THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

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"Continue! Can I just feel sad? Must be smiling at the same time as you?!" I speak loudly.

"Yes! Because it's on our deal! To not bring personal problems in our relationship." Jimmy replied loudly.

"Oh.. What then? What's all this time? You forget that we are too far into our personal affairs!"

"You....." Then Jimmy was quiet.

"you don't understand Jimmy! I'm that shit! always shit! I don't know about love, about being born from a woman like what! understand!" I'm avenging Jimmy.

He gave up again on my nature. I just want him to sympathize a little bit with me. Not blaming me or getting angry.

We also stopped at the apartment parking area. Jimmy still started the engine and locked the door.

"That's it. I don't want to make a fuss. Now tell me what you want." Jimmy opened.

"....... "

I kept quiet, I was honestly scared and embarrassed to admit that I was jealous.

"Cathrine... " Jimmy called out softly.

"..... " I'm still silently pensive.

"Chatrine!" Jimmy's voice was high.

"I'm jealous!! You don't know, do you? What I have experienced in the past. How people treat me. What kind of opponent treats me like?!" I answered in a high voice.

"..... " Jimmy's eyes glared. His teeth gritted, visible from his firm jaw.

"How I used to be in high school, I was left behind by a cool guy. For the sake of the beautiful girl Cheers' son! How my physique is ugly. Today I have to accept the fact, that kind of woman who gave birth to me. went into the arms of her first love! even for a second I was not in your heart or mind...I just accompany your days! No more...... " I said while shaking withstanding emotions.

"Hm... The Cathrine... I don't think you can.... "

"Who can replace Mira, can't be in your heart, can't be your wife. We live together. Point. Thats the point!" I cut Jimmy.

I felt so bad, I opened the car door. I then went out and left Jimmy.

Well, I walked a long way. Leaving the man alone. I just need my own 'me time.

Wanting to calm myself down, I just needed time to accept my situation.crying for a moment to get back up.

I chose to sit on the back of the park. There is a motor parking area and close to the house of worship.

I don't know why, every time I've been to. this place always gives me a sense of calm.

I bowed my head, I thought of the words that came out of Jimmy from morning.

Afternoon at the close with the man who became the girlfriend of mama. What day exactly?!

"one side I m happy, Mira is not a real rival.he even uda does not exist, but.the way Jimmy treats him? I'm also relieved, she's a real mom, but why are you acting so low! left us! oh my God. "I speak for myself.

"Is it wrong of me to find out if she's mom or not? Why is this so sick, God! it hurts, why doesn't he admit me.." I started crying.

"Are you ashamed to have a child like me? My physique is not as pretty as my mom ? Yep! shame, everyone is ashamed to have me. no one is proud of me...even...jimmy??" I still talk to myself.

"Mira.mira... Yep... It's just him in Jimmy's heart. How different Jimmy is from Michael! Same - same toying with me. Gave the wind of heaven, taking me flying. Then drop me to the ground! Stupid you Cathrine! You idiot!!!!" I hit my own head.

In my grief, I felt a figure pull me into his arms.

I was still crying in the stranger's arms. I just smell it, it's Jimmy's parfume.

I don't know how he got to me. I ran around so he wouldn't find me.

"sorry....... " Whisper Jimmy in my ear.

"Evil you! wasn't he!? i.ya I'm wrong Jimmy, I'm too laughing the same feeling of your kindness!" I retaliated.

"Shhh.... Calm yourself first.... " Jimmy hugged me tighter. He also kissed my forehead.

"I... I'm starting to love you, Jimmy! I'm stupid... I'm mistaken..... " I'm crying.

"Shhh.. The Cathrine.... It's been..... " Jimmy let go of his embrace.

He wiped my tears, stroked my cheeks. I dare not look him in the face, he even kissed me on the forehead.

"Look at me Cath... Pleases... " Jimmy persuaded.

I looked at him with careless eyes. He smiled at me, his face was grown. I was shaking and my heart was pounding.

"I love you, I love you too Cathrine...." Jimmy.

"What's? don't be so funny and please don't touch me. Or say it just because you fucked me.... " I brushed Jimmy off.

"No... No.... Honey.... Pleases.... I'm just not ready to take you to my parents. There are many things you don't know about me. Especially my trauma, I felt different when we first met. Do you remember?" Jimmy spoke softly.

"Collision Scene... " I answered while shaking my head. I forgot when I first saw it. As I recall, when I was filming with a collision scene.

"Not... You were sitting in front of a glass room. And only you dare to sit there. I was disturbed at the time, but.... It was different the first time I looked at you.A careless woman saw me on the set. You inget?" Ask Jimmy.

I'm trying to remember.I didn't even notice her presence on the set of Filming.how we met, all I remember was Mr. Teddy giving me the medicine when I fell on one of the Sceen.

"I forgot... I'd even get Teddy's first one I met." Polo answered.

"I still remember clearly, I saw you a few times. But, you never realize there are people who look from far away..... "Jimmy stroked my hair.

"Don't fight me, males..." I answered.

"I'm just honest Cathrine. About your mother, let you increase in days and ages. I will know why they did so. What is happening is also beyond your control.. Whatever it is, she's your mom.... About Mira, if you know....

huft.

also his status at that time, made my family hate him.... " Jimmy told a story.

" that's why, I want you to study hard. Let you work in good company. So I can take you home. Introducing you with pride, that my wife is an educated man. Good women - well, not adult artists or magazine models.... " Jimmy patted my hand.

"...... " I'm watching Jimmy.

"That's why, I won't take you home or make you an official wife. Before you work and become a scholar. Let time make us more familiar.. And.... When I read love from you...

honestly I was afraid to say it. The phrase Love in my country is in one sense.not an easy thing to say and then forget." explained Jimmy.

"i didn't call you, I was thinking of finding out, what really is the same feeling in my heart. I'm also not a guy who can easily say love.... "

"Sorry.." I said.

"by the way.the highlight of the best relationship is to forgive and succumb.thank you Cathrine." said Jimmy with a smile.

I just understood what happened to Jimmy, he loved so deeply that he was hurt deeply too.

"The point is, yes I love you. But I don't like to say love love love every day. You graduated college, you got a job, I took you to my family. And we live together like husbands and wives today... Understood?"

"Yes..... " I held back my smile and nodded my head.

"Why your face?" ask Jimmy.

"Pst... I'm ashamed.ah ah... " I'm moving away.

"Let's go home.... " Jimmy pulled me and took me home.

We walked together, he grabbed my shoulders. Giving me comfort, I just hope this doesn't end badly.

Suddenly a message came into my phone.

Tagged : cath. We'll see you tomorrow, too, Nicky. Dimall KG, not in the mall where I work.

Me : ok, but you're ngabarin Nicky yes. I have long been in contact. Diapartment also never met.

Inez: already, he was the first contact Iw. Seeyou's..

I put my phone on the table. I've been busy replying to Inez's messages. Didn't even realize it was in our unit.

"Who?" Ask Jimmy.

"Inez, tomorrow I'll meet at Mall KG. Deket anyway, ngangkot once already. " I'm relaxed.

"Would you like to be in Mr Teddy's anther?"

"Uhm... I don't know what the heck tomorrow is. If it's anther, I'm afraid of trouble... " Answer me.

Jimmy was busy with his work. Tomorrow's Monday, the day that all workers hate.

So did Jimmy, I don't know until what time he worked. I was tired and died sleeping first.

By morning, Jimmy was ready to leave. He even ate my sandwich without much talking.

He was too busy chasing the Monday morning traffic jam. I am busy with a world I do not understand.

*******

As usual, I came first on the appointment. I waited in front of the store that sold gelato.

I looked at the man and saw him in front of me. Before long I saw Jessy from far away.

I followed him in the back. I wondered where he was going, and Inez patted me on the shoulder.

"Eh.. Ngangetin ah!" I'm upset talking to inez.

"Ih, very Buk!" Inez.

"Pst.. I'm following me again. He was an artist, not the.. You must know him... " Answer.

I looked again at Jessy walking. Shit, it disappeared quickly.

"Well, did you.... Lo anyway!" I'm upset.

"Wait a minute, how important is that ? Sampa lo kudu found him.?" Inez asked.

"That's it, that's just that girl. How yes, between I have to be angry just as grateful... Thanks to him too, I met my boyfriend.. "

"Was... At least he had forgotten especially he was an artist.. " Inez replied.

All right, we're finally going together. We went to a cafe that was good enough to talk.

"Eh, where's Nicky? How come you haven't come?" I looked at the watch in hand.

"It should have been, he just said nelat... " Answer Inez.

"Eh, how are you? Same old one with a shop?" I'm talking to Inez's job.

"Lumayan, yeah.. I want to tell a story. Boss I tu abis lo back when that day came. Keep on meeting that guy.. Talk to the boss, who I met temen I know you... "

"Know where? I just saw him yesterday... " Answer.

"No.. He saw your picture, from boss gw." Inez.

"Deed.. Photo gw? Who does the boss have.. ? " I'm curious.

"Boss my name is Yofie, his wife who owns him in the shop. If the boss gw who is a lucky guy has a beautiful, rich, dead love again with him.. " Inez tells the spirit.

I was shocked and speechless, hearing Inez tell a story.

In my heart, there is a sense of tightness and weirdness. Why meet them again.

"Keep knowing? Cook it and bring it to the store. Or ngaturin boss I met lo. Crazy right?"

"Keep... Keep saying what? " I panicked and my heart beat irregularly.

"Yes I said.. I can't, boss I have a wife. I also have a story about having a husband.. " Answer Inez.

"Yes, you answer that... " I'm glad to hear it.

"Don't calm down.. I took it to Nicky.. What's going on with your boss gw?"

"Girls sorry late..... " Nicky came straight to sit between us.

"What - what, the same agreement young executives are difficult let alone many fans.. " Answer Inez.

"Jealous?" Nicky retaliated.

"Isa.. Pe-de-an... " Inez answered.

"Sorry, uda on the first pesen yes.. Bentar, lo story abis gw pesen.. " Nicky left us.

He went to the checkout and ordered some menus. He soon returned with his order.

"Well... Now continue.. I'm curious too... " Nicky said.

"Udah.? He is how he is.. Aunt kost's son first. Yep.. Um... We used to deket that.. Just not dating, she likes me. Just scared.... " I tried to cover up what happened.

"What really?" Ask Inez.

"Yes.. You see, Yofie's girlfriend is freaky.. I'm afraid of vows, the jealousy is outrageous. I even saw them fighting once. Take a kitchen knife... Hii, I'm afraid... " I'm telling you a story.

"But he knows? You're married?" Ask Nicky.

"Eh, I'm afraid I'm making merits the same time Jimmy. I live with Jimmy. But I married him... " I explained.

"Hmmm... So close... " Nicky answered me.

"Keep, Yofie's wedding I'll be with Jimmy. But ni.. But Jimmy was jealous of people. For some reason, if they meet surely the atmosphere is not good.. "

"jealous the same time Jimmy Yofie. "inez answered.

"either. I don't dare to think so much." I replied.

"uh but, you're well-paying right there?" Nicky asked Inez.

"that's what I want to tell the story.so, it can be said that boss I don't care what goods there are practices. I have not sold anything for a week.. " Inez answered.

"lah. lo should his seneng lah. tetep dapet money intact.it's new boss.. . " Nicky said as she ate the cake in front of her.

I just nodded.I actually avoided meeting or anything about Stacy. Moreover, she lost her mind about her romance with Yofie.