We, Without Me

Love Limited Edition

“While I don't feel the same way about you. I still have the brains not to be involved in anything crazy. I just happened to meet Alia at the mall, not that I accidentally went with Alia.”

Bullied weakly, Yuki wouldn't believe that nonsense. “You can still say like that after being caught often alone?”

“All just a coincidence, Yuki!” Furious again, caught off guard at Yuki's growing distrust.

“Have you ever looked into Alia's eyes? Was there a coincidence in her eyes??!! No!” Yuki's temples stiffened, spooky protruding on her tiny face channeling resentment through low-intentioned speech.

“I'm confused. Why should he marry someone else if he is currently playing with 2 hearts. Just like you Mas, why did you marry me?” Yuki said softly, forcing her tongue to string words through a voice that shook violently.

“You can't think about your best friend's feelings? Not me, because I'm sure I want to die even if you won't think of me. But the person who has fallen awake with you all this time, do you not have the heart to keep his feelings?” Seloroh Yuki was sniffled with a tempestuous rage.

Mum. The figure that had focused his forehead on the steering wheel was only able to fall silent, face down and lock his lips tightly. He also felt not depressed to be in a condition far from his expectations.

“You won't understand what's going on between us. Even he's more evil, traitor.”

“Captured Alia's sister? Is that what you call a traitor? Isn't what you're doing right now a traitor? Maybe even more your bastard.” Yuki's words grew bolder, chuckling at the ill-fated ludicrous sentence that hurt her heart.

“Don't be as if you know about me!!”

Yuki is increasingly aware that she is a nobody, only someone who suddenly gets the title as a wife.

Isn't Yuki being betrayed by her husband? Then why would the traitor be angry at the other traitor?

“Sometimes you will also know why I married you. Now, it is better that we keep each other alive and look harmonious in the presence of others.”

“So that you said to look harmonious? I don't want to. We better finish this household game.” Waving her hands in front of her face, Yuki scooped up as much oxygen as possible, her lungs feeling tight but with nothingness.

“You have married me, the sign is that you have carried out the responsibilities that Papa asked for. Whether it is your goal to be held accountable, the point is that you have now proven to Papa that you are responsible for me.” Imbuh Yuki strengthened his heart and determination.

“You only have two choices, agree or you yourself that will make your life more miserable.” Ignoring Yuki's request, the sentence was clearly said to refuse.

“Can't, anyway I want to split! Don't be selfish! If you don't want to, let me take care of our farewell!!” Yuki shouted loudly, staring at the guts of the figure who suddenly tightened the grip on both of his shoulders.

“Party? Don't hope! Don't try to act up or you'll regret.” He said firmly as if forgetting if he ever promised to release Yuki someday.

“At least you can ask me for help. You don't have to torture me like gini.” Lowering her voice, Yuki's eyes glazed over. Tears that were as strong as they could get blocked, gathered blocking Yuki's view. Hot and opaque, that's what Yuki felt.

“I've asked before and you refused.”

The body that had rebelled away from the husband was fixated, staring fixedly at the eyeballs that were staring at him, Yuki smiled wryly. “No, you never asked me to be your wife. You bound me forcibly here.”

“Cih!! Didn't you say confidently that I was a cheap woman who would do anything to get you? Where's the vanity you mentioned that I definitely want you to marry me?” Chuckles Yuki laughs at her romance's chirp.

Yuki used to think that having a story like The Beautiful and the Ugly Bad is not that sad, either being the Beautiful or the Bad, both of them still have to fight each other, but now if the story is just one of those who fight until when will everything be okay?

“Now I realize, it may be true what you said that I was cheap. I'm too cheap and market in showing my love to you who prefer something labeled limited edition without you knowing it's a genuine item or imitation.” Yuki's sarcasm was accompanied by a thin grin that was on her lips.

“Originally you know, without you realizing that what I did was also limited, only for you I lowered my self-esteem standards.” Backing her back, Yuki's loosened grip was used to brushed aside the husband's sturdy hand.

Tests..

A tear dripped, falling freely through the cheek, crashed and became a stain on top of the fibers of Yuki's clothing cloth. Just a drop, yet it appears to leave a trail of wet luck that can disappear into water vapor.

“I'm trying to get you to see. Oh the woman who always tries to chase me is Yuki, that's all I used to think about and expect from my efforts. I gave up on reaching for your heart. I realize feelings can't be forced, but why.. Why did you put me in this position?” Yuki asked with increasingly unstoppable tears.

His voice was hoarse with his throat choked. It seems to have difficulty swallowing air, especially saliva to wet the esophagus that seems to turn into a barren field. Continuously wiping away the melted tears with the back of his hand, the sight was able to slash apart the figure that was hiding behind the frozen mask.

“To be honest it's okay you don't know or even don't want to know about my feelings or even assume I don't exist.” Yuki said again, this time while giving a forced smile. But a split second later Yuki's face turned flat, his eyes blank.

“But now it is your position that makes me visible and involved in your life when I give up. Painful. My heart is broken.” Imbuh Yuki again with a pseudo laugh, there was no sound in that laugh, only Yuki's body trembled as if he was laughing merrily with his frenzy.

Heartbreakingly, that was what was seen in the eyes of someone who had already raised his hand. But just floating in the air, he was too afraid to take a stance that actually made Yuki more worried.

Of love? There is no love for Yuki, which is what he believes up to now. His heart was too afraid to call it love, because for him it was only a guilt for using Yuki to be free from the title of pebinor and save the marriage of his two best friends.

If it must be said to be selfish, he admitted that he had become a selfish man. It is so bad that it hurts an innocent person.

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I don't know if the friends who read how the condition of his nose, but if I during the nose picking I plug imagine so Yuki time express his heart.