THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

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I woke up from my sleep and I saw Jimmy's clothes on a pile of dirty clothes.

'apparently Jimmy came home last night, but this morning he left. It's only 6:30.' I looked at the wall clock.

I took a shower and cleaned the apartment, today the Mbok did not come. I also practiced if one day I was married.

everything I do is fast, but the clock still shows at 8.

I chose to leave the course sooner.I still thought about Jimmy's reaction to me.

anything weird?

is something wrong?

I'm just trying to express a feeling or something in my heart. I reflexively hug him, just like Jimmy used to do to me.

Many people say that women are hard to understand...

But there's why it's Jimmy I find hard to understand...

I just want to make things easy...

I got to my cooking course, too.I thought my trip was faster, I went in and sat in one of the rooms.

Not long after, there were 2 people following me. Both of them looked at me.

One of them had a face similar to Michael's.

Just look alike.forget the guy...

I kept quiet and wrote obscure words and pictures on my notes, as I always did when I was in high school.

"Hallo... Gw Nicky's. Greetings... "

The man who resembled my mass reached out his hand beside me.

I greet and shake hands with him. "Gw Cathrine.salam knows it too... "

The man smiled at me, must that man be handsome?

I don't think.....

Pale face, sanguine eyes and lips and thin...

some of the girls in the room looked at Nicky with a smile of their own, but I just kept quiet and looked at her flat.

My taste for men must have been ruined because I met Jimmy too often.

"Lo nulis what? " Nicky started the conversation.he looked at the note on top of my note.

"Gw, nulis gaje (engga clear) only. It was still quiet..... " I answered without looking at him.

"Oh.. I think you got the materials first.... " Nicky's still trying to be friendly with me.

I just scratched my head. A sign of my answer to Nicky.

Then the woman sat beside me, she was a little tomboy with a mature brown skin.

"Hallo... Gw Inez's... Greetings yes... " The woman greeted us both..

"Gw nicky and this.. "

"Gw Cathrine.... Seneng there are more people coming.. " I answered cut Nicky.

Soon the Chef will be teaching in. Our classes began, indeed all started with the theory we first entered into the practice of cooking.

I try to focus and record the details of any cooking tool. Tools serve food and a little knowledge of food history.

At 11:30, our class was over. Chef Denny left us first.

"Gw first yes, byee.. See you tomorrow... " Inez left me first.

"Cath, who are you back with? Want me anterin? or maybe we can talk first.mau lunch first can also..." Nicky tried to get close.

"Gw walk, I live next to apt... By the way...Thank you Nicky maybe next time.... " Answer.

"Uh.. If tomorrow I want to, can you? Who do you live with there? let me first permit it..who knows I even know a lot of friends I also live next door..." Nicky was trying to find information about me.

"errr....Gw it....I'm the same guy... I want to go with you, yes... I'm asking what permission is... Yes, yes, my head is dizzy.. Yea..." I left Nicky alone in class.

It's not about feelings or I'm selling expensive. But I need to know myself.. I'm still tied to Jimmy.

Anyway, Papa knows that my current relationship is tied to Jimmy's.

I was thinking, why do women always seek shelter or security. For example, if a man is close or dating... It must be subconscious to fantasize us until marriage...

'eh, why I say stay with men I. I don't have any ties - what's the same Jimmy. ah, wrong I... I should just say it's the same sodara... stupid. ' I speak for myself and curse myself who speaks silly.

Thinking ahead of the obvious is uncertain.... A delusion? I don't want to live like that...

it should be at my age, I gather as many male friends as he does. So that one day I leave Jimmy's life..

but I thought again, Jimmy brought me to life. I have to succeed if I want to stay with him.

'ah... fucking mind I'm not so clear!'

********

"Ok, we're done for today. Thanks for the hard work... " Jimmy ended the meeting that afternoon.

He was busy cleaning up his files. Jean helps by tidying up chairs and other files.

"Do you want to eat here or not?" Jean opened the conversation.

"No...... " Jimmy answered briefly.

Jean nods her head, taut and brief every word Jimmy has become food for her.

He knows how the boss is. Jean is also a deft and clever secretary.

"Jean.. I want it... "

"Where sir... " Jean is approaching Jimmy.

"I was... Not a girl if she is in love.. Ouch.. That's not what I mean..." Jimmy had a hard time explaining how he felt..

"So, is there a wife problem?" Jean asked directly.

"Intensely, just me it's rich awkward fitting my wife started body touch to me... That's... Uh.. Do you know where I've been?"

Jimmy just realized where Jean knew about the wedding.

"Yes Heldy is my best friend, take care of my father's wedding file too.so I know the father of marriage "Jean answered.

"Oh... I forgot. You're the same Heldy... " Jimmy shut up and looked at his laptop again.

"In my opinion, the woman already instinctively likes in 'honey' through the touch of the sir.. In addition to the heart also through hugs. And it is natural that the father's wife is not the father's relationship should be like that..."

"So I really don't want him to have any feelings for me. Because one day I will leave him too. We'll split up... I'm afraid of hurting women.I don't want her to get hurt because of me....." Jimmy clenched his hand.

He made his heart have to numb to Cathrine. Mira's events should not be repeated. Enough to lose a loved one.

"Sir.. In my opinion, if he is indeed in line with the father.. As hard as you refuse, you can't...

Actually, I can see the eyes of the father differently if looking at the laptop screen. Sorry if I was sassy...

It turned out that when I approached, I saw a photo of the woman I knew as my father's wife... " Jean held back a laugh seeing Jimmy's expression.

Jimmy was silent, his eyeballs looking at the keyboard in front of him.

"Take it and be happy sir... You also have to be happy, you can see things that go on... Sorry if I offend, you should be happy... Excuse me first sir... " Jean left Jimmy alone.

He tried to keep his distance and feelings to Cathrine.

The more he tried, the more the shadow Cathrine appeared..

A smile with small dimples makes her look sweet. Cathrine innocence and purity of heart, like a big magnet what makes Jimmy lulled with Cathrine...

Jimmy is back on his job. He also needs to be able to keep professional. Do not let the marriage business be silent - this silence makes him forget to focus on his work.

"Jimmy, forget.. Contracts...After all go away and forget it!! Focus up!" Jimmy spoke for himself.

Jimmy then went out. He still has a lot of meetings and social events at curfew.

He immersed himself and his mind in his routine.

The evening party was held in the rooftop of one of the skyscrapers.The famous building was a party venue of the upper class.

Beautiful women with sexy clothes are scattered there.they dance and seduce the men who are present there.

it seems like a place of entertainment for striped nose men.Jimmy just wants to attend a party there.

Jimmy just looked at the bar from the corner of the table. Bored and Disgusted for him, but this is his colleague's birthday.where maybe he refused to come if he did not want this business completed.

He was bored but had to come that night. A sexy woman with red lipstick approaches Jimmy.

"I see you're alone...Want me to go with you?" Say it in a flirtatious tone.

"..... " Jimmy just threw away his face. Pura - Pura Jimmy did not hear.

"Don't be so cold, I can keep you warm for a long time.... " The woman began to dare approach Jimmy's hand.

"Leave me..boring! " Jimmy said sniff and left the woman.

the woman seems to have deliberately approached Jimmy.who sent her, but he did not give up on seducing Jimmy.

*********

I sat on the couch watching tv. I occasionally saw the clock on my phone.at 11pm, the weather was clear but there was no news..

I'm waiting for Jimmy to come home, no word from him all day.

Even the day was already heading towards midnight. The air outside is getting cold.

"Cook hasn't come home yet... " I'm talking to myself.

I then pressed the call to Jimmy's number.

The tone of the call I was hoping to turn into the hello voice of her.

"Well... Not being answered... Where is he.." I clasped my phone hoping there was a call from him.

I started to sit on my bed. I put my phone next to my bed.

The TV I left on with a small volume.

I lay down my body and tried to close my eyes.I waited for him until 2 a.m. Jimmy didn't come back, and no one got to my phone.

Before long I heard the sound of the door opening, followed by a black shadow coming inside.

I saw his path a little dashed. Is that jimmy? She drunk?

I hurried up and greeted towards the door...

That's right Jimmy, the smell stings alcohol. I've never come across it with a smell like this. To be honest, I didn't feel good at the time..

His face was red and his eyes were sharp on me. I just replied with a smile hoping he wouldn't scold me..

"You've come home... " I'm saying hello..

Jimmy came up to me, I felt nauseous with the smell coming out of Jimmy's mouth.

Sometimes I cough because of that smell.

"Inexpensive woman*n.... You think you deserve to be my wife? You think a woman j*la**like you deserve on my bed?" Jimmy's eyes were full of anger at me.

Yeah, his gaze was the same as the first time he touched me. The look of disgust and anger was frightening to me.

"Jim... Ye... You why... You're ngingo.don't gini Jimmy...." I retreated until I sat on the corner of the bed.

Jimmy approached and removed the belt and opened his shirt. He then squeezed both cheeks with his right hand.

"You're as cool as I let you up to my bed?! Cheap*n... Shh.."

I started shedding tears. Jimmy's words sounded so heart-wrenching. He never treated me like this.

Even harsh words I never heard.

Plaque..!

It was hot on my left cheek. It was so hard that I fell on the bed.

My eyes were also blurred. So hard and painful was my face.

I don't understand what else is going on. I just closed my eyes. Let him do it as he pleases.

Yes, maybe this is what I have to pay for my education and a decent life for my family. I finally know his heart..

That I am indeed a comfort woman and a woman like this....

this is not love and obviously he does not love me...

I woke up, my body was all sick. I'm looking for my nightgown.. Apparently it was in the corner of the bed.I picked it up..astaga.

I threw again my nightgown.I obviously can't use it anymore.

I saw Jimmy fall asleep without a single piece of clothing. I looked at her, for some reason it hurt when she called me that woman...

I stood up and headed for the bathroom. I left early that day trying to forget Jimmy's words and actions.

The water stifled my head and body slowly, I let it flow naturally...

I cleaned my whole body of what was happening. But the red marks on my left cheek I can't erase.

My whole life, my own father never slapped me like that..

My heart aches and it feels tight in my chest.May she not love me, but don't say that hurtful thing..

"Women ja*a**! Cheap*n" Those words echoed in my ears.

I heard someone like me turn on the TV. I know it's Jimmy, I have to see him.

I then came out of the bathroom. I looked towards our bed.

Jimmy was picking up my night dress that was broken by her.

Not a sexy evening dress, just a sleepless negligee. I don't even look at it at all if I wear it.

Jimmy looked at me in shock, like he didn't realize what happened last night. The gaze moved to my left face.This red mark was clearly visible in front of him.

I walked past him, took my dressing gown for the course..

I wanted to speak however, my tongue became stiff and I could not open both of my mouths.

I changed clothes and turned to look at Jimmy, he was still sitting on our bed.

I walked past him and took the bag. I didn't say anything, I opened the door and walked out.

but jimmy pulled me over and closed the door.

"let's talk for a second.... "