THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

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"Would you like to go home?" Jimmy opened.

he saw me who was pensive. In Jimmy's heart there was a desire to come with Cathrine.

"Actually I want to, but I don't know. I have to think about papa's medical expenses.... And the risk later too... " I answered while looking out.

The rain drops again, when the sky is clear at first. Maybe the universe knows, my feelings are not good.

Dutiful as a child, but what about Mama.he always did everything as he wanted.

it is still clear how my mother asked me for money, but my father had to buy medicine immediately.

there is a sense of trauma in me. What a married life is is indeed complicated.

or I don't have to get married, so I don't have to feel disappointed and be free to go on.

"What are the risks that might happen?" Ask Jimmy.

"Death.... " I answered straightforwardly.

For a moment we were silent, just a breath and the sound of car horns roaring.

it's true, death is what can happen. let alone Kidney papa has been problematic since I was a child.

complications bring papa to that much disease.

"Everyone will surely die Cathrine... But... How you fight to stay alive.. That's a rare thing I've met. which is clear I believe Papa you're a very loving person to his family...." Jimmy said while holding my cold hand.

The touch made me a little calm. I think I better listen to Jimmy a little bit.

After all, he must have had good intentions for me.

flattery or honest speech? I still can't tell the difference.

"Jimmy...can I go home?" I asked.

"certain.. Whynot? Should I order a ticket?" Jimmy enthusiastic.

I'm lazy to answer Jimmy's questions. I chose to put my head near the window.

"You're not pregnant, are you? Or want to get close to your period? you've been rich all day like sensitive gini..." Jimmy asked.

'He wondered why Cathrine's mood was like a roller coaster. Is there something wrong with him.' (Jimmy said in his heart).

"I've been taking the pills regularly. I also gave a date on when my period would come.... I'm just... Ah don't know me.... " I'm stomping my feet.

I feel angry and want to be angry. I want to be alone and scream for myself.

"Want to drink a little? alcohol can be soothing, Louise says...." Jimmy broke the silence.

"..... " I just glanced at him sharply.

"Good..... Let's just go home..... Stop glancing like that.. I'm afraid to see it..."

Then I put my head back on the window. See the streets are still crowded with night flickering lights.

*******

"So, am I coming down here?" Jessy saw the distance of the cafe is still a bit far.Rain water is also still quite heavy.

"Yes, I love watching from afar. Get down and use that umbrella.... " Budden said casually.

"But it's raining and there's a puddle there!" Jessy's upset.

"Have come down, don't be spoiled! I'll wait for you here with the driver.... " Budiawan doesn't want people to see his presence.

Jessy came down with an annoyed face. He opened the umbrella and started walking quickly.

rain water dripped down his feet.

He approached the cafe he had once been with Adam.

Seeing the same table as the first one he dated Adam.

sweet memories long before Jessy knew Budiawan.

Adam found out there was Jessy, he waved. Signal for Jessy to come in.

Jessy smiled back and she went inside.

There are some people who are already queuing up there. There are some artists who are used to bringing talk shows and there are also new artists.

"You're Casting?" Ask the woman at the counter table.

Jessy has not been able to answer already no one answered her.

"Isn't he an artist with a busy schedule? Still coming here... " Say the man with the skinny stature.

"Yes, rich people can't find other rich people. Participation in the casting of cheap events gini.he said uda dapet men tajir.... " Say another woman.

Jessy's face was upset, she wanted to tear the person's mouth apart. But he saw Adam there, sitting in the main seat.

"When you want to cast? Reluctant right? The gw file.... " Jessy gave to the place of the female guard counter registration.

Jessy also chose to sit in the corner of the room. He took the Cosmo magazine that was in front of him. Casting actually started as well.

Time keeps turning, name by name in the dial according to the queue. A cup of coffee accompanies Jessy to kill time.

He was patient waiting for his turn. Either that time he didn't want to sulk or leave. He still thinks he can meet Jimmy.

"Jessica Yong's..... " His name was called.

He immediately stood up, tidied up his clothes and headed towards the Casting committee.

"OK sit there. Read this scrip, I'll answer." Said the man of childish stature in front of Jessy.

He sat down and took the manuscript in front of him. He skimmed, 'ah this is easy for me'. Jessy said in her heart.

"OK we start... Cameras... Roll.. Action!" Adam says.

"Hello, how are you? Long time no see ya. rumpik yes, really big cucok now... " Jessy improvised the dialogue.

"Cuts!!! What about improv!" The fertile man was angry at Jessy. His eyes were glaring and his face was getting more and more terrifying.

"I'm sorry.... Excuse me... L am... " Jessy answered.

"Gw says! Read the scrip! It's really this guy. It's amazing I can't handle the command correctly ... Again you are wrong... Go home!"

Her words sounded harsh, and only then did Jessy hear. He was always praised by everyone. But the universe is starting to reverse.

Jessy continued, The fertile man helped answer during the casting question-answer.

Adam and the man are less fond of Jessy. The results are not what they want.

"So? Can I know the outcome? Escape no... " Jessy said and looked at the two appraisers.

"Let's hear about getting away. If there is news that failed... " The fertile man stood up and left Jessy.

Adam was silent and stood up from his chair. He took his phone and backpack, he left the chair.

Jessy goes after Adam, she pulls Adam's hand.

"Wait.... Can we have a chat?" Jessy whispers.

Adam just shut up and sighed. He sat in one corner of the room.

"What did you say? Last night, you must have been waiting... " Say Adam cold.

"Gw knows, I didn't get away.... I just want to talk to you..."

"Gw understand, you keep coming to see Jimmy right. I already know your purpose, not far from money and hedonists.. " Adam answered cynically.

"At first it was true... But pas gw sampe.... First time I wanted to go on a date. Yes here, first we go.... " Jessy smiled as she recalled what happened a few months ago.

"You're not wrong, you've never been to. Lncan sama gw. You yourself said.... We don't know each other...

Didn't you?" Answer Adam.

"Gw wrong... I was too scared and had to tell a lie.. Sorry I did... " Jessy's sorry.

He had to lie to get close to Budiawan. To get a job as a new artist.

"Hand why? That blue sampe... Play movies? Are you guys playing rough.... " Jan asked.

Adam's heart was the same. He still loves Jessy, but is ill because of her still being impregnated.

It made her annoyed to see the woman before her.

"Oh this... " Jessy pulled up her sleeve. He wished he could cover the bruises on his hands.

"Gw don't care if you want to date a model. But violence in relationships is not good Jess..."

"Yes, I have no papa... " Jessy's still trying to cover up reality.

How Budiawan treats himself. The rough ones come out when they're together.

If Budiawan feels dislike, he will immediately treat Jessy like a doll.

That's why Jessy must always submit and pretend to be sweet. If not, his life could be lost.

"How does it feel now? A lot of people know you, your face is always on tv. Maybe your parents are proud of this girl.... " Adam tried to stir up the conversation.

"Yes, they are proud and happy. I still can't believe it, I'm in the position now... Sometimes, I want to go back to the past...."

"Don't be a hypocrite Jess... I know and want you to run away from home. I think you are happy with your life now...

Living in a nice and expensive apartment. Lo has a girlfriend is also well established and famous, her business is a lot..

You're on tv every day, less what?"

Jessy wanted to say, she's not happy. In fact, he sometimes sees Cathrine's life as much more enjoyable.

"........ " Jessy just smiled.

"Lo must be aware, too, that all things will be eternal... I also believe, you have started to get bored with your girlfriend now....

Ah it's 8 o'clock. I'll go back, I have to do another job..." Adam got up from his chair.

"Wait.... Actually, what are you here for? Why do you look more powerful than the man.?" Jessy looked at Adam.

"Gw director for this program. Oh yeah, one more, I'm going to pesen.. Don't expect Jimmy too much....

Especially if you come here because of him.... Because you're not her type at all... I'm going back... Yea... "

Adam just left Jessy.

Jessy still silently looked at the glass in front of her. He was looking for Jimmy at first.

But this place caught his attention more.

Apparently, the thing he had been through with Adam. It can make him feel loved.

A small cafe, a tent stall and sitting on a garden chair. A small part of what Jessy spent with Adam.

He felt silly and stupid. Leaving a man as good and sincere as Adam..

Jessy is now living with a mysterious man. The man who initially spoils Jessy. However, this is precisely the bombardment for him.

"That's Jess... You can't look back. You have to move forward! " Jessy spoke for herself.

He motivated himself to go forward and stop looking at the massalu!

He stood up and walked out of the cafe. The weather is brighter. He took the umbrella from his place.

There was a small piece of paper near the umbrella. Jessy picked it up and read it.

Jes... You can go back to the past. But you can still improve your future.

Go to Head! -AA-A

Jessy smiled, her heart feeling extremely flowery. He felt that there were still people who loved him.

Jessy folded and kept the paper. Then he walked to Budiawan's car.

He got into a black car. Budiawan was waiting for him while reading the newspaper.

"I'm back, baby... " Say Jessy while putting an umbrella under her.

"For a long time, casting or arisan?" Ask Budiawan flatly.

"I'm queuing up a lot, baby. You saw that.... "

"........ " Budiawan just kept quiet, he folded the newspaper and put it next to him.

"You angry, baby? Sorry yaa.... " Jessy is trying to seduce her lover.

"Here you go, let's eat and go home. Street Sir!"

The car also stayed away from the cafe. They went away and disappeared. Without them knowing Adam was paying attention.

Of love? Complicated and circumstances make Adam can not let go of Jessy.

let go of Jessy to get an established man.well, that's exactly what Adam thought.

assistant director's erratic job.the butut bike he uses for work.as well as a far from decent plot boarding for a girl as beautiful as Jessy.

"i didn't want to tie you up in the first place. Because I'm sober... Love does not have to have you....

You should be happy Jess...... " Any talking to himself.

*********

I changed into a black shirt. I didn't see Jimmy, so I walked to the porch.

Apparently Jimmy washes my nightgowns and some of my clothes. The clothes we just bought.

He looked at me, then he laughed and his face was red. Seeing her like that made me smile.

Jimmy then went inside, I waited on the sofa while relaxing.

Jimmy took a canned drink from the fridge.

He then walked towards me, sitting beside me. His hand gave me one of the drinks.

"This is sparkling Cath... It tastes like soda.. Not beer... " Jimmy explained.

"Thank You's.... " I accepted and opened it.

The smell of grapes is smelled when the can is open. I inhaled the smell and immediately tried.

"It's good Jimmy.... " I taste this drink very good.

"Yes, I prefer the taste of lychee fruit but. Wanna try?" Jimmy gave me the can.

We exchanged, somewhat sour-tasting Jimmy drinks. I thought it would be sweet like the syrup on the market.

"It feels a bit sour... " I said.

"Indeed and that's what I like. Sweet and sour Leci fruit... "

I took my drink cans.

Jimmy took the tv remote. he pressed the power button to turn on the tv. tv show was quite boring, until Jimmy stopped on one show.

he put the remote on the table and Jimmy approached me.

my heart skipped a beat, was going to do what Jimmy did this time.I felt tense and short of breath.

I shifted backwards, I half avoided Jimmy. I thought, he would do mes*m to me.

but I also wonder what he wants to do.

"you why? how tense?" Jimmy teases.

"ih.. what the heck.engga is ordinary.... "

"you're tense, both are equally handsome men... " Jimmy said confidently.

"idihhh.