THE WAY YOU LOVE ME
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I lay down while changing the TV channel. Jimmy's busy with work at the table beside me.
Sometimes he looks at me, I can feel it. But, I became lazy looking at Jimmy.
He approached me shortly, then he kissed me on the forehead. I was shocked by what he did.
"Shocked?"
"Yes.... " I answered by gawking.
Then Jimmy caught me lying down, he hugged me warmly. I can even feel Jimmy's breath.
I'm getting addicted to Jimmy's breath. I hope this is normal as a woman.
"I'm happy at the moment, hopefully like this always.... I promise when all is well and goes according to my plan... You'll take me home... " Jimmy whispered softly.
I just nodded, our journey was long. College and work I need to finish.
equalize the position and distance between us. slowly remove mass pain between us.
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I fell asleep in Jimmy's arms when I opened my eyes, he was sitting at the desk again.
I saw the clock from the phone, it's still 6:30 in the morning. Then I stood up and walked over to Jimmy.
He looks focused on his laptop screen. Then I kissed him back on the forehead.the thing he did to me earlier.
"Awake? What sounds does the keyboard bother? sorry yeah.." Ask Jimmy gently.
"No.... Really, I just want to get up in the morning.... What the hell do you think you're doing?"
The laptop screen contains English. At first glance I see like a work contract.
"This, a logistical cooperation offer. I was reading and learning everything... "
"owh. I don't understand, but teach me yes, so that later I won't be fooled by my business opponents... "
"obviously, whatever it is, we have to be careful, but failure makes you rise... " Jimmy caressed my cheek.
I haven't experienced that yet, I don't understand what Jimmy means . I'd rather stay away from Jimmy, give him time to finish the job.
"i took a shower, Jimmy... "
"this is a word of invitation? or notice?" jimmy teases.
"announcement." my voice from the bathroom.
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"So where's your show? Can we walk?" Jimmy asked on the way.
"Come, I feel sorry for Ghea... He certainly hasn't eaten... I don't know if you can go home today.... " I answered with a face.
The fresh morning air, the view of the street crowds without the word stuck. That's why I love this city.
"Cathrine, tomorrow I'm leaving.. I bought a ticket home for you. Friday you're back at night. Later Mr. Teddy will pick you up at the airport.. "
"Wait.wait a minute..... What's friday?" I corrected what I heard.
"Yes friday... We'll see you Friday night.. " Jimmy convinced me what he said.
"Goss... I'm just here, Jimmy... How could I come back so soon? Can I just ask for it next week?"
"No.... " Jimmy answered flatly.
"Please Jimmy, I'm not naughty here.. I still miss papa and Ghea... " My face is clear.
But, for Jimmy, it was enough for him. He gave a leeway and accompanied Cathrine home and even financed all the operations of the Cathrine family.
All he wanted was for Cathrine to be by his side.
Jimmy pulled the car over. He breathed heavily. Then he looked at Cathrine...
The look of the two women's eyes made her melt...
"Well, next week you can go home again... But tomorrow don't forget to come back... Saturday we have an appointment to see a gynecologist... " Jimmy said as he stroked Cathrine's hair.
"Our obstetrician? Do what? I'm not pregnant, I'm rich to come to the moon... " I answered plainly.
"You must complete your education. At most 3 - 4 years, I want you to use an injection or pregnancy control pill.... And for me, I'm more comfortable deciding which doctor is best for you..... "
My emotions instantly changed, at first I was happy to hear the word obstetrician. For a woman, pregnancy is happiness after marriage.. The two are interconnected in the emotions of a teenage girl who is still searching for her identity.
"So you don't want me to get pregnant?" I asked.
"Not for now, think about your future... If I just indulge in lust, I won't think ahead for you... Even being responsible for your life is Cathrine.... "
"Brati you love me?" I asked again.
Silly and innocent questions that are immediately spoken. Stupid me ..
"Hm..... Consider it so... Let's go again... "
The car drove back, I felt confused by how I felt. I actually held a smile on my face. I'm ashamed to show it in front of Jimmy.
We also just learned to date and live together.
The problem in my heart is about immorality and religion. We are not husband and wife but we have come so far.
I also need to know who I am with. Established asian and middle eastern Blesteran men.
How was his life, his family just made me ask.
This fairy tale? But it was real when he touched me. When he kissed my forehead.
"Calm down, cathrine... You will grow up and understand in time.... " Said Jimmy.
I looked at him and smiled. The basin on my cheek came out and it pulled Jimmy to caress him.
"You are sweet Cathrine.... My girl... " Said Jimmy.
is this actually a seduction or not? I myself could not tell the difference, which he clearly said sincerely.
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"Sister..... Brother Jimmy, you guys haven't come home yet?" Ghea greeted us.
"Dec, you're here.. Papa why ? What's the matter with Papa?" I panicked to see Ghea.
He waited at the door of the operating room alone. Neither did Ghea tell me what was going on.
"Father of the operation, thanks to brother Jimmy. We could have papa's heart surgery... I hope it's good, brother.oh yes, brother Jimmy thank you very much.. " Ghea lowered her head a few times.
he was very grateful to Jimmy.
"Already Ghea.. Don't do that, oh yes I went there first.. There's an urgent call... " Jimmy left us.
Ghea pulled me to sit next to her. Then he hugged me. I could feel a burden he shouldn't have to bear at his age.
"Sister... Whatever happens big brother will be there for Ghea yeah... Don't stay in Ghea... Ghea was afraid of being alone, sister.let alone mama went sister, Ghea just had papa and sister... " Ghea whispered to me.
I pat her on the shoulder, it can calm her a little. The spoiled child who always acted as if he was stronger than me.
"Yes deck... Ghea will always be a sister.... Papa will also be there for us deck, we must be strong for papa's sake... Don't let this run out papa sad, let papa cepet recover.the woman must be strong Ghea.inget yes..."
Ghea let go of her embrace, and I wiped away the tears on her cheeks.
"Papa said, I should treat Brother Jimmy like my own brother.think of training as brother-in-law said papa... Is sister getting married? or is sister dating Jimmy's sister? " Ghea was bitter.
"I just have a sister... If my sister is already someone's wife. Me and Papa, who's going to accompany you?"
"Sir.engga will something change.. You are both sure to be with your brother someday.. Now you are studying in High School.. My sister is also in college.. Later if brother has worked and got a house, we stay again together... "
Ghea hugged me, she leaned her head against my chest. This was seen by Jimmy. He smiled to see me treat Ghea well.
Not long after the operating room was opened. Papa was pushed out of the operating room.
They took Papa to another room. Where we still can't meet. We just saw it from the glass of the room.
The tool beside papa recites papa's state. Everything looks good - all right.
The nurse came out of the room. Jimmy approached the aged nurse.
"Sus.. Hows it? Is there a problem?" Jimmy asked.
"Family Mr Thomson? Wait a minute, yes. If the situation is good, move to the treatment room.. " The nurse just passed.
Apparently we still have to wait until papa's condition improves. The doctor who handled it I didn't see it. Are there any people in the operating room?
I still faithfully sat with Ghea in front of the room. The doctor I was waiting for was not seen either.
The clock on my phone shows at 12 p.m. I don't think Ghea has eaten anything yet, I'm looking for Jimmy as well as invisible him. Where the hell's he going?
I took my phone and called Jimmy. Wired..... Tone rings .. There's no answer...
"grandfather, Jimmy doesn't know where.. Let's eat yuk first. It's 12 o'clock in the afternoon, papa we'll stay a little while. We're still in this area..."
"Yes, my sister, Ghea Laper wanted to eat in the cafeteria yesterday.. "
We also went down to the canteen. I'm looking for where Jimmy is. I'm worried about where he really is.
We also had lunch in the cafeteria. Ghea also bought some cakes and food for the room.
Seeing her eat so well has made me happy. I forgot my mom for a moment.
How he left us without a message...
Cring.... Cring.... (My phone reads).
"Hallo... Jimmy... You where?"
"Yes kangen?"
"Isa... Now, where are you? I'm eating with Ghea. Want to nitip or follow?"
"You need to eat first. I'm waiting for papa...Yea... "
Call at Jimmy's break...
But, it feels so good. I heard her voice has restored my mood.
We soon returned to the room. I saw Jimmy waiting while holding the tablet in his hand.
"Sister Jimmy, have you eaten?" Ghea says hello.
"Not Ghea.. Later, my sister ate a lot of breakfast... " Answer Jimmy.
Ghea sat among us. Jimmy would occasionally steal a glance at me..
My face turned red. I tried to hold back the laughter on my face.I was embarrassed to see Jimmy steal a glance at me.
"Your brother's face is red? " Task Jimmy.
Ghea glanced at me. "Yes, you're embarrassed?"
"Huh what the fuck.. Don't get used to ajahh!" I turned my eyes the other way.
"Ghea.. Your brother is shy?" ask Jimmy.
"That's also rich.. He's never been so wrong.. What I wanted was that big brother every dapet Sms from Michael... " Ghea keceplosan said Michael.
"Who? Micael's? Michael?" Jimmy asked.
"Yes, that's my ex-sister. But strange to know, dating is just sms aja.. I met Diem, never played at home... "
"Dec... What the hell!?" I'm upset that Ghea has to talk about it.
"Certainly? Whose big brother?" Jimmy even intensely talked to Ghea.
"You guys are different.. He's a bastard's son. Ride a motor sport, if you are an adult already working...
The face.... Uhm... He's an oriental... Sister is rather rich bule..... Different right?"
Jimmy changed, his glances sharply looking at me.
"Then? What else?" Jimmy asked again.
"Big brother in broken up. It's backstreet status.. It's the same model in school... Kasian deh, the model just won skinny just as can be groomed anyway than brother... " Ghea answered.
"You know that deck? Cathrine like this is interesting for sister. How can I putusi ga in admit all his status.as complicated as it is during High School?" Jimmy said with a little laugh.
"Yes! Obviously he knows. We went to school in the same foundation from Kindergarten until Vocational. High School was complicated and beautiful for me. But, don't discuss that person anymore. "I answered tightly.
"You mad?" ask Jimmy.
"...... " I still threw my eyes in the other direction.
"Sister... I go to the toilet first.. " Ghea left us.
Jimmy immediately sat down next to me. Then he tried to get close to my face.
"Don't get mad.. I was just curious.... "
I'm silent not answering Jimmy.
"Do you hate that deep into Michael? Then you're actually in love with her, aren't you?" Jimmy curious.
As a guy I think is weird, he's curious about the ex. Men usually don't care about the past.
"Why do you care? Not that, for ex-boys, it's the part that must be thrown away. "
"Depending on whether you want to throw it away or not... I was just wondering how to make you love me... "
I looked at Jimmy. I looked at it firmly. Whatdoes thatmean?
"What's? You took the wrong medication?" I asked.
"No... If you've ever been so deep into that guy. I'll make sure you fall over and you won't get away from me..." Answer Jimmy.
"You're possessive, aren't you?"
"Very. I don't like it when you think of other men. Especially until the guy shows up. I'm not gonna like it... " Answer replied firmly.
"Certainly? I can and can be jealous too. Salima. Jessie. And another woman... "
"Make what? You are the one beside me. Only you live in my apartment, ride in a car with me, sleep and chat with me..." Jimmy replied.
His words immediately shut my mouth.
Everything's true..
I was with him, but that part of the past made me feel insecure about my position...
Even today, I still feel scared. One day I'm gonna lose Jimmy.
