THE WAY YOU LOVE ME
68
"Lo don't want to help Inez?" I got Nicky.
Nicky turned around and looked at me, maybe to her I was naive.
"Gw can help what? He chose his way of life... He has a solution to his problem... So then? I can what?"
"No, you know he's more talented than we are. Why doesn't he grow up?" I'm still forcing.
"Cathrine... Not everyone is so lucky. Not all guys are your husbands.... I work for a bokap company... " Nick answered realistically.
Yes, I think realistically, we choose our own path to our future. It's not as easy as a novel to help our friends.
A sincerity? Not the main thing in friendship.
"Now I realize, this means temen to you? Even what Inez uda alamin, you have no sympathetic little... He's victim... " I'm still arguing.
"A lot of people out there aren't more lucky than Inez! If you all help, just work in the social service.... " Nicky left me.
I walked away, back to the apartment with a million questions and thoughts.
How the fate of Inez., how could his family do so, the weight of the road through Inez.
Everything gathered in my mind. I put my bag on the sofa near our bed.
I took a cell phone, a message from Jimmy.
Jimmy: you don't forget to eat. Are you ready for all the college needs? So go home to papa?
Maybe tomorrow I'll buy a train ticket home. Everything is ready, 2 weeks from ospek. How's there? Everyone's safe?
1 mins.....
2 mins....
5 mins...
Long time Jimmy reply, what in his country is already a signal? Or is he busy?
********
"Ma... Has this enough? I'll be home soon.... " Jimmy said in the living room.
"So you're married? How can it be without our blessing?" A sharp look at the middle-aged woman's gaze.
"Will be blessed? You better not interfere. I already have citizenship there. Please dear mama and papa to focus on taking care of this country... Help progress and others... " Answer Jimmy ketus.
Brakk! (Jimmy's father kicked around the table in front of him).
"You never respected us at all! You forgot your origin! You should know your ancestors!" Jimmy's father said out loud.
"If I had forgotten about my ancestors, I wouldn't be able to go home now. I chose my work there.. Never mind, it's getting night. I want to rest. Good night... "
Jimmy stood up and headed for the exit of the room. He stopped for a moment and said. "Don't forget to take your vitamins and medicine... "
********
I looked out my apartment window. I saw some other buildings.
The bottom side is a lot of cars and other vehicles and then we move.
I breathe and sit on the sofa. I took my phone and pressed my message to Jimmy.
"Cock hasn't bales?" I'm talking to myself.
Before long, I saw Anne.
Anne: I'm in town, I'll see you at MIK 5 o'clock.
Me : ok, I'll call Mr. Teddy...
I also pressed a call to Mr. Teddy. "Hallo, sir.. Later at 4.30 am pick up and hold anther to MIK mall, huh?"
"Good Sir.. Thank ye... " I'm ending my call.
**********
I walked alone in this new mall. To be honest, I actually feel shame and fear if I go to a new place with people I don't know.
I saw a statue that Anne meant. I saw too, a Bop haircut lady in blonde color.
"Cathrine!!!! " Anne dashed and hugged me.
I replied to him and I felt like I was grateful to him. Thanks to him I met Jimmy.
"Yeah, sit there..." Anne pulled me into one of the eating places.
We ordered some food there. It's more like Asian and Indonesian cuisine if I look at it from the menu.
"So... Jimmy left you till when?"
" I don't know An.. He said back in a week. But until now pesen gw aja ga in bales... " I replied scowling.
"Lo should be patient if he goes back there.. The thing... His family was busy there... " Anne answered as if she was hiding something.
"Hm.. Maybe I never went out of the country... " I'm relaxed.
"Eh, you know Jimmy's adopted son?" Anne asked.
"Uhukkp... " (I'm choking)
"Eh sorry.. Sorry Cathrine... Maybe you don't know... Hitherto.. Uda... " Anne gave me some water.
"Wait, Jimmy uda has a son?!" I don't believe what I hear.
"Where is... Not a real child.. That's a girlfriend's son.. Uh ex... His ex... " Anne stammered - brick explained.
"Eh, Jimmy's brati has an ex? Girlfriend of the guy here too?!" I'm curious.
"Gw shouldn't be the story, but let Jimmy tell you..." Anne tried to change our conversation.
"Please Anne's... Story dong to gw.. Keep beautiful who? Tajir who? Where is the woman now?" I raise a question.
"Any time ask!" Anne's upset.
"....." I pouted and was annoyed at Anne's reply.
"Yes, I told you a little bit. Tu girl has died stress naked her wide photo.... It used to be Jimmy's artist, with a face... Duh beda.. Tu cewe is also older than kok from lo.... " Anne answered briefly.
"Keep the same relationship with his son?" Plain ask.
The pramusaji broke up our conversation. He served us our meal and drink orders. Then he put a sign on the table. Wherever our orders have come.
"That kid... The girl is the same as her ex-husband.. Jimmy feels responsible there his son too.. So until now it is still nengokin that in the orphanage. Uh.. What kind of cottage... "
"...... " I silently looked at my dinner plate.
Is Jimmy still his ex? That's why he likes me weird sometimes.... (I'm in my heart).
"I'm afraid, Jimmy's loyal.. It is also the youngest girl in the world.. He's just in the mass section of Jimmy's... "
"Ann.... You know it.... Sol... "
"Michael's? Junk guy? Udayah, you almost died silly because - because of the guy macem him... "
"Ga.... Uh gw... Just afraid that Jimmy will do the same rich Michael.... Lo inget that incident... I'm traumatized, I don't even have the guts about romance.... " Answer.
"Udah.... So you are what you are... " Anne said while looking behind my body.
Even his eyes did not blink. It was as if he did not believe what he saw.
I reflexively turned my back and looked for what Anne saw.. Apparently...
"That's aunt, right? Mamma... Mama lo Cath?! " Anne stood up to chase.
"Udah... I sat An.... " I'm holding back.
"Gw yesterday I met... But, yes I don't know.. Mama really isn't.... I'm sure he even saw me standing a few feet away from him.... But.... He went that way, his gesture did not know me.... " obviously.
"..... " Anne is silent.
"Emang if the real mama.. There are parents who forget their children....? " I ask full of feelings.
"Cath..." Call Anne Iirih.
"Good mommy's heart? Do you live with Ghea? I was even made into a milk cow.... If that's him... It's good, life is good and it's going well... " I'm raving a little bit my cry's held back.
"Hm.... You should be proud of yourself... Now the lives of papa and Ghea uda are much better.. Especially lo... Now you it's not uplifting the ashes anymore... Lo it's beautiful... You also have a good partner... "
anne's words seemed to encourage me, although there were still many questions in my mind and heart.
"lo must be happy Cathrine.you can not be difficult.cipain happy in the same way you Jimmy.... "
*******
I still think of women who are similar to my mother.Even we met for the second time.
what is God's way?
I still believe there's not everything that happens by chance in this world. There must be something that makes it happen.
if it's mom, why did she even forget me.?
maybe this is a fact, if you just want a luxurious world life.
right, mama can not live hard, let alone want to accept the state of papa.
I didn't realize, the car was almost to the apartment. I was daydreaming too much at the end of this.
"Non later you will pick up papa equally adek non at the station at 3 am, right? Keep anter to the hotel.. Here's the key" Mr. Teddy gave me the hotel key.
I saw this 5-star hotel in town.
"Sir, is this from?" My toot.
"Sir Jimmy, for his in-laws and brother-in-law. Non can also stay there, for the next 1 week. I just wait below.. Please do not take clothes first.. I was in the usual parking lot... " Sir Teddy left me.
I rode alone to my room. I took some clothes stels and my bath needs.
I looked at my phone again. Still no word from Jimmy.
Indeed, if we are dating the same busy people huh gini huh??
Jimmy: have you received the key? Take a break, no need to go to the station.
My face was reading Jimmy's chat. I smiled - smiled to myself and typed in reply.
Me: yes, I am ready. Thanks to Jimmy... ❤
Jimmy: dear I miss you, see you next week.
Me : love you......
I replied to his message reflexively, without thinking about what to say.
Even though I hope he replies with the word love to me.
"No, not in bales? Just in read with Jimmy.. Is my language wrong?"
I started to panic, why didn't he return my message?
Me: you don't want bales love to me too?
Jimmy: no.... Better not to say that for now....
#christian#
Like a lightning strike during the day. What does it mean that he rejected me?
Refusing love from me?
But..
Did he say we were dating, right?
Me : but, you said we consider this relationship dating... So what exactly? Can I not say that too?
Jimmy: no need, I don't want you to take it all too far. I'm just helping you shape your future.
Me : maybe im stupid! I don't understand what you mean. But....Well...... Lah's.... Which I understand.... We live without ties, right? And I'm free with anyone.. So are you, right?
I got upset and turned off my phone. I put it in my handbag.
I continued to clean my clothes, everything I put in my bag. All my needs, without me knowing.
My tears are dripping.
I swiped and prepared to go down. I have to cover up my pain.
I hold my chest, it hurts and feels tight. Jimmy's words are obviously a rejection sentence. Just like when Michael sent me a message.
Mr. Teddy's waiting for me in front of the lobby. It was like talking to someone on their phone.
"Sir, this is madam uda.. I want to connect?"
I approached Mr. Teddy, he gave me his phone.
"Sorry Non, this is Mr. Jimmy. Wanna talk... Non mobile phone in Contact ga can.. It's an international call, expensive non... Cepetan Atuh's... " Print Teddy persuaded.
I took the phone, but I didn't put it in my ear. I spoke directly....
"This call is expensive, let's say." I then disconnected Jimmy's call.
"Thank You Sir.. Let's go, I want to eat first... " I returned the phone and went to the parking lot.
"Why young people end - end this easy emotion yes... Not the same Mr. Jimmy is rich so easy to be very angry... " Mister Teddy muttered.
**********
Mr. Teddy left me alone at the hotel.he saw the clock was showing at 2:30 in the morning.
he remembered his last assignment that day.to pick up Mr. Jimmy's in-laws.
"Malem sir... Malem non, I'm Mr. Jimmy's employee who asked to be picked up.. " Sir Teddy said while carrying the signboard.
"Night Sir... I'm Thomson, but just call Tommy sir.. This is Ghea Cathrine's sister.... Sorry to bother you... " Say father Cathrine.
"No sir.. It's my job, let's get in the car, let me help you bring.. " Mister Teddy took the dus and bag that Ghea was carrying.
With sleepy eyes and my Ghea according to where the steps of Mr. Teddy. They then headed to the hotel where Cathrine was waiting.
"Sir... is it not wrong? We're staying at one of these hotels?"
"No Sir.. Your daughter-in-law chose her own.. The hotel was also Mr. Jimmy's subscription place.. " Answer, Teddy.
"Have you worked with Jimmy for a long time?" Cathrine's father asked.
"Yes... Pretty long sir.. Since Mr. Jimmy helped me who was sleeping there, sir... "
Mr. Teddy pointed at one of the sidewalks at the red light.
"I used to beg sir, from village to city to work. My graduation is SMK, quite prestige if the village said... But my fate is not good, my wife and my son follow the grandiose in the streets... "
Papa just silently looked. "Jimmy is a benefactor apparently." (Papa said in his heart.
"But, I'm coming from Mr. Jimmy still working in one of the offices. Sampe uda is rich now sir.. What yes.. I have a lot of stories about him.. Wealthy family that... Noah.. I even told my own story... "
"Sir, I thank you, I don't have much time to talk to my daughter-in-law. So I can learn what he is like... " Answer to Cathrine's Father.
