We, Without Me

Away Go

"Sorry ...."

Yuki's footsteps stopped. His body is stiff. For a moment his breath faltered. His tongue was so thick that his throat was stuck. Again Keven managed to open the grief that was buried deep.

Why just now?

The question is always haunting, imagined in a dream even though it continues to be dismissed repeatedly. Keven who is persistent not to impress Yuki, he is just sick and tired.

Here Yuki stood, clasping tightly onto the small crackle pouch he was carrying. Mastering the sanity that almost swayed by the presence of Keven. Of course not for good, he was worried about the decision to hurt or remained ignorant so that Keven would stop pursuing him.

"Better we don't have to see each other again."

The deg!

Keven. His left chest was painful as if his beating heart had stopped beating. Yuki's flat speech without turning back poked into the deepest recesses of Keven's heart that screamed in rejection.

“Why?” asked Keven in a loud voice.

Spontaneous both of Keven's hands clenched tightly, not out of anger. But either should be defined as what emotion. Everything was too complicated for Keven to digest, only the great turmoil that almost blew the crown.

“You want us to divorce ... I've followed.” Keven ventured forward one step. “But why when we agreed to make friends, did you stay away? Does my love weigh on you? Or from the beginning is there another man in your heart?”

Reversing her body with a forced slanted smile, Yuki who still maintained her flat voice said, “are you crazy? Do you realize what you just asked? It's really inappropriate for you to question that to me.”

With great difficulty Yuki let out a slow breath, staring fixedly at Keven who inexplicably seemed to be emitting wounds.

“Do you still want to know? Loving me is your right. I'm not even sure you really love me. You may not want to lose a toy. Or maybe this is all just a short-term effect because your relationship with Kak Alia is no longer good,” continued Yuki said.

“Sepicik is that me in your eyes, Ki?"

"Yes." Yeah."

The quick answer without a second thought that came from Yuki's lips shot like hot lead. Shooting right through Keven's brain leaving a hole of regret. He snores frozen without a word, unable to escape the beautiful strands of supplication strung together at the tip of the tongue.

That was the extent of his sin until it was difficult for Yuki to forgive, Keven thought.

“Can you not understand me, just once? Please go ... Never show up in front of me again!”

Shaking strongly, Keven bit the inside of his lips at a glance. “No! You may ask me to keep my distance, but never ask me to leave,” Keven said quite clear.

“Do you want? One day we will have our own lives. Live your own life, because I have my own future.”

“Because of the boy earlier?” accuse Keven with a nano spotlight.

“Not. But surely I will have a life of my own,” Yuki replied as she turned her face away.

“We both love each other, why are you lying to yourself?!" said Keven rising full of despair. His patience continued to erode as the explosive emotions he suppressed.

“For what love to each other if only they could hurt each other?! Why would you want to have me if I am not happy?! Isn't it natural that we should stay away from each other?” ask Yuki gamang.

Once again Yuki's words silenced Keven. He was struck by the unhappy expression Yuki spoke.

Keven is really sorry. Unfortunately regret was not enough to treat Yuki's heartache. All the attention given is also not enough to relieve blackened scars.

“You want to fix, right? Don't ever see me again, that's how you fix everything. Let's just say we're really done. Even if we accidentally meet again, we better be strangers who have never known before!”

“Why should we be like this? I don't want to lose you. Anyway no! We are divorced enough ... Come back with me, please ..”

“You stay the same. Always at your disposal,” shriek Yuki's desperate. Subjecting to strengthen her resolve, Yuki walked over to Keven who was surprised by a thousand flavors, of course there was happiness tucked away. But all was lost when Yuki's gritted lips began to say, “kamu know .. we are not a suitable match. Go to Brother Alia who is more worthy of you. Because we're not supposed to be together.”

“Alia is just my best friend. We are no more than two strangers. You ... only you I love!” firmly Keven while lowering his gaze, looked at Yuki who was almost as tall as he should be.

“You only felt like you lost me for a moment. Soon you will also forget,” deny Yuki. “You must remember how dear you are to Kak Alia.”

“Until when do you want to think about it? What else do I have to do to make you believe?" Keven pulled his hair in frustration. "Please don't assume I love Alia, Ki ...”

‘In fact it is,’ muttered Yuki inwardly while commenting on a slanted smile at a glance.

“I won't ask where you were when I was hurt. But please remember how much you feel about Sis Alia and stop seeing me. Our current relationship has proven how incompatible we are,” said Yuki straightforwardly.

Can Yuki see Keven putting on a disappointed expression. The man laughed faintly without a sound, just the motion of his lips and body was shaken amused even though nothing was amusing. A moment later the highlight turned soft even though it still felt sharp highlight Yuki who stood strong.

Without stalling Yuki came back closer, right on Keven's left side. The two of them were standing side by side, facing different directions. But trust me, both are not as strong as they seem.

“I'm sorry you, just don't show up in front of me again.”

Keven's knee seemed to want to hit the rough sandy paddock with a little pebble. Luckily his limb that is squeezed is still able to support the weight of the body. The strapping man cupped and rubbed his face that looked down lethargic.

Brak!

Yuki's body rumbled behind the door leaf that was violently closed. A moment of silence gripped the boarding room without that illumination. Slowly filled with sobs and faint murmurs.

“Do you think I'm not hurt by our divorce?” lirih Yuki while propping her forehead above the two knees she was hugging. As powerful as the circle of sadness was detained, but finally escaped as well. “I'm sick. It hurt so much that I found it hard to breathe ... WHY DID I EVER FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU?!"

"Hw ... Huustaea ... Hiks, da-sar kut-tu kupret jahaaatt ... Wh-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-do see you?? Das-saar bi-a-wak bun-tung, ka-dal a-ir fo-sil .. Why appear again? I-I-I want to move on …."

Yuki continues to grumble, curse and curse Keven, in line with the rush of tears that continue to melt, as well as snot that clogs a pair of nostrils. While Keven was glued to the outside, not daring to knock what else broke through the door of Yuki's boarding room.

Keven is after Yuki. His steps could clearly pounce on Yuki easily, but Keven's fragile back successfully made Keven undo the intention even though he was eager to hold on tightly. Keven was only able to see the figure of the ex-wife disappearing behind the door.

Now with his left palm trying to ward off tears, Keven listened to all of Yuki's heartbreaking screams along with his strange curses and curses. If they were still together, starting and going through everything just fine, Keven would have chuckled at Yuki's strange and magical babble.

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