THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

33

The elevator reached the ground floor. The elevator doors opened, everything came out.

Jimmy came out, left me in the elevator. I'm still shocked by what Jimmy did.

Jimmy looked at me.

"Come on's...."

I was embarrassed to see his face, for some reason his face was shining brightly.

"Come, shut up again.... " Jimmy pulled my right hand.

I held my bag and followed Jimmy. He smiles every time he looks at me.

Why yes?

It feels weird, my heart is beating fast. My hands are also hard to move.

I just looked at his shoulder. But my body's reaction is like that. Normalisely?

Got in the car too. Why was it so shameful to look at Jimmy.

"Is there something strange? You don't talk about anything from us down. Are you still mad at me?" Ask Jimmy while confirming the seatbelt and start the car.

"No... I just want to see you more clearly. I don't understand why, I want to look at you... " I spoke honestly to Jimmy.

I didn't think Jimmy was glaring and his cheeks were red.

"Don't do it, I'm ashamed.... "

The car started, we went out of the apartment.

I looked at the clock on the dashboard. It's 8:20 p.m., where he's taking me.

"We're not eating anymore, are we?" I ventured to ask.

"No... I'm just taking you to my friend. We talk while enjoying the music... " Answer Jimmy.

"Dudeme?"

"Not... Lounges... The music is not noisy. I hate noisy, crowded pubs.."

"Then??" I scrunched my forehead.

"Pub too, but expats and my friends who like the same music... " Answer Jimmy.

I've never been to a disco, a pub or anything. I just looked and read how the place was.

it's better to say, I don't want to embarrass him, after all, he invited me to meet his friend.

why don't I go with him?

who knows, this could help me get a new job or relationship. Jimmy, he took me into a different world and I never thought about it.

The car stopped in a building. We went down and walked towards the arrow of the Inn.

Jimmy walked in front of me, I just tailed him. But Jimmy stopped his steps.

He turned and pulled my hand. He gave me a body gesture so I could walk beside him.

"When inside, don't get away from me. Don't walk in front of me either. Don't look down, show your face and believe in yourself... " Said Jimmy.

Nodding my head stopped Jimmy from talking.

"Remember what I said... " Jimmy emphasized again what he said.

It's like what Jimmy meant. What makes Jimmy so scared.

If you're afraid, why bring me here. Meet someone I don't know.

We entered a room. There's a lamp with a very bright light. There is live music in the middle of the room.

Some people sit on the couch and sit down. Some I see are foreign nationals.

They speak a language I do not understand.

"Neong .. " Say one of the servants there.

"Hello, I speak the language.. " I answered.

"We speak the language, today I am with him. His name is Cathrine.... " Said Jimmy.

"Hello, I'm Adit.salam know... " Adit gave his hand to shake hands.

"Hallo, greetings... Pleased meet... " I answered.

"You're here first, I'd like to say hello to a friend there... " Said Jimmy.

I guess I'm sitting in a bar chair near Adit. He's a young bartender, but he almost knows all the customers who come.

"The old mother? Same Jimmy?" Ask Adit.

He gave orange Juice in front of me. I took and drank a little.

"I'm actually the same Jimmy."

"From ya lo area.. The medok logat... Hm.... " Adit spoke while concocting drinks.

"..... " I just kept quiet and saw Adit juggling with a few bottles of drink.

"Absolutely the same as me?" Adit tried to tease me.

"No.... " My answer is short.

"Lie, you're not blinking about me earlier... " Adit smiled mischievously at me.

"Haha... That's a big oath... I saw your hand, could not miss the bottle... " I answered while laughing.

Before long I felt someone holding both of my shoulders. I reflexively turned, apparently Jimmy.

"What's so funny? Why are you laughing and it seems so exciting... " Task Jimmy.

"With papa Bro... That girl is concerned about me.. That's why he laughs, I see funny times... " Say Adit.

"Eh... It's good, it's funny... Cook me see her muterin bottle in say like her... " I told you while holding back laughter.

"Oh so, let's go there... " Jimmy asked me to move to the couch at the end.

I thought I'd bring a drink and follow Jimmy. Some of them greeted Jimmy, but it was not uncommon to see me with a strange look.

We stopped on the sofa, there were 2 couples waiting. I tried to smile at them.

"Know, Cathrine.... " Said Jimmy.

They shook hands with me, I didn't hear their names. Their voices were outdone by the music that was crowded.

I sat down next to Jimmy. He grabbed me by the shoulder, and I leaned my body against him.

Maybe if you look at our style a bit stiff. But it's true I never did this.

"You are still ashamed. Think of it as your own place." Said the man there.

It looks like the Yakuza I saw in the movie.

A shirt that slightly points to his chest, there is a tattoo. If it's not wrong it's a Phoenix bird.

"That's a Phoenix bird tattoo?" I asked.

How dare I ask, when they speak of something else.

But it's true that it makes me curious.

"Ha.. Ha... Smart woman, different from the women around you.. Yep! This is Phoenix... " Say the strong man.

"Oh, it seems right.... Sorry, I was curious so ask directly." I answered.

"You want to know? Why is there this tattoo?" ask the man.

"Can... " I'm excited to hear.

"This means that it is a sign of good, a symbol of sacred and revered things. This is my father's request, this tattoo is a legacy that I have to keep.

He hoped that I could be better than him.."

"Owh, like a prayer.. But I've read the meaning is beautiful, like the colorful tail... It symbolizes water, soil and metal elements.. Anyway, that balance.. " I answered.

"Really! Less is more... " Answer the man.

"Jimmy, your woman is smart. Did you get it easily? Not like the girl you brought here... " Say the woman next to the tattooed man.

"Here you go, he talks too much. Forgetit. Consider this woman slacking. Just ignore what he said.. " Said Jimmy.

"No... No. gabe.... L'm... I feel this woman is smart.. Worth being with you.. " Say another man there.

"Lou.. Please, I want to take a moment. Don't talk about it, not necessarily he'll bring me here again... " Said Jimmy.

"Why not? You guys fit in... This girl is pretty sweet.. " Say the man called Lou.

"Don't tease me, he just happens to bring me here. Not what you think... " Said Jimmy.

I was shocked to hear Jimmy's words.

It seems that he is not serious about being with him.

I'm pretty cool with Jimmy's friend's response. I can talk to them, even they praise me. The first time people looked at me was not physical.

They even praised me.

The guy who brought me here thinks I'm bragging or mocking. He doesn't value me like his friends.

Ah, it might be true... They just feel bad so they say so.

Remember Cathrine! They are rich people.

You are not at their level. You just happen to be among them.

If Jimmy hadn't brought you, they wouldn't have seen and spoken to you either. Remember Cathrine! You must be aware!!

"I went to the bathroom for a second... " I said, and Jimmy was just patting.

He was busy talking to his other friends. I stood up and walked away from Jimmy.

I went into the toilet. I wash my hands, I want to calm my heart.

Heard he didn't stand up for me or praise me.. Why make me sick...

I looked in the mirror, I blinked a few times. I did so that my tears wouldn't come out.

I also breathed a few times. I became sensitive to what had just happened.

I was just his friend. Friends in his apartment, so it's true that Jimmy said so.

I shouldn't have brought feelings or offence to Jimmy. I manage my emotions, so I can get out of the bathroom.

I walked out, I saw from far away they were talking. I could even see Jimmy laughing and joking.

It's true, I shouldn't be here. Jimmy and his friends, it's a long way to go to be worth it and sit down to talk casually.

I try to go back and walk there. But, I can hear from here, a little bit of what they discussed.

"Oh so that woman was dating last night? You should not respond to it... " Say the woman next to the tattooed man.

"But, if I think. The woman fits. Fitting with you, she's a smart woman and... " Say the tattooed man.

"Not pretty. Not sexy, not from above... " Said Jimmy.

I was shocked to hear Jimmy say. What does it mean to say that..?

"Hey.... Don't do that, remember me? Fukuda lifted me up and my life. That's why I'm still with him, I was that bad when I first met Fukuda... " Say the tattooed man.

"Yes, don't be. This woman is quite beautiful, if taken care of a little... " Say the tattooed man.

"We'll change the topic.. What about the land you told me about yesterday?" Jimmy.

the words, none of them make me comfortable. It felt down and sad, I turned my body. I choose to stay away from them.

the circle of friends that I don't deserve to have. They're with their world, I'm just disturbing is there.

I saw a deserted bar table. I walked there and sat on the last seat.

I pulled up my chair and sat there, daydreaming at the table, my eyes empty, like bad news.

I don't know if it's ruined my mood.

why sad, huh? though what Jimmy said was a fact.I am a sensitive loser.I have a stupid take on the feeling of what Jimmy did a while ago.

"Kok not join?" Adit.

"Engga, I'm glad to sit here. Lonely, no noisy music and people talking... " I answered.

"Beyond? But the face and expression could not lie.lo it looks sad..Is there a problem?"

"..... " I didn't answer.

Between lazy and too personal if I answer. After all Adit is a bartender who is quite close to all guests.

he would have understood without me telling a story.

"Gw understands your position... Lo dateng here, same established man with a very bright future.. Where the group in his circle is that guy...

guess what, you're not in that circle. It can be below or above. but if from the expression lo. kaya we are from the same circle..." Adit.

I just glanced at him a little. I tried to hear it without answering.

I want to hear what he thinks of me.

"Gw has often met women models rich lo.. Dateng as a date who ended up in a chair here.The man was busy joking and talking with his friends.

and come back to pick up the woman.when she's coming home.yes that's the cycle..."

"Why? What about their fate?" I asked.

"Nobody came back more than 2x.. Their relationship will be finished. Yes back again, the woman can not follow the want of men and his friends..

Too far away and they are also unlikely to get married together. Living together is okay, but.no one of them until merit." said Adit.

"Wedding? I don't think I. A lot of things are still the focus.." I tried to cover up my childhood dreams.

"Don't do that, most girls here are already at the level of hoping for a rich fairy tale wedding. Especially the rich and poor..

That's a big splash, make every girl dream that way...

if you do not think until marriage.yes I salute sama lo...give a plause Gw..." Said Adit while clapping.

"Hm.... I just realized, I'd better not talk much with Jimmy and the gank... Misdrew... So I'm afraid of facts and richly shocked just as ready, uh not aware of the same reality.. " Answer.

"hmm.. okay... Jimmy was different.I'm sure, he did not carelessly introduce you to the friends...

I wish I could squirm lo dateng again the same Jimmy.engga stop just 2x here continue to disappear.... "

"gw really hope, I also just a few days with Jimmy. After this I will return to reality...

so did Jimmy." I said.

after this, I returned to my original life as a waitress, assistant to the artist and hostess who had to share it with Jessy.

I had enough sleep. had enough time fantasized. I had to save and work, a burden that I carried heavy...