We, Without Me

Still Will Go

That dinner was different. The fierce battle between Keven and Yuki was smoldering without needing to be explained. Even gripping for Papa Leigh and Mama Agni who secretly look at each other lyrics on the two young people who chew brutal rice and side dishes.

If rice could scream, maybe many have already protested because they feel unfair. Some were crushed roughly, but the rest were swallowed whole just like that.

"Why have you eaten? Mama," said Mama Agni suddenly. Be grateful to only take small portions until not waiting for a long time to be spent.

Nodding softly, Papa Leigh remained fixedly staring at her son. For a moment the old man exhaled a heavy breath. If it wasn't for Mama Agni's deadly glance, Papa Leigh could have been picking up Keven's ears eating while grumbling faintly without a sound.

Now, still with an atmosphere that must be defined as what, the four people sat back and let the television show watching them.

"Ma, Pa. ..," said Yuki suddenly, pausing the next sentence while staring alternately at Mama Agni and Papa Leigh, "Yuki wants permission. Ak-"

"Yuki!" keven with low and heavy intonation. His hand reflexively gripped tightly onto Yuki's wrist.

"Sick," said Yuki Lirih. Spontaneous eyes were glaring. Her lips moved thinly so that her two in-laws were not suspicious. But all of this is in vain.

"Keven, take care of your emotions!" papa Leigh doesn't like the way the child treats Yuki.

"Let Yuki talk. You, Keven ... Here move sit next to Mama, away from Yuki!" mama Agni's orders are loud. The old woman had already stood up and pulled the strong sculpted body of Keven who was not willing to be kept away from Yuki.

"Maaa ..," Keven protested in a whining tone. The stubborn, selfish and arrogant man was always unconscious when he suddenly whined at the figure who had given birth to him.

"Speak, Ki. Mom and Dad will hear what you have to say. Ignore your husband. There must be something that pisses you off because of him!"

"Why did you blame me? I'm just defending what I want to fight for!" keven said firmly and straightforwardly.

"Now you shut up! Give your wife a chance to talk to Mama, Papa!" papa Leigh said no less. A moment later the old man raised his open palm, coding for Yuki to continue what he wanted to say. "Come, Ki ... Speak ...."

"Actually I-I want to ask permission from Mama, Papa." Yuki's bowing squeezing her fingers.

"Discover what, Ki?" mama Agni asked who was honestly very curious. For a moment, his feelings were not calm. Plus Keven's attitude is very visibly opposed.

"Actually ...," said Yuki hanging, the corner of his tail glancing at Keven. He was really nervous, but not because of Keven, but the two parents of Keven who were very respected and also loved it.

Keven is nervous. Even every want to say his lips was forced to be silenced because Mama Agni always glared at him. Not to mention the fragile fingers that are ready to pinch small without a second thought.

"Before Yuki apologized if what Yuki will say will make Mama Papa not happy. It's not that Yuki doesn't like it here. But Yuki wants to focus on the thesis and to make it easier for research to be taken," said Yuki who clearly contains half the lie.

For a moment Yuki paused her sentence. Breathe in slowly while staring one by one at the faces that highlight them questioningly.

"So here Yuki wants permission to stay at the boarding house. Papa knows where it is, it's the same side where Papa used to cost Yuki before going to KKN," explained Yuki again while looking at Papa Leigh.

"Why do I have to get to the cost, Ki? Can't you just go back and forth from this house?" ask Mama Agni sissy. He could not bear to let Yuki stay alone. If only Yuki had asked Keven to participate, maybe Mama Agni was not as worried at this time. But hearing the location of the boarding place mentioned, it is enough to make Mama Agni understand that Yuki will leave her house without including Keven.

"It can't be, Ma. But if at any time you have to go home late so not far away. After all, the boarding place is near the campus. So if it takes anything impromptu Yuki's not too tight." This time, Yuki did not lie. Indeed, one of the considerations is choosing the same boarding place with Ismi in addition to women only because it is close to the campus. Simply by foot, Yuki has arrived at the first bus stop of his campus.

"There's Keven here who's definitely ready to help you. Mama guarantees even though she refuses, Mama will force it," said Mama Agni who is still in persuading mode. It was not willing to take off the young girl who had always been a friend and the center of happiness for several months disappeared from her home.

"Are you sure of your decision?" Lowering his back, Papa Leigh's elbows rest on each of his thighs. He glanced at Keven who was clearly flushed with a hardened jawline.

"Related, Pa. Yuki has considered everything. Moreover, the time down the research is not certain and the sample is better directly Yuki brought to the laboratory, so it is better Yuki kos near the campus." Steady, clear, firm and straightforward, that was Yuki's undecided tone of speech.

"If you know the timing of the research is uncertain, you should stay here!" keven Cynic tukas. His incompatibility was clad in frustration, disappointment as well as endless emotions of frustration and despair.

"If you start college next week, it's not for another 3 days. Is enough time you clean up the boarding place if the day after morning just go?"

"Pa ...," reprimanded Mama Agni and Keven simultaneously. The mother and son both threw out their eyes. Staring in disbelief at Papa Leigh's sentence implying approval.

The family seems to be divided because of Yuki's desire to stay apart temporarily. Right, while on their minds. However it is a first step before Yuki reveals his true intentions of wanting to separate from Keven.

The night is getting late. After the endless feud, Keven just left. Because he lost when Mama Agni agreed to Papa Leigh's decision to allow Yuki's request. All just for the sake of education, so thought a couple who already considered Yuki as his own child.

"When do you smoke?" chirp Yuki next to an adult male with a messy look. Not the messy clothes, but the disheveled hair that adorns the tangled look of Keven.

Sucking a cigarette that clamped his finger, Keven ignored Yuki's question. Almost a pack of cigarettes he managed to suck. Evidenced by the number of cigarette butts scattered on the tip of Keven's feet covered with expensive flip-flops.

On the side of the road, precisely in the courtyard of his parents' house, Keven calmed himself by torturing through a puff of cigarette smoke. The sweet but toxic taste that is absorbed in the lips and tongue leaves a delicious sensation that successfully makes Keven addictive.

"Mama said almost a month ago you started smoking ... Quit smoking, not good for your health."

This Yuki. No matter how concerned the girl is, but still pay attention. If this is the case, it is only natural that Keven will gradually melt. Unfortunately Keven who was still speechless and staring at Yuki's back who was away did not feel the love tone in the strand of the sentence. Nanar Keven felt his chest instantly suffocate.

Keven threw a cigarette that he had not smoked. Stamped slightly twisting and spitting recklessly before pushing his pace after Yuki who had already disappeared behind the door.

"Don't go ... I beg you, don't go, "pinta Keven is sad. He was still in the doorway of the open room, staring at the smiling rogue Yuki as he stuffed his clothes into the suitcase.

Although not currently Yuki also wants to leave, but he has filled the suitcase with all his needs.

Holding Yuki's hand back, Keven forcibly removed Yuki's hand from the clothes he was about to put on. Keep the suitcase away. He picked up all the clothes that Yuki had folded. It was arranged back into the closet with a choked throat, a mute tongue and a troubled mind.

"Freely give it back. I'm still going. My decision is complete."

"No!" reject Keven without turning his body. He remains focused on returning Yuki's clothes to the closet. Emptying the contents of the suitcase without any residuals.

Turning around and approaching Yuki, Keven grabbed both of Yuki's palms into his grasp. "I realized all this time I've been ignoring you a lot. I know I'm too guilty for you. But please, don't believe me. You gave me a chance to repair our relationship. So don't leave this house. If you're not comfortable sleeping in the room right now, I can sleep in the restaurant. But please don't try to get away from me ... I beg ...," said Keven.

"As I said, I just need some space to myself right now. You can fight. You can get a chance from me. But that doesn't mean I can't handle what I want right now, does it?" yuki's reply was calm, almost emotionless in sight. In fact, Yuki dampened the turmoil in the chest so as not to surface.

Yuki used to try desperately to fulfill her duty as a wife. Although filled with indifference and indifference, but he persisted. Don't want an unwanted marriage to just crumble.

But now when he is tired, why does Keven want to stay?

Why is it that when he gives up always Keven keeps him in a difficult situation?

Tormented. Yuki is completely tormented by all the destinies associated with Keven.

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