THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

31

"sure.everything in here you use.including me.... " Jimmy's bragging in front of me.

"cih... you are too confident.. oh yes, next week I want to go home. mumpung I abis dapet fortune..."

"don't!" Apparently Jimmy was shocked and did not like my answer.

"you mean?? why is your reaction so overreacting.." I was shocked to hear Jimmy's reaction.

shouldn't he be happy? I went to the place he was tracking was easy, not to go into another man's arms.

"beginning of next month.3 more weeks, while waiting.... " Jimmy tried to arrest me..

I was thinking, indeed if I go back now, surely the house people will be suspicious.Where do I get all this.

there was a mission, too, I had to ask Anne about Jimmy, how they could be cousins, and how this man was, before I decided to stay with him.

"because at that time I will go abroad for a while.. So we do not need to meet. For me it does not matter, you also go to see your family?" Jimmy made me an offer.

"........ how about if I stay here every Friday - Monday morning. agree? more than that I go to the kost. I can work at the stall and, I don't want my friend to suspect me where anyway.." I replied.

"ah. never tease the little guy at the hostel. You may come back but not for that guy." Jimmy doesn't like Yofie.

"sister Yofie?" i'm saying.

"sister? why can you call like that? you guys have more relationships than tenants and owners? a call I don't think is common...." Jimmy said in a high tone.

until I realized, he was jealous?

but too soon I've come to a conclusion about him. There's a lot I don't understand about Jimmy.

"Yofie ? he's older than I am. Wouldn't it be more polite to call Brother?" I defended myself for what happened.

"sister? then you are friends, friends or just tenants and homeowners? because from the first I saw, he seemed to like you." Jimmy turned cynical.

"........ " until here I kept quiet. I can't answer what happened.

because there is nothing between us, but what relationship? it is not love either.

liked it? I've been traumatized by my story with Michael. Let myself be with my circumstances, focusing only on my sister's future.

getting married or not is not my goal right now.

"you can't even answer, right? there's obviously something between you.... " Jimmy stood up.

he walked towards the refrigerator, he picked up a soda and opened it.

if I don't see it wrong, the color of the can is green with a snow motif there, he then flips his body and looks at me.

but his gaze was sharp and looked cynical.

"stop thronging me like that.. Did I do anything? what wrong?" I looked at Jimmy.

He shook his head and drank back what was in his hands.

His gaze did not change for a second. Here I have to say what.

that look was even like he wanted to pounce on me. It really wasn't a warm look.

"If I talk all about Yofie, will you be happy? So you can deduce for yourself how we. I don't know what a date is, best friend in your eyes...." I said if there was any.

I try to be honest with the situation. I hope he will understand and stop intimidating me.

I wish Jimmy would listen to me and stop doing that.

"Speak..... " Jimmy said. But he remained in his standing position by leaning on the pantry table.

"So our first introduction.... I was only 2 weeks old. And I also just saw him come with his white sport bike.....I was locked on the porch because I forgot to bring the keys.

Jessy as a roommate, left without telling. I was home filming at 11pm...."

Jimmy glared at me, I tried to organize my sentence. I also spoke honestly to him.

"Then he said hello introducing himself as... "

"As a hero of the night?" Jimmy cut.

"Not... Wasn't.... She introduces herself to Yofie, the son of the hostess. That was the first time we met. But, he was also rarely in the boarding house. If he says it works to make computer programs. That's it, we only met occasionally, we also recently exchanged numbers because of dinner arrangements...."

"Certainly? where's dinner? When and why did you call him, brother Yofie?" Jimmy said with his hand quoting the word "brother".

" Uhmm.eat where I forgot, if not wrong time we watch and eat in the mall.....When yes? He asked to call brother. So I thought yes, he is good, older too.It would be polite too if I called him, Brother....He often shows up when I'm back at work. Keep eating, buy breakfast... Just like I met you....."

"What?! unbelievable.." Jimmy was upset and drank all the ashes that were still in the can.

"..... " I mentioned, did I do something wrong? I'm just being honest about what happened.

"alright, you can praise the man. Do you have feelings for him?" Jimmy said while crossing his arms.

"No... I guess not.... It's just, actually... Um.... I was amazed by him or how.... He's a good man to me, caring when all my opposite sex say I'm ugly, short and curly-haired.... He never talks about my physique.....

Actually was....

It made me feel no need to defend myself or feel low.

I myself find it difficult to describe, whether I owe you or not..."

Jimmy walked up to me, then he sat down next to me. It felt like the couch was cramped and my breath was a little heavy as Jimmy approached like this.

"I don't know what love is? I also never feel like I have meaning or struggle in a relationship......

Maybe I'm kuper. Plain or stupid.

But, my High School period I didn't go through very well.... Makes me less (shy) about my opposite sex.it also makes me limit myself to love relationships....."

Jimmy listened to me, he let me tell him everything, but this time he was calmer.

"I was dating at the time.Our relationship went through in secret.I dated a popular guy at my school.believe? He only contacted me at certain times.backstreet may be popular people say about our relationship....

While at school we were silent to each other, even we covered what was there. I just looked at him playing basketball on the court..

I smiled as he looked at me once in a while, and even I kept quiet taking pictures of him playing basketball......

Believe it or not? It made me happy, I thought I went to school with great strength... I even brought my heart and mind to that guy....

every time I get a message from her, I smile to myself...." I started to hold back my tears.

I tried to tell her my pain. It is better to say it than to hear it from others.

"One, two, three months under such circumstances. Just behind our mutual communication, such a thing has made me happy...

I think he feels the same way about me. But I was wrong.....He said love to one of his classmates. In front of everyone at the time...

when he returned with the medal, he presented it to another woman...

destroyed, sick, I was left behind..." I bow my head.

it hurts to remember everything.how he was in each of my prayers I always mention.Every day I wait for news.

diverting my mind and my world, getting me drunk on seduction sentences through short messages.

"Have you?" Jimmy.

I reflexively raised my head and looked at Jimmy. I didn't think he sympathized with my story.

"Why look at me like that?" Ask Jimmy.

"Are you seriously not sad about my story? Jessy was crying, and Michael did just that... " I still can't believe what I saw"

"Why should I be sad? ah his name is Michael, pretty good.." Jimmy still asks.

I can't believe Jimmy doesn't feel pity at all. he looks even more calm than my story about Yofie.

"Yes sad dong, I did it... Why the hell aren't you crying. Sympathetic expression also does not exist. Let me be a little bit like that.....Don't - don't be a psychopath anymore... "

I retreated a little from my sitting position.

"Do you know what psychopaths mean? Don't just call me that. I can make you unable to walk and stay in this room all day if you want to know. What is a psychopath.. " Jimmy said with a cold look.

Actually I'm scared, it's so scary. Is he serious about what he says...

I imagined myself being tortured by him. Locked in this room...

"Here you go, don't think weird about it. What you told me was part of your time. And your beloved thing, you are the fool! A man hides his relationship. There must have been another woman in her life.

Never mind, you should be thanking me.

Thanks to him, you can meet me...." Jimmy said while bragging himself.

"..... " I just shut up and put my lips together.

I'm upset, he doesn't feel sorry for me. I usually get the attention of my story

"You want me to feel sad or pay attention to you? With such a story....Never mind, what are you.. Still a sad thing.. Thank you for being with me now.... Ah....

I'm more interested in what Yofie knows about this story.?"

"Look..... I told you about our dinner... " I answered.

"What?!! How do you react!" Jimmy changed immediately.

"Sante aja kalik. Do not need to date so, until glaring at everything... " I answered Jimmy.

"Yes he said you were rich. It doesn't matter in the inget, the monkey's love. I love him the monkey.. .. "

"Continue.. " Jimmy was curious about Yofie.

How close we were and how he treated me.

"Yes he really wants to hug me time huh. Let me not be sad, but we are in a public place. It's not possible and he will be too. He's a good guy - fine... " I unconsciously praised Yofie.

actually I was a little curious about Jimmy's reaction.what if I heated him up with what Yofie did.

Jimmy pulled my left wrist. It pulls hard.

"Sick Jimmy.... Lepass... Did I say it wrong?" I tried to pull my hand back.

"You said he was a good guy? I keep on doing good." Apparently my words provoked Jimmy's emotions.

"Not.... Not Jimmy, you're good... Very good to me from... "

Jimmy pulled my body, he clenched and kissed my lips. Both of my eyes closed, as I let in and enjoyed the touch and embrace of this man.

Jimmy let me go, and then he looked at me. When I opened my eyes, he looked handsome and dominated this complicated relationship.

"Please, don't go near Yofie. I'll try to get you here. But don't go back to the hostel, don't meet Yofie. Stay here with me... We live together and shape your future... " Say Jimmy softly.

His hands caressed my hair and shoulders. How can this man take care of me so much.?

"........If we're together here, I don't know what to say to the family in the village. We're just without a bond.... " Answer.

"For me, I cannot marry you right now. There's a big obstacle and let us get to know each other. And so is your future..... I don't want you to fall for the wrong guy.."

words - he said make me pound. it feels warm and my heart feels flowering. This is seduction is not it?

I still can't tell when men seduce me, but Jimmy's gaze is so sincere.

"have you never been treated like this?" ask Jimmy.

I just nodded, let me be innocent but he was the first to touch me. Actually in my heart there is a sense I want to be nearby.

I was comfortable around Jimmy, too, but I didn't feel like it was supposed to be.

The words Jimmy couldn't marry me. Then why did he do it last night. I'm sad to hear it, I feel contempt.

especially if one day he leaves me.

"you think of something?" ask Jimmy.

"If we don't get married, will any man accept me. With my current state?" I asked.

"Yahuahaaha... Are you an innocent?" Jimmy laughed at my words.

"Is something wrong?" My face is red with shame.

"At this time, I have never understood a woman who is still holy. But, I know one thing.you're expensive and you're that.... Just don't be with Yofie and I don't want to hear or see you with him." Jimmy says.

"Yes...... " I answered with a head motion too.

"at the core.we are together and you are setting the future yes." said Jimmy warmly.

his words made me feel comfortable.true or this is a mere seduction.I can't distinguish, which is clear I feel at peace near Jimmy.

"I understand women in this era would prefer to be a mistress or look for rich men. But I believe you are different.... " Said Jimmy.

Actually I could think so. But, I was afraid if the money I received was easy. It will go easily.