We, Without Me

The Hidden Dusk

The tiny lips continued muttering, memorizing every strand of the word arranged into a straightforward subject matter. Occasionally stop for a moment to remove the air that obstructs the lungs. Yuki was still staring at the screen of his laptop that was on, scanning every sentence listed in the power point slide, researching one by one so that no one was missed, what else if until a typo.

This morning he can still relax, but not really relax. Yuki has a lot to prepare, but it is definitely not all kinds of court needs that just put a laptop in a bag, but the mental that must be strengthened. The schedule of the thesis trial that took place right at half 11 pm will make Yuki a little nervous, even less appetizing even though her stomach was already kicking boisterously.

Srak.

“What do you expect, Ki?” ask Yuki to herself. Smiling wryly with bitter throat sticking. I don't know what he's waiting for, but it's obviously just a roll of plastic waste from the wind that fills Yuki's lens.

Closure of curtains that had been disibak. Slowly breathing heavily through the mouth. A moment later Yuki grabbed the backpack containing all the war supplies. The weight felt increased many times as Yuki's nervousness level increased.

“Yuki, come!” yelled Dimas from behind the fence. It turned out that the young man was already sitting sweetly on the motorbike, waiting for Yuki who had just locked the door of the boarding room. Of course Dimas was not alone, there was Ara with him. Both come together with their own motors.

Reviewing the thin smile, Yuki ran a little in a hurry. “I'm really nervous. Fear of fainting fitting new opening.”

“Later start the presentation also relaxed. I did that yesterday too, Ki,” said Ara.

“Yes, leaving now. You wanna come with me or Ara?" Dimas turned on the engine of the motor, pushing back a bit so as not to nudge the rear of the Ara motor.

"Ara aja, mau ghibah first," said Yuki lightly.

"That's ...."

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“Aaaaaa .. Finally just a little revision, signature, volume continued distribution, Geng .. My brain briefly again can leave. Finally-eventually ...,” babbles Yuki splashy. He hugged 5 stacks of his thesis that had been approved by 3 testers and 2 tutors. It was a relief after that one burden disappeared.

Still with lips that expanded, Yuki circulated her gaze. Observing every corner of the faculty building, nil, no figure filled the mind. The smile of the sumringah faded.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. Just still nervous," Yuki replied while squeezing his fingers. His eyes glanced at the end of the hall. It's the same, there's no one there.

“I go to the toilet first huh, Ra? kebelet peed.” Passing by without waiting for an answer, Yuki left behind various piles of sheets that he had hugged tightly.

So this is where Yuki is currently, laughing at her reflection in the toilet mirror to make a level sister undo the intention of defecation.

“You why are sad? Funny ...,” shriek Yuki while turning on her phone. It is not clear who the question sentence is intended for, but certainly not for invisible creatures floating unclear.

Opening the green app that kept a tweet of a message containing a promise, Yuki let out a rough sigh, throwing hot air from her mouth. The look in his eyes kept disappointment at the sweet promise tweet. True, the promise of a Keven who will be present before Yuki conducts the trial. A promise that was made when Yuki refused a smooth invitation to eat together, certainly not only with Keven, but also with Mama Agni and Papa Leigh. Yuki was afraid that he would falter again at the gaze of the twilight figure that made him powerless.

'Friends don't have to date. Friend ... Don't baper!'

The sense of disappointment slowly grew, encompassing Yuki who initially did not expect much. But it turns out in the corner of his heart really looking forward to the presence of a Keven. I don't know what Yuki's heart means.

Anyone ... please remind Yuki again if you just count the hours himself and Keven is no one else.

‘Stop Yuki! Who is he? Just a prospective ex-husband. Wake up, most beautiful young widow!’ Knocking on the temple, Yuki muttered inwardly.

While Keven who meets Yuki's mind is busy feeding someone from a phone connection.

“Argh ... Damn lo, Ka! I promised Yuki I'd come to court time!”

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“Job! Theses trial! In half an hour Yuki was done. Anyway I stayed. The rest of the responsibility lo!”

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"Stupid time!"

The call was just turned off by Keven. It's frantic. Repeatedly restoring the rough of her disheveled hair. The sleeves of the shirt rolled up half-mast have collapsed, one exceeds above the elbow, and the other has dangled to the wrist. Don't ask me again.

"You want to go?" flat chirps sound from behind Keven. Sounding soft but also full of dislike.

Turning his body, Keven nodded confidently.

"Saka's coming soon" Keven explained.

"Keep if Saka comes, you go? No, Kev! Enough of you to accompany me until my parents arrive. They'd be more comfortable knowing I'm the same as you."

“Saka until soon. He will accompany you.” Ignoring Alia's words, Keven turned his face away, returning busy with a cell phone in hand.

“What if my stomach suddenly hurts like that?”

“There are Doctors here. Even I will ask the nurse to take care of you" Keven said. “I go.”

“It must be because of Yuki, right? Why don't you care about me because of her?" alia said loudly, stopping Keven's new leg away 3 steps. “I've been patient about him. I already want you to limit communication, even stop meeting. Want to focus on struggling during the divorce process? Bullshits!! I know that's why you. He must have asked you to keep away from me.”

"We've already talked about this. I told you over and over again, not because of Yuki, but we were missing. Had we known each other's limits, none of this would have gone awry" Keven replied without turning to look at Alia. The man clenched his hands, squeezing fingers that were reflexively hurting the skin of his palms with a shower of nails. Eventually Keven was caught off guard and tired of having to face the attitude of Alia who was always pressing, monopolizing Keven's life which must rotate only on Alia one.

Keven knew that Alia always wanted to be the center of attention, especially from him. But it does not exceed the capacity of a friend who transformed into a family. But this time everything is too excessive, very late for just Keven said Alia thirsty for affection.

"Good, Kev. You changed because of that woman. I'm the only one you should prioritize, not him! I know you better, why is he always the one you think he is?! I want to go back to kayak first, a time when you were always a hero to me, even before Saka was present among us. I know, you must still feel guilty about my marriage, right? Please, Kev, it's all gone."

“Al ...” Lowering his voice, Keven pressed a frown on the chest. He was forced to give in when he thought about Alia's current condition. “Till whenever you remain my best friend. Yuki never intended to shift your position as a friend. My attention remains the same, but the way it should be changed. Isn't this mess started from us not being able to understand the situation between you, me and Saka? Yuki's our victim. And here I beg you to understand, both you and Yuki are equally important to me. Don't make me even less willing to continue our friendship."

"If you don't need to find him. He's a victim, and our victim will soon be your ex-wife. You don't have to think about it anymore."

"It's hard to talk to you ... It's up to you, Al!! I'm tired of facing you. I don't know what you really want" Keven said, turning around to ignore Alia who kept calling her name. He is busy ordering an online taxi while drafting an apology sentence on Yuki who is believed to have completed the thesis hearing.

Keven was like a mired and sprained, it was difficult to crawl up in the original place that should be fine. Alia's sudden presence, the commotion at the restaurant, Alia's confession that had contracted, the car broke down until the last in the form of endless debates with Alia. Keven is really dealing with his every misfortune.

"Argh! S-kit route ... Keev?!" alia moans while holding her stomach.

Straddled wide, Keven ran over to Alia who was sitting on the floor. "You should stay inside!" keven is angry. The man immediately carried Alia, clinging firmly so that the young pregnant woman did not fall.

A while later Keven had laid Alia on the top of the gurney, pressing the emergency call button so that the nurses and doctors came to check on her condition.

‘This is new you, Kev.’ Alia's faint smile adorned the lips that continued to whimper in pain. The one that Alia wanted, Keven could not escape her reach anymore.

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The face was more frowning, plus a shirt tangled and hair disheveled, perfecting the sad look of Keven which is actually not as bad as his heart. Keven was only able to stare dimly at the lights that started to turn on. Crouching beside the Guard Post, ignoring his feet that were starting to tingle.

“Sit here, Mas,” said Mr. Satpam while thrusting a plastic chair with a fading red color. There was a sense of pity that seemed to radiate from the look of the old man. Because all this time he had repeatedly seen Keven waiting for Yuki, or even secretly observing the occupants of the most energetic boarding room.

“Thank you, Sir.”

“Non Yuki has been on the phone, Mas?”

Nodding weakly, Keven tried to comment on a smile, but failed. Both corners of her lips were unable to pull the arch up, too sore to want to cry.

Everyone has been contacted, but no one knows where Yuki is. Surely Keven has contacted Yuki's only friend whose mobile number Keven kept, but still does not produce anything. It was precisely the indifferent answer that caused him to burn with anger.

"The phone rang again, Mas," said Mr. Satpam as he pressed his chin to Keven's phone which rang loudly for the umpteenth time. Mama Agni's name is shown on the screen Keven's phone, alternating with the name Saka who recently also contacted Keven.

Standing in a slight daze, Keven moved from his crouching position. She swiped the green icon to receive a call from Mama Agni. But alas, Keven's fingers lost quickly to the ringing of the disconnected call.

On the other side at the same time, accompanied by twilight slowly hiding with a glass of iced cappucino, Yuki was silently transfixed. The body is empty. His breath was tight even though he did nothing. Being held up by that face, looking at the figure that gave her an impression of pity, for a moment Yuki wanted to disappear.

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