THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

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"This mall you used to buy bags for, right?" I asked while looking at the shop that was opening.

"Your hints are good too... Ohiya let's go there... " Jimmy pulled my hand into a diamond shop.

Its luster was enough to attract the attention of passers-by. To me, I was amazed for a moment. All white and shiny.

"Pick what you want, we wear the same ring as you want... " Jimmy seduce.

I saw the display of the couple ring in front of me. All of them use eyes from diamonds, I don't like it because it's white.

Honestly, I don't understand how to judge a diamond. I was only focused on 1 ring which is quite simple.

It has small white eyes in the middle. Her left right was plain without any decorations or carvings. Really simple as a ring, maybe more often used as a wedding ring.

"Which is Cathrine.. "

"Here, can you see?" I pointed to the ring in front of me.

The salesman took and gave it to me. My face smiled seeing it.

"Can I try it first?" My toot.

"Can Ma'am, please.. This is the one with the father... " The salesman gave it to Jimmy.

We tried, maybe for me, too. The ring fit snugly and looked good on my finger.

"You can too... Alrighty.. We bought this.. Can you describe the name inside?" Ask Jimmy.

"Make what? It's polosan.." Reply reflexes.

For me, dear if I have to give carvings. Let alone an expensive ring, I was afraid its value would drop and so it was cheap when I sold it again.

"Would it hurt to give us our names?" Jimmy's voice was high.

The salesman looked at us and bowed his head. We look at each other sharply.

"Good... " Answer.

"..... " Jimmy scrunched his forehead.

"Good...... Yep.... I obey you.... " Then I went past looking at the other side of the store.

I actually want to be selfish. I must not lose, one day Jimmy will leave me. Especially with last night's conversation.

My eyes were on the outside of the shop. Cross is a branded bag shop. I see women like my mother....

Yep.. I'm sure it's mom, but who's the guy next to you?

They seemed familiar, a man of the same age as mama. However, his appearance looked more well-groomed and richer perhaps yes.

Mama was fond of the man, they came out of the store. At that moment his face was clearly visible. Moles over your lips!

Obviously only my mom has it. I was curious and followed them from behind.

I kept my distance with their footsteps. Honestly, I was curious and feeling sad.

I also squeezed the handle of the bag I was carrying.

They stopped at the bakery, mama bought abon bread. That's right, it's my mom's favorite.

Just sec.... A woman approached my mother. Aunties... Aunt Rose!

"Darling!.. "The man's voice surprised me.

I reflexively look to the right side.

"Jimmy!" I'm shocked.

"Where are you, don't say. I'm looking for you rich crazy!" Jimmy's angry.

"Have a minute!" Reply answer.

I turned back to my mom. They've been gone....

"What the hell did you see?" Jimmy looked at the bakery.

"Mama.... " My words are shrivelled.

It was full of questions in my mind, what I saw. Aunt Rose actually covered where mom is.

Why is my mom with another man? What the hell is going on?

"Darling... What do you want to eat?" Ask Jimmy while breaking my daydream.

"Eh, sorry.. Let's sit down yuk... I want a story... " I'm spoiled.

Jimmy took me to sit in a cafe. I picked a place a bit tip can kinda talk freely.

Jimmy lined up at the cashier and picked out a few menus. I'm still daydreaming, considering my mom's current appearance.

I admit my mom looks more beautiful and beautiful. The clothes and jewelry that my mom wears. Mama's hairstyle also looks different when with papa.

"Cathrine.... " Jimmy called.

I looked at him, my eyes empty. I told you where it came from. I'm more precisely embarrassed.

"What's wrong? It's white water and cold brown. Drink first and talk... " She said softly.

"Thank You's... " I took water and drank it.

A little bit of relief in my throat. It also gives a sense of calm in my chest.

"Sorry about that... I just see women like my mom... "

"Oh yeah? Good dong, why don't you reprimand directly.. " Jimmy looks happy.

"The problem next to him was a man, the man looked familiar to mama..... Huft.... I was following my mom, at the bakery.... Want me to get it, but the aunt I slapped the other day came... And you came.... "

I let out a breath.... I told you fast.

"Owh... So you want to reprimand fear so?" Ask Jimmy.

"Yes, that's not really my mom.. But I'm more sure it's my mom. Because there's aunt Roseliana. Also the mole over the lips is exactly the same as the mama... " Answer.

"Then?" Jimmy asked while drinking his coffee.

"I want to say hello, I'm afraid. I don't want to have a fight with that crazy woman... Especially if they know I live in this city... " Answer.

"What's wrong? You are disturbing me and you are with me... " Jimmy defended himself.

"Yes, the problem is that I'm the same as you... They think I'm selling myself. Not to mention when you fought rich yesterday, be ashamed. Every time we fight.... " I answered while drinking water in front of me.

The waiter put Jimmy's order on the table. Two steaks and a plate of fries.

"For a long time, I was with you.. All safe Cathrine.... " Jimmy brags while taking the fries and eating.

"Yee.. Are you a security? The world is narrow. At the mall, I met the woman..... " I'm pouting.

"The world is vast.. But yes really only you meet fools continue. Consider it a fortune to meet him... "

"How windy windfall? He was already making papa bankrupt, now mama even rich. Oh, my God, he never made me sprain!"

"It's been.... If you are angry.. Your attitude is mature and you are above them. Don't worry, you dirty your mouth with your heart to them... Focus on college.."

"Keep the money, right?!" Reply annoyed.

"....... " Jimmy shut up and took the knife and fork in front of him. He started eating the steak.

"I'm sprained with you... " Answer.

"...... " Jimmy stopped eating.

".... " Jimmy shut up and looked at me.

"With my mother's demands to me all this time, I had to find money to pay off the debt. Got to quit college and come pay off the debt.. They didn't know I wasn't eating to eat....." I started to hold back tears.

"It's been... " Jimmy said, patting my arm.

I bow my head, I must be strong to face it.

"But if mama does that.. You won't meet me... Your grandfather and father will have a better life.... " Said Jimmy.

"okay... I have to be strong Jimmy... If one day that woman is a mother. I must avenge her.Let her know the pain of her treatment to me. " My answer is to hold the anger.

"It's been... You reply there will be finished. Maybe if that woman was a mom... Not necessarily what you see he's happy is actually happy.. Your human heart doesn't know Cathrine... " Said Jimmy.

I'm just trying to digest Jimmy's words. I was emotionally angry. Why did mama leave us and live well while her son and husband had to butt - panting themselves.

Which child asks to be born into the world. Which child wants to be squeezed until he has to sacrifice himself.

Look at me, I'm stuck with Jimmy. In this complicated relationship, until when? Until Jimmy gets bored?

*******

"I'm sorry if my family's embarrassing. I also understand if your words last night were true.... " I said as we walked down the aisle to our apartment.

Jimmy opened the door and went inside, he didn't respond at all.

He put the groceries and changed clothes. He would not answer me at all.

I gave up, stopped looking at Jimmy. Then I decided to clean myself up.

Jimmy was busy with work and the notebook in front of him. I was honest I was afraid if he was angry. Especially until they leave me.

"Cathrine, what the hell are you afraid of losing Jimmy. Who the hell is he?" I spoke to myself while looking at him on the porch.

Soon he seemed to be cleaning up his work. Then he went inside and cleaned up what he was going to bring tomorrow.

Then Jimmy sat down next to me. He grabbed my hand and kissed the back of my hand.

"The tree you're beating yourself up. We just talked about it in front of him. To be honest, I'm holding back because of the past.... " Say Jimmy with a heavy breath.

"Past time?" I'm changing my forehead.

"Yes, someday you'll know all about it.. All I want is to make you worthy of the effort I can... " Jimmy stroked the back of my palm.

"....... " I looked at Jimmy.

"Regarding your family, as bad as it is. I've accepted you, I'm prepared and I don't want much of a cathrine... Live with me, set your future.... About your mama.... Let time answer all of them.

I just believe he doesn't want to be the way he is right now... "

Then Jimmy grabbed me and kissed me on my forehead. I put my head on his chest. There was the sound of his faint irregular heart beating.

"maybe your words are not Jimmy's mere seduction.I'm afraid of being too comfortable in an embrace.

and the way you treat me. "I said softly.

"Oh yes, next month which means 2 more weeks.. I'm going home for a little while to my country... I left you for a moment, then Mr. Teddy will take care of you. He'll standby to take you... " Said Jimmy.

"When didn't he go?" Tanyaku.

"Engga... It's probably 2 weeks Cathrine... " Pronounced while gently stroking my arm.

"That week I was on Jimmy's campus orientation, some kind of introductory event. Sometimes there is ngerjain like upperclassmen.pasti ribet ampe malem, May have been outlined yes.. We were busy that week... " Saying.

"Indeed here if a freshman has to have an event like that?" Jimmy's shocked.

"Usually.... " I said relax.

*******

"Gw first yes guys... " Say to Nicky and Inez.

"Where are you going? Not following us?" Ask Inez.

"Gw want to go to college bentar, take a jacket at any event tomorrow fitting orientation.... " Saying.

Mr. Teddy's waiting in the black sedan outside.

"We're reporting on lunch where. If you can join Cath... By the way.. Take care's... " Say Nicky.

I nodded and left my two friends. I got in the car, Mr. Teddy rushed to take me.

I honestly saw the clock was ticking. Administration closes at 12, and now it's 11:40.

"Light be non, it's deket... " Answer Mr. Teddy.

"Why do you know I'm panicking.?" I said with a small smile.

"I know the non.. Hehe.. Well we arrived... "

Mr. Teddy stopped at the parking lot. I saw some people sitting in the green area near the parking lot.

"Sir.. I'll be here again.. If you want to get out... " I said

"Good non. What's up - what's my phone.. " Answer Mr. Teddy.

Some walk to the administration building. I got down and walked into the building.

I walked into the building that I came to a few months ago. The atmosphere is different, there are some students I think are there too.

I also went into the administration room. I took care of some files and took the alma mater jacket.

Because it was quite crowded, I decided to clean up my stuff outside. There is a wooden bench to sit on.

"Meet again we..hi Sweet lady" someone behind me greeted.

"Eh... Yes hello brother... " I said hello back. Honestly, I forgot what his name was.

"It turns out to have met again, meaning we are a match... " Said Jose.

"Huh? Yes, how do I go to college here. So the chance to meet is greater... " Answer.

I'm done with my stuff. I'd better go home and catch up with my friend for lunch.

"Sister.. Sorry I went first... " I stood up and walked away from him.

"Wait.. Gw anterin yes... I haven't asked for it or a BB Lo Pin... " Jose's got me.

"Oh brother.... Ehm.contact me yes... wait 'emang inget my name? If sister can call the name.gw love contact gw... "

Jose shut up for a second, I saw my watch. Waiting for someone who is still thinking.

honestly I'm lazy to make contact with just anyone, let alone I've been with Jimmy.

"Sister sorry... I can't wait long.. Foremost... " I left him.

"Cathrine!" Call Jose.

"****!!!" I cursed, then I turned my body.

Jose took out his phone. I grabbed and saved my money on his phone.

"Sister, I'm first... Yea... " I returned the phone and walked away.

I sped up my way, I didn't realize Jose was kneeling me. He wanted to grab my hand, fortunately I quickly realized and turned my body around.

"what else is it, brother? I have been picked up, and I also have an event so sorry. "I replied with a annoyed tone.

"engga.. cuman..welcome to Purple campus yes.may smoothly Maba (new student). and inget yes.gw name Jose... " then he left me.