THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

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We are still embarrassed. I lowered my head, I couldn't see Jimmy's face.

Jimmy pulled my hand, who was holding a burger. Yeah, I was really hungry that night.

He clasped tightly and I looked at him. In my heart I asked, why is he so good to me?

"Your face is red?" Jimmy.

"Ah... Just hunch.." I answered while throwing away my eyes.

it was a shame when he rebuked me. I stifled my laughter and smile, I had to keep my image in front of Jimmy.

although I was wrong with Jimmy.

"Please stop looking at me like that. I'm uncomfortable and unusual.why do you always look at me for a long time...." I answered.

Jimmy pulled me, and I fell into Jimmy's lap.

It's easy for me to be like this. Cheapo! (I cursed myself).

I grabbed Jimmy's shoulders. Our foreheads fused together, I could even feel his breaths.

"I want us to be like this.. Stay longer with me.... But nothing is free... " Jimmy whispered in my ear.

"intention.. Aaa... I-i understand... I'm accompanying you here, doing tasks like that... Right?" I'm pretty confident in my answer.

"No! I'm not that perverted guy... That is a necessity as a grown man. But, I don't want you to be like this.... "

"You mean?" I scrunched my forehead.

"Hm... You can do a language course, cooking, sewing school. There must be a short class you can take... So you don't waste your time just here watching, eating, sleeping...

Since you used to work, I'm sure you'll be bored... " Said Jimmy.

"..... " I kept thinking. Why did he tell me to do that.

It should be good I'm just here. Enjoying holiday.

"I get.. You must be angry to hear this. But, I have good intentions.. So that you can fill your free time... I'm not forcing you, just if you ask me to pay for all your courses... I ready... " Jimmy hugged me.

" Before that, I've been horrified.. Usually women like me, just need to do the orders and get money with the bed with them. Why did you ask me to find a school.?

even you finance anyway..what's wrong?" I'm curious about Jimmy's goals.

"Because I don't think of you like that woman. I mean good, it depends on you. I want to think what it looks like.Of course, I'm not looking for comfort women.. "

I was silent, looking at the man in front of me. One of my passions is about art. I want to go to school, but the money is not there for me.

if I take Jimmy's offer, I'm lucky, uh don't be rash Cath...

"Here you go, I don't need you to answer now. I just want to enjoy when you're with me here... Thank ye... Because you're by my side right now... " Jimmy hugged me tightly.

I put my head on his chest. I could hear an irregular heartbeat. Jimmy's breathing was a bit heavy.

I enjoyed this hug, as others hugged me warmly. But what does it mean to be together if there will be no marriage?

I looked at his face as we were in the same bed.His embrace was warm, his gaze made me peaceful.

I even touched Jimmy's face, his face was smooth and never dull.

I closed my eyes and put my head in his arms.

*******

by morning Jimmy was in his office. He left Cathrine still asleep.

he is now working in his room. In the corner of his desk is a photo of Mira. Photos are sometimes hidden, sometimes in place, the side of Jimmy's desk.

He smiled at Photo Mira. happy aura that disappeared almost 3 years more now began to be seen again.

"When you're here, it's like I'm finding half of myself. But, I couldn't bring him deep into my life... Miras... If you knew, I wouldn't be able to replace you....

if you were also patient then.allow me to pursue the perpetrator and persuade my parents.."

Jimmy closed both his eyes. He remembered bringing Mira to his country. Dictatorial state where Jimmy's family is involved in the economy there.

He also introduced Mira as a lover to the public. And then Jimmy's parents got angry.

How not? it's a state event that's a state ceremony.

carrying Mira and holding her in front of many people.

they immediately became a hunted journalist there.

until they return to Jimmy's parents' house. Mira who was happy and laughing immediately closed her mouth.

jimmy's father saw them enter with a stern look of hatred towards Mira.

"You brought a despicable woman here?! Where's your ota? She who? the artist? What can he do for this country? papa doesn't need a useless son-in-law." Said Jimmy's father.

"Pa.. Can we talk alone? Mira doesn't need to know, or can we talk any slower?" Jimmy spoke slowly to his father.

"Speak, he won't understand what we're saying! I don't think of him as a son-in-law. Take her back. Return it to its country! " Jimmy's father said as he turned his gaze to the glass window.

For him, he would not find his only son marrying the woman. Women who are considered dirty for having children without marriage.

Not smart, let alone noble titles. Become an artist by becoming an adult magazine model. It's gonna make Jimmy's dad angry.

"Well pa. I think papa can change with what happened then.but I'm wrong yes.papa is still the same.I'll go and don't ask me to come here again.... Good night, Mr.." Jimmy pulled mira's hand.

They walked towards the main exit..

"Wait..! If you go back alone. Papa accepts, however, if you are with the woman. Forget that! Think about how people judge! You are the son of the financial ruler of this country!

Married to a model woman in an adult magazine. How humiliating! what kind of offspring will you have..." Jimmy's dad's still emotionally provoking.

Mira releases Jimmy's hand. Then he turned and knelt before Jimmy's father.

"Mira!" Jimmy is high-voiced.

"Sir.. Sorry I took your son's heart. I'm sorry I'm a despicable woman, not a smart and noble-blooded woman. I even breathe here.... Not worth it.let alone be your daughter-in-law.I am quite self-aware with everything...

But I beg you not to treat Jimmy like this.I love your son, and I'm wrong here....

Sorry if I was sassy...

I promise you I will never come back here. But, you need to know...

I never hated you.. L am... " Mira said while crying.

"Already! Let this old man alone!" Jimmy pulled Mira away from there.

Not long after, they headed straight to the airport. They decided to go back to Indo.

"They should be the ones learning! I lost one child.. Still have one kok still hard.we are not wrong baby.." Jimmy stayed on his feet.

"But, I'm annoyed Jim... I don't want to be like this, or indeed my fate should be like this.... Already Jim..

maybe we are just friends...I'm tired, tired of trying to convince them all.... I want to rest... " Mira resuscitated her head on Jimmy's shoulders.

"all right, until there we take a break. We both went on vacation to the beach.. Okey... " Jimmy stroked Mira's hair.

"I want to rest Jim... By ourselves... " Mira wiped her tears.

Jimmy doesn't understand it's a sign from Mira.

Before long, semi-open photos of Mira circulated widely. A long photo was taken before he met Jimmy.

everyone is hunting Mira, various photos and insults in each of Mira's photo comments.

this makes Mira feel low point and embarrassed with Jimmy.

In a state of depression, Mira chooses to leave forever.

As Jimmy struggles to find the perpetrator and make a report to the authorities. Even Mira chose to go to Rest forever....

the perpetrators have not been able to meet until now. Jimmy was suspicious of his parents, but he is still not sure.

.....

Geck... Tok.. (someone knocks on Jimmy's door).

Jimmy turned out to be shedding tears and then he wiped away his tears. Then open both eyes. He confirmed his sitting position.

"get in. " said Jimmy.

the door opened, a middle-eastern mixed male figure entered.

"good morning sir." said Adam.

"please, come in here.. sit down.. can I help you?" jimmy said while sitting in a firm position.

"morning sir. excuse me to sit down. I saw your car, so I'm sure you're here." Adam sat in front of Jimmy.

"Where's Dam? What's the update? he this weekend there is an email that I have to send. while the file I forgot to copy to Fd.this is also I've wanted to go back.." asked Jimmy.

"Look sir, this afternoon I will open casting at my friend's cafe in the south. Maybe you are interested to see? this weekend is also sir, I mean..." Adam explains the show later in the afternoon.

"aa... Yes, your show is.. I just try to do it. I believe you are smart and have a strong feeling about the artists you deserve...

moreover, our talk show is new in this country. rather gambling as well,...." Jimmy gave Adam a compliment with a smile.

"i also think I can not bring artists carelessly. Besides I am still a new person... Just so if you'd like to, I'm asking Jessica for a casting. Is father deigning?" Adam made his point

"Please, anyone can.. It's still Casting. Hm... What is clear you understand is what kind of person he is playing in what events and also he is with the management next door... I don't want to make a fuss about this.....

my message is heart to heart with that woman.." Answer Jimmy.

Adam understood and he smiled.

"I understand sir... In fact, I think, what a companion father is not jealous if Jessy joined the casting and there is a father as well.especially if he is chosen later..." Adam tried fishing.

"What do you mean exactly? Cathrine is not the woman I used to meet. You know what he is like too..Uh, right too... I better tell Cathrine first.and hear how she reacts.smart you..." Jimmy took the phone next to him.

"apparently you want to tease him. I know he's a good and smart woman Sir. comes from a good family - well, he's worth it... I'm a father team with Cathrine..."

They also laughed together, funny because this time employees Jimmy brave.

Dare to tease their boss. Especially about love... Maybe Jimmy and Cathrine are together?

"I'll excuse you sir... See you around... " Adam stood up and left Jimmy's room.

Jimmy then thought, he could lure Cathrine with this news. He wondered how Cathrine would react to Jessy meeting him.

Then Jimmy pressed the call to Cathrine.

"Hallo.... Already awake?" Jimmy starts.

"Already, this is something between the porridge with black eggs. I just ate it... "

"Oooow... Thank God, are you surprised there's no me? When awake?" Jimmy started flirting.

"Actually yes, the more surprised look at the clock. It's 9 in the morning... Why do you want to wake up when you leave.... "

"I don't have the heart, you sleep like a buffalo that can't get up... " Jimmy's still trying to seduce Cathrine.

"Hiss.... Don't play physically..... I'm gonna take a shower.. Byee... " (Cathrine wants to close the call)

"Yetuuu!!! I want a story.. In the afternoon there will be Casting with a new director for the new program. In a cafe in the south.... Then... Your best friend is there Jessy..... What do you think...?" Jimmy spoke slowly while waiting for Cathrine to react.

"....... (Only the sound of breathing)..."

"Are you still there? Hello?"

"Yes still.... Never mind... Whatever you.. I'm gonna take a shower first... "

"No! That way... I meani... If you forbid me... I'm not leaving... If you let me, I'm leaving.. " Jimmy wondered why Cathrine's reaction was relaxed.

"Look Jimmy, you're all grown up. If you go about work, just go... But you want to say it's not my part.... "

Dashed calls...

Jimmy smiled, he felt like he had won. Cathrine must be jealous so she immediately closed her call.

*******

"Let's go.... Gw Belom finished you're dead.. Fuck up! Hape is brash..!" I spoke to my dead cell phone.

I looked for a charger from inside the bag. Then I saw a pregnancy control pill.

I took both of those things and I filled my phone and put it near the pantry table.

I took the water and took the pills and then I sat on the couch and watched television.

"why should he call for that? not that it's up to Jimmy anyway it's about work. "I'm talking to myself.

actually, I'm not happy to hear Jessy's name, especially with what she did to me.

actually what made him change, what I know Jessy was not like that. There must be something that changed him, he so did that to me.

the wall clock shows at 11 pm. I also began to feel bored, I lay down my body and watch movies on tv.

"why is it bored? though the tv show is good..weekend this tumben also Jimmy left. is it because the casting is yes?.... ah not important Cath!! just think about your lunch? but, I can warm up the one in the fridge... "

Cathrine is bored, it's the weekend, but Jimmy leaves so early and leaves him alone.