THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

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We ate at a restaurant in Chinnese near the mall. Actually I can ask papa to eat in the outside area to be near the airport.

But, I'm afraid papa is too tired and his health is declining.

The cuisine was quite tasty, but I was worried and unsettled in eating it. Many times I saw the clock on my phone.

Ghea gave the code to papa. It seems they realized to my beard.

"Sister..sister, have you been patient to see Brother Jimmy?" Ghea opened the conversation.

"Ehm.nga too, just a scared sister late.. The airport is just outside the city border... " I answered ketus.

"Jaudah my brother.. It's still 1 o'clock, uh not even 1 o'clock in the afternoon... What time is landing?" Ghea looked at his watch.

"Hour 6... But this is a rich city in our village. Deket where - where. Can ride the motor. There you have to use the Toll deck. Far tauk... " I replied with a rather loud tone.

Like her it made Papa and Ghea shocked. I don't usually speak out loud.

"Absually can you talk about it? It's not so bad" replied Ghea annoyed.

Papa put down the spoon and fork. Then he said, "if you want to go first please brother. Don't beat it up. You're rich. He just asked and he did not know the state of this city... "

"O Papa and Ghea, I live there. I'm wrong later, I leave papa like that.. " I'm upset.

"We can take a taxi, right? We won't stray anyway, brother. Papa has memorized this corner of the city. Papa used to work in this town until he met your mama......"

"Yes, I took a taxi.. Here's the money.. I'm ahead." I left behind a few hundred thousand bills.

I walked away leaving them just like that. I completely forgot about them. What I have in mind is just my problem.

About the love words Jimmy didn't reply to. Simplest.

Fear of losing Jimmy.

And....

Something that doesn't matter anymore.

**********

I started to look at the clock on my phone. Still showing at 4:30 p.m.

The new aircraft is landing at about 06.15.

I waited at the cafe near the arrival gate. My hope is that I won't be late for it.

In front of me was Mocha ice and a donut with pink messes topping on it. I started eating that donut.

I kept looking at the clock on my phone. "How long!" I grumbled.

I was thinking, am I being too rude to Papa and Ghea. Why papa also belain ghea.

I saw my phone, there was 1 incoming message from Ghea.

Ghea : brother. You are a kebangetan. If you have a problem, no one else will.

Honestly, I was angry reading the message. What wrong? I don't feel angry at them.

It was hard talking to Ghea. They don't know if time is money. How far away is the airport. Not if there's a crash or something else.

I waited a long time, until I arrived at 06:15.

The announcement that the plane had landed began to be heard.

I'm ready to get my hair and my clothes done. The aircraft began to look one by one out.

I'm looking for - find out where the guy is. I finally saw him, wearing a black hat and sunglasses. Dashing and looking cool, that's what's on my mind.

Jimmy saw me and approached me. I stood as he was a few feet away from me.

I smiled at him, he took off his glasses. Then he hugged me, the feeling I missed from him.

"Waiting long?"

"That too.. My people just arrived... " I answered awkwardly.

"Uhm.. Your drink runs out until the ice cubes are there, the chocolate on your plate is dry. Not maybe if..... What time are you waiting?" Jimmy scrunched his forehead.

"Hour 5.30 really... Really.."

"Really's? It's not 4 o'clock, is it?" Jimmy's still curious.

"Why is it important? Yes, I am waiting for you from 4pm... " I'm upset.

Jimmy sat down beside me, and I sat down. He breathed for a moment.

"Hm... I meani... You don't have to come here, if you come here, don't be that hour.. It's the last night before your family gets home... I just want you to have a lot of time with them... " Jimmy explained.

I just put on an annoyed face to grieve him.

"You should be happy, there are parents and families who want to meet easily. Which still concerns you..."

"Well, why are all those parents doing this today? You, ghea, papa. All comments about me.. " I'm defending myself.

"Not coming, I'm telling you something you should be. Because I care about you. Because I want to show you what comfort is, what attention is and what it should be.... It's not about saying I love you.... Understood?" Jimm.

"Engga.... " I was upset to answer with emotion.

***********

Jimmy's taking Papa and Ghea to dinner tonight. He chose a restaurant near the beach.

We met there, papa as usual wearing a neat shirt and Ghea with his casual T-shirt.

We sat down together, jimmy let me pick the meal.

Shortly after our meal, we started dinner. Not much talk tonight.

Just heard papa and Jimmy's story about their respective jobs.

"So... Ghea want IT school?" Jimmy asked.

"Yes brother.. Oh yeah, thanks for the laptop.. Ghea can learn as well as make assignments at home.. Just print it to the neighbors... " Ghea answered.

"Same - same smart school huh. Let it get abroad... "

Ghea nodded, and papa accepted that.

"Make what dreams of heights.realistic is the same situation. " I answered ketus.

"Empt wrong? I met you too with a dream that was too high. But I never dropped your dream. .. " Answer Jimmy.

"Jimmy, tomorrow Papa and Ghea will go home. Maybe Cathrine is tired and has to prepare for her college. So the mood might not be good... " Reply replied papa calmly.

"Yes pa, I'm sorry I was just able to accompany papa's dinner.. If there is anything at home, do not hesitate to contact me.. "

We continued our dinner. I was hungry and ate with ravenous dishes in front of me.

"Until the apartment I'll teach you a lesson. How you're supposed to." Jimmy whispers.

In my heart thumped. What he wants to do. Will he give me a surprise? Or vice-versa?

Along the way, we didn't talk much. Just another jazz melow accompanied us. Jimmy really shut his mouth.

In about 20 minutes we reached the apartment. I'm waiting for her to park in the lobby.

"Cath! From where?" The voice of the man I seemed to have heard.

"Eh, sammy... How are you doing? I eat the same papa.. " Answer.

"Oh, hey Jimmy... " Sammy said hello to Jimmy who just came.

"Bro... How are you doing? Long time no see yah.... Business smoothly?"

"Thank God is fine, trading I am still learning.. Thank you very much for teaching me... " Sammy answered.

They talked for a while, actually I was quite bete and wanted to quickly go back to the room. I want to take my miss off to Jimmy.

"Yes already bro, old Cathrine wait a long time... I'm going yes.. Byee.... " Sammy left us.

We left the lobby and headed to our room.

I changed my clothes in front of Jimmy. I chose a satin sleeping negligee in purple. I did it on purpose to tease Jimmy.

Jimmy called me from behind. Then he kissed my shoulder. He whispered, "Not so to your family. I like you when I know you're close and care about your family.... "

"I still care about them... It's just that I feel like I'm either pissed off, bored, or I see them... " Answer.

"Husse... I never liked hearing that. You still have parents who care. Brother who loves you, you should take advantage of the time together.... " Jimmy said.

I let go of jimmy's hug. I asked her to sit on the couch first.

"Am I wrong if I'm upset with them? Sometimes some things I can't tell them... " My answer is to defend myself.

"Look.. You're upset with me, aren't you? Because I didn't return your message? Then you get upset angry at your family... Don't so.. You should know, I'm busy there.. About how you feel, if I don't have the same feeling.. What am I doing here?"

"I'm not angry with them! Why is everyone around me weird. I keep getting it wrong? Huh?!" I'm mad at Jimmy.

It was like looking at me sharp, he was cracking his teeth. A look of annoyance in his eyes.

"I don't like rude women. Especially a child like you. Learn to be an adult if you still want to be by my side... Or I'll take you off. Please introspect yourself before you defend yourself..." Answer Jimmy in a clean manner.

I was honestly afraid of her stern look. He then left me to our bed. He chose to sleep and did not continue our conversation.

I was silent for half a night. Staring out the window, I asked if I was wrong.

Yeah, I'm a child in this relationship.. I shouldn't feel like papa and Ghea are bothering me.

But, does my family know? my situation, how long have I sacrificed for them. Until I'm willing to have my future with Jimmy.

The man I just don't know his origin. How can I now feel burdened by their arrival... Evil me.

I had to make money at this age. I became bully material because I studied at a prestigious campus, but I took off public transportation.

What fair? All the burdens and debts put on my shoulders?

What fair? My mom went away, not thinking about how we were...

How do we eat, can we live?

All just blame me, am I naive or less grateful in my life?

********

"Pa... Sorry about yesterday.. I'm just emotional, maybe my monthly guests want to come... " I opened my voice.

Papa was sitting next to me, in the station seat waiting for the train to come. Ghea was busy walking and taking pictures.

"Son.. Sorry if you became like this.. Papa doesn't want this situation. But, thank you.. Go home already... " Papa patted my shoulder.

The train we were waiting for arrived. Ghea rushed to help papa carry the goods.

A middle-aged porter helped us carry this item.

Up at our boundary door, I restrained Ghea. "Sir.. Maafin... Titip Papa yes... "

Ghea just gave a head-butting answer. He was busy with a lot of luggage.

I'm waiting on the platform outside. Looking from the ceiling of our guardrail. I think that was upset so sad.

Soon the train left me. I stared at them from afar who slowly disappeared following the speed of the carriage.

I walked back to the parking lot. Mr. Teddy was waiting for me in the car.

"Reverse non?"

"Yes sir.. " My answer is subtle.

I got into the car, this time I chose the front seat. I chose silence during my journey.

Mr. Teddy looks relaxed with a crowded street.

"Sir... Am I a childish?"

"The fountain.. Excuse me... Child what is it?" Mr. Teddy tangent.

"Powerful.. Rich boy in this relationship... Yesterday I fought... I said childish... " I said.

"Oooooo-o... Hm... Actually quarreling in the relationship is very reasonable, you still like to fight with the wife.. But, yes, we think of each other.. Am I wrong? Is my wife wrong?"answer Mr. Teddy.

"..... " I'm quietly listening.

"What's great about trying? If you want to forgive.. Lowering the Ego is just as prestigious as ours... I've been through that strange thought - strange. Humans are perfect, fighting makes us learn.. Let the two be perfect all God's creation.... " Answer mr. teddy again.

"So survive? Even though it hurts sir?" My toot.

"How sick? Sometimes the pain is from our minds that macem - macem.. If we enjoy, live and thank you for this life. All of it ain't sick. If you are sick, take medicine... "

"Medicine?" I'm thinking.

"Medicine.. Medicine makes the heart equal to our ugly mind.. You don't have to keep getting sick and disappearing.. A moment may gapapa, what is the name alone...? But, inget there are still many things to do than drown in the pain... "

"What does it mean I don't know Jimmy yet? And I have to learn again how to be with him... "

"Less is non... " Sir Teddy answered.

Yep.. I was a little open, my mind and heart were too ugly. That's why I'm like this, I don't have to be angry with them.

Jimmy's been defending me so far, giving me everything I need, let alone being sincere about my family.

I should be thanking Jimmy and apologizing, but what's so common? (i thought).

"sir.. I shop first yes. anterin to the modern market well... " I said.

"well non, in front of me enter toll so I can muter back yes... "

Mr. Teddy drove the car faster.he immediately went to the right of the road and entered the freeway.

"i want to make food sir. Apologies to Jimmy. I want to fix everything." I said with a smile.

Mr. Teddy returned a smile with his thin mustache.