The Injured Heart.

part 84's

This life does not always go well. Sometimes we are in bad times, at the lowest point, even to the point that we feel we are alone in the world.

But believe me black clouds in the sky is not always bad, sometimes heavy rain can flutter everything there is. Although sometimes the storm is also able to destroy our condition. But there is a rainbow that is ready to color after, making anyone will be fascinated by the beauty, as well as our lives.

  Just like that my journey to find my happiness was not easy either. I Zahira Al Mahyra have already tasted the bitterness of life.

When all the people closest to us feel we are gone, we only feel alone in this world.

  I have learned so much from the bitterness of wishing on man, and also learned when this fragile heart is wounded, that this wounded heart wanders in search of a cure.

In the end my wounds did not heal if I only sought busyness and opened my heart, because I realized I also had to forgive myself which also made me feel the wound in my heart.

When I began to have a companion, when in the end my heart was sure to choose a man to accompany my journey. That doesn't mean everything's okay. It turned out that the more bitter thing I felt, was even more painful than before.

Fahrul Razi Elkaady the man who ended up being my husband, but I forgot one thing when I got married I didn't say that I was a writer he admired. And it made him very disappointed because to him I was not honest.

My heart was hurt, so hurt, that I felt unable to answer every question Razi said, because I realized I was wrong. However, Razi was also wrong because he just left me who was pregnant, especially my grandmother died at that time.

It's broken, that's how I feel. It hurts so much when our loved ones leave, I feel incapable of living my life.

But I realized that no matter what I had to go on with my life, I had to live my life even alone, especially when I was pregnant, plus my company is experiencing losses due to a project incident that collapsed.

Time can change everything, time can determine everything, and within five months I was like a wife who left her husband while pregnant. There was no news, no phone call or anything about Razi, until I finally realized that my marriage was on the edge, with full thought I decided to file for divorce.

  Although loving, if only one person struggles to maintain a relationship, what does it mean to fight? Although I was wrong for being dishonest, Razi was also wrong for leaving.

  In the end when Razi came back we decided to end our marriage even though he realized that he was wrong for not trying to contact me and tell me, because the place he worked there was no signal.

  We love each other, but I feel hurt enough, I don't want to always get hurt especially when the news on TV says I'm a bad wife, and it makes me very shaken, and I'm getting separated even though I have to raise my son alone.

But in the end I realized, here is wrong not only Razi, but I also went wrong. I realized that I should not be selfish by thinking only of myself, because in this case not only am I the one who is hurt, but Razi as well. I also have to think about the fate of the baby I'm carrying, especially our new marriage for corn.

In the end I chose to stay in my marriage, and stay together for the baby I was carrying, and also for what was ingrained in my heart, for her.

  Sometimes we are too selfish to think only of our desires. We can go wrong even though our hearts feel very confident that our decisions, and our desires are right.

Sometimes our hearts are too indifferent to the opinions of others, because sometimes their opinions are like a passing wind. 

And this time I will be more careful in the future, so that whatever I do does not make my heart hurt.

I've learned a lot from everything I've been through, though I won't always be happy, but I'm happy because today my life feels complete.

  My journey will probably not stop here, because there will definitely be trials back later, but I am ready to face it because today I am not alone.

Now I have a husband, and also a beautiful princess.

"Razi, let me carry my bangs!" fakhira shouted at Razi who was holding Nadine.

"No, my son could break a bone later if you're the one who's fat"

Fakhira seemed to pout at Razi's words.

"Razi, you have the heart." said Fakhira.

His eyes began to look teary looking like he wanted to cry.

"Mas.... Razi can't take me with Nadine"

Fakhira looked at Nadine with teary eyes, while Zain was only able to hug his wife affectionately.

Last month Fakhira was declared positive pregnant, and since then Fakhira who was initially very takotan now become very sensitive, even Zain to his own dizziness because his wife was very easy to cry

"Raz..., please let my wife carry your child, you don't see my wife is crying" Zain pleaded with Razi.

Razi clucked up to see Fakhira's face, Somehow his wife's cousin was so sensitive since she was pregnant, whether Zahira when pregnant used to be so thought.

With a half-forced face, Razi finally relented, and let Fakhira carry her daughter.

"Be careful" her rank.

Fakhira immediately smiled widely and held baby Zahira so carefully.

Razi decided to sit down with Zahira.

"Ra."." call her.

"Yes." said Zahira.

"Are you happy? " ask Razi.

  Zahira smiled at Razi's question, then leaned her head on Razi's shoulder.

"I'm happy, and hopefully we'll be happy forever. "

    The end's.