We, Without Me

Failure Point

Yuki's hope is shattered. His fear came true. No different from Keven who was very disappointed. Even the man felt like he was throwing dirt on his parents' faces.

Now Mama Agni and Papa Leigh must endure the shame caused by Papa Gibran's scathing insinuation. But the past can't change, the only best way is to be better, to be reconciled and to forgive each other.

“Slightly can not Papa understand me?” Yuki's voice was flat. He stared at the pane of Papa Gibran who looked indifferently glaring at the twilight sky.

Yuki convinces Keven to drive Mama Agni, Papa Leigh and Mama Maria home. He asked for time to chat between father and son with Papa Gibran. Keven will be back soon.

“According to Papa's wishes I've called Aunt Inca, Mother. But the origin of Papa knows, if not for Mas Keven, this mouth to death will not want to call Papa's wife BUN-DA,” stressed Yuki full of emphasis.

“These two things have nothing to do. Over time you also get used to Mother,” Papa Gibran reply is still very stubborn.

“Papa guess easy? After I was forced to be dragged in the middle of this condition without being given a choice, now Papa .. please, Pa, the blessing of our relationship.” Yuki lowered her head while squeezing the interlocking fingers. Avoid emotional turmoil that drains energy. Repeatedly exhaled long breaths dampen tightness in the chest and throat.

“You forgot what he did? You suffered because of him! Now it might still be okay. But in the future, you're sure he didn't repeat his mistake?! Do you want to get hurt again?!”

Yuki. The glare that I gave suddenly scorned. He chuckled blankly as he stood up and circulated his gaze. His brain was filled with Keven's advice not to fight Papa Gibran, but the current situation managed to make Yuki dismiss the advice of the wise Keven.

For a moment the girl seemed to scoop up oxygen deeply and then said, “what's the difference with Papa? Papa cheated on Mama. THE SE-LING!! Repeating again? Is Papa going to like that too?”

Suddenly a rough buzz on the wooden table boomed. Shocking figure who secretly eavesdropped on Yuki and Papa Gibran's conversation. While Yuki spontaneously flinched and closed in shock. Slowly it adapts to the buzzing echoes in the ears.

“You ... brash!” Papa Gibran's voice growled low. His jaw hardened with the hunting breath cut off. It passed without much talking anymore.

“Do you know this sense of habituation can also turn off my feelings? It hurts every time I remember the happiness of the three of us. I always wondered where it was real and fake. When was Mom and Dad really happy with me. If I don't want to give up on your busy lives, insist on transferring schools and coming here, is it possible that our family will remain intact?” babble Yuki raucous while staring at Papa Gibran's back nanar pecking.

‘But everything is even more confusing when Papa seems to forget me and Mama. We're like a barrier that Papa can finally get rid of. Papa is now happy, maybe Mama is also .. I just hope to be happy with Mas Keven, Yuki's inner’ mutely imbues his sentence.

“Mas Keven always said, when I can make peace with our problems, I can definitely make peace with our family condition. But the longer it feels like we're staying away. I'm not comfortable in the middle of my new family. I'm foreign. In short I'm like a bully. And with Mas Keven, I feel I have a shelter, a place to go home, even a friend who fills Papa's void,” continued Yuki with a rough gasp. Heed the reality if Papa Gibran could not have listened.

You see, Yuki's vision has blurred. Dews in the eye rims have decayed into a creak that continues to flow. But a wide smile remained Yuki maintained even though her lips quivered.

Immediately Yuki regressed his steps. Look to the right on the bertralis window. Staring sharply at someone behind the curtains that wave misbehavior.

“I hope Mother is on my side,” muttered Yuki while turning around, along with Papa Gibran who turned the body.

“Go! Go with him if you don't want to see Papa again!” papa Gibran suddenly. The old man was suddenly filled with anger when he saw Keven in the distance.

“Okay! I'm leaving! Come, Mas!” reply Yuki loud. But it is different from the actions of Keven who passed Yuki just like that.

“Pa ..”.

“By, wake up!” yuki exclaims to Keven who rests in front of Papa Gibran. But what Yuki found was precisely Keven who returned to continue his words.

“My mistake is not forgiven.” Keven lowered his head in lethargy, then ventured to look at Papa Gibran with a waistline while looking away. His hoarse voice kept blurting out sentence by sentence. “I'm just a stranger but dare to hurt Yuki. I've destroyed Papa's trust. I can't protect, look after, please Yuki. I realize I was wrong. But please, Pa, give me a chance to prove to Papa until the end that we must be happy.”

Some time the atmosphere became quiet. There was no sound, just a thread full of diverse emotions fighting each other for air.

As Yuki's legs weaken, he rests beside Keven. Also rubbed with rough patches of sadness on the cheeks. Trying to pass saliva in the choked esophagus.

“A-ku mo-hon, Pa .. res-tui us. Once I-ni granted my request," Yuki's pinta pleaded as she cupped the two fast-moving palms rubbing against each other. It sounded as if it was ringing hitting Papa Gibran's eardrum which spontaneously lowered his gaze.

“You can find another man, not him.”

Yuki's expression darkened. His hand fell right to the side of the body that was still resting. Slowly clenched with hatred. “Unfortunately I'm not Papa who can find another wife,” circus Yuki hit Papa Gibran hard.

“YUKI!”

Papa Gibran's impact did not shake Yuki at all. The girl just bit her quivering lips. The hut of his eyes was again wet, only one tear was surely shed. While Keven spontaneously begs for forgiveness for Yuki's mistake caused by him.

“The family of Mas Keven has come a long way, but even kayak gini .. three times I asked Papa to come. Three times also Papa only answer hm which is not clear yes or no. But it turns out that three times Papa never showed up. Keven isn't as bad as Papa thought. I'm happy with Mas Keven, Pa,” said Yuki Long before leaving in front of Papa Gibran.

Again the meeting was revolving around the point of failure. Stop at the end of a dead end with no solution. Leaving wounds between parents and children who have not been able to reconcile with each other. While Keven drowned condemned the impact of his mistakes in the past.

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