We, Without Me

Mom Leo

That morning drizzle struck as the light of dawn broke. His shiny vents peered through the gaps of the curtains that were revealed. As if giving a greeting to a tiny baby who throws lips.

Yuki took a deep breath. Rushed to take a swing. Grip both sides of the thin triangle pants and sag them. Instantly the young mother's body shuddered coldly.

“Sayang .. Mama Simba .. Mama Leo!” call Keven calling for almost all pet designations for Yuki. His head turned to the side ensuring that the wife had appeared in the bathroom doorway.

“How is this darling? It's puffed up again. He looks like he wants to pee,” exclaimed Keven in panic. Though just now he was about to change a wet diaper according to Yuki's instructions.

“Close the cloth, By!” yuki's reply was rather loud complete with a rough sigh of restrained straining effect. Connecting deeply in the heart, ‘not yet arrived at the end of this loh.’

Failed to have a bowel session. Yuki washes his resigned hand with a snort as heavy as a rhino gust ready to butcher.

Just moving for a moment can not. Though Yuki wanted to complete the large degree that had earlier seemed to be wrapped around the large intestine.

In Yuki's eyes, her husband transformed into a useless figure when it comes to dealing with the baby. Evidently with sheets that somehow also get wet with Leo's urine. Plus the cry squealed so tight that the baby's entire face and tiny head turned red.

“And I told you to cover with the cloth, By. After this do not need to be swaddled again,” grumbled Yuki before his eyes ended up round big.

“Why are the sheets so wet? There is no price for this child. Why are you also playing pee Leo anyway?! When can we change if I believe it continues?!” yuki's complaining frustrated. Snatching a new diaper from Keven's hand violently. Remove the wet tissue that is actually needed.

“Sorry, Honey, I ...”

“Sstt!! This is just gini loh. Take off all Leo's clothes. Lift, movein. Lap body ... love the oil to keep warm. Slowly put on a change of clothes. Just take it in this basket. I've all put together a set. If it's already at this hour do not need to be in bedong again to get used to kayak gini, except for the night, cold. Less what else, By? I just want to .. huft. Why is it so hard to take care of a child? This is just one, what if ...," said Yuki at length but not resolved.

The woman rubbed her face rough. Take a deep breath and rush to slip your hands under Leo's tiny body. A little tired due to energy that seems to be drained. Not to mention his stomach was still heartburn.

Without a word Keven held Yuki back. Take over Leo. Slowly moving the small body with awkward and rigid movements into its cradle. Leaning in a standing position while occasionally lowering one hand rubbed the tops of Yuki's head that was bowed listlessly.

The little guy doesn't like the cold of his new world. Often fussy if not quickly replaced with clean and warm clothes, but not always thick-coated. By noon he will return fussy if angry.

Once again Keven condemned his incompetence as a papa. But what else if indeed he is still very clumsy to take care of the baby. Fear if the energy used actually hurts the tiny baby in this cradle.

"Darling, sorry. Sorry to make it so hard to be alone" Keven said. Staring at his messy wife. Hair spattered perfun. A tangled busui negligee that hasn't been replaced from last night. Complete with thick blackened eye bags.

"Today let me take care of Leo. We call a masseuse, huh?"

Looking up, Yuki shook her head weakly. "How's your work?"

"Later the warung business can be handled from home.”

“There is still time until Leo can take us out. The preparation is almost finished. Can we monitor both from home.”

“If you're busy going, By. I'm okay.”

“I'm not all right, honey. I can't possibly leave you like this. You've been sleeping less for almost a week."

"I'm hard on you, By?" ask Yuki sissily. His lips curled down. Throbbing just like Leo wants to cry. No need to wait, the eyes of the young mama glazed over.

Three days after giving birth, Yuki's feelings are often muddled. He's getting sensitive. His happiness was a little depraved by his inferiority. Precisely after the visit of several neighbors of the complex, Arisan friend Mama Agni.

Apparently that unrest continues to this day. Yuki feels extremely incompetent and unable to be a good parent to Leo.

"Hey, honey why?"

While continuing to pet Leo, Keven hooked Yuki's chin. Gently lifted until the two pairs of eyes were locked together.

Slowly Keven tried to sit by the wife. Try to keep a stable team so that the little Leo does not fuss.

"Udah is not a mother. Not becus also be a wife," replied Yuki Parau. Escape was already a drop of sadness at the corner of the tail of the eye. Rush in his swab with the back of his hand.

Spontaneous Keven shook his head. Denying Yuki's statement. "You see me .. My clothes are slippery, fragrant, my stomach full. Look at our son, funny right? All this because of you. You took care of us."

"But my ASI is no longer good. People say our kids are small. Long skinny." Heavy helplines sounded filled the baby's distinctive scented room.

His thick-pocketed eyes blackened and tired after five consecutive nights of not being able to completely fall asleep it looked straight at Keven. Yet very empty. Yuki's soul seemed to be hiding blaming itself.

"Our child is healthy. No need to listen to other people. Our son is all right" Keven said. It simply implies a snarl on who has managed to hurt his wife. But he was determined to speak slowly with Mama Agni.

“You need to remember, the doctor said Leo's weight can go down and that's normal. We don't need to listen to those bad guys. Focus on Leo. Some of our kids are puffed up, honey. Look at this plump cheek. Arm's solid. You have no heart your own child is skinny?” keven said again.

Dropping silently, Yuki observed the baby who was immediately writhing. Throwing her lips adorable. He did not fall asleep, but seemed to listen to the chatter of his parents.

‘Which crazy person made my wife stress gini?! Can't be released!’

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