THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

36

I change clothes, the wall clock is 12 p.m. I want to look into the stall. Whether Uda and Uni are open or not.

I was ready, as usual, brown bags became my mainstay. I didn't forget my phone.

2 New messages came in.

Jimmy: don't forget to eat. Rest and exercise if you are free.

Jimmy: that's so annoying, there's no message you're replying to. Is this intentional?

Name: nope.. I'm going to the stall. Don't look for me. Adios..

I sent it back to Jimmy. Just sent, there was already a reply from him.

Jimmy: take a taxi from you with Yofie. Do I need to pick you up?

"Ish..Why is that so? What poison is Yofie?! all in a taxi! waste money, walk away.ishh..." I nagged myself seeing Jimmy's behavior.

Cathrine feels Jimmy is getting crazy with Yofie. he does not realize, Jimmy is actually jealous. Therefore, annoyed that Cathrine feels.

I rushed out of the room. The atmosphere of the house as usual was quiet. Om who used to watch in front of the room is also invisible. Esyeh was already from the end of the week unseen.

I started to step to the exit.

"Wait.... " Stacy called me.

I turned around and greeted him with my smile.

"Where ? Can you help, brother?" I chose to say hello first.

"Will I talk to you for a second?" Stacy folded her arms in front of me.

"Can brother... But just a minute.. I have to work... "

Then Stacy sat in the living room chair. I followed him there too. We sat across, facing.

I can see a pretty face. It's pretty sweet and pretty, it's worth it with Yofie.

"Gw make this simple... Yofie likes you. And I want to know.. How do you get to him...

Ahem... I need to know, if we have been betrothed from small... " Stacy said while looking intently.

I feel cornered, but I don't understand how I feel about Yofie either.

"Gw sees him as a good man.. And I was also taught the same old man in the village... Wherever I go.. If a good man.. I have to answer well to them.... " I answered plainly.

"Lo is plain... Or pretend - plain? Tsk... " Stacy sneered at me.

"I'm sorry, if nothing else matters. Can I go?" I stood up from the chair.

"Wait on! How important. Important, one thing I want! You really don't have any taste for Yofie?"

"Hm... Don't worry.. I thought about love. The focus is still on home and career. There are many important things I have to think about. Not just about Yofie... " I also moved from my position.

"Gw love equal Yofie. So I hope you understand how it feels.... " Stacy said softly.

I stopped for a moment, I thought. I shouldn't be among them.

I really can't be like this. Not even thinking of being a destroyer.

"Yes, ge understands... Excuse um... "

I left Stacy, and I rushed out of the house. I stopped in the field near my house.

I remember how Stacy's voice was. Why does loving have to be so ridiculous?

I have only ever felt the pain of loving. But, as long as I can't hold back.. All right, I let him go.

Michael... An old wound that traumatized me for love.

It also dawned on me that love also needs recognition. Plain? Or stupid? Maybe both.

"day Uda... Uni... is it healthy?" I say hello to my boss.

"lumayan Nak... But if indak looking for money, where would you like to eat? how healthy are you?" Uni patted my shoulder.

he seemed to understand I was thinking about something.

"healthy Uni. healthy really, I beberes behind ya... "

I left them, too. I chose to wash dishes and dirty utensils.

my thoughts go back to Stacy, she loves Yofie so much. It seems like she has a lot to say.

I'd better hear it, who knows, then he'll stop accusing me.

Brother Yofie, he treats me well. I think it's a natural thing.how good we are, then people will come back good to us.

**********

That day the store was not so crowded. But the wall clock shows at 6 p.m.

Uda already looks tired, it seems he is not fit right. Uni also cleaned up the rest of the side dishes. Either it seems like they want to split up to the people on the street later.

I also cleaned up the rest of the laundry. Actually, my body is also not good.

I was tired, but this is what I used to do.

"Cathrine... Come home, it's a bit of a fortune for you... " The Union folded several pieces of money in the tens of thousands.

"In the meantime, the Union.... Thank you, I accept yes.. " I received the Union gift and put it in my pants pocket.

I immediately tidied up, swept and mopped the floor. Everyone is ready to go home, and so am I.

I picked up the bag and followed to the front door. I saw my cell phone clock, 7:30 at night.

There is a New Message again, I opened it...

Jimmy: are you home yet?

Me : new going way to the kost. Have you eaten? Howwasyourday?

I replied and put the phone back in the bag. I say goodbye to Uda and Uni.

"Be careful, son.. See you tomorrow... " Uni let me go home.

I walk myself to the boarding house. The weather was pretty clear that night. Not many people hanging out there. Maybe this is the beginning of the week, everyone is busy.

I kept walking, past the field. There were a few children and parents still there.

I just smiled and nodded my head, asking permission to pass.

I kept walking, and was like a familiar figure in front of the hostel.

It was Yofie...

Is he there himself?

Actually I'm lazy to see it. Moreover, Stacy had just discussed their relationship this afternoon.

Yes already.. I took a deep breath and I walked over to Yofie.

"Night brother... Excuse um.... " I said hello and asked permission to go through.

"Wait Cathrine.... Brother wants to talk... " Yofie held my left hand.

But I immediately shook his hand. I feel this is a compulsion from him.

"I'm sorry what's wrong?" I said while holding my left hand.

"Sorry Cathrine... I want to explain about Stacy. How is our relationship, so you don't misunderstand." Yofie put on a look of hope to me.

"Misunderstand? Kaya is not... I certainly don't understand.." I answered.

"Obviously you don't understand, therefore. Brother must give understanding.. Older brother.... Brother likes you... "

I glared, my mouth silenced at his words. It's crazy for sure, he ate wrong..?

"Aren't you eating wrong?" I ventured to speak.

"Engga.... Brother really likes you... Brother never felt rich gini with other women... "

I scrunched my forehead, what should I answer? But I don't have to answer that.

"Cathrine... Do you have the same taste?"

I stopped my steps, I turned around. I looked at him with a breath.

"I don't know brother.... I haven't thought about feelings... What is clear is that big brother is good, handsome and sweet.Sister is also good and always good to me, so I have to repay my brother's kindness to me... But....

The wounds of the past that I went through, made me not dare to put my heart down again...

Oh yes, there are also women who are sincere with older sisters. I think you guys are also a good match.... " I then smiled.

"You.... You'll understand Cathrine, why I never thought of Stacy as a couple... Sister..."

"Sister, I'll take a break... My body is tired and I am sleepy.. Bye then.. Good night.." I left him alone.

I went into my room, I closed it shut and leaned behind the door.

Sad and tears came out dripping down the cheeks. Is this loving too? Why does it hurt here, the chest feels tight.

I ....

Not that I wanted to reject Yofie, but that I was aware as well. He will soon be married.

If he chooses with me, we have different bloodline. There will be more and more of our obstacles.

After all, my future is still ashes..

"Cathrine, sister don't care what you said tonight... Brother will keep trying to make you sure of brother... " Yofie said in front of my bedroom door.

His voice made me cry even more. I fell down and cried even more.

What a shit and stupid me. Putting my heart up like this, I cried over all the words - he said.

Should I survive?

let Yofie chase me...

or

I have to step down, with my life line?

I lay down my body, all his words in my mind. take it off heavy, this heavy? it's ridiculous! i'm stupid..!!

I took my phone, I got a bunch of messages coming in. I'm sure it must be from the house guy or Jimmy.

why is Jimmy so annoying?

it's not like I gave him the obligations he got.

I then press the Switch Off button on my phone.I want to rest and enjoy my sadness tonight.

there's not a single message I want to read, I just want some alone time.

**********

"Ish where else is this woman. Message none he replied. Why don't you just use Instant Messanger!" Jimmy grumbling.

"I've never seen you like this. You seem to have fallen in love with that woman... Haha... " Louise seduces Jimmy.

"Huh? No who said it!" But Jimmy was busy dialing Cathrine's number.

"It is not active.. Where else is this woman... " Jimmy grumbled.

"Hey... Good night... May join?" Jessy comes and approaches Jimmy's desk.

"No... " They answered.

"Oh, I'm sorry I thought the seat was empty. So I joined ya... " Jessy sat there.

Louise looked at him with a cynical look. Women don't know the place, that's what Louise had in mind.

"Hallo, my name is Jessy... " Jessy introduced herself.

No one responded to Jessy. Jimmy's busy with his cell phone. Louise looked up sharply.

"You're a Budiawan woman, right?" Louise asked.

"Ah, we just really came together yesterday.. I'm free anyway.. Hehee... " Jessy cengennesan.

He tried to approach the young man before him. Saturated for Jessy, serving middle-aged men like Budiawan.

"Don't do it, if your man finds out. Your life is dangerous.. You don't know what kind of person he is.... " Louise answered.

Jessy heard what Louise said. He did not know what kind of man his girlfriend was.

all he knows, his girlfriend always has a lot of money and business.he apparently forgot to check how Budiawan acted during this time.

"You're better off, before dating a guy... Whoever he is.. Investigate for sure who the woman who was with him... And the news of that woman.."

"Don't let your fate be just a name.. " Jimmy finished Louise's convoluted speech.

"Yes, that's what you mean. We go first, because we still respect as fellow men... "

Jimmy and Louise stood up from their seats.

"Wait... Are you not interested in me at all?!" Jessy turned upset.

"No... " Answer Jimmy.

"We already have women, and it's more exciting when we're loyal to them. Better, you learn before.. Bye then... "

They left Jessy. Louise lights skirt*k outdoor lounge. He used to inhale a stick if he was upset.

"Wait you!!" Jessy's voice chasing .

They turned around and saw Jessy gasping for breath.

"Yes?" Ask Jimmy.

"Why... Can you not be interested in me? What's wrong?!" Jessy asked in an angry voice.

"Yes we are bored... There are many women like you. And we don't want to play with your man... " Answer Louise.

"Okay, but you! Jimmy! Why are you paying more attention to my friend!" Jessy's eyes turned red.

"Friends?" Jimmy laughed when he heard it.

"You said friend? Since when? From the beginning I saw, you treated him as a lackey. Not a friend like you said... " Jimmy said.

"Why?" Jessy is still angry.

"Yes because your friends are more interesting and not boring... " Jimmy was honest.

"Silly!!" Jessy.

"What?" Jimmy says.

"Yes... Your words, they make sense. It just wants manasi, right? I actually like it the same way.. Replace me, sexy me too.. Lo's wrong.... Definitely wrong... " Jessy looks like a drunk. He's raving no crap.

"Honored lady, beautiful and sexy confess.. Whatever... What my friend said was real... The truth.. Accept the reality..." Louise tried to resuscitate Jessy.

"It's late, excuse me Miss Jessica... " Jimmy and Louise leave Jessy alone.

Jessy was still gawking at their statement. It was unusual for him to be rejected by men.

"The humiliation when I was defeated by the female model. It's insults!!" Jessy's still whining.

Jessy feels she has to take Jimmy, she must be able to get Jimmy and make Cathrine realize that she is not comparable to him.

Jessy forgets what Budiawan looks like.he always removes the traces of the woman who had been with him.

Jimmy was in the position of the man who helped Budiawan's girlfriend. Miras....

yes, Mira part of Jimmy.he was actually dating Budiawan before the incident bun*h himself happened.

until this moment, Jimmy still does not believe.where maybe women who always think forward want to do the superficial thing.

there is a big figure behind it all.

Jimmy himself was never from the beginning to put his heart to Jessy. he remained more interested in Cathrine.