, even though my affair was just over?

Maira fell asleep hugging Thunder. I don't think, how could Maira silence me? Though I was sure in his heart there were as many questions for me as ever.

My heart ached to see him sleep. Remembering all my mistakes that put too much emphasis on ego and lust. I understand I was wrong, but sometimes the desire to explode blinded my heart, but I promise, this time it will really change.

***

In the middle of the night I woke up and found Maira awake sitting by the window holding Thunder. Usually I'm just gonna crackle and sleep again. But my fear is too great right now, I don't know, but I'm really scared of Maira.

I woke up and saw my phone lying on the nightstand. I forgot, when was the last time my phone changed position when I went to sleep. The thing I liked the most was when Maira checked my phone, but now I really want Maira to do it.

I just melengos disappointed, and ventured to approach Maira.

"Mah ... Thunder awake?" my question was trying to invite him to talk, not even Maira gave it to me since leaving Risa's house.

I do not understand the baby, Maira often complains that Thunder just wants to sleep on his lap. When it is asleep and placed on the mattress Thunder will wake up and cry.

"You who made him, so the thunder stinks!" I answered when Maira complained of lack of sleep every morning. Of course Maira was disappointed. Me? Must be a good night's sleep.

Maira was silent, in harmony with the dim and silent night.

"Mah ... here replace the Thunder sling," I bargained as I reached out. But empty, Maira still sculpt.

I pulled back my hand in disappointment, took a breath to give in, and tried to patiently understand Maira. I sat pulling another chair beside Maira.

"Mah .. don't be fooled like this, sorry papah," I said trying to understand, no matter how silent Maira must be his heart waiting for forgiveness and explanation from me.

Want me to hold her hand so she can feel my sincerity this time. But I don't dare, I can only glance at it.

"The father has left the woman, Mah, before he took a step, but Papah realized it was wrong, so papah left him," I tried to explain once again.

"Sorry, Mah, sorry papah," I begged.

Maira only sighed violently, as if my existence made her uncomfortable.

"We are divorced" said Maira in the end, a sentence that disappointed me, she should have understood that this time I meant it. Even I consciously left Risa before being caught by her. He should have appreciated that!

"Mah!"

"Divorce!" he said it again without expression.

"Okay I was wrong, but I'm sober and without you even asking me to leave that woman. She's just entertainment because I'm stressed out at work while you're busy with your kids and your pregnancy" I explained trying to make Maira understand the matter from my point of view.

For a few seconds I felt Maira was wrong and I was right. I was angry at Maira's silence, and without appreciating my explanation she dared to make her own decisions.

The next second I realized that in order to reach Maira's heart, I had to give up. I regret raising my voice.

"False father Mah, sorry papah, papah does not want to divorce Mamah," I said trying to control my tone again.

Maira swung the Thunder that woke up because of me. He again ignored me using Thunder as his alibi. I'm getting upset over his indifference.

Maira got up and left me in anger. Angry at hurting Maira. Angry at failing to make Maira listen to my explanation.

Why is Maira so stubborn?

Everything should be fine now that my affair is over.

I left the room and went to sleep on the sofa. I began to be offended by Maira's attitude which seemed very uncomfortable to me.

Humbling yourself in a woman is what hurts a man's self-esteem. But because of my great love for Maira I was willing to do it. I apologized many times even I begged him. With pride Maira did not care.

***

A noisy morning routine woke me up, Luna and Lintang started whining for their breakfast. The smell of cooking from the kitchen slipping into my nose kept me awake.

There was a sense of gratitude filled the chest cavity which was accompanied by a sense of relief. Seeing Maira cooking fried rice for breakfast implied that she was already fine. Bik Tuti just came later at 7 am, while Luna and Lintang already can't wait for breakfast.

I hurried to take a shower to get ready for the office. I intend to go home quickly and take Maira and the kids to dinner outside. I have to try harder to break Maira's heart.

I looked at Thunder's face that was more similar to Maira's, she was still fast asleep after making Maira stay up last night. Kuciumi Guntur is full of joy, he is the turning point of my life, and I hope Maira will forgive me for Thunder, Luna, and Lintang.

My phone's still in the same position all night. Maira is no longer interested in my personal belongings. Curse that flat object and check some important chat.

A message came in to surprise me.

[Video of the abuser's raid by his legal wife by bringing a baby who is still red]

Holy hooch!

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