We, Without Me

Math Love

Darkness enveloped the heart of a girl who was bowed at the edge of the bed. It was locked tightly without a crack until its heartbreaking scream was silenced. If asked what is able to maintain his consciousness, then the answer is only a sigh of despair.

Comparable to the rectangular room it occupied, it was very quiet and dark without any illumination. At least Yuki's body did not move to reach the light switch even though he was actually quite afraid of the darkness.

Just holding on with her head lowered and eyes closed Yuki tried to dissipate her tears from seeping. Squeezed bed sheets in both of his clutches.

Yuki looks very fragile tonight. His confidence is shrinking.

The happy sight of two lovers who witnessed the eyes of his own head successfully tore apart Yuki's envious side. As much as his energy denied, but his helplessness in achieving happiness was even emblazoned. Though he who is already in a sacred bond, but why all that is like scraping the sand of hope under the swift rain.

“Until last night you didn't come home either. No news ... Absolutely crazy marriage, wife of the figurant," said Yuki miris.

Wiping away the rest of her tears, sucking up the nasal-clogging snot fluid, Yuki opened her eyelids which were immediately greeted with darkness. Just as fast as lightning, Yuki fumbles on the surface of the mattress looking for her phone. Undeniably, Yuki's body shuddered in fear at the darkness before his eyes.

Clamps.

Yuki had not had time to find his phone, the sound of the switch raised and the glare of the light beam of the lamp instantly made him surprised. While the perpetrator who had just entered the originally dark room frowned in wonder. He thought Yuki was leaving so the house was left pitch-black without a single light coming on.

“Why not turn on the lights?” ask her while throwing the jacket that was just released onto the chair. Occasionally the figure that was none other than Keven was stretching his tired body.

One by one his bones seemed to rub and sound. Very draining spend time driving, continue to look after Alia overnight and worse most of the day Keven spent time going to one place to another to find Saka.

Instead of answering, Yuki just grunted to Keven who was completely at ease. Their relationship that is not close now feels like a stranger. This is where Yuki finally hopes that the KKN program from the campus will begin immediately and if it can be implemented in a long time. It would be better if Yuki had a lot of time away from the human named ‘Keven’.

While Keven who seemed to understand Yuki's annoyance tried to explain his condition, “this day I went to look for Saka. Alia's condition I can't let it be.”

Silent. No response at all. Yuki prefers to throw away her gaze, not wanting her eyes to be known by Keven. Moreover, Yuki was sure that her voice would sound raucous.

“You cry?” keven asked, apparently he had already caught the look of Yuki's face.

“Haah ..” Once again Yuki did not reply, only a gust of empty air could be heard interrupting.

That night Yuki had not washed her body. The burden on the heart makes it dissolve until it forgets time. And amazingly when it was satisfied to spill all the cries in silence that grappling great Keven just appeared.

Upholding her head, Yuki waltzed away towards the bathroom, passing Keven nonchalantly. The cold night air was unable to penetrate the wall, but the entrance through the doorway was gathered like a fortress between Yuki and Keven.

“Why?” Keven's question sounded funny in Yuki's ears. ‘Why?’, should it still be questioned?

“Why?” yuki said in a parrot, stopping her footsteps behind Keven. Yuki's chuckle raised his head, staring at the plain white ceiling

“I am who exactly is here?” lirih Yuki. Supplying as much air into the lungs, Yuki again said again, “what is my job just to ride a life? Receiving all the money you keep giving for a living, but in fact I'm just a stranger here.”

“You want what? No need to be twisted!” keven ketus. Sizzling furiously faced Yuki who turned ‘aneh’. His intention to go home in order to rest all the burden that is stacked, but must face Yuki who makes his head grow dizzy.

“I'm tired .. You're good, but you're also evil. What do you want and what should I do? Is this what you used to mean by showing me how I should be tormented?” yuki scolded Keven. “If yes ... Congratulations, you succeeded.”

“Do not childish! Alia's condition is not good at the moment, you know that! If you are angry because you have to go home ... There's still another time,” ketus Keven.

“Enough! Look at me if you still want to talk and to the point just what do you want!?” keven snapped loudly, the nagging look from his cold face plowing down Yuki's shaken back.

Forcing her legs to shift in her arms, Yuki raised her head. Inevitably the gazes of the two humans who had long shared the bed were fluttering.

Jaws hardened and Keven's fiery highlight instantly dimmed. Seemed as a face with tears that made him immediately want to run closer, but his ego refused. He did not want to look weak and defeated, just listening to those tiny vibrating lips voice his heart.

“If I want to love you, can?”

The deg!

Keven's body stiffened. Not because of Yuki's request sentence, but a stiff smile in the middle of the look on his face that seemed to squeeze Keven's heart. His hand wanted to move, but it only ended up being a fist. He was afraid that when his skin managed to touch, the fragile figure in front of him would be shattered.

Stupid keven. He knows his heart has opened and accepts Yuki, but why is it difficult to admit it.

“Don't be surprised that .. I'm joking, hahaha ..” a contrived crisp laugh can't fool Keven.

Keven's eyes immediately fogged up disappointed. It should be emphasized again not because the sentence is said to be a joke, but disappointed in his tangible feelings but always covered with rejection.

“Actually I hate math. Maybe that's what makes the love story I chose feel complicated and downright difficult. I could never solve it. Did you know ...” Swallowing saliva that felt stuck in front of the channel hole between the esophagus and throat, Yuki exhaled a slow, intermittent breath.

“Our love is like a straight line. Not a triangle or even a square. I love you, you love her and she loves someone else. Straight right?” yuki said with a pushy look, tears that began to seep stuck in the eye patch. “Will be funny and just be a flat rectangular wake when the figure who loves me is in fact loved by your loved ones.”

“PULL YOUR WORDS!” Keven's rising voice boomed, gripping the fear of Yuki's unmoved getting riveted. His limp knees did not dare to bring his weak body to the floor. Just closing her eyes, clenching her teeth tightly and clenching the hands that Yuki was able to do.

"That's never going to happen!" furious Keven while pulling both shoulders stiffened Yuki facing towards him.

Grimacing Yuki felt her shoulders ache in Keven's grip that looked extremely angry.

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