THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

45

I'm sitting on Jimmy's couch. I saw him busy with tools like scanners and laptops.

"Hon, can I grow your id..?" Jimmy said slowly.

I didn't hear clearly. I took the remote control and turned down the volume of the tv.

"What did you say Jim? I I ain't a denger..." I replied in a rather loud voice.

"No, your id or your resident card. Can I borrow it?" Jimmy confirmed his call to Cathrine

I got up from the couch, walked towards my handbag. I took my wallet and took the ID card.

Then I walked over to Jimmy. I put it next to Jimmy.

"Thank You's... " Said jimmy.

I just nodded and sat back on the sofa. I took my new phone.

I opened a browser and searched for information about the lecture. Apparently, by August, there will be new student admissions tomorrow.

Then I looked at Jimmy, he looked busy himself. But I tried to get close to him.

My right hand holds Jimmy's shoulder. He immediately looked towards me.

"What's up...? You are bored.. Wait a minute after this email is sent we walk... " Jimmy said softly.

I gulped my saliva, I.... I feel Jimmy is so sweet. Maddened.. I've gone mad...

am I too lustful for Jimmy? or am I falling in love with Jimmy?

I was stunned to see his face calmly for the first time.

I must be conscious! Cathrine, don't be stupid!

I immediately broke my daydream.

"Gini.. I saw the month of student admissions... It's still 5 months from now... What majors did I enter? I don't want to go to college architect again.it's too long and expensive for me...." I answered.

Jimmy nodded his head, then he grabbed my waist.

He pulled me to sit on his lap.

"I think, what do you want? Business business. Economics, psychology or medicine?" Jimmy said well.

Oh my God, I can't focus on answering. I didn't even blink looking at Jimmy.

I can't even hear my own heartbeat....

I'm sure my face must be red.

"Caths... If you don't answer, I won't know...." Jimmy looked at Sendu.

"Jim... You are so sweet of his face.... " I said reflex with a stupid face.

"Hey..kamu why?" Jimmy flicked his palms in front of my face.

"Eh sorry.... I mean, not medicine either.. It is easy to find a job and not difficult to find a college... I'm not good at Jimmy's lessons.... " I answered gently.

"i think you can just get into the economy. Later the explanation, you want what we think again... What is clear is that the economy can easily get a job...

about the cost, forget it. It's my responsibility..." Jimmy said by stroking my back.

she defended me gently, so I remembered how my father treated me with his affection and strokes when I was a child.

jimmy's warm touch brings me to childhood memories. Papa took more care of us, when I was sick he just accompanied me to sleep.

"why are you giniin me?" I pointed at Jimmy's hand.

"either, this is the automation I did. I'm sorry if you don't like it. "it stopped his hand immediately.

"it reminds me of papa.he always caresses my shoulder if I feel sad...Thanks Jimmy. "I smiled too.

jimmy hugged me, he hugged me tight. Warmth is like being with family. Does coming into contact with the opposite sex like this feel like it?

I'm not 20 yet, I know if he did this to all the girls or just me.

"i promise, not happy always.but I try my best for us.When I'm going to go later, I'll pick you up.." said Jimmy.

"gm.... Jimmy.... Why are you saying that?" I asked - tanya.

"it's okay what Cathrine.." Jimmy's been calling me tight.

**********

Stacy walked into Yofie's room. He brought bread to Yofie. A toast tart with the words Happy Birthday, My Future..

Stacy smiled sweetly, she stood behind Yofie. He hoped that the man in front of him would be happy and give a kiss on his forehead.

Yofie was even busy reading messages between herself and Cathrine.The last message today that Cathrine replied to.

Stacy saw it and read it. It made her sad, but she was more restrained in front of Yofie.

"Happy Birthday Mr. Yofiee.... " Stacy spoke.

Yofie just glanced at him, then sighed. He put the phone down and flipped over, facing Stacy.

"Thank you Stac, you remember my birthday... " Answer Yofie.

"Sure.. We're getting married, I'm gonna try to get you to accept me...." Stacy held back her emotions.

"We may be married, but I will never fill your name in my heart. Even we can't be together, if it's not because you want to kill yourself...." Yofie voiced out heavily.

"........ " Stacy was silent and held back her emotions.

"We both know, we're still cousins. How risky are we to get married.. We were always together from childhood.... It's hard for me, Stac, to change feelings... " Yofie looked at Stacy.

"But why are you after Cathrine?" Ask Stacy.

"Because he's who he is.. Not beautiful, far beautiful you.... Your family is well-groomed, even though we're still distant cousins... But, this little matchmaking of yours shouldn't have happened Stac....."

Stacy couldn't hold back her emotions. He put bread on the table.

"Gw go first.... " Stacy left Yofie alone.

Yofie only sees her leaving, and then Yofie sees the cake that Stacy brought.

"Sorry Stacy, I haven't been able to turn feelings for my sister into love... " Say Yofie himself.

Stacy drives her own red sedan. It revolves around the residential area.

Alone accompanied by a sad song from the radio. His heart was broken because of the rejection that Yofie always did.

"What's wrong if I want to have the same life? I love you the same... Even if you ask for love..... " Stacy speaks for herself.

Her tears began to pour down her beautiful face. Right, her face is indeed very pretty.

"Lo promise when we were little. Wedding play and doll alike. Lo said you'd be my husband... Yofie... Why are you evil! It's up to you to sleep with all the women.... You go back to Gw..... Yoffer.... "

Stacy cried as she pleased, she felt marriage was only one step away. But the bride-to-be didn't care about her at all.

His fault was the matchmaking of the little. Yofie only thinks of Stacy as his own sister..

For Stacy who is used to being together. He felt very dependent on Yofie.

Love is hard, sometimes we feel we can make them happy. But the more we bind, the more they hate us.

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I saw the view from the car window. I'm bored of going to the mall again.

"Where'd Cath go?" Ask Jimmy.

"Where do not go to the Mall anymore. I'm tired of us always going to the mall... " I answered lazily.

"Wanna go to the museum? The beach? Or to an amusement park?" Jimmy also hugged.

"Hmmm..... To which tourist area.... What if we go to the museum? To the place that people used to photograph... Icon city.. " I gave you an idea.

"All right.... Let's walk... " Jimmy drove the car.

He turned towards the city center. He parked the car at the old station.

I got out of the car, I was stunned to see the sight before me. I took a cell phone and immortalized it.

Jimmy saw me, he took his digital camera. Then he approached me.

Jimmy took my hand, "let's go on Cathrine.... "

I nodded, we began our journey. Tracing the streets of the past.

Beautiful and beautiful building in front of me. Jimmy was silent - quietly taking my picture.

Up to one spot, he fell silent with his camera. She felt Cathrine resemble Mira as she approached the flowers in the garden.

The first woman to make Jimmy fall in love. But, he immediately realized that the woman in front of him was not Mira.

"Want us to help you with the photo?" Someone's approaching Jimmy.

"Byeah, I've made it automatic. You just push this button." Jimmy gave me the camera.

Jimmy came up to me, he stood next to me. The man also took our picture.

"Look off the picture, the girl in the hug dong Mas.. The friendly... " Say that guy.

"What's like this?" Jimmy hugged my waist from behind.

I also try to relax and take more pictures. I grabbed Jimmy's hand.

"Hold... Just sec... Yes.... " Say that guy.

"Have you? I'm tired of holding back a smile... " I said.

"Here you... " The guy turned Jimmy's camera back on.

I approached and looked with Jimmy. I don't know why it feels so happy.

"You fit, I hope you're a match... Excuse me, see you.. " The man left us.

"Thank you.... " Said Jimmy.

I kept watching the guy. What he said, why make me feel a little happy.

"You wanna sit in the cafe? Drink and eat a little cake... " Jimmy said as he pulled my hand.

"Good... " I'm according to Jimmy.

We walked towards the back. Near our parking lot is a fairly old cafe.

We also entered the cafe. Many other citizens were there.

Jimmy chose to sit next to the window. I followed him sitting in front of him.

"What message do you want?" Ask the young man's maid with curly hair.

"Capucinno warm and chilled chocolate... Cake of the day, I saw that red venti. I want 1 and apple pie... " Jimmy answered.

"Well, wait a minute... " The waiter left us.

"You come here often? Looks like you've already memorized the menu..... " I said.

"Yes, I come here often... Long ago.... Same place with different people.... " Said Jimmy.

I heard it, I guess. What he meant was a woman from his past.

Should I be angry? But I'm not his girlfriend, either. Why am I angry.

I sighed and looked at the scene outside.

"You mad?" Ask Jimmy.

"I was uncomfortable. You mentioned that part of the past, but I thought.... Make what angry? Not my business and my rights.... " I answered ketus.

"You know, how broken I was when I lost him?" Jimmy says.

I turned my eyes to him. The waiter came and placed our order.

I nodded my head as a code to the waiter. Where I thank you.

"She's the woman I knew when I was a newcomer here. Women are independent and have strong principles.... The woman who also chose to end her life..... " Jimmy's gaze drifted far away.

I can't say anything. I wonder how and what their relationship is like.

Basic female instinct, I've always wanted to know. It hurt me in the end too.

"He's a woman from the village, the son of a farmer... She came here after giving birth. Become an adult film artist like your best friend.... "

I'm surprised to hear, means all this time Jessy?

He said he got a movie for a big fee.. From a movie like that?

"But the closer we get.... I know the other side of him. Good and innocent women...... I loved him.. Very deep.... I even dared to take him to meet my family... "

"Then??" I turned closer to Jimmy. Yes I'm curious!

"It's clear my parents won't agree... They have high standards about their child's soul mate.... This cafe is one of the places we often go.

Sorry, I pointed the camera at you... It was like I saw that woman. Your smile and style are almost the same... It reminded me of Mira.... " Jimmy told me.

The style is very deep storytelling. Like something that he had been longing for, he was able to take it out eventually as well.

I also know the name of the woman. I was a little upset, when he likened myself to Mira.

"So you're with me because of that woman? Because of the resemblance or because of the innocence of our girl from the village?" My tone changed.

"Why are you talking about that? I really want to be with you... " Jimmy answered.

"Think, if you think.. I can be likened to your Mira..... "

I continued my sentence.

"You're different Cathrine... What what's with you? What's wrong?" Jimmy scrunched his forehead.

"Hmmm... " I close my mouth and choose to look out the window.

"You are not the same Cath... I realized and I was just telling stories. I thought you'd understand what my loss was like... And the reason I won't be able to give you marriage in our relationship.... "

I looked at Jimmy. Can he talk about marriage? This relationship alone is unclear what..

"Wedding? It's not that we're not going to get to that level. Our relationship will be like this.... " I'm making it clear.

My heart hurts, it hurts so much with the rules Jimmy made. I thought I wanted to reply, but my mouth was completely silent.

"Yes, we're not going to get to that level.... " Jimmy replied with annoyance.

We looked at each other, trying to regulate our emotions.

"Continue what you want to say... I am too carrying feelings... It is a risk for women from villages like me, especially I have never been close to men so far..... "

"What's? So you like me? i'm...." Jimmy brought his face closer to me.

"I don't know, I just feel comfortable with you... I'll stop Jim, I'll limit myself.... I'll get my feelings.. Because we have to have the same feeling....

To not like each other more than now....."

I feel like running. I want to leave this place, I want to be alone and cry.

am I able to regulate my heart and my feelings. lest I like Jimmy much. I must realize, the basic nature of men is domination and selfish.

he feels he owns me completely, but the opposite for me, fair? i-i don't know....