THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

75

I was still in the car. Remembering what Jessy said in the toilet.

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"You can be happy now. But don't forget, Jimmy's got high standards. He is rich and you are ordinary. Want on the permak here and here will not cover your poor aura!" Jessy talked to me through the reflection of the glass in the sink.

I smiled seeing him.

"Why are you smiling? Yes, yes, I said? It's good to be self-conscious." Jessy still said cynically to me.

"No problem, you want to talk about me. Go ahead. I got nothing - what... " I left him.

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"Dear, why? How are you diem?" Jimmy broke my daydream.

"Engga.. I just met Jessy in the toilet. Yes the core as usual. Mojokin me with a more insulting sentence anyway... I mean, don't I?"

Jimmy nodded, he understood what his wife meant.

"But yes how. I don't want a sok pede or sok. But, until this second you're still the same as me." I'm talking to myself.

"Hm... Ja.... " Jimmy answered.

"But sometimes, why? Jessy always treated me like that? We are looking for a job here. In fact, his family is richer than mine. What makes it that way.?"

"Because you're happier." Answer Jimmy.

I immediately looked towards him.

"What?" I reflexively answered.

"Yes. You're not happy now?" Jimmy asked back.

"Yes... " I answered plainly.

"That's what makes him emotional to you. Just focus on yourself. About Jessy.. Think of him as your hetters who don't like you to succeed. "

I'm silent about what Jimmy said. I never considered him an enemy or a rival.

Jessy is superior to me. But his treatment of me, I really can't tolerate.

Never mind, I better focus. Tomorrow I have to attend the briefing for my orientation on campus.

"Tomorrow Saturday, I go to college first. There is a rich division of groups or some sort of pre Orientation Period. "

"Then how am I?" Jimmy asked.

"Aren't you usually working on weekends?"

He was silent, I thought he was thinking.

"Oh yeah, if I don't get it wrong. Jessy's boyfriend isn't your enemy? The one who competes with you? Uh... What yes... " I opened the conversation again.

"Sometimes, we need to do well before setting up a strategy. Or the... Do good to heal a wound... " Jimmy answered diplomatically.

"Ngga know ah.... Today I'm really slow... It was on the phone with Ghea. Papa semalem dada her tight. But they uda to IGD... "

"How did papa go?" Jimmy's panicked.

"Doctor said, papa has a stomach disease. A kind of ulcer or gerd maybe yes, which makes the stomach acid rise.. So nekan upwards so his chest was tight. "

"Do doctors need action?"

"Alem, already injected whether the drug for nurunin gas in his stomach papa. Cuman, if I crate again or worse. Papa should endos what it is Ghea said... " obviously.

"Yes papa can't be stressed. Everyone must have fear, worry about the same stress each.. Whatever it is, thank God that there is no reason - napa. "

"Cuman kasian with Ghea. He had to wait for the school. Not to mention the stalls that still have to open. If I am rich I want to finish college, keep working. Let's have a lot of money, keep pushing them to stay with me... " I'm talking about my mind.

"Then me? You're leaving me?" Jimmy asked.

"Well, we have a contract. Can't I be with you forever? You will also marry a woman who is the same level as you... You yourself once said, don't depend on you. Someday our relationship will end."

My answer kept Jimmy quiet. Like him, I was wrong. But this is a fact he always told me.

That night Jimmy became quieter. Unlike usual, he was silent.

Is he in a good condition or is there something wrong with me?

Morning came, apparently Jimmy was gone first. He didn't even say goodbye to me.

Either the end - the end of this relationship like always fuss about things that are not important. Is this a relationship point?

I put some things in my sling bag. Today I have a briefing to campus.

I intend to take public transportation only. Especially with what the end of this happens. I honestly chose to give up on our relationship.

I was afraid that one day Jimmy would leave me. What about my financial situation. There's still a sister I have to pay for.

I started my journey, with a public vehicle that I didn't think was so crowded. Obviously, it's 9 in the morning.

I arrived at the college in 30 minutes. I'm estimating engineering a trip if Mr. Teddy can't take me.

"Eh... Dateng. Lo diligently it turns out.. "

The man greeted me again.

"Oh.. Hii... Afternoon.... " I'm lazy.

"Lo must have forgotten, gw Jose... Lo Cathrine, we've met a few times... Uh, this same group division task huh? Here come with me... " The man invited me along.

"Good.... " I answered and then I walked behind him.

I keep our distance, I don't want any bad news later.

"Uhm.... Don't you like the same road?" The man realized I was avoiding.

"That's why, just usually like there is gossip or how. Afraid of it... " I answered with heart.

"Ha.... You must be from the village, sorry. That's not it, I mean.. You should know, if in this city, almost all people are 'modo very'. I also cheated on you, because I am a senior.. " The man smiled.

I was a little embarrassed and lowered my head.

"Sorry, I'm used to being the same habit here... " Answer.

"Casual Cathrine, I can see if you mean it too. So yuk continued the road. rather quite far the problem. "

we also walked toward the middle of the field. passing several buildings with names and faculties that exist. There is also an administration building there.

we went into a hall that I thought was similar to Badminton Square. There were already some freshman kids like me.

"lo can join there. later if uda start you also we call. " The man pointed at the crowd before him.

"oh. ok brother... "

I also met Berta. He's from the west, he's boarding and he seems to be the friendliest with me.

our appearance was the same.simple without branded goods in hand. while other children, I'm sure they did not fully want to be friends with us.

samar - faint I heard, the direction of the committee for us to gather.we also entered the line.

and the event was immediately started. the day after tomorrow was the first day of ospek.

I honestly feel scared, let alone there is a night scream and chat show on this campus. The group division and senior brother have also been carried out.

fortunately I and berta became one group. There are still 5 other people in our group.Our committee brother was Jose. quite a relief for me.

we immediately divided the tasks and needs that we had to bring on Monday. Jose is quite familiar with the task.clearly he is the committee, surely he has a hand in the selection of activities.

the clock shows at 12:15 we were allowed to leave the building.Berta and I walked to the exit of the building.

"Cathrine, I've been picked up by my boyfriend. That's on the bike." Berta.

"oh yes, bye. see you Monday yes. if there is anything - what is the relationship yes. "my answer.

"okay. bye. "berta ran over to her lover.

I continued to walk by myself leisurely to the exit gate.The sun was not too hot, but my stomach was a bit hungry.

"home alone? want to eat together?" sound from behind me.

I turned my body towards him, apparently Jose with his bike.

"yes I want to eat, just don't ride a motorbike deh. around here what is it?" i answered.

"kalo mall, a lot of options anyway. want to go there?"Jose gave me an offer.

" hmm.. If other places exist? which I can walk this way, because I do not bring the same helmet jacket.later even in tangkep again. "

"there is, behind there. can ride a motorcycle and do not need to wear a helmet as well... " Jose forced.

"how can I be afraid.. "

din... din..(car horn sound).

the black sedan stopped near us. The car's glass was lowered, I saw Jimmy apparently.

he was wearing a blue dongker suit and sunglasses.

"honey, sorry I'm late" said Jimmy coolly.

"uhuh?" I was surprised to see him say that.

"so? how does Cathrine...lo want to come with me?" Jose doesn't seem to care.

"his wealth I'm with the guy I deh, know this Jimmy.he's my girlfriend and. This darling Jose, my brother's guide. . "I'm trying to melt the atmosphere.

Jimmy just nodded his head and raised one of his foreheads.he reluctantly removed his sunglasses.

"ok. hello, nice to meet you... Cathrine I go first... " Jose finally decided to leave.

"ok brother, take care yes. Monday please help us - we are yes. "I am still talking to her.

my goal, at least he can help my team, especially if there is a strange task - strange.

Jose left us, and I got in the car. Jimmy just kept quiet and looked at my gut.

"already, how's diem?" i opened.

"again enjoy my victory." replied Jimmy.

"win for what?" I tangent

"you're from that guy. You understand, right? starting lunch together. lama - long close, and bum.. "

"you think Jimmy is far away.he's just sure I'm eating back there. riding a motorcycle, anyway not all the things that are on your mind is real. "I'm upset.

Jimmy started running the car, he still couldn't take his glasses off.

"you're jealous yeah." I tease.

"a little bit, I think that women like you are just me. But I was wrong, it turns out that those who are interested in you have many eyes."

"then? I mean pretty dong. "I blushed in shame.

"beautiful use modal ga? and I'm starting to think about home schooling for your college.. " Jimmy possessive.

"Hey ! you what - what? already pay campus, do not need to be more, because - because lunch even where - where it happens. "

"haha... baby..huft...gini if you can leave me, for the sake of the rich man.how?" Jimmy fishing.

"obviously, I don't have any intention. haven't thought. haven't wanted. and.. shouldn't I be the one who's back? how about you meet your beautiful colleague. sexy. and. "I'm thinking.

"in fact, until now I exist and still the same you. anyway, take care of myself as long as I go. I do not want to share or even tarnished if silly." Jimmy says.

"i don't understand! tarnished what? you eat wrong what the hell.. I'm not weird - strange, if you don't believe it already, follow me continue. You're so weird sometimes. possessive and do it yourself." i'm upset.

the car stopped at a red light. Jimmy took off his glasses.I saw a red mark near his right temple.

"astaga! this why?" I panicked about touching the red mark.

Jimmy grabbed my hand and kissed the back of my hand.

"sorry about last night.I'm afraid of losing you, don't think about this. It's just evidence of an adult and responsible child in his choice." Jimmy spoke in cliche.

"please, I'm the laper. Don't ask me to think, honey. I don't understand what you mean. Who doesn't fuck you?" i answered.

Jimmy just smiled and continued on.

"were you hitting your father? because you chose to stay with me? and your family knows.I'm from a rich family what.so you guys fight?" I'm trying to figure it out.

"they're both pinter.don't need me to tell you, they already know for themselves who you are. What family you rich, live where.how you grow.great, his, you know my future and you are rich... " Jimmy answered cynically.

"how are you going in the future?" i wonder.

"yes according to them, gloomy. because it is still not clear in front of you what will be. how, and waste time if I am with you... nothing will be in vain if we end up with people who make us mean."

"....... " I was silent trying to hear what Jimmy was saying. permeating every word that came out.

"i'm just trying to defend my choices.including remaining in this country, along with you. becoming part of your life and family? whatever.. "

"are you not afraid? usually it's on the doodle of the family list, or inheritance. Usually the relationship on disperse because it is rich so. "quote plain.

"the money I have and you enjoy. comes from my kariet, not from them. So actually they are the ones who lose, because the two children already can not be the doll again... together we can!"

Jimmy tried to calm me down, even though this was something I had always feared, the rich and poor had far limits.

there's no way a commoner like me could get a guy like Jimmy. There must be something else going on. Maybe this? blessing from his family?